It has been a busy week sia... fun filled and excitement and tiring... wahaha.. now i'm juz like a zombie... n need to sleep.... but when can i really fully recover all my sleep?? wahahaa...

here's my whole week...

22nd Dec
i decided to bake a bdae cake for HJM, so went to buy ingredients after work. at 1st tot no one acc me... so get JX come out acc me... who noes end up my colleague oso wanna join coz she oso wanna bake cake. Go out with JX very gd de.. auto will help u take things de... so i think guys with elder sis are really gd de lor.. they noe wat they shld do... wahaha... but then again... jason and weekeong oso dun have sis lor.. but they really noe how to take care of girls lor... mommy say.. 'gentleman' comes naturally in a guy.. be it he is a young boy or a man... so i cant juz help someone to give an excuse for his ungentlemanly act as coz he is still young... mommy say, 'look at jason, wee keong and JX, 3 of them younger than him leh.. (ok... she has someone in her mind tt she feels tt he is a lousy guy)... so can u still tell me coz he is young?' then i gt nth to say le.. wahaha...

Anyway, i reached home.. rot and wait for cheryl and yh to come.. by the tme both reached my hse.. n we start to bake cake... both come coz wanna see how to bake cake... then we tok, baked.. till 4am... n create a mess in my kitchen...

yh went back home after helping me clear up.... cheryl slept on my sofa...


the left over.. after decorating the main cake...

23rd Dec

slept till quite late... rot whole day at home with xian... then went ktv at night with HJM.. tt HJM... happily sleep till 4get my appointment with him... call him never picked up... i dunno to be angry or to be worried sia.. xian said if he is a gd fren... then be angry... if he is ur bf... then be worried... wahaha... anyway, coz the cake quite ugly.. so i made him come my hse n eat cake.. i refuse to bring it out... wahaha... then he has to come lor..
this is how the cake looks...

he waited for my parents to come home to bring him sth to eat.. then eat his cake.. then acc me, no shld say wait for me to finish watching saiyuki relaod 1st... b4 driving him back.. n tt was already 2am... come back home already 3am... i was online chatting till 5 am...

24th Dec

Slept till 11, then rot... then went shopping last min in junction 8 to get the necessary xmas gift and huijing's present.. get a thomas the train white board for bing bing... i already bought a game CD-rom for dylson le... then went big aunt hse... give the gift... rot till yx willing to come out... then go changi for huijing's chalet... abt 10 sth.. my bro 'gay frens' all come le.. we bbq.. suan each other.. then at 0000.. we cut cake... her bdae falls on 25th Dec... we got her a big powerpuff girls cake... n think she love it... did she? wahaha.. dunno... nice?

anyway mommy was scolding me.. say 21st yr old i go buy cartoon cake... but the thing is tt... u like tt cartoon.. no matter how old u still glad to see sth de mah... wahaha then we sit there play black jack till 5am.. slept at 6.. i think...

25th Dec
Merry Xmas... woke up at 8... coz tyx need to go for tuition... we made our way back.. tyx go tuition.. i go home sleep.. but dunno y.. i only slept for an hr or so.. then wake up liao.. juz lie in bed.. nth to do...
evening... went airport fetch yt.. my darling is back for gd le!!! wahaha... excited lor... my dad oso excited sia.. call me and ask me 'kidnapped' her down to his stall.. wahaha... then again... drag.. rot..chat... by the time i sleep was already 2am.. and i got work next day!!!

then rest of the week.. i slept at ard 2 am lor.. so whole week really like zombie... then realise one whole week no see yp.. finally... last night met her for dinner.. whahaa... one whole week no meet.. coz she change job.. no see her online..

my this weekend is filled with programmes again.. n hopefully i get enough sleep.. wahaha...

Juz came back from camp... 15 Dec - 17 Dec 2006 is our yearly mentoring camp.. got new mentors join in and of coz old mentors went crazy.. we had our fun times, exciting times, heart warming times, angry times, and of coz.. scary times... lotsa things lor... typed one whole day oso cannot finish.. on the whole... quite enjoy the camp... coz love to cook for whole lot of ppl.. then oso like to take care of ppl... wahaha... esp when i have to take care of my 'big kids' such as jason, wee keong, jian xing and yanxin... wahaha... overall.. camp was... smooth sailing.. wahaha..

Tues, went to Tampanies safra for dinner... then go TM shop. Saw my doraemon cup again.. really wanna buy.. but.... when i was still there thinking of buy or nt to buy... my nice bro bought it for me le... so good hor...he say he wanted me to buy sth tt is over 70 bucks de... dun mind buying me tt doraemon... tt cup cost only $7.90 lor.. so kind of bro... wahaha


Went watch movie juz nw with JX... I FOUND A HORROR MOVIE KAKI le!!! finally!! wahaha... cool lor... got ppl acc me watch horror movie le.. no need jm drag himself go liao lor.. wahaha... we watched 'Cinderella' the korean horror movie on plastic surgery de.. nt bad lah... hee

change my blog song to 183 de song.. their new album de song... though their album out for quite sometime... recently then i really go listen lor.. then fall in love with this song '为你征服全世界' .. is very nice... the melody like olden english song... nice nnice... wahaha

183club -为你征服全世界

忘了他 我说
真的不值得你难过
越忘记 从前的你快乐而且自信
就像是夜晚 你红着腮
连笑起来都是那么自然
迷人的双唇和眼神 如今却不在

就算有天他不在你身边 请你记得曾经的少年
因为那是独一无二的美 可以为你征服全世界

睡了吗 沉睡的你如此beautiful
忘了他 彻彻底底不再为他痴狂
我是这么乖 像个小孩
静静做着功课等着你的回来
你会带个糖果给我 谢谢你的爱

当你的心一点点地打开 让我还有资格去比赛
难免受伤难免有些遗憾 至少有天爱你会明白
我希望你会记在心里 你永远都是那么地美
不管对爱多失望 没忘记你是谁

don't you don't you lost my words no baby
你的背影胜过全世界 情给情的包是你的笑颜 可以为你征服全世界
把你的心一点点地打开相信 有天你一定会明白

睡了吗 沉睡的
你如此beautiful

Yesterday, went Junction 8 shopping. Mr Ben lah... ppl now is car salesman, then must wear nice nice.. can go out see ppl de.. and say need cuff links... n guess who paid? ME!!! we spent $95+ for his belt and cuff links... to think tt i only wanna pay for his cuff links... he lah... haiz.. my BROTHER!!! good rite??

Belt and Cuff Links ($95)


Cuff Links ($63+)


Belt ($31+)

Then went shopping... leather slippers got buy 2 get 1 free... so.. me, yanxin and huijing each bought a pair lor..

guess which is mine, which is tyx? hee...

Then saw a big doraemon cup... tall tall de.. with cover and spoon.. cost $9.90... but still thinking to buy anot.. haha...

Next 2 weeks will be a very bz week sia... 1st going for mentoring camp frm 15th - 17th... really looking forward.. then 22nd baking cake, 23rd meet jm, 24th go huijing chalet celebrate her bdae till 25th.. wahaha...

I'm free! free from tuition le.. wahaha.. quitted tuition center de job le.. coz very sianz.. dun wanna teach le... nw only got 2 pte tuitions.. enough le.. wahaha..

a week passed.. all the guys POP le..my life.. still the same lor.. work, sleep, work, sleep.. boss go china today.. next whole week wun be back.. then bryan (boss kid) came office these few days... then always come 'bully' me.. see!!! a 3 yr old oso bully me.. sad rite.. wahaha..

i got a surprise.. pleasant or not.. i dunno... he is back. he come find me.. as expected coz wanted sth... haiz... how shld i feel? how shld i response? haiz.. suan liao suan liao.. dun think dun care..

btw, my bro - ben starts selling cars.. 2nd hand or parallel import. Interested can contact him at 92778681 . Let him give u best service.. wahaha...

It's a long time since i last update wo. coz no mood... or shld i say lazy.. sianz lor.. coz every night come back so late le.. then watch tv, bathe.. then can prepare go sleep le. suddenly feel tt old liao.. coz by 0000 will feel damn tired.. then wanna sleep... cannot tahan till 1 or 2 le.. wahaha.. partly oso coz every night read book.. then lazy to come online.

I've quitted my tuition centre job.. so now only teaching pte tuition.. 2 nights nia.. not tt taxing le... ermm.. i mean more time to go out le.. wahaha.... nw sat n sun.. can see me at home everyday.. haha.. coz nth to do.. no one acc me out mah.. so might as well.. stay at home.. save money.. wahaha...

Have been reading chinese novels again.. then came across sth very meaningful... 《思念不只三天两夜》by 深雾
this is not novel.. is short stories... each story is a touching, sweet, yet sad de love story..and make ppl think it is closely related to reality.

“只要我还是想着你，不论是春夏秋冬，也都是四年的季节”
“当你自以为已经成功摆脱四年的时候，它已经偷偷从生活的细节中入手，慢慢，慢慢的进占你的每一天。”
“因为寂寞，所以想你。但是，我发觉，我越想你，就越寂寞。”
I love this: “到了今天，我已经不知道，我是因为寂寞而想念你，还是因为想念你而感到寂寞。”
dunno y.. when i saw tt phrase... i fall in love with it... mayb coz is closely related to me? haha.. dunno...

Was at JE tt day... a place i didnt go for a looooong time.. ever since i graduated? in fact, i didnt go the west side (including west mall, JP, JE) ever since i left SP... or mayb earlier... y... juz dun feel like going lor... mayb subconciously.. i dun wanna go there ba.. unless meeting yp they all.. i rarely go there le.. every corner there reminds me of lotsa things.. esp bukit batok and je mrt stat.

If i say i've forgotten everything... 我是在骗人，也在骗我自己吧。毕竟那是一段难忘的回忆。也许我真的忘了他的样子（说真的，他在我脑海里的样子真的很模糊了。），但那感觉仍然存在着，那温暖，让我觉得现在很冷。

好多时候，我以为其实那些是不久前发生的，仔细一想才发现已过了两、三年了。我们算是选择性的失去联络，只能在此说：“好好照顾自己”

today went sing again. this time with yp, wy, ly... hahhaa... when i say i wanna go out. my mom ask me.. 'with ur china guys again ar?? i told u how many times dun be so close with them y u dun listen?' haiz.. this is my mom...

anyway, yp facing such a big prob.. n of coz with her character. i dun think she able to tahan... haiz... poor thing rite?? cry everytime tok abt work... softer than me sia... as i say le... i nt flooder le... i learnt to be stronger... NO TEARS... whahaaha...

as for my work here.. suddenly very bz.. got alot of things to do lor... work for almost 9 mths le... very fast.. n started to hate boss.. hate the sight of my boss... wahaha... but wat to do.. he gimme salary de... so have to tolerate all his suaning... and insults... well.. i realise tt work in here... really muz be strong sia.. or else... boss say one thing jiu break down.. i think i've briken down dunno how many times le... i'm lucky to have lady boss behind me and of coz my china guys.. wahaha...

ppl are worried abt me.. coz i too close with my china guys... particularly OFM!! whahaa... yx even come ask me he got chance mah.. well.... i learnt NEVER say NEVER.. so... nobody noes wat will happen..if he got chacne... muz depends on how much he willing to sacrifice lor.. wahaha.. say as if real... he hates SG.. i dun like CN.. so quite hard lah... wahaha...

i only fa hua chi nia.. coz he is cool, funny.. he is cute and strong... he noe how to tok... and most imptly... he is someone to lean on.. when i really tired emtionally or physically.. though he dun understand wat i vexing over... ahaa.. but dun worry.. once bitten twice shy... i wun be like wat happened two yrs ago.. i will try my best nt to let history repeat itself...

Came back from a whole day of fun with my china guys!!! haha... well, quite enjoy day!! ly, yp and wy came to my cwp today.. then asked me wanna join them mah... of coz i cant.. i meeting the guys mah... who noes... thye say i zhong se qing you... wah... my pretty ladies...my theory is 1st come 1st serve lah.. wahaha.. next time advance booking... wahahaa... :p

1st, went to Tampanies Mall eat international buffet with FeiMin, Chen Ping and Chun Chen. The Pariss in TM had changed to FamilyInternational buffet and the price is cut half lor. Today os $22++ for lunch. The spread is not bad.... though still like sakura.. wahahaa.. coz the cake selection too little.. wahaha.. ok.. i'm crazy.. spend so much go eat cakes... Chen ping siao de... go eat so many oyster.. i wondering if he stomach can take it anot... wahaha... then feimin say he wanna try.... then after the 3rd one... he gave up.. he hates the taste... n YUCKS!!! wahahaa...

Then after tt we came back to wdl.. then FM say wanna go sing song.. he treat.. then we went sang for 4 hrs lor.. chun chen left to chinatown to send money back to china. me, chen ping and feimin went back wdl, met up with shen tong and wei dian(a xiao shuai ge) to go sing song. in there we went abit crazy.. n me listening to their china singers and songs... wahahaha... omg!!!! but still quite interesting lor...

tt FM... kept on disturbing me.. when i singing... he wld take a cracker and wanna feed me.. make me always no sing properly.. then say he treat me so gd... then i still heck him....*bish*
one thing is tt they smoke in the room lah... feimin and chen ping.... tt time went ktv with them.. i set a rule for them cannot smoke... this time they treat.. i no say.. haiz.. then fei min still can smile.. and say.. wei qu ni zhe ji ge xiao shi ba.. *faint*...

sometime m wondering... r we consider frens? or wat? we may seems close... but how much things he say is thr truth? and r we juz using each other?? well.. can i juz dun think so much... and enjoy the attention he showering me... and oso the care.. the fun.. the... everything he giving me? hahaah. dunno dun care...juz hope tt i will not fall too deep inside.. wahahaha....

DAMN!! Idiot!! DAMN DL!! stupid!

Today had a meeting, coz nw is peak season of my company...good lor.. solve all prob once and for all... then guess wat?! my boss is juz a TYPICAL MAN!!! TMD!! blame everyone else except himself!

1st, packaging - due to canda prob.. coz ANG MOs kia si, so dun wanna us put NON-Dairy creamer coz in there might have milk or milk pdts... is a big allergen... i agree.. so end up, our pdt are being recalled.. n need to change the packaging coz non dairy creamer is not exceptable.. ok.. good.. i changed.. when the artwork design is almost ready.. can burn to CD and let printer print.. he wanna change sth else.. so the printing has to wait again.... then when already things are almost done... he wanna add in sth else... GREAT!!! he juz cant make up his mind!!! then nw the pdtn need packaging.. but we dun even has the artwork fixed!! he blame me n my purchaser for nt chasing the suppliers!!! kaoz.. 1st our suppliers nt only helping us do design nia leh.. 2nd.. who are the ones kana curse by suppliers!!!??? n he blame us nt chasing them to be faster?! wat the !!! kaoz!!!!

nvm... then raw materials come in, they will have a pdt specs... n certificate of analysis... meaning the microbial content and the moisture content of tt particular batch... all along - even b4 i joined the company, there is NO SUCH THING as taking the raw material to test n see if the supplier gave the correct figures mah... he ask me how coem i didnt test the moisture of the raw material... i told him got COA.. he juz asked, 'u thrust ur suppliers ar? these things i need to tell u mah?? 你读书读到哪里去？' TMD!! the company DID NOT HAVE such practice.. n NO ONE TELL me is required!! and even if my sch got teach me CANNOT thrust suppliers, how i noe if the company got this practice anot!? WHEN NO ONE EVER TELL ME!!!!! BLAME ME! kaoz!!
if i make my own decision, he will say.. bu ya zi yi wei shi!! TMD then wat he want!?

Juz fed up.. juz nw really wanna shoot back him de... but my 'rice bowl' at stake... haiz.. suan liao... ren!!!! wait... till juz one fine day...

说女人难搞，我说中年男人更难搞！！！！！

吃饱没事做就再看一些以前的照片。发现了我和彦婷都蛮喜欢的一张照片。当时我们一起去泰国，就在一个瀑布，我，娴和婷就想一瀑布为布景合照。谁知，我妹，欣就非常好玩地坐在我们前面。照片冲洗出来时，我们三个竟然成了背景，欣成了主角。这张照片真的让我们笑了好久。这是好久以前的事。现在，人、事、物都变了。让我真的觉得好无奈，这世界没有不变的事，变得让我束手无策。
当时的我们，真的好开心。好想好想那一段日子。

偶然的情况下，我发现了去年我们为娴而制作的短篇。那是为了庆祝她的21岁生日。很快的，一年过去了。一年内，发生的事好多。多到我真的好没力再去管任何事，没力再面对任何突如其来的事。

一年前，我、娴、婷还是那么的亲近。即使婷身在远方，我们都不会感觉有距离。后来，娴选择性的远离我们。我们再也不知彼此的行踪，也不知彼此过得好不好。更不知彼此在想什么。为什么变成这样？我一直都在问我自己，可是我真的真的不知道答案。 我真的希望她会爱她自己，懂得更珍惜自己。

只能希望婷回来后，我们又能回到从前。那个什么东西、什么问题都会提出来的我们。

It's quite some time since i last appear. Anyway, whole week had been tiring.. coz Asmine going off to Korea for exhibition, then alot of things she gotta settle 1st lor.. n most of her stuff i'm doing lor.. wahaha... then we got the 2 main segments for our show.. so have to run up n down frm mediacorp. very interesting but TIRING.. haha...

anyway, for yx's bdae.. i wanted to buy a neckace for her... a white gold de.. so i went to citigems.. who noe the sales person intro me a pendant.. got little crushed diamonds in it de.. n was on sale.. i love it very much... end up.. i spend money again lor... to get tt set. necklace for yx.. n pendant for me.. wahaha... (ok.. we can share if she want) the whole set cost $176. Jm kept shaking his head.. haha.. coz i keep spending... haha.. he say i need to learn how to save.. hee...




btw, he is back le.. FINALLY!! but... he was being shifted to night shift.. haiz.. sadz rite?? well... suan liao lor... anyway, as promised... he really got me a tortoise lor.. cute cute de... then i put on my office desk.. but of coz will bring it back if i'll be away for long... coz scare ppl go take and hide it.. hahaa...




Hopefully he will be transferred back by next week.. hee.. got alot to tell him sia... thru sms very ex.. wahahaha... :p

It is almost lunch time soon.. bosses in meeting... so nw can tou lan abit... wahaha... ok..i everyday oso rotting. hee... anyway, yesterday is tyx bdae.. and went to eat till very full lor.. ala carte(dunno how to spell) buffet mah.. at Dragon Gate Restaurant. Food not bad..but i not really a big fan of Chinese food mah...

Last night i recieved a sms.. he sms!!! he didnt 4get me...wahaha.. he gave me his no. and also ask me if i m ok?... i told him wat had happen.. he said he was still thinking of lengthen his stay.. i tell him impossible.. coz here really cant tahan le... and of coz.. me n CP will sure die sia.. if he dun come back soon.. wahaha... he then back to his hao lian style.. say 'Jiu zhi dao mei you wo bu xing' haha...

siao liao...yp say wo zhuang dao ta le... my mei say wo zhuang dao hei qing le.. wahaha..

I very very de sian... nw working.. counting down the time to off work... Time passed so slowly these 2 days...

He left le... for 3 whole weeks cant see him... didnt noe time is so diffcult to pass w/o him. Maybe coz is juz the beginning, will slowly use to not seeing him ba...

every little thing will remind me of him... didnt noe he got such a great impact... oh no... jia lat.. me n CP r nw like drug addict w/o drug... hahaa.. he oso sian, i oso sian... i think he misses him more than i miss him ba... wahahaa... yet CP kept denying.. he say coz he scare i'll 4get him after 3 weeks.. so wanna kept reminding me of him.. haha...

both of us are waiting for his call.. jia lat sia.. one week haven finish.. we already sian half le.. dunno how to survive till he come back.. wahaha.....

Siao liao......

3 days 2 nights de chalet over le. This is the 1st chalet i went to tt i can sleep so well. y? coz 1st not many ppl... so i got the whole bed to myself, second i can sleep till 1200 coz nth to do.

Actually oso the most sian de chalet ba.. i was damn DL! 3 days 2 nights, organised coz the guys going into NS le, then they say wanna a gathering... at 1st wanna go Genting then end up working de cant get leave, got gf de, gf dun allow to go. so i suggest chalet. everyone agreed de lor.

so me n yp went ahead with the planning and then i was really looking fwd lor. guess wat when the date is near, one say no overnight, the other say can only come on sat and lotsa excuses. well... i REN!!

i organise de... so of coz i gotta go no matter wat lor. i took off frm my tuition then go there immediately after work. me n yp... were staying overnight on the 1st night nia lor. though end up yh n his gf came coz no bus back le...
Anyway, i noe yp sacrifice a lot oso... she came down all the way frm the west to east coz if she no come, TYL will be alone in the chalet. but sat morning she need to rush back to west again for tuiton lor. 我很对不起她 coz she was the one who always kana my temper... but i was really angry lor. i mean, u happily planned for a gathering, thinking tt everyone will appreciate and appear... coz long time no see.. end up... wat i got!? so if i happened to hurt yp.. i apologised... but still... no matter how good temper one person is will still be pissed de lor

Sat, all went off early in the morning abt 7am and I WAS ALL ALONE in the chalet. so i slept till 1200 lor.. nth to do oso mah... the saddest chalet i ever went to lor... JM say the bed muz be fantasitic sia... coz i spend so much juz to go n sleep.. i oso think so lor... then i was so fed up.. i walked all the way back to Pasir Ris MRT stat... juz to shop and kill time.

2nd day i tot finally got ppl come.. then can tok n play the whole night thru.. alot tell me they nt staying over... GREAT! so i spend so much book chalet is for my own pleasure nia lor... ppl juz attend some kind of BBQ party n go off lor... end up only 3 stayed... better than nth...

JM say the grp got no team spirit...n how come like tt de.. i oso think so... i start to think... the bond within the grp... is REAL de or wat... do we really feel bonded together? i mean shldnt everyone be as excited as me abt the gathering? or it juz me being kapo go plan... none of them interested anyway. well... as i say.. I M NOT ORGANISING ANY GATHERING ANYMORE... at least not for this grp of ppl... coz this time round i'm REALLY DISAPPOINTED in everyone..

Blame on me.. being too busybody to plan... blame on me being too suay.. to book at a time when everyone is not free(though everyone agreed on the date in the 1st place)... suan liao.. coz i really got nth to say.... no more strength and energy to plan and to do anything le... nw is totally 死心 le..

Kids are amazing!!! y do i say so? coz they are!!! they will make u dunno to cry or to laugh... wat happened??

today Asmine wanna give fei min a luggage, coz she dun want it le. wanna him bring over to china le, then throw away. my dad came drive me, so i helped him to take the luggage to my tuition center so he can come take it as it is nearer to his hse.

well, when my kids saw tt large luggage... the 1st thing they asked,"cher, where u going?" i juz tell them i'm running away frm them. they dun believe me... say i going to UK.. (pls note, to my students: big luggage = go UK, Germany, Italy) dun ask me y.. i was also puzzled.

then class started by me telling them that i'll tell them where i going if they settle down fast and do their work 1st.. they really gone in an amazing speed (a bunch of kpo kids, whahaa).. then fei min reached. he came and take the luggage. my kids got excited.. OMG!!!!

kept asking me if he is my bf. i told them he is not, he is only a fren, they say i bluff them. *faint* then i asked them to contiune with their work while i was outside helping fei min to see if asmine left anything impt de mah. my kids.... they really can be very gd paparazzi. they all peeking out from the back of the door, juz to see wat are we doing outside.

then got one will run back n tell the class... "teacher and her bf hug, hug" "they holding hands" and guess wat.. we were not even close enough to make any physical contact! omg!!! i went back into the class to get the class settle down and do their work.

one even ran out of the class and went str ask fei min if he is my bf in ENGLISH. Feimin was damn blur wat was she saying. *faint*

After feimin went off... they were asking me if he is my real bf? my 1st rxn was 'huh?' so i asked got things such as REAL bf and FAKE bf? she say no, only got REAL bf and EX - bf. interesting rite? juz a reminder, my class is a P3 class... so i wanna to noe wat they really noe abt Ex -bf and wat is a REAL bf. so i asked her to explained. this is her explaination:

Real bf: u go out together, hold hands, hug and kiss (eeekkkk frm the other girls in the class)
Ex bf: u go out together, he date u... but no hold hands, no hug, no kiss (eeekkkk frm the girls again)

my rxn: (-_-!!!)

nw then i realised the ex bf is not the ex bf we noe. is the X bf.. meaning everything oso cannot do de bf... (big cross)...

so kids are amazing rite??? so how shld i react??? to scold or to smile or to faint??????

HAIZ!!!!! TMD TMD TMD!!! damn du lan now... kaoz... y? coz juz feel this way lor... coz y? Happily oragnise things... feel so excited abt it.. end up getting cold/negative responses... how good will u feel???

Anyway, dun expect me to oragnise anything anymore.. i'm too tired, too fed up! coz dunno is i sway or wat... the dates i choose... always juz nice got clashes with other things de... best liao lor... then i have no rights to feel angry... coz always ppl got valid reasons to say cant go...

but still sometime i juz wanna be unreasonable abit lor... haiz... but sure kana scolded be unreasonable... kana blame to be ba dao... n better still tt person end up may seems like being 'FORCED' to go... haiz haiz haiz

not pin pointing who.. or wat.. coz ppl ard me all like tt... n i quite sian le... guess wat... every fri.. i would rather go back home (spend more on transport fees) to eat, or dun eat than looking ppl to have dinner... coz i know sure get 'No free', 'cant make it' blah blah blah for ans... n i usually dun quite like getting those ans... so dun like, then dun ask.. coz ask le sure will get these ans de...

what i hate abt myself if i tend to say 'NVM'!!! esp when ppl say 'sorry'.. coz i dun wanna ppl feel bad.. but end up... me myself burning inside... haiz... tt's y i hate the word 'sorry'.. it maybe a polite word... but to me... wat the use of saying sorry?? wat done cant be undone wat.. say sorry le... i still buay song.. juz tt... dun wanna say lah.. coz say liao... ppl think i xiao qi... unreasonable... haiz... SIANZ!!!

when ppl say sorry.. i have no right to be angry le.. coz ppl apologise le mah... aiyah.. suan liao lah... kaoz.. sianz lah...

Fri... Last day of the working week, last day of our freedom!!! coz boss coming back next week le... sadz...

Last night went shopping... wanted to change the crocs for Asmine's son. end up, got myself a new pair of shoes at $12.90...haha...

then walked further down.. went into Taka jewellery. At 1st wanna take a look nia... then shun bian see got nice nice chain to go with my star pendant mah.. coz all my chains are sliver de... wear for a few days become black black le.. so decided to see got white gold de mah... saw a few... but then was very ex lor... my 1st tot was... wah.. so ex how to buy.... end up i still bought at$100... i cant even believe i bought it lor... i spent so much to buy a chain..

wahaha.... not tyl rite? JM still ask me... i shou dao shen me da ji... i told him coz he whole week no reply my sms n too bz till heck care me lor.. wahaha...

wat i'm afraid most happened le... last night... CC sms me some wierd sms... then i asked him wat happen... then... he confessed that he likes me (in a way tt i dun like de lor.. coz he use the word love instead of like)... haiz... he say he likes me.. but he noe he sure fail.. coz he pei bu shang wo... i speechless... well... i did reject him straight away... telling him he shld noe best... at this moment, i juz cant accept a new guy. not coz he is a china worker.. is coz i still cant get out frm the past... but he no reply me.. then this morning... he no wait for me... he went home str after 0830... haiz... i dun wanna lose a fren juz like tt... i oso dun wanna this to affect his work performance... headache!!!!!!!

Today is our Annual RS-BP mentoring Cooking Comp... as usual... a BIG chaotic morning and 'boom' u see lotsa creativity and intresting dishes.

This yr is abit different.. the competition is design like a biz game... u r like opening a restaurant and muz take into consideration of the cost... and how much u price ur food, coz at the end of the day, the grp of the highest profit win. this yr got 2 winners.. 1 is the highest profit, the other is the overall presentation (taste, creativity and blah blah ) winner..

My grp won.. won the overall presentation.. hahaa... all the more prove to me tt i'm not a biz person.. haha... coz my grp made a loss.. hee... cost too high, price too low.. wahaha... me, jx, nisha, atiqah, afiq in a grp.. tt afiq.. keep saying he is the chef... esp when he heard tt we won... wahaha.. but in actual fact he didnt do much... juz helping here n there.. sometime dun even noe lost to where.. wahaha...

Life recently had been quite chaotic... work there so many things... so many things to remember.. i really scare i 4got some of the impt stuff... sep.. anytime AVA will come down for surprise inspection, channel U de 'Let's Party with Food' is going to start shooting in sep oso... so i muz prepare all the necessary pdts.. then exports there... coz they keep arguing wat is NON DAIRY CREAMER.. and wanna us to do admenments to our packagings... kaoz.. n my lab... aiyo... crazy liao lor...

the only relaxation is.. 2nd pdtn.. everytime go tok cock with them... wahaha...

I HATE HIM!!! I HATE HIM!!!
Two weeks ago, he msg me on MSN asking me abt sth.. 2 weeks later...i msg him on MSN using the same nick, same acct same email tt i've been using for years... he come n ask me who m i?! funny rite?

He called me on fri... which was 4 days ago... telling me he is sian.. wanna tok to me... telling me he still owe me a meal and movie.. n will do it b4 he go into NS.. ask me abt a song.. ask me to send him...
4 days later... today... i decided to send him the song.. i msg him on MSN.. he come n ask me who m i... wah.. amazing rite?? is this call fren??

m i such a failure as fren? or he is a failure?? haiz...

ppl told me may be a misunderstanding.. mayb his bro using his acct... well.. i dunno n dun care... too angry le!!!!!!!!

It's quite sometime since i last updated.. wahaha... n i'm back!!!! wahahaa.. i sounded happy??? yes!!! i'm!!! coz... i had a huge huge huge crush!!! omg!!! i'm being hua chi again... but wat to do!??! wahaha.. TYL mah... hee

ok.. wat's with the crush?? actually... long time got crush on him le lah... juz recently become BIG!! haha.. who?? Fei Min lor.. who else.. my Toro look alike... he so handsome lor... wao lao.... we had become very close.. coz i eveytime go up pdtn disturb them mah..and he got my no... n occassionally sms me.. n blah blah blah.. wahhaa..

recently he got his annual leave approved and wanna go back China... for 3 weeks.. so wanna me help him to check out air tix... n try to get air tix... tt day, he waited for me outside my tuition center... he is SOOOOO HANDSOME!! more handsome than he looked at work.. when he wears the company polo tee... waahaha... he was wearing a white collared tee... n jeans.. standing outside my center smoking.. waiting for me to knock off... (he passing me his air tix money)... so cool lor (ok.. minus the smoking part).... he dun have the typical 'china man' looks lor... satisfy my xu rong xin... wahaha... my boss came out saw him.. ask me 'ur bf ar?'... how i wish i say yep.. wahhaa... ok.. DREAM ON! wahaha..
we went off... then he treat me makan at 888 de coffeeshop.. then we bicker... n tok.. hahaa...

today he poor thing lor... normal 2nd storey pdtn got 3 ppl de... today 2 MC.. only left him.. alone.. so i kept running up pei him.. i call him my Ou ye ye... (his surname is Ou).. he call me gui sun zi.. (haiz... coz i like wu gui lor..) wahaha.

Sat, went to YH hse for a swim.. hahaa... wdl go habourfront for a swim.. i think only i so stupid.. wahhaa.. but there no ppl... somemore.. even the public showers got warm water de lor.. 1st time ever after a swim i no need to have a cold shower.. wahaha.. me, yp n wy decided next next week will go his hse swim again.. then we shall try the suana... wahaha...

poor yp... ku ming yuan yang... haiz... but i see roland.. he nt bad... though sth bad muz happened or else y her sis so violently object it??? but still.. she shld tell yp wat happen.. n let yp judge tt person herself.. n nt force her mah... i believe in yp.. she noe wat she is doing.. n she is the most zi ai girl i noe... so wat's there to worry.. yp is nt a baby.. she can judge a person... she noe wat is danger.. wat is not... dun see her like nua nua like tt.. she is actually a tough n stubborn girl.. y cant juz let her have a chance to make her own choice n decision?? even if it's a wrong choice.. at least she tried... n learn sth frm it lor... yp.. 我挺你！ hahaha... we all here support u..

Today went to watch 'The Lake House' with wy and yp. It's a great movie, and very touching. This story originates from a South Korean Movie 'Il Mare'(meaning 'The Sea" in Italian) (???, siworae) starring Lee Jeong Jae, Jeon Ji-hyeon in yr 2000.

I watched the Korean version a few yrs back on TV. Not tt i noe of this show then.. i was juz too bored... was flipping channels then i came across this movie.. call it fate! haha... Story is tt the male lead and the female lead was communicating to each other thru mails. but they are in 2 different time. they are 2 years apart. the similar thing is that they satyed in the same house, using the same mailbox... the storyline are similar.. though some small little parts are ddiffernt.. cant exactly say where.. coz a few yrs back le.. but still.. my two fav shows!! hahaa....

the different between the korean and the warner bros flim is that korean show, the house is by the sea... and the english version, the hse is by the lake... both houses are beautiful, and the scenery.... left me speechless... how i wish.. i can have a hse like tt.. hahaa... oh ya.. the dogs r different oso.. wahahaa...

Keanu Reeves is HANDSOME... Lee Jeong-jae.. ok lor... Sandra Bullock is BEAUTIFUL... Jeon Ji-hyeon is also BEAUTIFUL... hahaa

Here are the pics from both the movies... say... which is better?? hahhaa


The Lake House


Il Mare


The house by the sea


The House by the Lake


The Lake house


The Sea

A new song by Van 范逸臣
His new album 不说出的温柔... got this song... Track 10.. if i'm not wrong... 算了
Nice.. i think.. lyrics oso cool.. hahaa....

作词:磐子
作曲:陈奂仁
编曲:invisible mem

天哭了 地湿了
我孤单了 人呢
该哭呢 该笑呢
还是该忘了 算了
算一算我也该醒了
不如撤一撤把心掏空吧
谁说的 谁说我该伤心呢
想一想你也该闪了
不如笑一笑通通忘掉它
算了吧 也不用等着你回答

不敢睡 不要醒
怕又痛了 夜里 都懂了
你走了怎么又乱了呢
乱了 算一算我也该醒了
不如撤一撤把心掏空吧
谁说的 分开就要心碎吗
想一想你也该闪了
不如笑一笑通通忘掉它 算了吧
就当我伤心的太傻

等到翻到简讯某一篇
才会发现 你早已经在那天
让爱情分裂

算一算我也该醒了
不如撤一撤把心掏空吧
谁说的 谁说我要伤心呢
分开就要心碎吗
想一想你也该闪了
不如笑一笑通通忘掉它 算了吧
是我伤心的太傻
也不用等着你回答

It's a long time since i last updated.. hahaa. coz no mood... coz work there stress building up, tuition there work le not happy.. haiz.. life... sianz rite?

1st the mktg manager resigned... meaning her job have to divide among us.. guess wat.. i have to do all the packaging design and stuff... recently export there got prob.. say tt we did not declare milk proteins in our pdt.. so may have to recall... n tt is a whole container of goods.. omg... haiz... then now have to change the design of the various packaging AGAIN!!! AVA did not give us a good time either.. due to some they deemed as 'misleading' claims.. meaning... i have to change the content of the packaging... our packaging got lotsa languages.. so change one meaning have to change for the other languages.. haiz... dutch, french, jap, korean, german.... omg!!! i spend the past few days looking at languages i dun even understand... trying to add the ingredients in... haiz... n pdtn there wanna the packaging to be ready FAST!! or else cant go on producing.. haiz...

then tuition there... my boss damn stingy... i combined one class with mine... coz the teacher was absent.. n they still considering whether to gimme the extra class pay anot.. kaoz.. tt 2 classes... not tt easy to teach lor.. they arent angels... though both classes add together is abt 10 over students... which is normal... but 1st... i'm teaching 2 different lvls... n 2nd.. my p3 kids r not excellent students...n need my 100% attention.... the p4... they arent any good either lor... coz got slightly slower students who need attention oso mah... i ran here n there.. n trying to make teach n settle the class... almost dead lor... n now they tell me might not get tt extra class de money!!!! wat the hell!? everytime last min call me, wanna me relief this class or tt class... or tell me do all the admin job.. collecting fees for my classes there.. wanna me promote the classes.. wat the hell.. haiz.. i'm considering to quit or not... but the supervisor.... very gd leh... haiz... she fighting with me to get tt extra pay!!!! SIANZ !!!!!!!

sianz rite.. so many things happened.. need someone to be with me.. listening to me whine... gimme a hug.. telling me everything will be fine.. i can make it de... but.. well.. kao zi ji ba... depending on ppl is NO USE!!
recently realise i dun have much frens.. online nobody to tok to... yihang n yt dunno y oso... everytime msn no reply, yp not online, jm too bz... cheryl got lotsa things to do oso... tok to cm... scare if i start whining..he buay tahan... start to quarrel again.. the last thing i want is to quarrel... i'm toooo tired.... then the china guys in my work place.. can make me laugh n allow me to 4get things TEMPORARY.... but still they are still not those who can trust entirely de mah.. (not tt i discriminate.. but... haha.. ).... then online recently got jx to crap... still... oso dunno how to say lah.. coz he is like a little boy to me mah.. lame each other.. crap each other nia...

m i becoming like xian?? getting deression?? becoming a loner?! i dun want!!!! argghhhhh...

我好笨！为什么他一次一次地说出空话，我还一次一次的相信他？今天，就好像一巴掌把我打醒：陈燕玲！你还在做什么梦？醒来面对现实！

他伤心、彷徨时，一通电话就能找到我。因为我会一直在的。我需要人陪，听我诉苦的时候怎样都找不到他。为什么要被伤了那么多次才发现自己在他的心里其实连一根草都不如？我只是一个能被利用的大傻瓜，一直在这里笨笨的守护着他。我也是人！我也需要有人依靠的时候！！

有人问我，他会来找你吗？我很肯定地说会，因为他会需要我的帮忙。他真的来找我，不过，并没有要我帮忙。他说他最近很忙，等他忙完了，我们出来吃顿饭。我等。一个星期过了，他没消息。我无所谓，只是失望。那天，我好需要一个人陪时，sms, msn, 都找不到他。我也无话可说。后来，他又来找我，先是为他的忙碌而向我道歉，然后说这星期一起出来吃饭。我等，再等。没有他的消息。我以为他忙到忘记了要meet 我的这一回事。所以，我又再次笨笨地 sms, msn 他，然后等。结果，他什么回应也没有，连一个简单的‘我很忙’都懒得跟我说。

他又再次的闹失踪，我又再次的空等。朋友需要做到这样吗？这算是朋友吗？没用的我，又再次因为他而掉下眼泪。这次我真的真的好绝望，我真的想当做从来都没认识过这个人。他又把我当朋友看待吗？我为什么要一次又一次地在他需要人的时候在他身边，给与他最大的鼓励？
或许，真的应该回到当初的陌生人吧。。。。。

It is 0300... n i still not sleepy... y? coz i slept the whole day... woke up at noon... rot n slack at home whole day.. slept again.. wake up.. then go sleep again... no one ask me out.. lazy to go out oso lah... then finally.. xian ask me out.. wahaha... rot at cwp at night lor..

anyway, recently... dunno y.. not in very gd mood.. y? i wish i noe... haiz... ok.. i noe... he is back... he came back into my life... create a whole mess... ok.. i noe is me.. problem lies in me... i shldnt let myself get involve.. i shldnt allow myself fall into the trap again... ppl warned me... yet... haiz... i'm used to not having him in my life.. y he appear again??? y m i so lousy??? get shaken so easily.... i tot i already kan kai le... but y? y when he is back to the ignoring mode... i felt so terrible??? damn!! i really hate myself!!

TH told me.. 重新得到，会再失去，那么宁可别重新得到。因为会再次尝试失去的痛苦. true lor... tt's y i'm afraid.. i'm afraid i fell back in again... then hurt all over again.. i was careful.. but still... 感情的事，真得不能用理智来处理。

曾经，你有一样东西，不过后来因为某种原因你失去了；你痛哭了好久。后来，你又莫名奇妙的找回，可是却也莫名其妙的再次失去；那种痛真得无法形容。最可悲的是这次一滴眼泪也掉不下来。会哭才不会那么痛苦，可是真的这次怎么也哭不出来。也许是知道根本一点也不值得、也许因为麻木了、也许忘了怎么哭了。

haiz... suan le... i can pick myself up last time.... this time i oso can de... i'm tyl.... i can de

I'm 23 yr old le!!! wahahaa....
Old liao... haiz... this yr bdae... ok lor.. quite low profile... wahaha... 1st... on the 9th jul, went out with my poly gang. Sing KTV with YP, LY and TH... (finally tt TH willing to pick up the mic and sing.. hahaa)... then we met up with YH, Zac, KG, WY... for a late lunch.. shop abit.. n go take photo card.. hahaa... photos will be up soon at my multiply page... go see ba... but then muz wait for YP to send me some more... wahaha...

then on the 10th.. went out for dinner with my family at this unknown restaurant... wahaha... trust my mom to find this type of lobang... got offer.. n got free cake for bdae celebration... wahaha.. well.. it's international buffet.. overall the food.. is Fair.. service is gd.. cake mah... fair lor... wahaha... the cake photo will be up in multiply oso lor.. wahaha...

Then on the 11th... ACTUAL DAY!!!.... haiz.. work as usual.. go tuition as usual... stunned when a lot of unexpected ppl sms me... wishing me... wahaha.. then tot this yr.. mybdae will be like tt pass quietly... who noes... when i reached home after tuition... i saw cheryl n yh at my hse... asked them how come at my hse... they tell me coz yh comp spoil.. come my hse use comp... ahaha.. when i go into my room... my whole bed is filled with Doraemon stuff lor!!! haha.. i scremed sia.. wahhahaa... cheryl the best lor.. wahhaaha.... coz sure is her idea de.. yh wun think of buying me doraemon de... hee (photos up in multiply... muz wait for cheryl send me photo 1st)... then by right i suppose to see JM once i stepped into the hse.. but well.. he late lor.. whahaha...

he reached at abt 11 sth.. wahahaa... after i cut the cake... btw yh made tiramisu sia.. NICE NICE!! wahahaa... anyway, i nearly gonna stop toking to JM if he 4got my bdae... hahaha.. but as i said... he reached at 11 sth... wahaha.... with champange chocolate for me!!!! hee....
Love my frens... best sia... muz thank JM, YH, Cheryl, my sis (for ganging up with them)... whahaa...
Thank yp n Ly for tt card... thanx CC for the tortoise... n my bro n marie for the shades, watch n doraemon hp chain.. hee... thanx daddy n mommy for the dinner.. n pei he my frens n yx on tues... wahahaa... though low profile... i'm still happy.. :P

5th July 2006 - My Graduation... Had to wake up early in the morning, go SP in formal attire. to recieved Dip... finally! Graduate le... seems so long.. yet so fast.. haha.. 3 yrs... as i say.. things happen... sad, happy, sweet, exciting, angry, nervous, funny... u name it.... i think i had the most interesting life in poly sia.. haha

as usual.. ceremony muz start off with ppl coming in n sit down...'with a little drama - i slipped n fall when walking down the stairs... to find my mommy... MALU!!!! wahaha.. and guess wat... my heels broke.. wahaha... n so nice... 2 broke at the same time.. so i no need worry 1 high 1 flat.. wahaha.. coz both become FLAT! ahaha'

back to the ceremony... then we waited for the guest of honour (some ppl frm dunno where.. but i sure nt frm spore)to come in.. everyone stood up.. sing national anthem.. then sit down.. allow the guest of honour to give speech... which almost 99.9% of it i didnt listen.. 1stly.. his ang mo too powderful for me to understand.. next. was smsing yp who was sitting at the other corner of the convention center... wahaha.. and oso smsing TH.. who was sittiing beside me... with one stranger in between us.. wahaha... so how to listen?! wahaha

then finally.. start to give out dipolma le.. see one by one go up take... wah.. really scare i go up on stand malu myself again by falling down. whaha.. but lucky no have.. wahaha... phew..

then finally got dip le.. ceremony ended with a graduate giving a speech.. which i didnt hear 99.9% of it.. coz i was bz toking to zac.. who changed his seat to beside me... wahaha..

we went out of the convention center.. my cute mommy n sis.. rush off to get the reception stuff... (their main motive to attend this ceremony is due to FOOD!!!!)... anyway, cant find them anywhere.. (ok. i too lazy to find them.. coz i noe where will they be... ) we these few crazy ppl started to take photo lor.. Y-gangz... W.X.Y3,Z... with lecturers.. wahaha... with my lao da.. blah blah blah... (photos will be up when yp sent me... she nt send me yet)

after tt .. went to JP had fish n co with yh, wy, yp... gossip... tok... rot.. wah.. long time never like tt le wo.. whaha... then at night went to highlight my hair.. wahaha.. my salon is call YP.. but nt my yeepei lah,... i 4got wat it call le.. hehe... nw i look like ah lian(quoted frm TYX!!!)

July.... It marks the 1st anniversary of this blog.. one yr le.. it had accompany thru my ups and downs.. July... oso my graduation mth... July.. is the most enjoyable mth every yr.. hope this yr oso the same... hahaa...

Today, had a long tok with mommy, yw and yx... they told me they find me wierd wierd... they say i changed... i become very moody, very short tempered... mood swings... i tot i always like tt de??? i blur... they say sth is bothering me... and i didnt say out.. but wat? i oso dunno.. coz i think nth is bothering me leh..

yw tell me.. i can bluff every1 in the whole world but cant bluff ownself... but i really dunno wat is bothering me... the he say mayb is sth i deemed as nt impt... so put it at the back of my mind.. but subconciously it already affected my emotion??? wah.. then this i really dunno le...

mommy told me... wat's bothering me shld be so r/s prob and not frm my work... i more puzzle.. how come i got r/s prob.. n i dunno.. then they say i have to go find out myself wat is the prob.. n solve it.. she say i keep alot of things to myself.. i bottled everything up... then one day i sure outburst.. then really jia lat le...

haiz.. i tok so much... yet they say i bottled eveything up.. mommy say.. coz wat i say de... nt really frm my bottom of my heart de ... i say out de r nt impt de lor.. hmm... izzit?? i oso dunno... whole day i've been asking... wat's bothering me?? coz i so short temper.. yx say is my frens.. coz in sch i too dependent on my frens emotionally.. so nw at work le.. i dunno where to depend on.. coz all bz with their own life.. haiz.. si mah?? i oso dunno... dun think so leh.. haiz..

dunno dunno. dun wana think le... suan le...

Finally!! i gotta watch World Cup le.. without cable TV... wahahaa... Thanx to LCM wo.. wahaha.. i gotta watch Brazil le!!! hee...

Anyway, very tired lor... not enough sleep.. partly due to world cup.. hee... however i started to wonder... shld i cont'd my classes mah.. very tiring.. n class is not cooperating... n not improving.. quite demoralising lor... sianz... i started to wonder.. if i cant teach well or they juz dun get it.. haiz... but if i no teach.. sure not enough $$ de lor... how???

i suddenly wish tt there is someone beside me.. for me to lean on.. for me to rest.. for me to whine... however.. suan le.. depend on myself better... wahaha..

actually.. tt CC very gd to me... he is caring and nice... even every night sms me.. chase me to go sleep... dun mind listening me whining... (but then again.. the pdtn workers here.. like fei min oso listen to me whine de leh... wahaha) for one moment.. i really almost fall into the trap lor... but NO WAY sia... wahahaa... say i nationalism.. wahaha got this word?? i oso dunno... wahaha... anyway, i juz cant accept lor.. nor my family will.. nor my frens will... hahaa.. different culture.. different beliefs.. different thinking... wahahaa...

Yx saw feimin tt day... n she say he dun have the 'china' look.. wahaha.. n indeed looks like Toro.. n she was so excited abt it lor... OMG!! hahaha... she say born in early Oct de.. all so cute de... like her... *faint*

Nw really sian.. so not working... haha typing blog.. coz boss haven come in... hee... well.. but time to start work le.. or else i cant finish then jia lat le... so many projects waiting for me.. (-_-!)

Last night, went to SP auditorium for Simon's acapella concert.. once a yr event.. wahaha.. i will never wanna miss de concert... wahaha...

We are from Simon fan club de.. wahaha.. n my sis say she is the president.. wahaha... we bought a bouquet of flowers... (ok.. sunflower to be exact) for him.. wahaha... cool rite?? i love tt bouquet lor... for one moment i dun wish to give it to him sia.. wahaha... i told yp i shall keep it as my own.. wahaha....

saw a cool guy in his grp... he looks like those bad bad guy... as i say.. i'm attracted to bad guy de mah.. wahaha.. he is cool lor... :p

anyway, simon last time sing jeff chang's songs very nice de... though his chinese not gd.. always get the lyrics worng.. wahaha.. but still... anyway, i ask him muz arrange jeff's song... 过火 ... his style... wahaha...

i shall wait!!! hee...

This is my fav song now.. lyrics are meaningful... to me... enjoy ba...

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我想我已开始有点疑惑 好像被他说中些什么
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难过的是我们做了选择 是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得 为何在我心中有舍不得

看着你要走还装著笑容 掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口如何挽留 感情这条线注定只能这么远

不敢相信已经来到终点 想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前 我还傻傻画着幸福线

看着你走远还继续装笑脸 掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口怎么挽留 感情这条线注定无法延长一点

你已不在而我何时才清醒 相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你我不会说什么 默默的承受像个男子汉

看着你要走[看着看着你要走] 还装着笑容[多么多么笑容]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[还要撑多久] 如果现在开口[现在开口]
如何挽留[如何挽留] 感情这条线注定只能这么远
看着你要走[woo～]还装着笑容[we will carry on]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[knowing there were words i've never said baby]
如果现在开口[现在开口] 如何挽留[如何挽留]
感情这条线注定只能这么远[let the words remain unsaid]

Back from Genting.. 3 days get away.. quite relax lor... rest abit... haha... sleep alot... suddenly.. really old le lah.. cant tahan too late.. bu ren lao oso cannot ar.. hahaa... too tired... i was sleeping alone in the room everynight.. coz mommy n daddy in casino till 2 - 3 am..

didnt went into casino.. only one time when i went in look for my aunt... dun like it there.. coz very smoky.. i dun like smoke mah.. somemore not interested in gambling lor.. though can watch live soccer frm there.. but i rather go back hotel room watch lor... but still managed to watch only one match.. coz alone at hotel watch soccer... no fun lor... end up i slept.. wahahaa....

went outdoor theme park.. went crazy whole day with yw, yx, alicia, wq, hj and james... i was the oldest.. whahaha.. expected mah.. anyway, we sat in all the exciting rides.. and screamed like nobody's business... wahahaha.... though the 3 guys were really PS when we screamed.. wahahaa...

Wanna played Go Kart!.. guess wat! I WASNT ALLOWED TO PLAY... coz i didnt reach the hight limit!!! kaoz.. their limit is 1.53m.. and I'M 1.53m and my sis is 1.53m!!! and she was allowed to play.. i wasnt allow!!! kaoz.. my bro go tell the person.. 'she can drive real car cant drive fake car ar' still no use.. haiz... SO SAD!!!! KAOZ!!!!

Love my nephews.. so cute.. haha.. i changed my mind in going genting was coz of them mah.. wahahaa..

anyway, this time round.. though did not feel lonely.. as with tyx they all never a dull moment.. however... miss my kakis lor.. go anywhere, or everywhere, i will imagine.. if my kakis here.. wat will we do.. how will we react.. where we will go.. well.. mayb next time my dreams will come thru.. right KAKIS!? hahaa... haha

did alot of thinking thruout the trip... coz got myself into quite a mess ba... didnt really noe wat was i thinking anyway... got too close with CC le. i think... i was all along treating him as a fren.. normal lor... like how i treat my other frens... but think signal went out wrongly.. *pray hard tt i'm wrong*... hope i wun landed in trouble..

Coz we passed our audit, so boss decided to treat the whole factory KFC.. we ordered le hor.. abt $180+ lor.. wahaha.. fei min they all say eat chicken nt full.. n say wanna burger.. so i purposely ordered 6 more burgers... 饱死他们!! wahahaa...

then asmine say she wanna treat the night shift de ppl. but dunno how. coz tt night she got sth on... so she cant stay back and wait for the delivery. so she wanna the night shift ppl go buy then claim frm her. but then till 1815 she still haven call them. then she was in a rush.... she say go ask chun chen buy lor... but when she called, he didnt pick up. so i suggest i'll help her find them lor. (hey, i did it out of helpfulness ok... no other meaning)

so she gave me his no. then went off.. i called him, he juz woke up.. so when i gave him instruction.. he damn blur lor.. i was on my way back home oso lor.. so ask him meet me under his blk.. i follow him go... (hey... dun think i did on purpose).. anyway, he asked me to call him when i finish work.. i told him i can go home le lor.. he stunned... wahaha... so when i reached my bus stop, i called him to come down...

when he came down.. i saw him smoking.. i very disappointed.. coz he is the only one i tot no smoke de!! haiz... anyway, he pulled me cross the road to the coffee shop.. n say treat me dinner.. i say dun want.. but he inisisted.. i say dun want.. i wanna go buy kfc then go back.. he still pulled me over and say muz be full 1st...

he inisisted tt if i really no wanna eat.. he oso dun wanna eat... then i of coz acc him lor.. coz he need to work overnight leh.. no eat how can.. so end up he treat me a cup of lemon tea and he ate his dinner... then we walked to central to buy kfc.. on the way.. we fight, bicker and chat.. haha...

then when reach central.. i saw a dog.. i stunned.. i pushed him to walked in front of me.. and pulled him in a way he was standing between me and the dog... who noes.. that dog.. walked towards me!!!! i nearly cry lor.. tmd.. cannot so 丢脸... haha.. i pulled him and walk damn fast.. he asked i scared of dogs ar.. i juz nod my head lor.. he told me he got a big big dog back at home in china.. haha..

anyway, thru' out the whole duration he did not smoke at all lor.. so i dun understand y start when he is nt a heavy smoker.. hee.. aiyah... nv understand guys lah... wahaha

yt say i did eveything on purpose lor.. 趁机. i swear... no no no.. wahaha... i innocent.. hee..

Finally!! Audit over le... scary sia.. tt day went to office extremely early juz to make sure everything in place lor.. thanx to all my pdtn workers.. they clear the whole place to so neat n tidy till asmine and i tot we went to the wrong place... it was so neat n tidy.. wahahaa....

at 1st tot got guy auditor.. then asmine wanna me go sha jiao sha jiao abit.. who noes 3 auditors all female!!! n somemore is those female in their late 20s early 30s de... jia lat liao... hahaa... coz sha jiao dun work on female esp at this age range.. wahaha...

they really inspect every corner of the factory... and DAMN FLY!! dunno when flew in de.. when they inspecting our pdtn.. they saw fly!!! kaoz... wahaha

but in the end... we only for 4 minor problems... mostly on documentation (except for tt fly lor).. haha.. well... can relax abit.. coz we can have our 3 certifications renewed and with a A grade.. wahahaa...

Asmine gonna treat the whole company ppl with KFC tml.. hahaa....

I'm stress, stress and more stress... sad sad and sadder.. haiz... audit changed to 6th jun.. coz pdtn cant be in place in time... then paper work alot.. then everyday work till 7 plus lor... tue n fri muz rush to tution... wao lao...
suddenly i felt like got someone smile n tell me ' Welcome to the adult working world' haiz..

to make matter worse... i 4got to bring my hp out.. i damn sian lor.. coz hp is half my life leh... 4got to bring... haiz... the worst of all... he long time no contact me... then suddenly today come tell me he like this girl.. ask me how... haiz

though i knew abt this thing quite long ago.. still dunno y.. when come straight frm him... i felt.. wierd wierd? terrible? dunno how to describe... funny thing is.. i still have to give him advice.. tell him wat to do.. still have to laugh... haha

funny rite... i tot i 4got le.. 4got his presence.. but when he come find me... i was happy.. bt when he tell me abt this.. i'm glad.. coz when he got prob.. he come find me... sad coz... nvm nvm... i juz sian... wanna whine nia.. i ok de... yp.. dun need worry.. tyl nt so easy bei da dao de.. wahaha

i still got china man.. haha

为什么人总要等到失去了才懂得珍惜？为什么要等到某人离开了才发现他是最重要的？人都是这样吧。都不会也不知道珍惜。

Juz read a novel... story is similar.. she left.. he then realised tt he liked her all the time.. he left.. she then realised he is the most impt person... normally when some1 realised tt... is already too late... this is wat happen in the story... she fall for another person.. he then realise he liked her.... too late le.... 常常叫人一定要珍惜身边所拥有的一切，但有几个人真地做得到呢?

got someone asked abt my past relationships... i told them is very complicated.. so complicated till i too lazy to think.. so too tiring... Officially.. i got 1 r/s... but strictly speaking i got 2.. so how to define??? i oso dunno...

i got an unofficial yet hard to 4get de r/s.... the sweet times, the happy times... till nw.. i can still remember clearly.. nw.. when both of us r like strangers... i treat it as i dunno this person... but i still can remember everything... like it juz happened yesterday... his smile, his warmth, his hands, his crap, his childish behavior... i no longer expect to see this person again in my life.. but the memories... is sunk deep in my head...

i got an offical yet painful r/s... this is a typical example of timing... i've waited for so long for a response frm him.. yet wat i got back was hurt n more hurt.. finally.. i tot i got wat i longed for.. he realised my presence.. finally.. but... it came late... i was no longer waiting... i didnt realise it till much later... we tried.... end up... i cant give him wat he want.. he cant give me wat i want... but i never regretted... coz at least we tried... then i noe he is nt the one.. nw... we r still frens.. i'll never give him up as a fren... he is a great fren...

well dun even noe y i wanna write this.. juz feel like writing liao.. i wanna sleep le.... ever since start working... really very tiring lor.. cant tahan till late nights.. esp nw.. everyday bz like hell... due to the audit... haiz.....

Now is lunch time at work.. haha.. nobody in office.. except for me, ayhua and kelvis... dun feel like doing work nw lor.. abit sian...

last night was toking to xh on the phone... we r both working.. in the same position... though her comp bigger, so she got subordinates... then yp oso.. she got a job.. n guess wat...she is doing the same thing as me n xh...

Anyway, after chatting..i realise how much i.. no.. is WE missed sch days... sch days.. nt happy... dun go sch... cant wake up.. then go late lor.. 10 am class start.. 1030 then walk in.. whaha...go sch got ppl crap... got ppl lame... everyday is a new experience... coz surly got one cute chap, be it zac, yh, wj or kg... or even yp or ly or wy or xh... sure give one stunning move that can make us laugh or cry the whole day lor

Really miss the times when we y gangz work on an experiment together.. me n yh fighting... debating wat is rite.. or yp n yh being kan jiong spiders... or we 3 laming one another or laming teachers... wahahaa...

then miss the whole grp of 9 ppl.. where zac, kg, wj always suan each other.. then kg always self-destruct... then yp, zac laming... then sometime ly or xh suddenly lame ppl..tt stunt eveyone... wahaha... then if sad or nt happy or stress.. sure very fast 4get de...
haiz.. nw we all at different places... no meet everyday... miss them soooooo much.. haiz....

ok.. ppl come back liao... i better start working... wahahaa

almost one week no update le... haha.. tt chun chen still in the night shift... haiz.. sianz... then nw the only person i go crap is feimin lor.. wahahaa...

tt yp.. say how come she here cant find any shuai ge... but when i went thru the files... both of them were already here when she tt time worked here lor... hmmm.. either she dun bother to look at the guys here (coz think tt they all cannot make it.. coz she dun like..... haha) or mayb they at night shift.. so never saw them... or mayb.. she dun find them shuai... wahaha...

anyway, I M SICK!!! sianz rite? haiz... sick on a public holiday... then never mind... till nw still nt ok!!! kaoz... coughing like hell... haiz.. (though still went singing on Sun.. wahaha) JM scolded me lor.. sick till like tt still go sing.. wahaha... but wei le ktv... si dou yuan yi.. wahaha... damn blocked nose... sleep oso cannot sleep properly.. then very tired lor.. sometime how i wish got someone beside me let me whine.. wahahaa...but... haiz... suan liao.. haha

started on the idol drama Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi by 183 club de... this show yp they all long time ago already started to be crazy over it le.. i was not free mah.. so nw then start.. sure enough.. I M ADDICTED!! nw i noe... i still in love with 183... i never 4get them lor... haven bian xin... wahaha... MING DAO, SHAO WEI!!! SHUAI DAI le...

I said got 2 China guys in pdtn.. one is that fei min.. (Toro look alike) and the other is chun chen (always at warehse de).. i think alot shld noe by nw esp zac... if i starting say tt guy shuai.. n start to go crazy abt him.. i wun be very gd with him de...

so this is the case here... i only say hi n smile.. occassionally, tok to him only... nt as close as compared to chun chen... hahha... chun chen is my kaki in warehse sia.. go down there sure fight with him.. or bicker... or he bully me... so i like to go down there if i bored.. haha.. see him climb up n down like a monkey.. wahahaa...

fei min is a yr younger than me... shld be more than a yr lor... then chun chen is same yr as me... but he is a jan baby.. another capricorn.. wahahaa....

but.. haiz.. he was being transferred to night shift.. sadz lor... downstairs no one crap with me le... then this morning... he was preparing to go home le.. coz overnite shift.. i was downstairs waiting for water to boil to make acup of espresso fpr tasting.. he told me he kana sacked... i go kicked him.. then he heard me sneeze non-stop.. tell me flu muz drink ginger tea.... i faint.... then he give me tt *hehehe*smile.. (he noe i hate ginger tea lor).. i go kick him again..then he serious face tell me he is serious... wanna me go drink ginger.. or else flu got worse then jia lat... i made a face to him..he come bish me... haiz..see lah.. kaki not downstairs liao...bored to death le...

Work starting now.. but abit lazy sia.. sianz.. tired..
juz nw got war.. management VS salesman... juz coz of a joke.. haha.. haiz...
got nth to do nw actually...

haiz... drag till lunch time then can finish typing...

juz nw went downstairs crap with the workers again.. then hor... they bully de lor.. humph.. esp chun chen.. a guy who is same age as me lor... see me always knock my head... though i always go kick him lah.. wahahaa...
mommy say if i like tt crazy.. they sure nt respect me.. so wun listen to me... but i think otherwise *hopefully*.. hee...

tt day rot in cwp with wy n yp... hahaa... lame one another till dunno like wat... haha... like the feeling...girls.. next time come out more often hor.. to release all the lames tt accumulate in us at work... wahaha... at work hor.. no one appreciate the lame jokes de... hee..

feel like sleeping le... haiz.. nt eating lunch.. coz too lazy to eat... can imagine tt?! haiz.. guess wat they having today? KFC!!!! i still can say no...this is how lazy i'm.. wahaha...
sian liao...my whole office shake sia..like earthquake... coz downstairs roadworks i think...haha

This is the 100th entry ever since i changed to blogspot.. wahahaa...time flies wo... hee

today went to Expo in the afternoon with my lady boss, accounts and local sales manager. we had a booth in the Food Hotel Asia.. Boss and overseas sales manager already there le...

Food Hotel Asia is a big event in food and hotel industry.. this is an exhibition whereby all related companies including fd companies, instruments and equipments, machinery, even locks, pillows and beds, locks, safebox for hotels come together n show to the related industry wat they have... ppl frm food n hotel industry from world wide will come down n take a look...

if didnt register for an entry pass.. need to pay an admission tix of S$80 then can go in.. i heard le stun.. hahaa...

Cheryl started her internship at this sauces company call Sin Hua Dee... CHNG's KEE de sauce de..she is the mkting side de.. so of coz have to be there.. she had been sooooo bz... hahaa.. saw her at the fair today... she looked so professional... she is soooo.. dunno how to describe lor... juz feel tt she is so gd.. toking to potential customers in those biz like tone... make me admire her more lor.. love to see her in her formal.. coz she got those 女强人 de look... she is already pretty liao.. then plus the way she present herself.. n how she do things.. wao... even me oso can fall for her.. wahahaa...

then oso saw yixian... she is working in a cheese company... n helping Bakels (hope i got it right)... hahaa... as pretty as ever.. she is always capable... hahaa

see them made me feel tt i'm nt alone.. coz they oso working.. oso bz till siao... but juz dunno if they got kana scolded like me like tt anot? hahaa.. actually is nt scolding lah.. juz tt.. things were very chaotic in office.. then i had to run up n down frm pdtn... superior didnt give instructions properly... pdtn side nt tt free to entertain every little thing.. so me middle man.. kana frm superior... oso kana frm pdtn lor.. when pdtn supervisor shouted at me.. i nearly cried lor... coz nt my fault mah.. but can understand him oso lor.. he got so much to do.. yet upstairs nt organise.. pack liao then realise 4get this.. ask me go take.. then i went back up again.. she say 4get tt.. ask me go down take again... haiz.. the whole morning i juz run up n down can liao lor... ask her go take it herself.. she say i familar to pdtn.. get faster.. i new de mah.. a lot of things dunno put where.. then see pdtn so bz.. dun dare disturb... then cant find.. ran up n say cant find.. dunno put where.. then kana say.. hw come i dunno since i everyday at pdtn (kaoz.. i go check on the quality n hygiene de leh.. who cares they put wat at where.. haiz) bo bian then go ask pdtn supervisor.. then kana shouted.. haiz...

actually i dun blame pdtn supervisor.. coz he did wat he was told to do de.. is upstair tt one nt organise.. haiz.. when these things happen i'll go tok cock with the china men.. hahaa... similar age as me mah.. go tok cock abit.. 4get all the wei qu.. then go face the music again.. hahaa..

then lcm... haiz... i dunno him.. xian say we got lotsa misunderstandings... but wat can i do.. he no attitude.. i give attitude.. he attitude i more attitude lah.. haha... then nw he say he no longer care abt my things liao.. then say i no longer his fren. haiz... dunno wat to do oso lah..

I got a new mp3.. 512 MB for $90... so exciting rite??

Haiz, but yesterday... mp3 n hp decided to die together... n my water bottle aided in the suicide plan.. 1st.. water bottle broke... then water flow out... then it flooded my bag... n my mp3 n hp were in it...I WAS TRYING CLOTHES when the suicide plan happened.. haiz...

i was wondering how come got water dripped down in the fitting room.. when i looked closer... it was frm my bag.. i panicked!!! i quickly dived into my bag to save my hp n mp3 player... haiz.. they swallowed too much water in...

u tilted my hp side ways still can see water flowing thru the lcd screen.... n mins later.. my hp was in coma!!!!!! *sob**sob**sob*.... *whine**whine**whine*... mp3 initially got respond.. but oso slowly lose conciousness... the... beeeeeeep...beeep... went into coma oso...

last nite i brought my hp n mp3 back to TYX electronics doc.. doc siao ding dong aka dr tyx 1st operated on hp.. she said mp3 to young.. n somemore got warranty... so better dun ooperate 1st.. hp no more warranty liao.. can operate.. but prepared for funeral juz in case..

i was so sad.. y tt 2 wanna commit suicide?? y they so foolish.. everything can be resolved de mah... juz tok.. haiz...

then today.. i came back to TYX electronic doc... Dr Siao said hp might wake up anytime.. mp3, she is nt sure.. n guess wat.. my hp really woke up!! at the time 24 apr 2006 2300.. my hp woke up.. thought still got water injuries at the lcd screen there.. still.. it survived!!! hp dun bare to leave me.. haha.. i no need buy new hp le...

Dr Siao said.. mp3 still need to be under observations.. PRAY HARD.. dun let anything happen to mp3!!!

today rained damn heavily.. thunder storm... then when i reaced home.. i stunned.. my hse flooded sia... windows cant withstant the strong wind n heavy rain... water seep thru... enough to flood my whole room.. flood my bro's whole room n flood my living room.. omg!!!! lucky thing no tragic happen.. only piggy n doraemon were wet... but.. they were safe n sound.. as Dr Siao Ding Dong manage to save them in the nick of time....

Dr Siao Ding Dong.. only can do her best when she is siao.. she nt siao.. n say seriously wanna help u repair sth.. u better dun.. coz sure spoil.. when she siao.. n say wanna spoil ur stuff.. then by all means.. wahaha.. but better be tt sth tt has no more warranty better.. hahaa..

i going to acc my hp le... n go see my mp3.. i'm praying hard for my mp3 to wake up....

Juz for ur info.. my mp3 oso woke up.. at the strike of 12.. hahaa.. both of them come back to me le... hahaa.. SO HAPPY!!!!

Today 14th April 2006 marks the 10th yr of 5G1U!! hahaa... we meet up today.. but nt all present. lyn n ss werent here... tt made ivan sad lor.. coz 10th yr.. we still cant get the whole grp... but wat to do.. i mean they got their valid reasons... we cant help it de mah..

ivan, xin jie (she finally appear liao) and me went ktv.. then huizhu met us at the last half hr... sing liao went makan at sakae sushi... then went min ge chan ting.. hee.. nice place leh.. next time muz go again... but quite ex lor.. go everytime sure broke de...

the min ge chan ting is at Marina Square... call music dreamer (爱琴海).. nice place.. then today got Nick Shen (沈炜?) oso.. he is one of the singer... 1st time see him real person... haha.... nt bad wo... to think tt last time when he was in Star Search, i was his supporter all the way.. wahaha... anyway, we dian ge mah... then he ask who.. the we say us lor.. he ask wat does 5g1u means... anyway, at one pt he say 那堆朋友 blah blah blah...

he left after his session, he rushed off.. then suddenly got the pianist/guitarist of the 1st session came up to me telling me tt i got a call.. i stunned... how wld someone noe i'm here? n how come no call my hp.. call the place... at 1st i tot is a prank.. i tot ivan they all wanna play a prank on me lor... i went with him in suspicion.. then when i picked up the phone... it was Nick Shen...i more stunned... he said he wanna come n apologised juz nw after he came down.. for saying yi dui...but 4got abt it then rush off.. so call lor... i said nvm ar.. he asked us go again on the 27th.. coz he will be performing again.. hahaa... hmmm.. will go if free... :p

Today ivan n xin jie.. kept saying i no change at all.. say i muz change.. i muz improve, i muz go fwd... cannot always stagnant down there... hmmm.. actually quite chim leh.. i dun really understand wat they mean... izzit coz i too childish? or coz i like to fa hua chi too much?? anyway, i noe my frens.. esp my sec sch bunch.. cannot tahan me le.. even yt to a certain extend... wat aspect of me tt they dun like abt me... i nt very sure... mayb coz of my immature thinking?? or my fa hua chi episodes too many le??? coz i can only tink of these 2 tt ppl cannot tahan de..
i oso dunno wat to say... coz i already took up the responsibilities of wat an adult shld have de.. like earning n contributing to the family. i took up the role whereby i helped to share problems my parents facing.. i helped in guiding my nephews n nieces..

it's only at the relationship aspect i muz say.. i still very childish.. i still idolised... though i dun understand y ppl become adult cannot siao shuai ge... anyway, since this is norm.. then i think i consider i abnormal lor.. haha.. i hope to have sweet n romantic r/s which in real life.. u cant possibly have de.. i still tt diao er lang dang pattern.. dunno when then can settle down.. i always think of the impossible de.. n never be serious...

i dream.. always dream... i'm naive.. which even my sis oso worried abt me.. coz i go out sure very jia lat de.. mayb this is the part ppl dun like abt me ba.. dreamy, crazy, childish.. haha...

aiyah.. dunno lah... 23 liao.. nt young anymore.. how much time i muz waste then realised it's time to grow up? tt's wat they ask me.. n as i say... i dun understand which aspect u all asking.. izzit abt my future? if yes, i muz tell everyone.. i noe wat i wanna do.. i never be so clear b4.. currently this company is my stepping stone.. n after i gain enough experience.. i'll go n find a place where i can really advance... to cont'd study or not.. muz depend on my finacial status.. n if it is necessary mah..

if it's abt my r/s... i muz say.. at this pt of time i dun wanna think abt r/s... coz i dun see a need to.. though u all say frens wun be with u 4eva... u sure need someone de.. esp when i'm someone who is so yi lai ren de.. but this muz see fate de...though i admire ivan's courage... to fight for his happiness.. no matter how hard.. n he got it le.. hee... but for me.. shui yuan lah.. too many incidents to let me c the dark side of a r/s n how hurtful n destructive it can be.. hee...

mommy say is my behaviour.. hmm.. i must not jump up n down when toking.. muz behave like a lady blah blah... haiz.. so i say le.. coz u all didnt see me when i'm involve in serious stuff... (any events or at work) i'm wat u all consider as 'mature' de lor.. stand str.. tok like adult.. no jumping up n down.. i act everyday due to work.. last time was coz in sch i need to tok to the public during exhibitions n stuff n during mentoring events when those big shots ard.... so when i'm with my family, with my frens whom i consider closer de... i dun see the need to cont'd act somemore...

tell u ppl.. for me to become those demure gentle kind of lady.. is impossible lah.... bbut to tone down my loud nature... i try lor... as for my hua chi... if i tired le.. i'll stop eventually.. hahaa

this week Phan came to SG for 3 days. he came on mon, left on wed.. i dun even have the time to meet him lor... so end up on tues, after 10, went to meet him for supper with my parents.. hahaa.. so happy to see him...

he is not very tall... but think got 175 lah... hahaa.. he oso has a big built... his shoulders r broad.. he is one yr older than me... wahaha.. anyway, he got a gf... n tt gf is my thai fren too.. jo...

he is like one big bro beside me.. taking care of me.. bullying me... letting me his shoulders, giving me his warm hug.. haha.. but yh they all say is i bully him,.. nt the other way round... wahahaa..

tt day, when i sent him back to his hotel after supper... i felt abit sad lor.. coz he leaving le mah.. n i no time meet him le...he left giving me a hug... his hugs always so secure n warm... anyway, the next day when he was in airport, he called... n tell me tt he had already checked in.. asking me to take care of myself.. i was very touched.. really...

then ard 10 sth he called using his thai hp.. telling me he reach thai le.. again remind me take care of myself... haha... suddenly i feel so xin fu.. wahahaa... got a big kor kor like tt care for me... hee...

i realised tt i'm someone who needs a person beside me... giving me warmth n security... no matter who u r... as long as u let me feel comfortable, warm.. i no need to link to u romantically.. frens will do.... (like tt like very shui bian hor? hahaa) mommy dun like this part of me.. say if i cont'd behave this way... next time my bf sure buay tahan... coz i so close to ppl.... well.. tt's y i dun wanna a bf.. waahaha.. though when my precious guy frens... even girl frens... got partner le... all 4get abt me le.. :P but.. happy can liao. hehe

Intructions.
1. Do the survey/quiz.
2. Write down the names of 7 people who you want to sabotage.(not really sabo lah)
3. Tag their tagboard and tell them to read here for the rules of the game.
So here I go...

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Seven qualities that I want my potential boyfriend/girlfriend to have: Good Listener, Care for me, loving, gimme security, humor me when i sad, like to sing n cook

Seven things that scares me: Loneliness, my family n frens leave me, dogs, lizards, injections, darkness, ppl angry

Seven random songs at the moment: Ni zui zhen gui - Jacky Cheung & Gao Hui Jun, Superwoman - Cao Ge, Bei Feng Cui Guo de Xia Tian - Lin JJ & Jin Sha, Feng - Jay Chou, Kiss Goodbye - Lee Hom, Ben Lai - Tong En, Zhi Dui Ni Shuo - Lin JJ

Seven things I like the most: Apple Pie, Doreamon, 183 club, 5566, Pearl Milk Tea, Mos Milk Tea, Sing

Seven important things in my bedroom: Doreamon Bloster, Big Doreamon, Pillow, Bed, Hp Charger, Laptop, Big Big Piggy

Seven random facts about me: Crazy, Happy, Loud, Stupid, Love to sing, Read Chinese Novel, Cry Baby

Seven things I plan to do before I die: Meet 5566 n 183 club, Earn big bucks, to be loved, to love, to see my frens n family happy, to get a gd husband, and have cute kids

Seven things I say the most: kaoz, wao lao, tmd, go n die lah, haha, huh, diao

Seven people whom you also want them to do this: lazy leh, who interested.. juz copy n paste in ur blog lor...

I'm fine... TYL wun be unhappy for so long de.. mayb yesterday juz suddenly feel very sad.. coz no one chat with me.. somemore work damn bz n stress... then ppl wasnt in gd mood to tok to me.. of coz sound nt friendly lor... then i too sensitive... wahahaa.. very fast 4get de lah...

anyway, y i say work bz n stress.. coz my 2 bosses went Taiwan today with their son. Then b4 they go, they instruct me do lotsa things mah... 1stly, coz due to change of ruling in Europe, honey content in food cannot be more than 9%, we have to change lotsa ingredients. then have to send for lab test to do nutrition table... blah blah blah... then at pdtn side they say they nt enough outer bags to pack... need to order nw.. purchase dept come chase after me, then muz chase after the lab to send me fast, the mkting side wanna me check the design n nutrition tables of the outer bags.. b4 it can be sent for priniting... so big headache lor...

then on Mon, ppl will renovate the pantry to become my R&D lab... so i have to clear the place 1st lor.. then it's sooooo messy n so many things... then dunno to throw anot.. coz if boss come back cant find the thing he want... then i die.. but boss de wife wanna me throw.. chim rite? wahahaa..
then i need to send our tea samples to lab to test for artifical colouring... aiyo... so tt outer bag oso cannot be sent for printing.. but pdtn supervisor kept pressing us... so i made my own decision.. to go ahead with printing... no need wait for the report.. coz tt lab report is only to RECONFIRM... hahaa...

end of this mth got lotsa guests will be coming to look at our factory.. so i muz make sure tt the pdtn is in the best conditions... n oso muz help to find lab coats... for visitors de.. so they can go in our pdtn... i need to tok to the salesperson.. guess wat.. i almost everyday meet a sales person.. n i tok sensibly.. wahahaa.. 'yt, proud of me?? i finally can tok sensibly leh.. wahahaa... ' coz y lady boss say, i'm officer... so got authority.. some of the decision i made it myself.. (-_-!) so of coz muz tok sensibly lor...

i sometime wonder wat's my position.. hahaa.. i know as QC officer.. but then hor, i seems like bao dao wan.. haha.. purchase, shipping, pdtn, mkting, packaging, all muz 'add one leg' hahha... but nvm,... learn alot mah.. hee.. :P

i finally got tt toro look alike guy's name le... he is call fei min (飞敏）special hor?? wahahaa.. tt day i jia jia ask my colleague if she noe the 2nd floor pdt workers' names mah.. she asked me who.. i say all i noe the name except for him... i describe him as Toro look alike, then she told me is feimin or huimin.. she 4got.. then i today came across the pdtn workers name list... n saw it.. wahahaha...

i went up to get the tea raw sample.. it was urgent.. coz i need to get the test done mah... who noes.. tt feimin he tricked me lor... i asked him if got anymore left anot.. he went check le tell me no have... i jumped up.. n started whining lor.. coz no have means i need to get my pdtn supervisor to go warehse get.. n meaning it will be quite late lor... then i saw him mischivious smile... diao.. i stared at him.. he say got lah.. bluff u de.. i almost wanna go up punch him.. wahaha.. i jumped up again.. this time is coz i happy.. wahaha.. i got wat i want.. n happily went back..

then so qiao.. everytime i go down pdtn there, i always meet him de lor... either he coming out for water break or toilet break.. haha.. everytime he smile at me... nearly faint on the spot lor.. lucky my kakis nt there lor.. if nt, i sure fa hua chi on the spot de.. wahahaa..

ok lah.. enough of my hua chi liao.. wahaha...

Tml start, boss will be out of town.. wahahaa... 2 bosses out.. left one who dun normally stay in office.. hee.. but muz do lotsa things b4 they come back.. haiz,.. n muz prepare for guests to come at mth end..

anyway recently.. dunno wat happen... ppl gimme attitude... sian... wat did i do???? haiz.. i very sian... prob lies with me mah??? tell me lah.. aiyo.. y like tt de?? i thinking too much? haiz... sianz lor... nw everytime online.. very sian de lor.. aiyah dunno lah.. mayb sth wrong with me... i go fan xing.. suan liao......

End of March liao.. haha.. got my 1st pay at Gold Kili.. hee.. the feeling is different when i got my pay frm my tuition centre.. hee... coz its my 1st permenant job mah.. hee..

2 weeks here... quite like it lor.. ppl r nice.. somemore production there got shuai ge.. wahahaa.. though China man... hee... if wanna Singaporeans.. then all uncles lor.. hahaa...
here they like family lor.. taking care of ppl de. no wonder yp say they r nice ppl.. anyway, yp.. they still remember u lor..
hahah.. i was telling the pdtn supervisor, ah sheng abt u... he say.. oh.. tt skinny skinny de.. hahaa... candy oso remember u.. cindy too.. they all say u guai guai... haha... they haven see u lame.. wahahaa

salesman there.. got young de... n oso damn crappy.. n cute in certain actions.. but o have extremely shuai de lor.. wahahaa...

i still like to go pdtn there... at the mixer room... got one.. looks like Toro lor... but i never got his name.. sianz... this week.. on ave i go up there 2 times a day.. 'checking' on the quality n cleaniness.. wahaha... he is nt tall...i mean nt very tall.. the most 175 or below.. hahaa... but nvm.. shuai.. i can close one eye on height. hee

i realised tt these foregin workers... some of them are at my age.. or even younger.. i juz trained a new worker.. he is borned in 1987 de lor.. n downstairs got a skinny but strong guy.. somehow like zac like tt.. hahaa.. he is same age as me.. he mah.. oso nt bad looking.. but tt Toro better lah.. though this skinny guy.. he is tall... abt 180.. somewhere there.. hee... he always see me walking ard.. he always shout.. 'hey shopping ard again wo'. haha...

the aunties in the pdtn area all very nice... hee.. but hor prob is.. i dunno how to scold or say them when i saw them wearing accessories when they t suppose to.. haha.. boss say muz tell them u r boss... but i can do it when i with my poly kids.. with those elder than me.. how to do?! omg.. hahaha.. so i using respect approach... hope it works wo.. hee...

So many things happen.... n was so terrible, was so hurtful, was so disappointed.

all the while, she led me ( or shld i say US) the wong way.. making me (US) hate the wrong person. the whole thing turned out to be like this.. is coz of HERSELF! she herself is only to blame!

looking at the whole thing... we seems like a fool... we always tot she is the victim... WTF! she is the player! n we r juz some stupid figurines then she played with.. to think we were so hurt when she cried... we so angry with him... come to think of it... how stupid of me tt i cant see the whole thing...

she create so much drama, so much trouble.. cause the family to have sleepless nites... cause ppl who concern abt her to run ard... to try their best to help her.. giving up their personal time... end up... all r juz shows! a show she directed! she said sorry.. she made pormises... yet.. her sorry is worthless... coz she said it.. but dun mean it... her promises... r empty... she is worse than those guys i noe... at least those guys.. sometime fulfill their promises... she leh.. NOT EVEN ONE PROMISE SHE KEPT!

She made everyone utterly disappointed in her.. giving up on her.. once she was surrounded by ppl who truly concern abt her.. but she do stuns, she gave attitudes... create dramas... nw.. every1... even me! si xin le! no use wasting time on such a person... i chose to believe her, to trust her in watever she say in watever she do... n wat she did to my trust to her? she broke it! she lied even to me! she made promises to me... n broke it! even the person who most teng her... dun even bother to tok to her anymore!

i'm hurt by u... u broke the trust i had in u... i'm disappointed... u said sorry.. but u did it again... nw u said sorry again.. how much it worth? do u noe how worried ur family were? do u noe tt night u didnt go home, ur mom didnt sleep.. not even a wink... she was out whole night OUTSIDE LOOKING FOR U!! i didnt noe u r such a 无情无义、没有心、狠心的 idiot!

how old r u now? i mayb childish.. but i sure noe how to think... ur actions... r not an adult actions.. u r behaving like my 14- 15 yr old kids! no.. i shld say my 14 - 15 yr old kids r more mature... nw how to thin better than u! so dun ever say tt i'm childish! 因为你没资格！

u r a disappointment! please! go 反省反省吧！u've disgrace urself in the public n in front him... HE, someone u deem as impt! wat wld he think of u? wah... u love him so much.. he gan dong.. n be with u? U R WRONG! he think tt u r a disgrace.. a woman i shld say a girl... with no dignity, no pride, n shameless! someone who dun even spare a tot for others! u think he'll fall for u?! FAT CHANCE!

the person i noe.. who will always put others b4 self... who was sweet, nice, caring is gone... gone le.. wat left is someone i dunno... someone none of us noe...

i dunnno when she'll read this entry... but i still write lor, hopefully she'll come across this entry... n i noe the consequence of posting this entry.. coz she may nt be the 1st to read it.. it shld be another person who might read it 1st...

i muz apologise to my best fren.. i'm sorry i didnt tell u anything.. i dun wanna u be worried, yet cant di anything.. i dun wanna u feel as helpless as me.. many times i wanna tell u.. but i cld nt bring myself to.. coz dun wanna dampen ur happy mood... dun wanna u to think too much... sorry...

Today results out... finally... after working so hard for the papers... we got the results... overall... my results... erm... shld say... quite happy with it lor... but still sad tt my fd flavours i got C+. i noe fd flavours nt my cup of tea.. but i did put in considerable time in leh... suan liao lor.. haha

wat stunned me most is packaging... wao lao.. it was the last paper... n i really got no mood to study le.. in fact.. juz like tt read thru de... muz be lady luck beside me... hee.. yihang say dun wanna fren me le.. haha.. hang dun like tt lah.. let me once be proud of my results lah.. hahaa.. :p

at gold kili... worked for almost a week le... tml will be a week liao... haha... hmmm... finally got my own acct... so tml can d/l msn liao.. n personalise my desktop.. haha... nw thinking if i wanna bring my cushion go mah.. haha...

i wanna go get a big cup.. mug,, got doreamon and got cover de.. hmmm.. got mah?? i dunno.. muz go find.. hee... or mayb ask ppl find liao buy for me.. wahahhaa... :p

ppl there all r quite nice... guess wat.. i need to go down production line there... check all the production workers to make sure that they follow rules n regulations when working in the production area.. coz fd mah.. of coz muz be hygeinic.. then oso muz ask ppl query regarding the nutrition part.. n oso muz write complaint letter... esp when it is due to the quality.. n the thing i hate most is to read all the ISO, HACCP and BRC stuff... haiz.. but i have to.. coz i QC.. so when audits come.. 1st shoot is me.. haha... wao lao...

my boss... aka known as DESMOND NG haven come back yet.. if he come back.. i think i got more things to do sia... haha... coz muz involve in the R&D oso.. haha... nw my lady boss... renovating the pantry... n oso a room downstairs... to make into 2 labs for me.. so i gotta source for the equipment n stuff in the lab... haha... this is the part i like.. haha

well go play game liao.. heee... btw.. i've change my blog song to 同恩 - 本来. like it alot.. coz nice ar.. lyrics meaningful... haha....

同恩 - 本来
词:阿怪 曲:林松锦

下雨了站在玻璃门里头 并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我 夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头 不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了 手写的留言对象已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了 已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走 太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车 常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了 长长的简讯对象已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上 沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难 也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点 该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了 对不起长大太慢害
你遗失了我 抱歉让你白费了这么多

I started on my new job le. haha.. 1st day mah... abit boring... coz whole day read the documents on the ISO 9001 and HACCP. wanna sleep sia.. haha they say 1st day of work is like tt sian de... haha.. ya lor..

then the ppl there all chinese speaking de lor. haha... xian n ting say is my environment mah.. since i dun like to speak english,.. haha..

hopefully next week life wun be so sian.. haha.. or else i sure drag till dunno like wat sia...

sat.. after tuition.. nth to do.. so go aunt's hse... see ah mei jie jie 2nd child... carawin... i was amaze!!! he was double his size since the last time i met him which was 1 or 2 mths ago.. mommy now call him fishball.. hahaa... cute cute... hee nw i think he look almost as big as bing bing lor.. hee...

then meet ah hui in cwp... at 1st wanna go ktv... but too ex.. so no sing.. end up go my hse coffee shop eat, then he come up my hse get his stuff.. haha...

today gotta go ktv.. hee.. with ly they all... haha... going off le... or else later late.. hee

I'm back from Thailand... one week away in Thailand.. was quite enjoyable to me lah... dunno how the other 3 felt.. haha...

anyway, met my thai frens.. haha... really miss those times... Jo n Phan are an item now... omg... haha... there goes one potential... hahaa... ok ok.. joking only.. feel so happy for them.. Really appreciate Jo for taking off her time to accompany us.. n help us do so much things n organise so many things for us..

and oso muz thank Tum, Ae, Golf, Bow, Joy, Phan and many more.. they were having exams... still take off time to come meet us. Miss them lots... hhaahaa

This time round we like meet alot of ppl sia.. hahaa..a lot of ppl take care of us wo.. 1st r our thai frens, then WY's dad, then Zac's godparents... wao... BIG THANX to every1 sia..

one week in Thai... of coz lotsa things happen.. n most of the time kept us laugh till nonstop de lor.. esp WY de incidents.. haha.. zac lah.. kept suaning wy slow.. ok.. she was indeed WOLS at times... haha.. n she have her wierd way of doing things lor..dunno y she cant hear wat zac say.. so she either didnt laugh or give a blur face or say 'huh?'.. at 1st zac tot she was cool... so didnt find his lame joke funny.. end up realised tt she is slow.. she cant get his joke, tt's y didnt laugh.... got one time zac shopped till he very sian... so he squad down at the roadside to wait for us, wy asked 你的脚很酸啊？ zac replied 没有，很咸。 normally when someone heard this.. the 1st rxn will to scold tt person lame.. or broke into laughter... but wy no rxn.. she say 'orh'... then dunno wat happen... she then realised tt zac was laming her.. (tt was i think 30secs later)... then she started laughing... we all (-_-!)....
the funniest thing is tt when water got into one side of her ear, she tilted her head to tt side (this is normal), n she pour water down at the other side(this is abnormal). Zac was the 1st to notice it.. n ask her wat she was doing.. n she replied in a serious manner tt she was trying to get the water out frm her ears... we were amused... zac reminded her tt both ears r not connected in striaght line... haha... she kept insisting tt her mtd works.. Yihang told her it's coz she tilt her head one side n not due the water she poured in at the other side... hahaa... n the 3 of us were laughing like wat lor.. haha... (ok.. wy, wanna scold go scold zac.. he told me muz put this in my blog de. haha)

Thru' out the trip.. i guess Zac allow me to see the other side of him.. hahaa.. he let me change my pt of view of him completely.. nw i understand y he got certain actions... n i really respect him for being who he is.. hahaa... as for yh.. already 熟到烂... so no surprise lah.. but he is more n more 'color'... ok.. juz in case yh see lah.. say i bias.. i will say oso.. zac is oso very 'color'.. hahaa... nt as much as yh.. :p

met KL in Thai.. so qiao sia... n oso me n wy saw HK actor Liu qing yun n his wife in thai when we were shopping.. hee...

didnt shop much this time round.. coz our dear zac dun like shopping... n he feels tired easily when comes to shopping.. but he still amaze by my energy lvl when it comes to shopping... hahaa.. :p one thing.. zac is like a kid.. haha... u muz see him with his gun.. a big kid sia.. haha...

when Pattaya for one day.. stayed on the beach.. end up kana sun burn.. haha... played water sports... but i most of the time was swimming in the sea lah.. haiz.. poor me.. kana abuse by yihang n zac lor... bully me.. i mean us... me n wy... threw sand... made us do 'water stuns'!!! kaoz... zac better still lor.. i was with him on jet ski.. he was riding it... at 1st i was holding onto him tightly... coz he was to fast n furious lah.... scare me out of my life... then he slowed down.. i tot he liang xin fa xian... who noes, the moment i losen my grip a little... he picked up speed.. n i was thrown overboard in the middle of the sea.. N HE STILL DUNNO!!!! he cont'd riding for a dist.. then realised i was NOT behind him.. he stunned!!! but when he see me... he started laughing... kaoz...

yihang rode on the jet ski with wy behind.. this wy... screamed n shout once yh picked up a little speed... n nice yh.. slowed down a little... coz wy made so much noise... i made so much noise zac can still carry on.. OMG!! haha... then WY was thown into the sea, into the swimming pool by yh n zac.. coz they wanna a bdae bash for her... n for me.. i no bdae oso kana bash,... dunno how they caught my legs n hands.. n end up doing somersaults in the sea and pool.. drinking dunno how much water in.. tt day.. our stomachs (me n wy) were filled with water...

We celebrated wy's bade at Pattaya.. in Jo's dad de hotel.. at 1st wanna give wy a surprise. end up Jo gave us a SURPRISE!! we wanted a cake to celebrate her bdae only... we didnt noe Jo actually prepare so much sia.. i think WY was touched.... hahaa... hope WY enjoyed the bdae... it shall be the unforgettable de.. hahahaa...

hmmm.. shld sleep liao.. tml 1st day of work.. hahaa.. late then jia lat le.. hee.. :p