HAIZ!!!!! TMD TMD TMD!!! damn du lan now... kaoz... y? coz juz feel this way lor... coz y? Happily oragnise things... feel so excited abt it.. end up getting cold/negative responses... how good will u feel???

Anyway, dun expect me to oragnise anything anymore.. i'm too tired, too fed up! coz dunno is i sway or wat... the dates i choose... always juz nice got clashes with other things de... best liao lor... then i have no rights to feel angry... coz always ppl got valid reasons to say cant go...

but still sometime i juz wanna be unreasonable abit lor... haiz... but sure kana scolded be unreasonable... kana blame to be ba dao... n better still tt person end up may seems like being 'FORCED' to go... haiz haiz haiz

not pin pointing who.. or wat.. coz ppl ard me all like tt... n i quite sian le... guess wat... every fri.. i would rather go back home (spend more on transport fees) to eat, or dun eat than looking ppl to have dinner... coz i know sure get 'No free', 'cant make it' blah blah blah for ans... n i usually dun quite like getting those ans... so dun like, then dun ask.. coz ask le sure will get these ans de...

what i hate abt myself if i tend to say 'NVM'!!! esp when ppl say 'sorry'.. coz i dun wanna ppl feel bad.. but end up... me myself burning inside... haiz... tt's y i hate the word 'sorry'.. it maybe a polite word... but to me... wat the use of saying sorry?? wat done cant be undone wat.. say sorry le... i still buay song.. juz tt... dun wanna say lah.. coz say liao... ppl think i xiao qi... unreasonable... haiz... SIANZ!!!

when ppl say sorry.. i have no right to be angry le.. coz ppl apologise le mah... aiyah.. suan liao lah... kaoz.. sianz lah...