Today 14th April 2006 marks the 10th yr of 5G1U!! hahaa... we meet up today.. but nt all present. lyn n ss werent here... tt made ivan sad lor.. coz 10th yr.. we still cant get the whole grp... but wat to do.. i mean they got their valid reasons... we cant help it de mah..

ivan, xin jie (she finally appear liao) and me went ktv.. then huizhu met us at the last half hr... sing liao went makan at sakae sushi... then went min ge chan ting.. hee.. nice place leh.. next time muz go again... but quite ex lor.. go everytime sure broke de...

the min ge chan ting is at Marina Square... call music dreamer (爱琴海).. nice place.. then today got Nick Shen (沈炜?) oso.. he is one of the singer... 1st time see him real person... haha.... nt bad wo... to think tt last time when he was in Star Search, i was his supporter all the way.. wahaha... anyway, we dian ge mah... then he ask who.. the we say us lor.. he ask wat does 5g1u means... anyway, at one pt he say 那堆朋友 blah blah blah...

he left after his session, he rushed off.. then suddenly got the pianist/guitarist of the 1st session came up to me telling me tt i got a call.. i stunned... how wld someone noe i'm here? n how come no call my hp.. call the place... at 1st i tot is a prank.. i tot ivan they all wanna play a prank on me lor... i went with him in suspicion.. then when i picked up the phone... it was Nick Shen...i more stunned... he said he wanna come n apologised juz nw after he came down.. for saying yi dui...but 4got abt it then rush off.. so call lor... i said nvm ar.. he asked us go again on the 27th.. coz he will be performing again.. hahaa... hmmm.. will go if free... :p

Today ivan n xin jie.. kept saying i no change at all.. say i muz change.. i muz improve, i muz go fwd... cannot always stagnant down there... hmmm.. actually quite chim leh.. i dun really understand wat they mean... izzit coz i too childish? or coz i like to fa hua chi too much?? anyway, i noe my frens.. esp my sec sch bunch.. cannot tahan me le.. even yt to a certain extend... wat aspect of me tt they dun like abt me... i nt very sure... mayb coz of my immature thinking?? or my fa hua chi episodes too many le??? coz i can only tink of these 2 tt ppl cannot tahan de..
i oso dunno wat to say... coz i already took up the responsibilities of wat an adult shld have de.. like earning n contributing to the family. i took up the role whereby i helped to share problems my parents facing.. i helped in guiding my nephews n nieces..

it's only at the relationship aspect i muz say.. i still very childish.. i still idolised... though i dun understand y ppl become adult cannot siao shuai ge... anyway, since this is norm.. then i think i consider i abnormal lor.. haha.. i hope to have sweet n romantic r/s which in real life.. u cant possibly have de.. i still tt diao er lang dang pattern.. dunno when then can settle down.. i always think of the impossible de.. n never be serious...

i dream.. always dream... i'm naive.. which even my sis oso worried abt me.. coz i go out sure very jia lat de.. mayb this is the part ppl dun like abt me ba.. dreamy, crazy, childish.. haha...

aiyah.. dunno lah... 23 liao.. nt young anymore.. how much time i muz waste then realised it's time to grow up? tt's wat they ask me.. n as i say... i dun understand which aspect u all asking.. izzit abt my future? if yes, i muz tell everyone.. i noe wat i wanna do.. i never be so clear b4.. currently this company is my stepping stone.. n after i gain enough experience.. i'll go n find a place where i can really advance... to cont'd study or not.. muz depend on my finacial status.. n if it is necessary mah..

if it's abt my r/s... i muz say.. at this pt of time i dun wanna think abt r/s... coz i dun see a need to.. though u all say frens wun be with u 4eva... u sure need someone de.. esp when i'm someone who is so yi lai ren de.. but this muz see fate de...though i admire ivan's courage... to fight for his happiness.. no matter how hard.. n he got it le.. hee... but for me.. shui yuan lah.. too many incidents to let me c the dark side of a r/s n how hurtful n destructive it can be.. hee...

mommy say is my behaviour.. hmm.. i must not jump up n down when toking.. muz behave like a lady blah blah... haiz.. so i say le.. coz u all didnt see me when i'm involve in serious stuff... (any events or at work) i'm wat u all consider as 'mature' de lor.. stand str.. tok like adult.. no jumping up n down.. i act everyday due to work.. last time was coz in sch i need to tok to the public during exhibitions n stuff n during mentoring events when those big shots ard.... so when i'm with my family, with my frens whom i consider closer de... i dun see the need to cont'd act somemore...

tell u ppl.. for me to become those demure gentle kind of lady.. is impossible lah.... bbut to tone down my loud nature... i try lor... as for my hua chi... if i tired le.. i'll stop eventually.. hahaa