July.... It marks the 1st anniversary of this blog.. one yr le.. it had accompany thru my ups and downs.. July... oso my graduation mth... July.. is the most enjoyable mth every yr.. hope this yr oso the same... hahaa...

Today, had a long tok with mommy, yw and yx... they told me they find me wierd wierd... they say i changed... i become very moody, very short tempered... mood swings... i tot i always like tt de??? i blur... they say sth is bothering me... and i didnt say out.. but wat? i oso dunno.. coz i think nth is bothering me leh..

yw tell me.. i can bluff every1 in the whole world but cant bluff ownself... but i really dunno wat is bothering me... the he say mayb is sth i deemed as nt impt... so put it at the back of my mind.. but subconciously it already affected my emotion??? wah.. then this i really dunno le...

mommy told me... wat's bothering me shld be so r/s prob and not frm my work... i more puzzle.. how come i got r/s prob.. n i dunno.. then they say i have to go find out myself wat is the prob.. n solve it.. she say i keep alot of things to myself.. i bottled everything up... then one day i sure outburst.. then really jia lat le...

haiz.. i tok so much... yet they say i bottled eveything up.. mommy say.. coz wat i say de... nt really frm my bottom of my heart de ... i say out de r nt impt de lor.. hmm... izzit?? i oso dunno... whole day i've been asking... wat's bothering me?? coz i so short temper.. yx say is my frens.. coz in sch i too dependent on my frens emotionally.. so nw at work le.. i dunno where to depend on.. coz all bz with their own life.. haiz.. si mah?? i oso dunno... dun think so leh.. haiz..

dunno dunno. dun wana think le... suan le...