It's coming to the end of year 2005... thinking back.. wat have i done this whole year? wat had happen this whole year?? hmmm.... cant remember much oso leh.. hahaa... get into a r/s and out.. realised wat i really want? go crazier.... have i grown up?? i dunno... suan le.. nvm.. hahaa

juz my blog song to SHE new album song.. xie xie ni rang wo ai guo ni (谢谢你让我爱过你)... nice nice.. like the lyrics.. go find ba.. lazy to find it.. hee...

went to watch the promise on wed... not bad.. hee... stroywise oso nt bad.. actually quite romantic oso.. hahaa... didnt plan to watch de.. but since ppl suggest.. then juz go ahead with it lor.. turn out to be not bad..

let juz say.. on wed.. i'm happy.. yet disappointed.. disappointed coz i can see that i no longer the only one... there's someone creeping in...i mayb still someone significatcant in his heart... or mayb my position is being replaced le....well.. it's expected anyway.. haha..

Two days of fun.. or mayb shld i say 3 days of fun.. time to start work le.. go back to my FYP liao.. haiz... sianz...

After 24th BBQ.. 25th went to orchard with kg, mh.. they acc me do some last min shopping n oso see if got toys on sale to buy for my nephews... after that went over to cm's grandma place for BBQ again.. hahaa....

went there with yonghui, yanting, xueli and xian... later konghwei and jingjia joined us.. at 1st quite sian lah.. coz too many ppl.. so abit wierd wierd.. then yt n yh went play with that big dog lor... after that eat crap n drink.. not bad afterall... hahaa... cm's dad asked jj they all to drink.. n took out XO (i think) haha.. one of those hard liquor.. haha he gave the 3 guys each one cup diluted with water... haha end up we girls oso drink with them lor.. but nt nice de.. haha.. i like sweet sweet de better.. then after tt.. still got tiger beer.. siao liao lor.. i oso drink with them.. though nt much lah,... haha.. coz all i dun like tt.. hee... anyway, kana bomb again lor.. asking me n cm.. haiz.. tell them how many times le.. still dun understand... aiyo... they dun accept the reason as i used to have cm ard.. aiyo yo... haiz.. nvm lah.. lazy to explain liao.. hahaa...

this morning went swimming with cheryl, juliana and yt.. then after tt come back home rot.. wanna start on report de.. but really no mood.. so pack some stuff.. then went to sleep... jio kor go ktv.. coz long time no see him le... so evening went ktv with jj, kor and zw lor.. cheryl joined us for awhile.. the 3 of them.. sang really well lor.. go ktv with them ithink i satisfy juz sit down there n hear them sing can le.. kor is the singer.. the pther background voice.. they can belnd very well lor.. haha can join super band le... then i really think zw really sound like ah du.. hee.. kor.. forever so powerful de.. n i think he really got improve.. esp the high notes de... his 假音very nice lor.. hahaa...

then realised tt jj n kor picked up smoking.. asked them how long they started... they said long ago.. then i realised how long i haven meet them le... i've learned that i cant be so extreme like last time le.. wat my bro said is correct.. i cannot be so extreme le... alot ppl ard me smokes lor... so learn to accept.. but of coz.. those closer to me de will hear me nag lah.. wahahahaa... welll they still the same old ppl mah.. so aiyah.. dun care lor.. but if it casue my discomfort... then they die.. wahahha

Merry Christmas!!! hahahaa...
Juz came back frm BBQ.. small gathering of sec sch de... nice n fun.. n cosy.. hahhaa
great time..
kana sabo juz nw.. as usual.. haha with cm lor... who else.. haha.. ok..
ppl... listen up.. me n him impoosible le.. we wun go back together de.. at least in near future.. cannot say never.. u never noe.. wahahaha.... i dun think he will ever wanna me as a gf.. n vice versa.. we r nw still gd frens.. hahaa..
as for the unclear behaviour... blame me ba.. hahaa.. coz i too used to him le... xi guan.. become habit... :p
so on the whole.. we r only very very gd frens only... wahahahaaa

Anyway, go wrap presents le.. wahahahaaa

haha.. finally.. finish le.. finish e-learning assignment le.. now chiong FYP n IA report le.. haiz... when then can no need chiong???

abit sian.. hahaa xmas coming le.. muz prepare xmas gifts le,.. hee

I'm fed up! i'm damn piss!! i say i dun wanna care le!! i say as long as she happy.. i dun care who she wanna be with le!!!
but then.. still i was totally disappointed! angry?! i dunno... i dunno how to describe how m i feeling now... partly i'm hurt by wat my mom said to me.. she said i unreasonable, i'm ba dao... she said u think u very big ar? who r u?! u r nth to her.. so how can u interfer?
suddenly i woke up,... i'm nth to her... really all these yrs.. being sisters for life... coz of a guy.. i'm being labelled as nth to her..

another part is tt i cant see the fact y she still wanna go back to him?! i noe i really cant do anything... i noe she happy can le.. but i juz dun wanna be hurt again... i dun wanna her go thru tt hurtful experience once more.. i care abt her,.. i love her.. in fact i love her more than i love my bro n my sis... but then... haiz.. suan le lah..now then i noe... it wrong to care for one.. it's wrong to feel hurt for one... i give up... i sian le.... mommy say ppl so happy.. he bought her levis jeans for her.. give her this give her that... wao... so giving expensive gifts is show of loving her!? now then i noe... ok... then so be it... even her family oso can accept.. who m i to object? ppl wanna go out with who no need my approval!

wat mommy say is correct.. how can i be sure tt she'll be hurt by him once more?? mayb they will be very xin fu.. n happy forever... MAYBE... ok lor... if tt's the case.. i'll be happy for her... go ahead n be with him...

to whoever reading this, YES i'm ureasonable! i'm 霸道！hate me if u want.. dun like it.. LEAVE ME! DUN COME NEAR ME! i'm juz an idiotic person who have all the bad pts in the world... i nobody.. i'm nth... i'm nth to everyone.... so get away frm me b4 u hit one of my unreasonable waves!

I cried.. Finally i can cry.. i can still remember how to cry... dunno for how long le.. i didnt cry... coz i 4got how to cry.. coz grow up le.. cannot be like cry baby.. coz cry cant solve anything... nowadays i juz laugh it off... tt's y.. to poly ppl, i'm a strong girl.. who can keep cool when problems arise... actually mah... is coz circumstances made me to the way i'm now.. coz if i dun keep my head clear.. every1 oso kan jiong.. how to get work done?? who tell me to be older?? hahaa

actually have been accumulating le... ever seems last week or the week b4... when i started to rush all reports n fyp draft.. every night oso nt enough slp.. then of coz mood no gd le lor... then dunno where to vent... last time still got him to let me sha jiao.. though nw got yihang.. listen to all my grumbles... sometime oso suay suay kana suan or scolded by me for no reason ( for this.. muz apologise, sorry ar yh, n thanx).. but still feeling different... n nw got wj oso.. online crap with me.. listen to me... acc me till late nights (though i think most of the time, is pong qiao he there de.. haha.. but muz thank him anyway.. hehee).. sometime let me suan.. hahaa,, still.. HE IS not HIm... hahaa,, as for yp.. a lot of things cant tell her.. coz it will only stress her even more... yt n cm.. dun wanna them worry abt me.. so only grumble... but never cry in front of them coz i too stress... so accumulate.. till today my bro said sth wrong.. i bursted!! haiz.. my poor bro.. he is always the one who kana one of my those moods.. hee.. oso muz say sorry...

anyway, e-learning week start le.. a lot of assignement... *faint* sian diao... btw, will put all the assignment up in this blog.. feel free to use as check list.. hahahaa

Today we got our class gathering... very fun lor.. hahaa,, zac n yp.. no drink oso can high lor.. hmmm.. no no no.... zac got drink coke.. drink coke then he damn high le.. hahaa.. hyperactive.. took lotsa stupid photos... n of coz made wj take photo oso hee.. :p... muz thak you mr ng n his wife.. for letting us go their hse there bbq.. heee.. so nice.. wahahaa... actually whole thing was fun crazy.. n abit R21?? hahaha...

DAMN REPORT!! it's 0214... doing THAT FYP report... haiz... the results are so wierd!!! kaoz... wat else can i do???? sianz.. think wait till ly n xh come le.. then we discuss how.. haiz.... sian sian...

E-learning week start le.. everyday muz go up do assignment... then yt oso go off le... to bangkok.... hahaa.. this time round when she come back.. i dun think i've met her as much as i did b4... last few times when she come back.. we'd meet each other till c each other oso sian.. hahaa... but this time round.. she said we rarely meet.. true enough.. i realised tt... ever since poly chang acadamic calender... i dun seems to have time to meet her.... then somemore recently got so many reoorts... so being FORCED to stay at home to do... haiz... darling... sorry ar... when u come back frm Bangkok.. hopefully i'm free to rot with u till u sian of me.. hahaha...

read her blog juz nw.. saw her entry on the kite flying... hmmm... suddenly got a lot of 感触... when u juz started flying the kite.. the kite starting to get higher n higher.. one person ask u, ' wat if no more string le? will u let it go?' i guessed most will say 'i'll let go' as u can see that there r still so much left on ur hands... but it come to letting go of ur kite when there is no more string left.. u hold it tighter.. coz u dun bear... u dun wanna let go of it so fast.. as u r not mentally prepare.. it happended too fast... then.. b4 u noe it... ur hands loosen... kite fly away.. u gave a chase.. but cant get it back... how u feel? depress... disappointed...

this seems like the case in a relationship... the starting of a relationship... u say, if he wanna go.. u'll let go... but u never expect when will it happen as u juz started...u r confident... but when it really happen... it was too sudden to u... no matter how long u've been together... unknowingly, u let go... u tried ur best to save it... to get the relationship back.. but in vain... feeling sad n disappointed.. but tt's the end...
guess most ppl feel this way ba... 一段感情的结束，往往都让人措手不及

So long never update le.. coz the whole week was so bz.. cant even get gd night's sleep sia... haiz.. coz was finishing all reports... this is the last week of the sch term...n lotas things due this week... then somemore FYP muz hand in draft.. n i'm so so so tired sia... by the end of the week.. i was like dreaming throughout sia...

then finally, the last day of sch.. today... after submitting all the reports le... we decided to take a little break.. b4 starting to chiong a whole new set of assignment again... we went to ktv this afternoon... main reason is hope tt yp can c kz there... hahaha.. but dun think got yuan.. haiz.. sorry leh yp... make u disappointed...

today we went ktv with new kakis... whahahaa... n we got the shock of our life!! 1st, kg n wj n yh agreed to go ktv with us... then after we heard wj sing... we all stunned!!! coz it was sooooooo nice sia... whahahaa...

Anyway, yp, ly, wy, me, xh, wj, yh and me.. all 8 of us.. went ktv... still got free one for one promo... then additional 20% off.. so not really ex ar.. everytime we heard that ppl say wj singing very nice... like andy lau.. we tot they joking only.. coz wanna suan wj... however, we really how andy does he sound like... n guessed wat.. the moment he sang.. 每次醒来... all stunned... the whole room silent... coz.. it was soooo nice sia... really sound like andy lau lor... wy say she never can imagine tt wj can sing so well.... yp kana enchanted le... n me of coz lah... having a soft spot for guys who can sing n sing well... i was like... 'OMG!!!' ahahaa... hey, but that dun mean ANYTHING hor!!! but mayb i going to label him as my idol after my kor.. wahahahaa.... Mayb only.. hehee but hor... WJ.. brush up ur chinese lah... aiyo.. wahahaa

Then another interesting thing is yh lor.. he dun sing de mah.. then we dragged him to go ktv with us today.. n practically FORCED him to sing... then he kept crying that he ggave us his 1st time... his virgin voice... whahaha... actually he sing nt bad de lor... he dun dare only lor.. so soft... aiyo... suddenly i see a shy shy yh.. wahahahaha... nt very use to it sia..

then hor... we made yp n kg sing ming ming hen ai ni... when they sing.. we laughed.. wahahaha...

enjoy the day... feel relax.. haha

this is a song by 1st ladi - never be replaced.. shld be lah.. ahaha...
like the song the moment i heard it in Ebase Marina Square.. haha.. enjoy wo...

one week past again juz like tt... i'm broke!! wahahaa... coz need to pay for the laptop... starhub got this promotion mah.. upgrade intenet then got laptop for $299. hee.. then coz have been going out almost everyday.. spent $$ oso spent till siao liao lor... ahhaa...

Thurs, went watch movie with yt.. the show Perhaps Love... by Jacky Cheung, Zhou Xun and Jin Chen Wu... a very muscial type of movie.. juz like phantom of the opera like tt... n i like it.. not bad... story is quite nice leh... after that, went ah hui's hse had steamboat dinner with cm, cheryl, yt.... it's a late late dinner... hahaa... coz lcm n cheryl all came late mah.. cm got work b4 that..cheryl got mentoring meeting... so by the time we started eating is abt 10 plus liao lor.. eat till abt 1 sth.. ahahaha...

On fri, went shopping with yp n ly... go marina square... after renovation, marina square abit luan ar.. hahaha.... bought a new tortoise for my hp... lost my pair of tortoise le.. so nw get a new one.. hee... so happy....

then yesterday went tuition.. after tt come home,.. yt n xian at my hse... watch movie, watch show... then i cooked dinner for them... hee... after that cheryl n cm came.. all rot at my hse..

then today, later meeting yp they all study for tml quiz.. hahaha... n still got a few more reports to finish!!!

Wao, tired sia.. past few days... internet played tricks on me.. happy then let me online.. nt happy make me offline.. sian diao lor...

so many things due next week.. siao le... everyone chionging FYP report.. but ours like still haven do yet.. haiz... then got 3 reports due next week.. one data sheet.. one journal, then muz submit in the spinnovex poster by fri.... n next mon got another quiz... wao... sian... e-learning week got 2 tutorials, one big poj.... aiyo....

my ah ting ar.. went msia trekking for one day only... her leg bruised like dunno wat!!!! kaoz... dunno she go fighting or go walking de leh... muz make her guai guai stay at home these few days to prevent more injury.. but then again.. she at home oso will kana blue-black de.. hahahaa... suan liao... hahaa...

It's 0309... n i'm still rotting online... juz came back frm mentoring camp... juz bathe... waiting for hair to dry.. so come blog lor....

actually wanna stay overnight in sch de.. but then realised tt i got a test on mon.. so have to come home lor... though i dun c any difference coz now i still not sleeping... enjoyed the camp.. really sad tt i missed most of it coz of sch... poly changes the academic calender... so it's so different frm sec sch n uni... haiz.. tt's y now i trying to battle with my reports n quizzes... while my mentoring can have camp...

LOVE THE MENTEES!! hahaa... they were so fun loving.. so cute... really miss them sia... actually was thinking of giving up mentoring le.. coz i was so stressed up n so tired... but today.. go le... well... hard to give up lah... haha.. the sec 2s especially... they were so wonderful..
really proud of the graduated mentees.. like jason, wee keong, sebastian... the camp they did the planning, the leading... n heard sebastian is quite a leader.. gd gd... of coz there's certainly be hiccups... n things tt they missed out or didnt realise... hope they can learned sth frm this experience...

Coz i Crazy of the show 恶作剧之吻，the background music is the ending theme of the show... and of coz.. the lyrics... hee...

歌曲：恶作剧

歌手：王蓝茵 专辑：恶作剧之吻原声带

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险
请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

我才发现你很耀眼
请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧