It has been a busy week sia... fun filled and excitement and tiring... wahaha.. now i'm juz like a zombie... n need to sleep.... but when can i really fully recover all my sleep?? wahahaa...

here's my whole week...

22nd Dec
i decided to bake a bdae cake for HJM, so went to buy ingredients after work. at 1st tot no one acc me... so get JX come out acc me... who noes end up my colleague oso wanna join coz she oso wanna bake cake. Go out with JX very gd de.. auto will help u take things de... so i think guys with elder sis are really gd de lor.. they noe wat they shld do... wahaha... but then again... jason and weekeong oso dun have sis lor.. but they really noe how to take care of girls lor... mommy say.. 'gentleman' comes naturally in a guy.. be it he is a young boy or a man... so i cant juz help someone to give an excuse for his ungentlemanly act as coz he is still young... mommy say, 'look at jason, wee keong and JX, 3 of them younger than him leh.. (ok... she has someone in her mind tt she feels tt he is a lousy guy)... so can u still tell me coz he is young?' then i gt nth to say le.. wahaha...

Anyway, i reached home.. rot and wait for cheryl and yh to come.. by the tme both reached my hse.. n we start to bake cake... both come coz wanna see how to bake cake... then we tok, baked.. till 4am... n create a mess in my kitchen...

yh went back home after helping me clear up.... cheryl slept on my sofa...


the left over.. after decorating the main cake...

23rd Dec

slept till quite late... rot whole day at home with xian... then went ktv at night with HJM.. tt HJM... happily sleep till 4get my appointment with him... call him never picked up... i dunno to be angry or to be worried sia.. xian said if he is a gd fren... then be angry... if he is ur bf... then be worried... wahaha... anyway, coz the cake quite ugly.. so i made him come my hse n eat cake.. i refuse to bring it out... wahaha... then he has to come lor..
this is how the cake looks...

he waited for my parents to come home to bring him sth to eat.. then eat his cake.. then acc me, no shld say wait for me to finish watching saiyuki relaod 1st... b4 driving him back.. n tt was already 2am... come back home already 3am... i was online chatting till 5 am...

24th Dec

Slept till 11, then rot... then went shopping last min in junction 8 to get the necessary xmas gift and huijing's present.. get a thomas the train white board for bing bing... i already bought a game CD-rom for dylson le... then went big aunt hse... give the gift... rot till yx willing to come out... then go changi for huijing's chalet... abt 10 sth.. my bro 'gay frens' all come le.. we bbq.. suan each other.. then at 0000.. we cut cake... her bdae falls on 25th Dec... we got her a big powerpuff girls cake... n think she love it... did she? wahaha.. dunno... nice?

anyway mommy was scolding me.. say 21st yr old i go buy cartoon cake... but the thing is tt... u like tt cartoon.. no matter how old u still glad to see sth de mah... wahaha then we sit there play black jack till 5am.. slept at 6.. i think...

25th Dec
Merry Xmas... woke up at 8... coz tyx need to go for tuition... we made our way back.. tyx go tuition.. i go home sleep.. but dunno y.. i only slept for an hr or so.. then wake up liao.. juz lie in bed.. nth to do...
evening... went airport fetch yt.. my darling is back for gd le!!! wahaha... excited lor... my dad oso excited sia.. call me and ask me 'kidnapped' her down to his stall.. wahaha... then again... drag.. rot..chat... by the time i sleep was already 2am.. and i got work next day!!!

then rest of the week.. i slept at ard 2 am lor.. so whole week really like zombie... then realise one whole week no see yp.. finally... last night met her for dinner.. whahaa... one whole week no meet.. coz she change job.. no see her online..

my this weekend is filled with programmes again.. n hopefully i get enough sleep.. wahaha...

Juz came back from camp... 15 Dec - 17 Dec 2006 is our yearly mentoring camp.. got new mentors join in and of coz old mentors went crazy.. we had our fun times, exciting times, heart warming times, angry times, and of coz.. scary times... lotsa things lor... typed one whole day oso cannot finish.. on the whole... quite enjoy the camp... coz love to cook for whole lot of ppl.. then oso like to take care of ppl... wahaha... esp when i have to take care of my 'big kids' such as jason, wee keong, jian xing and yanxin... wahaha... overall.. camp was... smooth sailing.. wahaha..

Tues, went to Tampanies safra for dinner... then go TM shop. Saw my doraemon cup again.. really wanna buy.. but.... when i was still there thinking of buy or nt to buy... my nice bro bought it for me le... so good hor...he say he wanted me to buy sth tt is over 70 bucks de... dun mind buying me tt doraemon... tt cup cost only $7.90 lor.. so kind of bro... wahaha


Went watch movie juz nw with JX... I FOUND A HORROR MOVIE KAKI le!!! finally!! wahaha... cool lor... got ppl acc me watch horror movie le.. no need jm drag himself go liao lor.. wahaha... we watched 'Cinderella' the korean horror movie on plastic surgery de.. nt bad lah... hee

change my blog song to 183 de song.. their new album de song... though their album out for quite sometime... recently then i really go listen lor.. then fall in love with this song '为你征服全世界' .. is very nice... the melody like olden english song... nice nnice... wahaha

183club -为你征服全世界

忘了他 我说
真的不值得你难过
越忘记 从前的你快乐而且自信
就像是夜晚 你红着腮
连笑起来都是那么自然
迷人的双唇和眼神 如今却不在

就算有天他不在你身边 请你记得曾经的少年
因为那是独一无二的美 可以为你征服全世界

睡了吗 沉睡的你如此beautiful
忘了他 彻彻底底不再为他痴狂
我是这么乖 像个小孩
静静做着功课等着你的回来
你会带个糖果给我 谢谢你的爱

当你的心一点点地打开 让我还有资格去比赛
难免受伤难免有些遗憾 至少有天爱你会明白
我希望你会记在心里 你永远都是那么地美
不管对爱多失望 没忘记你是谁

don't you don't you lost my words no baby
你的背影胜过全世界 情给情的包是你的笑颜 可以为你征服全世界
把你的心一点点地打开相信 有天你一定会明白

睡了吗 沉睡的
你如此beautiful

Yesterday, went Junction 8 shopping. Mr Ben lah... ppl now is car salesman, then must wear nice nice.. can go out see ppl de.. and say need cuff links... n guess who paid? ME!!! we spent $95+ for his belt and cuff links... to think tt i only wanna pay for his cuff links... he lah... haiz.. my BROTHER!!! good rite??

Belt and Cuff Links ($95)


Cuff Links ($63+)


Belt ($31+)

Then went shopping... leather slippers got buy 2 get 1 free... so.. me, yanxin and huijing each bought a pair lor..

guess which is mine, which is tyx? hee...

Then saw a big doraemon cup... tall tall de.. with cover and spoon.. cost $9.90... but still thinking to buy anot.. haha...

Next 2 weeks will be a very bz week sia... 1st going for mentoring camp frm 15th - 17th... really looking forward.. then 22nd baking cake, 23rd meet jm, 24th go huijing chalet celebrate her bdae till 25th.. wahaha...

I'm free! free from tuition le.. wahaha.. quitted tuition center de job le.. coz very sianz.. dun wanna teach le... nw only got 2 pte tuitions.. enough le.. wahaha..

a week passed.. all the guys POP le..my life.. still the same lor.. work, sleep, work, sleep.. boss go china today.. next whole week wun be back.. then bryan (boss kid) came office these few days... then always come 'bully' me.. see!!! a 3 yr old oso bully me.. sad rite.. wahaha..

i got a surprise.. pleasant or not.. i dunno... he is back. he come find me.. as expected coz wanted sth... haiz... how shld i feel? how shld i response? haiz.. suan liao suan liao.. dun think dun care..

btw, my bro - ben starts selling cars.. 2nd hand or parallel import. Interested can contact him at 92778681 . Let him give u best service.. wahaha...

It's a long time since i last update wo. coz no mood... or shld i say lazy.. sianz lor.. coz every night come back so late le.. then watch tv, bathe.. then can prepare go sleep le. suddenly feel tt old liao.. coz by 0000 will feel damn tired.. then wanna sleep... cannot tahan till 1 or 2 le.. wahaha.. partly oso coz every night read book.. then lazy to come online.

I've quitted my tuition centre job.. so now only teaching pte tuition.. 2 nights nia.. not tt taxing le... ermm.. i mean more time to go out le.. wahaha.... nw sat n sun.. can see me at home everyday.. haha.. coz nth to do.. no one acc me out mah.. so might as well.. stay at home.. save money.. wahaha...

Have been reading chinese novels again.. then came across sth very meaningful... 《思念不只三天两夜》by 深雾
this is not novel.. is short stories... each story is a touching, sweet, yet sad de love story..and make ppl think it is closely related to reality.

“只要我还是想着你，不论是春夏秋冬，也都是四年的季节”
“当你自以为已经成功摆脱四年的时候，它已经偷偷从生活的细节中入手，慢慢，慢慢的进占你的每一天。”
“因为寂寞，所以想你。但是，我发觉，我越想你，就越寂寞。”
I love this: “到了今天，我已经不知道，我是因为寂寞而想念你，还是因为想念你而感到寂寞。”
dunno y.. when i saw tt phrase... i fall in love with it... mayb coz is closely related to me? haha.. dunno...

Was at JE tt day... a place i didnt go for a looooong time.. ever since i graduated? in fact, i didnt go the west side (including west mall, JP, JE) ever since i left SP... or mayb earlier... y... juz dun feel like going lor... mayb subconciously.. i dun wanna go there ba.. unless meeting yp they all.. i rarely go there le.. every corner there reminds me of lotsa things.. esp bukit batok and je mrt stat.

If i say i've forgotten everything... 我是在骗人，也在骗我自己吧。毕竟那是一段难忘的回忆。也许我真的忘了他的样子（说真的，他在我脑海里的样子真的很模糊了。），但那感觉仍然存在着，那温暖，让我觉得现在很冷。

好多时候，我以为其实那些是不久前发生的，仔细一想才发现已过了两、三年了。我们算是选择性的失去联络，只能在此说：“好好照顾自己”

today went sing again. this time with yp, wy, ly... hahhaa... when i say i wanna go out. my mom ask me.. 'with ur china guys again ar?? i told u how many times dun be so close with them y u dun listen?' haiz.. this is my mom...

anyway, yp facing such a big prob.. n of coz with her character. i dun think she able to tahan... haiz... poor thing rite?? cry everytime tok abt work... softer than me sia... as i say le... i nt flooder le... i learnt to be stronger... NO TEARS... whahaaha...

as for my work here.. suddenly very bz.. got alot of things to do lor... work for almost 9 mths le... very fast.. n started to hate boss.. hate the sight of my boss... wahaha... but wat to do.. he gimme salary de... so have to tolerate all his suaning... and insults... well.. i realise tt work in here... really muz be strong sia.. or else... boss say one thing jiu break down.. i think i've briken down dunno how many times le... i'm lucky to have lady boss behind me and of coz my china guys.. wahaha...

ppl are worried abt me.. coz i too close with my china guys... particularly OFM!! whahaa... yx even come ask me he got chance mah.. well.... i learnt NEVER say NEVER.. so... nobody noes wat will happen..if he got chacne... muz depends on how much he willing to sacrifice lor.. wahaha.. say as if real... he hates SG.. i dun like CN.. so quite hard lah... wahaha...

i only fa hua chi nia.. coz he is cool, funny.. he is cute and strong... he noe how to tok... and most imptly... he is someone to lean on.. when i really tired emtionally or physically.. though he dun understand wat i vexing over... ahaa.. but dun worry.. once bitten twice shy... i wun be like wat happened two yrs ago.. i will try my best nt to let history repeat itself...

Came back from a whole day of fun with my china guys!!! haha... well, quite enjoy day!! ly, yp and wy came to my cwp today.. then asked me wanna join them mah... of coz i cant.. i meeting the guys mah... who noes... thye say i zhong se qing you... wah... my pretty ladies...my theory is 1st come 1st serve lah.. wahaha.. next time advance booking... wahahaa... :p

1st, went to Tampanies Mall eat international buffet with FeiMin, Chen Ping and Chun Chen. The Pariss in TM had changed to FamilyInternational buffet and the price is cut half lor. Today os $22++ for lunch. The spread is not bad.... though still like sakura.. wahahaa.. coz the cake selection too little.. wahaha.. ok.. i'm crazy.. spend so much go eat cakes... Chen ping siao de... go eat so many oyster.. i wondering if he stomach can take it anot... wahaha... then feimin say he wanna try.... then after the 3rd one... he gave up.. he hates the taste... n YUCKS!!! wahahaa...

Then after tt we came back to wdl.. then FM say wanna go sing song.. he treat.. then we went sang for 4 hrs lor.. chun chen left to chinatown to send money back to china. me, chen ping and feimin went back wdl, met up with shen tong and wei dian(a xiao shuai ge) to go sing song. in there we went abit crazy.. n me listening to their china singers and songs... wahahaha... omg!!!! but still quite interesting lor...

tt FM... kept on disturbing me.. when i singing... he wld take a cracker and wanna feed me.. make me always no sing properly.. then say he treat me so gd... then i still heck him....*bish*
one thing is tt they smoke in the room lah... feimin and chen ping.... tt time went ktv with them.. i set a rule for them cannot smoke... this time they treat.. i no say.. haiz.. then fei min still can smile.. and say.. wei qu ni zhe ji ge xiao shi ba.. *faint*...

sometime m wondering... r we consider frens? or wat? we may seems close... but how much things he say is thr truth? and r we juz using each other?? well.. can i juz dun think so much... and enjoy the attention he showering me... and oso the care.. the fun.. the... everything he giving me? hahaah. dunno dun care...juz hope tt i will not fall too deep inside.. wahahaha....

DAMN!! Idiot!! DAMN DL!! stupid!

Today had a meeting, coz nw is peak season of my company...good lor.. solve all prob once and for all... then guess wat?! my boss is juz a TYPICAL MAN!!! TMD!! blame everyone else except himself!

1st, packaging - due to canda prob.. coz ANG MOs kia si, so dun wanna us put NON-Dairy creamer coz in there might have milk or milk pdts... is a big allergen... i agree.. so end up, our pdt are being recalled.. n need to change the packaging coz non dairy creamer is not exceptable.. ok.. good.. i changed.. when the artwork design is almost ready.. can burn to CD and let printer print.. he wanna change sth else.. so the printing has to wait again.... then when already things are almost done... he wanna add in sth else... GREAT!!! he juz cant make up his mind!!! then nw the pdtn need packaging.. but we dun even has the artwork fixed!! he blame me n my purchaser for nt chasing the suppliers!!! kaoz.. 1st our suppliers nt only helping us do design nia leh.. 2nd.. who are the ones kana curse by suppliers!!!??? n he blame us nt chasing them to be faster?! wat the !!! kaoz!!!!

nvm... then raw materials come in, they will have a pdt specs... n certificate of analysis... meaning the microbial content and the moisture content of tt particular batch... all along - even b4 i joined the company, there is NO SUCH THING as taking the raw material to test n see if the supplier gave the correct figures mah... he ask me how coem i didnt test the moisture of the raw material... i told him got COA.. he juz asked, 'u thrust ur suppliers ar? these things i need to tell u mah?? 你读书读到哪里去？' TMD!! the company DID NOT HAVE such practice.. n NO ONE TELL me is required!! and even if my sch got teach me CANNOT thrust suppliers, how i noe if the company got this practice anot!? WHEN NO ONE EVER TELL ME!!!!! BLAME ME! kaoz!!
if i make my own decision, he will say.. bu ya zi yi wei shi!! TMD then wat he want!?

Juz fed up.. juz nw really wanna shoot back him de... but my 'rice bowl' at stake... haiz.. suan liao... ren!!!! wait... till juz one fine day...

说女人难搞，我说中年男人更难搞！！！！！

吃饱没事做就再看一些以前的照片。发现了我和彦婷都蛮喜欢的一张照片。当时我们一起去泰国，就在一个瀑布，我，娴和婷就想一瀑布为布景合照。谁知，我妹，欣就非常好玩地坐在我们前面。照片冲洗出来时，我们三个竟然成了背景，欣成了主角。这张照片真的让我们笑了好久。这是好久以前的事。现在，人、事、物都变了。让我真的觉得好无奈，这世界没有不变的事，变得让我束手无策。
当时的我们，真的好开心。好想好想那一段日子。

偶然的情况下，我发现了去年我们为娴而制作的短篇。那是为了庆祝她的21岁生日。很快的，一年过去了。一年内，发生的事好多。多到我真的好没力再去管任何事，没力再面对任何突如其来的事。

一年前，我、娴、婷还是那么的亲近。即使婷身在远方，我们都不会感觉有距离。后来，娴选择性的远离我们。我们再也不知彼此的行踪，也不知彼此过得好不好。更不知彼此在想什么。为什么变成这样？我一直都在问我自己，可是我真的真的不知道答案。 我真的希望她会爱她自己，懂得更珍惜自己。

只能希望婷回来后，我们又能回到从前。那个什么东西、什么问题都会提出来的我们。

It's quite some time since i last appear. Anyway, whole week had been tiring.. coz Asmine going off to Korea for exhibition, then alot of things she gotta settle 1st lor.. n most of her stuff i'm doing lor.. wahaha... then we got the 2 main segments for our show.. so have to run up n down frm mediacorp. very interesting but TIRING.. haha...

anyway, for yx's bdae.. i wanted to buy a neckace for her... a white gold de.. so i went to citigems.. who noe the sales person intro me a pendant.. got little crushed diamonds in it de.. n was on sale.. i love it very much... end up.. i spend money again lor... to get tt set. necklace for yx.. n pendant for me.. wahaha... (ok.. we can share if she want) the whole set cost $176. Jm kept shaking his head.. haha.. coz i keep spending... haha.. he say i need to learn how to save.. hee...




btw, he is back le.. FINALLY!! but... he was being shifted to night shift.. haiz.. sadz rite?? well... suan liao lor... anyway, as promised... he really got me a tortoise lor.. cute cute de... then i put on my office desk.. but of coz will bring it back if i'll be away for long... coz scare ppl go take and hide it.. hahaa...




Hopefully he will be transferred back by next week.. hee.. got alot to tell him sia... thru sms very ex.. wahahaha... :p

It is almost lunch time soon.. bosses in meeting... so nw can tou lan abit... wahaha... ok..i everyday oso rotting. hee... anyway, yesterday is tyx bdae.. and went to eat till very full lor.. ala carte(dunno how to spell) buffet mah.. at Dragon Gate Restaurant. Food not bad..but i not really a big fan of Chinese food mah...

Last night i recieved a sms.. he sms!!! he didnt 4get me...wahaha.. he gave me his no. and also ask me if i m ok?... i told him wat had happen.. he said he was still thinking of lengthen his stay.. i tell him impossible.. coz here really cant tahan le... and of coz.. me n CP will sure die sia.. if he dun come back soon.. wahaha... he then back to his hao lian style.. say 'Jiu zhi dao mei you wo bu xing' haha...

siao liao...yp say wo zhuang dao ta le... my mei say wo zhuang dao hei qing le.. wahaha..

I very very de sian... nw working.. counting down the time to off work... Time passed so slowly these 2 days...

He left le... for 3 whole weeks cant see him... didnt noe time is so diffcult to pass w/o him. Maybe coz is juz the beginning, will slowly use to not seeing him ba...

every little thing will remind me of him... didnt noe he got such a great impact... oh no... jia lat.. me n CP r nw like drug addict w/o drug... hahaa.. he oso sian, i oso sian... i think he misses him more than i miss him ba... wahahaa... yet CP kept denying.. he say coz he scare i'll 4get him after 3 weeks.. so wanna kept reminding me of him.. haha...

both of us are waiting for his call.. jia lat sia.. one week haven finish.. we already sian half le.. dunno how to survive till he come back.. wahaha.....

Siao liao......

3 days 2 nights de chalet over le. This is the 1st chalet i went to tt i can sleep so well. y? coz 1st not many ppl... so i got the whole bed to myself, second i can sleep till 1200 coz nth to do.

Actually oso the most sian de chalet ba.. i was damn DL! 3 days 2 nights, organised coz the guys going into NS le, then they say wanna a gathering... at 1st wanna go Genting then end up working de cant get leave, got gf de, gf dun allow to go. so i suggest chalet. everyone agreed de lor.

so me n yp went ahead with the planning and then i was really looking fwd lor. guess wat when the date is near, one say no overnight, the other say can only come on sat and lotsa excuses. well... i REN!!

i organise de... so of coz i gotta go no matter wat lor. i took off frm my tuition then go there immediately after work. me n yp... were staying overnight on the 1st night nia lor. though end up yh n his gf came coz no bus back le...
Anyway, i noe yp sacrifice a lot oso... she came down all the way frm the west to east coz if she no come, TYL will be alone in the chalet. but sat morning she need to rush back to west again for tuiton lor. 我很对不起她 coz she was the one who always kana my temper... but i was really angry lor. i mean, u happily planned for a gathering, thinking tt everyone will appreciate and appear... coz long time no see.. end up... wat i got!? so if i happened to hurt yp.. i apologised... but still... no matter how good temper one person is will still be pissed de lor

Sat, all went off early in the morning abt 7am and I WAS ALL ALONE in the chalet. so i slept till 1200 lor.. nth to do oso mah... the saddest chalet i ever went to lor... JM say the bed muz be fantasitic sia... coz i spend so much juz to go n sleep.. i oso think so lor... then i was so fed up.. i walked all the way back to Pasir Ris MRT stat... juz to shop and kill time.

2nd day i tot finally got ppl come.. then can tok n play the whole night thru.. alot tell me they nt staying over... GREAT! so i spend so much book chalet is for my own pleasure nia lor... ppl juz attend some kind of BBQ party n go off lor... end up only 3 stayed... better than nth...

JM say the grp got no team spirit...n how come like tt de.. i oso think so... i start to think... the bond within the grp... is REAL de or wat... do we really feel bonded together? i mean shldnt everyone be as excited as me abt the gathering? or it juz me being kapo go plan... none of them interested anyway. well... as i say.. I M NOT ORGANISING ANY GATHERING ANYMORE... at least not for this grp of ppl... coz this time round i'm REALLY DISAPPOINTED in everyone..

Blame on me.. being too busybody to plan... blame on me being too suay.. to book at a time when everyone is not free(though everyone agreed on the date in the 1st place)... suan liao.. coz i really got nth to say.... no more strength and energy to plan and to do anything le... nw is totally 死心 le..

Kids are amazing!!! y do i say so? coz they are!!! they will make u dunno to cry or to laugh... wat happened??

today Asmine wanna give fei min a luggage, coz she dun want it le. wanna him bring over to china le, then throw away. my dad came drive me, so i helped him to take the luggage to my tuition center so he can come take it as it is nearer to his hse.

well, when my kids saw tt large luggage... the 1st thing they asked,"cher, where u going?" i juz tell them i'm running away frm them. they dun believe me... say i going to UK.. (pls note, to my students: big luggage = go UK, Germany, Italy) dun ask me y.. i was also puzzled.

then class started by me telling them that i'll tell them where i going if they settle down fast and do their work 1st.. they really gone in an amazing speed (a bunch of kpo kids, whahaa).. then fei min reached. he came and take the luggage. my kids got excited.. OMG!!!!

kept asking me if he is my bf. i told them he is not, he is only a fren, they say i bluff them. *faint* then i asked them to contiune with their work while i was outside helping fei min to see if asmine left anything impt de mah. my kids.... they really can be very gd paparazzi. they all peeking out from the back of the door, juz to see wat are we doing outside.

then got one will run back n tell the class... "teacher and her bf hug, hug" "they holding hands" and guess wat.. we were not even close enough to make any physical contact! omg!!! i went back into the class to get the class settle down and do their work.

one even ran out of the class and went str ask fei min if he is my bf in ENGLISH. Feimin was damn blur wat was she saying. *faint*

After feimin went off... they were asking me if he is my real bf? my 1st rxn was 'huh?' so i asked got things such as REAL bf and FAKE bf? she say no, only got REAL bf and EX - bf. interesting rite? juz a reminder, my class is a P3 class... so i wanna to noe wat they really noe abt Ex -bf and wat is a REAL bf. so i asked her to explained. this is her explaination:

Real bf: u go out together, hold hands, hug and kiss (eeekkkk frm the other girls in the class)
Ex bf: u go out together, he date u... but no hold hands, no hug, no kiss (eeekkkk frm the girls again)

my rxn: (-_-!!!)

nw then i realised the ex bf is not the ex bf we noe. is the X bf.. meaning everything oso cannot do de bf... (big cross)...

so kids are amazing rite??? so how shld i react??? to scold or to smile or to faint??????

HAIZ!!!!! TMD TMD TMD!!! damn du lan now... kaoz... y? coz juz feel this way lor... coz y? Happily oragnise things... feel so excited abt it.. end up getting cold/negative responses... how good will u feel???

Anyway, dun expect me to oragnise anything anymore.. i'm too tired, too fed up! coz dunno is i sway or wat... the dates i choose... always juz nice got clashes with other things de... best liao lor... then i have no rights to feel angry... coz always ppl got valid reasons to say cant go...

but still sometime i juz wanna be unreasonable abit lor... haiz... but sure kana scolded be unreasonable... kana blame to be ba dao... n better still tt person end up may seems like being 'FORCED' to go... haiz haiz haiz

not pin pointing who.. or wat.. coz ppl ard me all like tt... n i quite sian le... guess wat... every fri.. i would rather go back home (spend more on transport fees) to eat, or dun eat than looking ppl to have dinner... coz i know sure get 'No free', 'cant make it' blah blah blah for ans... n i usually dun quite like getting those ans... so dun like, then dun ask.. coz ask le sure will get these ans de...

what i hate abt myself if i tend to say 'NVM'!!! esp when ppl say 'sorry'.. coz i dun wanna ppl feel bad.. but end up... me myself burning inside... haiz... tt's y i hate the word 'sorry'.. it maybe a polite word... but to me... wat the use of saying sorry?? wat done cant be undone wat.. say sorry le... i still buay song.. juz tt... dun wanna say lah.. coz say liao... ppl think i xiao qi... unreasonable... haiz... SIANZ!!!

when ppl say sorry.. i have no right to be angry le.. coz ppl apologise le mah... aiyah.. suan liao lah... kaoz.. sianz lah...

Fri... Last day of the working week, last day of our freedom!!! coz boss coming back next week le... sadz...

Last night went shopping... wanted to change the crocs for Asmine's son. end up, got myself a new pair of shoes at $12.90...haha...

then walked further down.. went into Taka jewellery. At 1st wanna take a look nia... then shun bian see got nice nice chain to go with my star pendant mah.. coz all my chains are sliver de... wear for a few days become black black le.. so decided to see got white gold de mah... saw a few... but then was very ex lor... my 1st tot was... wah.. so ex how to buy.... end up i still bought at$100... i cant even believe i bought it lor... i spent so much to buy a chain..

wahaha.... not tyl rite? JM still ask me... i shou dao shen me da ji... i told him coz he whole week no reply my sms n too bz till heck care me lor.. wahaha...

wat i'm afraid most happened le... last night... CC sms me some wierd sms... then i asked him wat happen... then... he confessed that he likes me (in a way tt i dun like de lor.. coz he use the word love instead of like)... haiz... he say he likes me.. but he noe he sure fail.. coz he pei bu shang wo... i speechless... well... i did reject him straight away... telling him he shld noe best... at this moment, i juz cant accept a new guy. not coz he is a china worker.. is coz i still cant get out frm the past... but he no reply me.. then this morning... he no wait for me... he went home str after 0830... haiz... i dun wanna lose a fren juz like tt... i oso dun wanna this to affect his work performance... headache!!!!!!!

Today is our Annual RS-BP mentoring Cooking Comp... as usual... a BIG chaotic morning and 'boom' u see lotsa creativity and intresting dishes.

This yr is abit different.. the competition is design like a biz game... u r like opening a restaurant and muz take into consideration of the cost... and how much u price ur food, coz at the end of the day, the grp of the highest profit win. this yr got 2 winners.. 1 is the highest profit, the other is the overall presentation (taste, creativity and blah blah ) winner..

My grp won.. won the overall presentation.. hahaa... all the more prove to me tt i'm not a biz person.. haha... coz my grp made a loss.. hee... cost too high, price too low.. wahaha... me, jx, nisha, atiqah, afiq in a grp.. tt afiq.. keep saying he is the chef... esp when he heard tt we won... wahaha.. but in actual fact he didnt do much... juz helping here n there.. sometime dun even noe lost to where.. wahaha...

Life recently had been quite chaotic... work there so many things... so many things to remember.. i really scare i 4got some of the impt stuff... sep.. anytime AVA will come down for surprise inspection, channel U de 'Let's Party with Food' is going to start shooting in sep oso... so i muz prepare all the necessary pdts.. then exports there... coz they keep arguing wat is NON DAIRY CREAMER.. and wanna us to do admenments to our packagings... kaoz.. n my lab... aiyo... crazy liao lor...

the only relaxation is.. 2nd pdtn.. everytime go tok cock with them... wahaha...

I HATE HIM!!! I HATE HIM!!!
Two weeks ago, he msg me on MSN asking me abt sth.. 2 weeks later...i msg him on MSN using the same nick, same acct same email tt i've been using for years... he come n ask me who m i?! funny rite?

He called me on fri... which was 4 days ago... telling me he is sian.. wanna tok to me... telling me he still owe me a meal and movie.. n will do it b4 he go into NS.. ask me abt a song.. ask me to send him...
4 days later... today... i decided to send him the song.. i msg him on MSN.. he come n ask me who m i... wah.. amazing rite?? is this call fren??

m i such a failure as fren? or he is a failure?? haiz...

ppl told me may be a misunderstanding.. mayb his bro using his acct... well.. i dunno n dun care... too angry le!!!!!!!!

It's quite sometime since i last updated.. wahaha... n i'm back!!!! wahahaa.. i sounded happy??? yes!!! i'm!!! coz... i had a huge huge huge crush!!! omg!!! i'm being hua chi again... but wat to do!??! wahaha.. TYL mah... hee

ok.. wat's with the crush?? actually... long time got crush on him le lah... juz recently become BIG!! haha.. who?? Fei Min lor.. who else.. my Toro look alike... he so handsome lor... wao lao.... we had become very close.. coz i eveytime go up pdtn disturb them mah..and he got my no... n occassionally sms me.. n blah blah blah.. wahhaa..

recently he got his annual leave approved and wanna go back China... for 3 weeks.. so wanna me help him to check out air tix... n try to get air tix... tt day, he waited for me outside my tuition center... he is SOOOOO HANDSOME!! more handsome than he looked at work.. when he wears the company polo tee... waahaha... he was wearing a white collared tee... n jeans.. standing outside my center smoking.. waiting for me to knock off... (he passing me his air tix money)... so cool lor (ok.. minus the smoking part).... he dun have the typical 'china man' looks lor... satisfy my xu rong xin... wahaha... my boss came out saw him.. ask me 'ur bf ar?'... how i wish i say yep.. wahhaa... ok.. DREAM ON! wahaha..
we went off... then he treat me makan at 888 de coffeeshop.. then we bicker... n tok.. hahaa...

today he poor thing lor... normal 2nd storey pdtn got 3 ppl de... today 2 MC.. only left him.. alone.. so i kept running up pei him.. i call him my Ou ye ye... (his surname is Ou).. he call me gui sun zi.. (haiz... coz i like wu gui lor..) wahaha.

Sat, went to YH hse for a swim.. hahaa... wdl go habourfront for a swim.. i think only i so stupid.. wahhaa.. but there no ppl... somemore.. even the public showers got warm water de lor.. 1st time ever after a swim i no need to have a cold shower.. wahaha.. me, yp n wy decided next next week will go his hse swim again.. then we shall try the suana... wahaha...

poor yp... ku ming yuan yang... haiz... but i see roland.. he nt bad... though sth bad muz happened or else y her sis so violently object it??? but still.. she shld tell yp wat happen.. n let yp judge tt person herself.. n nt force her mah... i believe in yp.. she noe wat she is doing.. n she is the most zi ai girl i noe... so wat's there to worry.. yp is nt a baby.. she can judge a person... she noe wat is danger.. wat is not... dun see her like nua nua like tt.. she is actually a tough n stubborn girl.. y cant juz let her have a chance to make her own choice n decision?? even if it's a wrong choice.. at least she tried... n learn sth frm it lor... yp.. 我挺你！ hahaha... we all here support u..

Today went to watch 'The Lake House' with wy and yp. It's a great movie, and very touching. This story originates from a South Korean Movie 'Il Mare'(meaning 'The Sea" in Italian) (???, siworae) starring Lee Jeong Jae, Jeon Ji-hyeon in yr 2000.

I watched the Korean version a few yrs back on TV. Not tt i noe of this show then.. i was juz too bored... was flipping channels then i came across this movie.. call it fate! haha... Story is tt the male lead and the female lead was communicating to each other thru mails. but they are in 2 different time. they are 2 years apart. the similar thing is that they satyed in the same house, using the same mailbox... the storyline are similar.. though some small little parts are ddiffernt.. cant exactly say where.. coz a few yrs back le.. but still.. my two fav shows!! hahaa....

the different between the korean and the warner bros flim is that korean show, the house is by the sea... and the english version, the hse is by the lake... both houses are beautiful, and the scenery.... left me speechless... how i wish.. i can have a hse like tt.. hahaa... oh ya.. the dogs r different oso.. wahahaa...

Keanu Reeves is HANDSOME... Lee Jeong-jae.. ok lor... Sandra Bullock is BEAUTIFUL... Jeon Ji-hyeon is also BEAUTIFUL... hahaa

Here are the pics from both the movies... say... which is better?? hahhaa


The Lake House


Il Mare


The house by the sea


The House by the Lake


The Lake house


The Sea