Today had the 1st quiz of the sem... juz hope tt i did ok.. haha... having confident n reality is always different,, hehee...

These few days have been so crazy,... laugh till siao... everyday crap with zac, yh, wj, kg... sometime can laugh till stomachache de.. KG.. always famous of self-destruction... recently.. alot of them follow him self -destruct oso.. so we came up with this new term SDS - self-destruction syndrome... a new virus.. can spread easily de.. wahahaha....

Recently was crazy with a new show.. call 恶作剧之吻 by Zheng Yuan Chang n Lin Yi Chen... very nice.. funny... n zheng yuan chang... soooo handsome... esp when he tt kind of playful smile... n his tt wanna smile yet dun wana smile de 时候... 更帅！reminds me of...... well... nvm.. hahaha.....

that night.. was crapping with yh, yp n wy... n we came up with this Hall of Fame... call the 变态 hall of fame aka pervert hall of fame... ranking as below

0. YH
1. Zac, Terese
2. Wj, Wy, Yp
3. KG

Ranks r subjected to changes. Coz of threatening of the master... coz zac shld be 0 de.. n yh shld be 1 de.. but coz master was threaten.. so zac is demoted to 1, n yh promoted to 0.... hahaa

This week... i warched 2 movies... at 1st shld be 3 de.. but end up..didnt watch the 3rd movie.. mon went watch harry potter, wed watch Tom Yam Goong with LCM coz he got complimentary tix.. then tot thurs go watch show with Jm.. but then either the tix were sold out.. or no movie we wana watch.. haiz.. sian.. end up rot in PS with JM the whole day....

this week seems so bz... rushing thru a lot of things.. FYP, SPinnovex, Reports, Data sheets... haiz... headache ar... but wat to do... last sem.. our grp still haven not think of sth on IA... aiyo... jia lat sia... sian...

thurs... during EIC... our lecturer gave us a big scare.. haha.. i nearly sweared out loud.. hehee actually in SP almost 6 sems le... attended 4 LC modules... only like this EIC lecturer... the 1st time ever.. i wun drag to go for her class... the 1st time ever.. even late oso will rush to her class... coz she is funny.. n she is not boring.. n she wun make me feel like i'm attending ENGLISH lesson.. heee...

Today watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire at JP with Wenying, YeePei, Yanxin. We were so excited.. n really looking fwd to watch the show.... it's full hse.. initailly wanna watch 1630.. end up off sold out le.. so bought the 1800 tix..

then we went to food court.. have our dinner... n gossip.. cannot imagine.. WE CAN REALLY GOSSIP SIA... haha..

anyway, we went into the cinema 10 mins b4 6 i think.. n the crowd was.. WAO... think coz nw school holiday.. so a lot of kids lor... the 4 of us found our seats... n settled down.. behind us got 4 kids.. listen carefully.. 4 BOYS!!!

anyway, GV is famous to have an at least 10 min advertisment.. during tt 10 mins... the youngest boy of the grp behind us... ran up n down to the toilet for 4 times.. everytime he go he'll say "i too excited le, ugent..." in chinese.. OMG!!

here's another incident.. oso during advertisment
Boy 1: wao... the advertisment very long leh
Boy 2: aiyah, it's like tt... got at least 10 advertisment de
(yp n tyl n tyx already got water droplets le... yp say next time watch advertisment muz count)
Boy 1: wao.. then now advertisment no wat le?
Boy 2: shld be 7 or 8 le...
(TYL, TYX, YP, all faint)

YP say... next time we muz remember to count the advertisment... haiz...

then.. show started.. the no longer wanna go toilet... we THOUGHT FINALLY we will have peace.. but well... thru out the show.. we'll have a boy telling the other boys wat will happen next... with a volume whereby we can hear it clearly EVERY single word.. haiz.. so i say, we have a fortune teller... then yp say we can packed up n go le.. coz we noe wat happen le.. wahahaa..

the 4 of us.. feel like killing them sia... haiz... got one time.. we were so excited.. coz it was in suspense... dunno wat will happen.. then the boy behind juz say.. 'hey, he wun die here.. he'll die other place'... all 4 of us sank back into our seats.. secretly saying THANK YOU to the boy!!!

then halfway thru, a boy ask the youngest boy 'hey, this part is boring, u wanna go toilet? i acc u'
so.. the two boys ran up n down again.. to the toilet.. aiyo!!!!! finally, near the ending of the show.. credits haven even show hor.. the youngest boy ask.. 'so the baddie didnt die ar?' the 'mr. noe it all' boy replied, ' no... the baddie will die at the last last vol'... wao.. interesting... fortune teller tell us wat will happen not only wat will happen in this movie.. but oso in the future part....

For ppl who still wondering how come we can hear their conversations so clearly.. coz these boys dunno wat is call lower their volume... they spoke in the volume tt even if we dun feel like listening.. oso muz listen.. haiz...
SO much for a movie sia...

hmmmm... so late le.. i still online rotting.. juz finished watching vampire show mah... a date with vampire 3.. hee.. very lame.. very chim.. n oso very touching...

anyway, finished one of the report.. n data sheet.. tt is due on tues... fri de.. haven even touch it.. haiz... then muz do fyp de report... bz bz bz... think 1st quiz coming up le...

tt day Effective Interpersonal Communication class... teacher asked us.. we wanna be married/single/unmarried but live with partner... realised alomost whole calls choose married... as for me.. i chose single... a few yrs back.. if u asked the same qns.. i'll choose married.. but nw i wanna be single... coz i dun think i can find the guy who i love, n will love me de.... very difficult ba... simin once told me, i shld stop watching all my idol dramas.. coz it made me think n hope for a guy who dun exsit in this world de... hahaha...

actually wat i want is very simple mah.. i muz feel comfortable with him.. n i muz love him.. he muz love me... he muz be a man.. who noe when how to take care of me... protecting me.. yet muz be like a kid.. who will make me laugh.. will make me feel tt i have to take care of him... hee... as for i everytime say guy muz be at least 175cm.. is crap lah.. got means bouns.. no oso nvm... hehe... not much hor... but still cant find.. hahaa.. yanxin say this kind of man is out of the world.. ahahaa... then i shall be single!! hahaa...

This has become a dumping ground... where i dump all my complains here... coz i dunno where else can i dump le... all my frens all r already having headaches with their own stuff... so better burden them with more...

Very sian.. FYP not smooth lor... due to the SPinnovex thingy... we got lotsa extra work to do.. like the SPinnovex magazine write up.. blah blah.. then FYP report haven finish, more reports are dued soon... then this sem got another proj, IA.. we gotta think of a pdt which we can add flavour, muz do the packaging... it involves 3 modules!!! haiz... so many things to do... n i'm stress.. yet have to keep my cool... coz the more i kan jiong... the more i cant get things done de...

FYP tt chocolate.. haiz.. results r not wat they expected to be... n keep suspecting our methods... our calculations... we spent the whole holiday coming back everyday to do, then sch reopen le still doing lor... n the machine dun wanna cooperate... end up it took us longer time.. we worked till 6pm then leave sch.. n better still the wheather was against us oso.. w/o waring.. it started pouring while we were halfway to mrt station.. so... expected... WE WERE WET frm head to toe... n were so cold... we checked n re-checked n rechecked again to make sure there's nothing wrong.. n calculations do n redo n redo again... arghhh... wat else can we do? the results r like tt wat... haiz

then things didnt help at all when i quarrelled with lcm tt day.... sian lah.. dunno wat's with him.. dunno wat's with me... haiz... wat i need now is comoforting words... to make me calm down, relax.. so i know i can cont'd with my work... i noe i can do it de.. is juz tt too many things happen at 1 time.. i started to suspect my ability... wat i want is juz comofrting words.. letting me noe no matter wat... my frens... those i considered impt will be there for me.. i dun ask much wat... haiz.. suan liao.. back to my work le...

Wao.. cannot imagine it!! our project was selected to exhibit in SPinnovex 2006 which will be held in Jan (19th - 21st) dunno to feel excited or wat... haiz.. coz ms toh told us today that our project will be on of the highlighted project.. meaning we'll be videoed... n a lot of extra stuff lor.. our grp, n matthew's grp.. frm wat i noe...

haiz... report yet to finish... more reports coming in... n nw this.. my final sem is not easy sia... feel tt so many things piling up.. n now i muz start work le.. but i juz cant bring myself up to work!!! where is my motivation!!!??? argghhh.... i need to start my work le... haiz... sian

today, my students all fly me aeroplane.. so i no need go work.. haiz.. $30 less... sian... but wat to do.. they after exam liao.. ppl withthe right sense of mind wun go tuition de lor.. wahhahaa.. sianz...

these few days wasnt in very gd mood.. so ppl somehow or rather... kana my idiotic attitude... i apologise here... wahaha... very moody recently.. abit of thing oso can piss me off.. ting asked if it PMS... i say mayb.. hmm... but i think i noe too well y i so moody ba... haiz..

really thanx ppl who beside me.. no matter if they 有意，无意... those who make me laugh n forget abt wat m i moody abt.. hahaa.. thanx zac, hang, wj, n kg.. for the idiotic, funny n crazy toks.. wahahaa... they really can make one 4get things... thanx ly, yp, xh,wy.... entertaining me... tolerating my moody behavior.... thanx my darling ah ting... hehe... always there to listen all my complains... all my whinings.. (sopmetime oso scold me for being stupid.. hjahaha) n lame me.... ok.. this 'lame me' portion.. i think above mentioned names.. all did it... n really can lame me till i cannot get up de... wahahaa.....

Change the background to blinking stars... think not so messy liao.. wahahaa...
Anyway, also change the song to MayDay - Ya Guan (牙关).. Like this song alot.. very nice... lyrics wise... oso not bad.. hehee....

牙关
演唱:五月天
词：阿信 曲：怪兽

放肆的尽情挥霍 那一年玩的多疯
你和我 站上全世界的最快乐 的巅峰
等着雨停的午后 你希望此刻永久
而现在 永久就是永久的牢笼
让我一直在等候 等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待 ..

然后咬紧了牙关 等待更多的等待

如果你 爱过我 你不会就这样走
就这样 丢下我 和那些天真承诺
如果我 再也不 不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后 却又咬紧牙关

你最爱哪个歌手 最爱吃什么火锅
最爱把 小小的脸 轻轻的靠在 我胸口 　
这城市每个角落 回忆都霸占街头 　
我知道 你会想起雨停的时候
我知道你会回头 等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待 ..

然后咬紧了牙关 等待更多的等待

如果你 爱过我 你不会就这样走
就这样 丢下我 和那些天真承诺
如果我 再也不 不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后 却又咬紧牙关 继续漂流

继续等候

Today, after pract... was still early.. so went to JP have lunch.. with ly, wy, yp, xh.... well... crap most of the time... wahahaa... hmmm.. always very depress when i at JP.. but of coz.. with the girls ard.. never a dull moment....

xh accidentally dropped a bowl of prawn noodle... n juz nice my bag was there... so end up.. my bag got prawn smell.. prawn flavor.. wahahaa.. yp told me ly is crazy abt prawn.. so sure love my bag.. hahaa...

we went walking ard in JP.. looking at everything n anything... typically rotting... then we went into value $ shop... didnt find anything interesting... then we saw the machine.. tt u put in $1 coin.. got capsule come put.. then inside got cute cute figurine de.. i told them my sis juz bought one orange de.. then yp n wy were the 1st to be so excited.. coz it was cute.. it's the smilely got head tt can nod de.. hehe... anyway, wy put in the coin 1st, n she got a yellow de... then yp tried.. nshe got a pink de.. then ly got orange de... then xh went to exchange for coins.. coz she oso tempted le... she got a blue de... then i oso exchange coins.. n guess wat.. i got the dang ou's colour.. wahahaha...for those who dun watch frog prince n dunno wat is dang ou colour, it's green.... hee then xh wanna play again... n she got the same green de.. hehee... wanna get it for th.. wahahaa...

then we say mon, we put tt on our bags.. wahahahaa

anyway, went back home.. sleep a while.. then go out west mall meet JM.. long time no see this guy le.. finally he this man wanna come down frm his hill top n come meet me... tell him alot of things.. frm huixian's recent problem.. my recent problem... blah blah.. i think i was the one who did most of the toking sia.. hahaa.. he listen.. he always listens... no matter how i keep grumbling.. he always there to listen.. BEST FREN!! hahaa.. anyway, he seems to be very troubled... ask him wat.. he juz say sian... hmm.. so i gueess... coz now exam period.. then he damn sian lor.. juz hope he after exam then ok le... :p

tt day, went over to find yihang n zac during lunch break.. coz i running away frm sth n someone.. so left frm fc 1 to fc 3 to find hang n zac... didnt have lunch tt day.. coz too many ppl so very sian... n oso no mood to eat...

anyway, was crapping with zac n hang... was toking abt wat to do after we graduate... for the both of them of coz go NS... as for me.. i'm very tired of studying.. so of coz go work le.. then hang tell zac i wanna open cafe... then i told them i changing my mind.. i wanna open steamboat restaurant... then hang say can get food supply for zac.. hahaa... zac say he gimme cheapest price.. haha.... so my shop haven open.. already got supplier liao.. wahhahaa..

then they were toking abt going overseas to study after NS.. of coz.. tt 2 rich boys... going overseas of coz no prob.. haha.. i was thinking.. if i work for the 2 yrs when they in NS.. mayb i can save enough to go study after 2 yrs with them... provided i earn enough n save enough.. hahaha... i told them... they say.. of coz... we go NS.. u work.. then got money.. we 3 go study together...
they go find apartment, buy car... i resposible for their 3 meals.. then i say they go buy everything.. wahahaa... zac say.. at the end of 1 yr +... i'll be the richest of the 3.. hee...

actually.. above was really crapping.. though really have in mind to sudy.. TYL.. though keep saying very tired le.. wun be happy if she didnt get degree de.. haiz.. human beings r always so 矛盾 de.. however.. really muz c financially if i'm able anot... money is a very very big prob.. esp 1 yr + not in SG... cant work... have to use my savings n parents' money.. hmmm... well.. we'll see how lor... hang.. dun come after me if i cant make it at the end of 2 yrs.. hahaa... then u n zac.. happy 二人世界吧. hee....

Time flies... one yr passed.. last yr.. at this pt of time, i was preparing... to leave for Bangkok, Thailand for ITP for 5 weeks... one yr flew passed juz like tt....

一年前的今天，我出国的前一天。
一年前的今天，我们最后一次高高兴兴地出去的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次打电话给我问我你该穿什么出门的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次在电影院里让我靠的一天。
一年前的今天，我最后一次在你怀里撒娇的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次抱着我说‘一个月很快就过去’的一天。
一年前的今天，你给我你那温柔、可爱的笑容的最后一天。
一年前的今天，你拉起我的手的最后一天。
一年前的今天，你紧紧搂着我的最后一天。
一年前的今天，我们快乐时光的最后一天。

well... one yr le... yt said it's not tt i cant forget, is i dun want to 4get.. haha.. well, mayb ba.. but wat i noe for sure tt this will be part of my memory... for a long long time... i wun hold on to it though.. hee... today shall be the last time i mourn for this loss... today is the last day, i'm going to cry over this matter...

Today rot whole day at home.. still playing warcraft.. this time frozen throne.. ahahaha... jia lat... addicted till siao le..
anway, forced myself to look at the FYP experimental results... haiz... all wierd wierd de... the results are not the same as wat they claimed... jia lat.. dunno is we do wrongly.. or the nutrients r lost somewhere during processing... haiz.. now having headache.. dunno wat to do with the results le...

mommy complained tt i didnt help her out in hse work.. only noe how to play game... haiz...end up she wanna me to hang out the laundry for drying lor.. then i do lor... since she complained liao.. dun do... she will nag 4eva de... those who come my hse b4 will noe tt my hse dun use those bamboo kind to dry laundry de.. we used those foldable kind de... then can hang in balcony to dry de mah... i pushed the hanger to kitchen to put up the laundry.. then was abt to pushed back to the balcony.. the thing suddenly collasped... n folded up. n better still with my finger stucked there.. SO PAINFUL!!!!! i was screaming.. then mommy ran out frm her room.. she saw me n the folded hanger.. she scolded me...say do one thing oso make so much noise.. haiz.. my finger pain leh.. then i tell her i hurt my finger... very painful... she say ask me do one thing i go hurt my finger... while pulling my finger n see how bad it was...

OMG!!! as if i beg tt thing to injured my finger de leh.. wao lao... my finger so pain... i not so stupid to hurt myself juz to escape frm hsework leh.. haiz.. my finger swelled... n so painful.. even touch lightly oso feel the pain.. now i'm typing with my 4th finger high up in the air.. ahahaha...

juz nw after hurting my hand.. my mom put some overdued medication on my hand.. then say as long as i dun put into my mouth... i wun have any fatal danger... (-_-!!) then i cont'd with my frozen throne... she saw... she say.. wao.. hurt finger le still can play ar... then i showed her how i hold my mouse... hahaa... she almost fainted.. n heck care me .. hehee...

nw it's swelling no more... but still pain... haiz.. but i still wanna cont'd with the war.. wahahahaa...

SCh reopen.. but coz this week got 2 public holiday.. n oso the 1st week of sch.. so nothing much in sch... we seem like having hoildays for an extra week... mon go sch.. then tues is deevapali, wed no class.. but go do FYP, then today (thurs) hari raya, then tml(fri) no pract, so no sch... wahahaa...

Finally finish the experimental part of FYP... now left report n posters for the SPinnovex.. hahaa.. this sem got another big proj... call the intergarated assignment (IA) which concern the grades of 3 modules... aiyo... n muz work in grp of 4.. I HATE starting of sch sem.. where we nned to look for grps... haiz.. suan liao.. life is like tt... 人在江湖 身不由己。we cant do lotsa things in our own way.. like wat yp say.. yi da ju when zhong... haiz...

these few days, wasnt in a very gd mood... hse got lotsa things happen... uncle hospitalised, but he discharged yesterday le.. daddy leg pain, yet no time go get injection... then gotta work more than 12 hrs a day... then me myself facing lotsa prob... sian sian sian..... juz hope things r not wat i imagined... juz pray hard tt it's me who is thinking too much....

hmmm... iwebtunes no more le.. so no songs.. then finally found another way... hee.. then got song le... this song is Bye! Boy by 7 flowers... it's frm wang zi bian qing wa OST de.. hahaha.. n I HVAE FINISHED THE WHOLE SHOW!!!! so happy... coz ending so sweet so nice... yes.. a lot of ppl dun like the show.. coz they feel tt it is too fairy tale... too kua zhang.. BUT!!! pls take a closer look at the cover of the VCD, it write: 一部美力，童话般的爱情故事。they already stated there le... it's a fairy tale.. so ppl who dun like can jolly welll dun watch.. dun go watch liao.. then keep condemning it... say it's so not realistic, blah, blah, blah... FAIRY TALES R NOT REALISTIC!!!
ok.. finished on my wang zi bian qing wa le.. hehe...

Now... today is the day on huixian's 21st bdae celebration... we planned for a mth.. to give her a surprise party... her mom got the place.. my job is to drag her time till the real party started!! so i met her in the morning, we went bugis... telling her lotsa lotsa lies.. making her worry n sad.. then make her try clothes.. till she tired.. then bought her a dress... hee.. actually we planned to give her a make over de.. hehee... the yx very naughty.. 1st tell xian she got bf le.. n was quarrelling with him... then tell her tt we helped her make over was coz tt at night we going for a match making session... to think tt TYX can coem out with this kind of idea!! so stupid lor.. but my dear ah xian really believe it lor.. thru'out the shopping trip, she was so worried... n so stressed.. so scared tt her legs turned jelly n need the support of pillar.. wahahahaa.... ( i not kua zhang!! she reallly damn scared... )

then we actually booked an appointment with estee lauder.. for a make up.. for xian de.. who noes... tt make up lady went for dinner... when we reached!!! n WE WERE RIGHT ON TIME... we booked 4pm.. then they told us tt the make up lady's dinner time is 4pm.. if this is the case.. y didnt they inform us earlier when we making the appointment!? haiz... n the person there dun evenbother to help us think of a solution!! OMG!! end up... we do it on our own.. ok lah.. not we.. is xian herself n cheryl.. hehee... TYL of coz cant help ppl make up de lah.. sure cmi de.. hehee

today can say not very smooth lor... coz 1st the make up thing.. then yx called n say the place cant play the movie we made for xian!! i almost fainted... yx spent so much time on it,... n we cant play!!! end up.. thanx to cheryl's laptop n projector.. then we can watch... really muz thanx cheryl.. she did lotsa things today sia.. CHERYL THANX THANX.. MUACKZ.... hehee u saved the say.. haha...

anyway, when xian reached Yishun Safra... we met her mom!! suay!!! they not suppose to meet de lor.. haiz.. tot our surprise failed le.. but.. hee... she never tot tt so many ppl were there.. when we went in.. she was shocked!!! she bursted into tears!! coz she didnt expect so many ppl were there.. tt was the 1st shock.. 2nd shock was tt her two best frens frm taka (Brian n Kaiting) came... she was so surprise... coz she didnt noe how on earth i can contact them.. heee (this call, tyl is resourceful, hahaa) then the finally shock... which made her cry till dunno wat.. is the video, the video we made.. made her laugh.. made every1 laugh.... it was YT's LOOONNNNNGGGG NAAAAGGGGGGGGYYYYY video tt made her cry till dunno like wat... cheryl n i was so worried abt he make-up getting smudge.. haha..
Yt.. we didnt finished the whole video lah... half way thru, my aunt ask.. how come yt so naggy de.. hahahaa... :p wahahahaa... but i think will finish watching it once she reach home...

can say was a success... with little hiccups... then she got her surprise.. i think quite unforgettable ba.. hee...

hmmm today the party was held in a ktv room.. n i realised tt xian's cousin can sing well.. very nice... n for the 1st time in my life.. i didnt get the hold of the mic... haiz...一山还有一山高。。 his stamina better than mine sia.. whole night he singing.. hahaha.. n i no chance get... hahaa.. ermmm... no no.. is coz i shy.. dun dare to sing in front of so many pple.. haha....

tml sch start le.. so fast.. haiz... think i'm falling sick.. tml get MC.... wahahaha

I'm back.. frm Genting... well, Cheryl 4gotten tt i went off... to think tt she was trying to contact me for the past few days... haha... anyway, it's a long time since i went to genting... changed quite abit...

this time round.. i can openly go into Casino... n of coz.. the security wanna check my IC (as usual).. n i proudly showed him... whahahaa.. coz tyl is 22 le.. juz tt ppl dun c it only... hee.. actually dun quite like casino... coz very smoky there.. yucks... played jackpot.. lose all the way!!! sian... guess i juz dun have the luck...
didnt go to the outdoor theme park.. as it's only me n my sis wanna play, will play n dare to play...n we felt it's like not fun lor... scream oso we 2 scream.. not high... so might as well dun go... end up we went to wacth movie... it's sooooo cheap.... RM8.. which is less than S$4... watched Andy Lau's latest movie, Wait till U Grow Up (童梦奇缘).. A NICE MOVIE!!! really very nice.. muz go watch... very touching... a movie tt really have depth... one phrase 人生可悲的是不能重来，可喜的是它不用再重来。JM used it as his nick.. i tot he suddenly become so 有墨水... chey.. copy de... hahaha...

anyway, i stopped over at Malacca (b4 going Genting, n b4 coming back to SG)... i today i kept emphazing on the fact tt i was in Malacca... i think LY almost went crazy.. hahaha... i purposely kept tellng her i at Melacca mah.. whahahaa...

At Genting.. saw this huge Doraemon outside a shop... i went crazy... n wanna take photo with it.. then tyx say very xia suay... coz we in shopping centre... then we bet to c if Ben will wanna come xia suay with us mah... who noes.. he agreed... to help us take photo... hahah.. then me n tyx really go posed in front of tt doreamon lor.. hahahaa


saw lotsa stuff.. but didnt buy.. coz thailand cheaper.. I MISS THAILAND!! so i muz really save for my thailand trip! hmmm.. no more KTV.. n ex ex meals... so dun jio me go to those ex ex places... unless necessary.. hahahaa...

dunno wat happen to lcm... heard frm cheryl he was depress... then go ask him.. he dun wanna tell.. then since he bad mood.. i acc him play game... then oso dunnno wat happen.. suddenly, he say i fan!!! kaoz.. i'm juz tooo stupid to show concern over someone who thinks i'm fan lor... haiz... sometime i was thinking y i like to torture myself.. caring for this kind of ppl.. haiz... sian sian sian... then now he gimme attitude.. wao lao... haiz.. suan liao.. next time i juz heck care every1... no need to show concern to any1... coz end up ppl will juz say U FAN!

Finally, i'm back online.. idiotic internet connection.. dunno wat happen.... juz cannot contact for the past 2 days.. n i cant come online... then was so sian lor.. now then i realised how addicted to comp.. to internet.. once i dun have internet.. i bored to death sia...

sat.. after tuition.. realised nobody at home.. so means no dinner... haiz.. call tons of ppl.. all cant make it.. everytime like tt de.. anyway, I FAILED!!! haiz.. i smsed him.. though no reply frm him ( as usual, dunno wat excuse he giving again), i still fail.. coz i contact him 1st.. haiz.. suan liao..

anyway, coz nothing to do.. alone at home.. no internet.. so started playing warcraft again lor.. haha.. actually finished the whole campagin liao.. but too bored mah.. so start the whole thing again.. well, i'm addicted to it again.. oh no... sch reopen soon.. now addicted means jia lat le.. ahahaa....

tyx n tyw came home.. so we called pizza home delievery.. too lazy to go out le lah.. somemore sat night.. sure lotsa ppl de.. i hate places packed with lotsa ppl.. so... asked them come back.. we call home delievery... mommy came back.. she faint lor.. coz she say we eating junk food again.. hahaa...

Today results are out... i did.. ermm.. average lor.. though of coz... still lower than my expectation... so abit disappointed... n hence, whole day not in a very gd mood lor... abit sian.... coz have not been doing well since yr 2.. going to be last sem liao... already got no strength to carry on... coz input never = to output.... ppl only c results.. only see grades.. not gd, they will start asking, 'how come so lousy?'.. 'u didnt study ar?'.. 'u slack izzit?' cant they see the process? how much time n effort ppl put into? grades... do they really indicate ur cabilities?? but wat to do.. we r in SG.. n SG require to look at GRADES!! wat they want is the outcome not the process.... i'm really really very tired le.. guess will not cont'd to further study liao...

then during lunch.. my mom n bro nagged me the whole day... i was so fed up... haiz... nv have peace sia... then my mom tell me sth... i was stunned... now i'm scare... really scare... dunno wat to do... i feel so lost... my mom said... daddy had been complaining tt his arms r numb. then tt day went c doc.. doc say mayb symptoms of stroke... so wanna him go for a brain scan... i noe nuts abt this.. wat i noe is tt my dad is not as energertic as b4.. but this is normal.. since age is catching up.. now i get to noe this.. i'm totally stunned!! wat m i doing?! i was always the most sensitive de... can noe wat's happening ard me.. but how come now like tt?? have i been not caring for my family for a long time? i dunno.. ah ting got ask me if i ok today mah.. i told her i'm fine.. coz i really dunnno how to explain to her abt my fear... my fear of losing my dad.. the one who will laugh, will bully me, will fight with me de... the one who will bring me ard.. telling me where got nice thing to eat.. the one who will bargain for me..

i feel so lonely suddenly... i dun wanna tell mommy.. coz she herself facing lotsa problems... n i dun wanna burden her with somemore.. n oso dun wanna scare her.. coz she is oso really afraid tt it's really stroke... it's juz tt she dun wanna say it out.. she told me... 'it's time u really have to grow up le'...

i'm so idiotic.. 当我家可能面对极大的考验时，我还只为了一个不懂得珍惜友谊的人而伤心。comparing them.. i'm stupid for being sad for such a small matter... haiz... no way i'm thinking abt any relationship.. no way thinking abt how come he become like tt or watsoever... now wat i'm going to do is to find ways to help my dad to prevent or delay the onset of stroke!

Haiz... really very sian... everyday go sch.. juz hope to finish the experimental part of our FYP earlier... then today... tt Fibretec spoil... then cant do... haiz... our progress is delayed now lor... the at 1st dun wanna follow mommy they all go genting.. coz scare cannot finish.. but after we plan our time properly... our last week is free... HOWEVER, now tt machine break down... our last week of sch have to go back sch...

then last week.. mon, tues, wed... lab close.. coz renovation.. so cant do oso.. juz nice.. the dates they going genting.. so end up i still follow them lor... hmmm... go up there relax, n have peace ba.. n do some thinking... n clear everything out frm my mind ba.. mayb.. juz mayb.. hahaa

anyway, on the way back.. saw a familar face.. but cant remember who.. so i juz heck care lor.. who noes, he come n call me... n i looked at him.. n realised it was my pri sch classmate, joker.. aliman.. last time, i was in very gd terms with him.. he everytime sure do things to make me laugh or amaze de.. hahaa.. he remembered me.. n still call tell his gf my name.. hahaha... amazing.. hahaa..

then met mr peng, cheryl at cwp at night, mr peng... juz come back frm thailand.. hahaha.. of coz got buy things back for us lah.. so nice of him.. hahaa.. thanx, ah hui.. haha... actually was quite surprise tt mr peng yong hui, darren remembers i like doraemon... hhahaha... so touch.. so happy.. hehe... he bought me a doraemon mat... n bought cheryl eeyore.. haha...

after tt we go meet LCM.. then was chitchtting.. n we plan n hope to go thailand in dec.. jio them go in march after my exam, they dun want... they say go dec.. hmmm.. hopefully i wun be too bz to go.. hahahaa... then we'll shop for our new yr clothes!! hehee...

went thru a lot of photos... saw photos tt r 20 yrs ago.. 10 yrs ago.. or a few yrs back.. n guessed wat.. saw LCM's 19th bdae cake.. n realised it was so cute... we so gd to him ar.. made such a cute cake for him.. hahaa... then saw my 21st bdae photos.. though it's juz last yr.. but seems like long time ago le.. coz tt one yr.. lotsa things happen.. n when looking at the photo, a lot of memories came into my mind.. n i still can feel the pain in my heart.. haiz... if i can stop the time.. i really wish time will stop at one yr ago... b4 i went thai.... but i cant... n i have to move fwd.. so... cannot think so much le....

well... time to go n sleep le... if think so much.. cant sleep.. then jia lat.. hhahaa

Morning went to Riverside.. to talk to the graduating classes abt the alumni mentoring... 1st time tok in front of so many ppl lor.. me legs were so wobby.. lucky thing... nt to the extend of making me fall down sia.. hahaha.. me n cheryl went.. after the talk.. cheryl then tell me she oso scare.. oso got jelly legs.. hahahaa....

i dunno if the tok is a success mah.. coz didnt stay till the end.. n oso... jason wee keong they all come sign up mah.. they say they joining us le.. but apart frm them.. really dunno still got who joining lor..

went sch do fyp.. today xh leg cramp.. cant go sch.. so ly whole morning 1 man show.. really li hai sia... hahaha... n oso muz thank yp... she came down n help ly out.. think can liao.. i can leave the stuff with them n go holiday liao.. hehehe.... since ly can 1 man show all the way.. n finished so many stuff.. hee..
however, the dietary fibre machine... feel like strangling it lor... TMD.. so slow.. was filtering for 3 hrs.. still cannot!!! do till 1830 today lor...!!! kaoz... idiot de leh... so fed up...then end up i no time go home have dinner... muz go tuition le...

today class.. as usual... NOISY! was very tired liao lor.. rushing here n there the whole day... then they make so much noise!!! kaoz... haiz...

a few days ago.. saw this cute little tortoise hp accessory at More Than Words.. so cute!! so nice.. fall in love sia.. but it's $5.90.. ex lor.. then oso come across the same tortoise pencilcase... so cute n nice oso, however cost $9.90... haiz... really wanna buy... but like abit ex hor... dunno lah... LY fall in love with tt tortoise hp accessory oso.. she say c who 1st to buy.. hahaa.. i say wanna c who wanna buy for me... but she say if like tt.. sure she 1st to buy de.. coz nobody will buy for me.. haiz... nvm... i'll consider if can buy mah.. i go buy for myself.. heehe

I got the worst news of the century today!! My mom told me she wanna my sis to come back to my room to sleep with me!!! Oh No!!!! For those who noe my hse pattern.. u all shld noe tt my sis had left my room to slp with her bro (my bro oso lah) more than a yr ago.. since then i've been sleeping alone in MY OWN ROOM!

i put up my 5566 posters, filled the whole room with stars, doraemon n pigs.. now... today... my mom come n say.. she wanna change my bed frm horizontal to vertical.. so me n my sis can sleep side by side!!! OMG! this is still ok.. then my mom say room is divided into half.. so the wall oso.. which means i have to take down my 5566!!! NO WAY! haiz

tt sis of mine.. tot she can conqure her bro's room... so moved over.. but my bro's empire too powerful... she cant conqure.. so now.. she using my mom's power.. together.. they wanna conqure my room!! so sad... i think i'll end up chase to go sleep balcony le.. sob sob... poor me!
then my mom now shifting it.. n guess wat.. half of my bed in underneath the platform... n where i put my doraemon n stuff?! the acc me everynight de lor!!! kaoz... haiz.. sad sad...

think cant sleep tonight liao... with extra member in my room... sianz...

everday go sch.. really very sian liao.. tml start, have to go sch 0830.. more sian..wat to do.. tt machine testing for dietary fibre de... need 8 hrs... so have to be early lor.. or else dunno muz work till wat time.. haiz...

today yp broke down again.. haiz.. this girl.. dunno muz tell her how many times.. dun think too much.. dun give herself unnecessay stress.. but then again.. aiyo... i think a lot of them kana scared by her lor.. KL for sure.. kana scared... the WJ n kg oso i think.. they tot they were the ones who made her angry n cry.. hahaa.. n of coz.. other ppl looking at them.. oso will think it's them de... hee...

hmmm.. we muz try nt to let yp think too much... she got too much on her mind le.. 忘不了的往日情，太多自己给于自己的压力... haiz... poor thing... but ly say she improved alot le.. at least tt tear glands nt as loose as b4 le.. mayb a few yrs down the road.. she can ren... hahaha...:P