Seems like i've juz started sch... n nw, i'm preparing for exams... the good and bad thing abt this course is, u wouldnt noe or notice wat date or wat day... u will only noe, datelines and exam dates.... b4 u realised it.. u r graduating le... wahaha... okok... i'm dreaming...

alot of things happen ard me this new yr... which i'm happy, yet at the same time lost and mayb teeny weeny of sad... n lonely?

1. Things in my family r getting better... i noe my family is gonna do very well this yr!! n really... i can see the efforts and i really do appreciate each and everything he/she did! n i tell u... nth can pull me away frm my family! I simply love them, esp tt super genius sis of mine! she can make me angry, make me sad, make me suffer, make me feel stupid... but she can NEVER make me stop loving her! in fact, i'm loving her more each day!!!


2. ppl ard me r moving on... and found their happiness... which i'm happy for them. getting married, r/s growing stronger and stronger, new found love, new found life, having the fruits of their love... moving on after a heart break.... juz noeing tt they r moving on... having another purpose in life.... it is a good thing....


3. getting more n more used to sch life... and mixed well with my classmates, though i very much wanted to be the same class as my bffs... i like my class nw! i think my class is more fun and more craziness and more talentS!!! wahahaha...


4. I no longer believe in love, n settling down is the last thing in my mind. Though i did toy with the tots of settling down during the 1st week of CNY... but well... it lasted for a week only. seeing my close frens (singles) are seriously looking out for ppl to settle down or already found one...suddenly it strikes me... i might be gonna be alone soon... part of me feel sad, coz my single kakis left me one by one... but then i'm not sadist.. i wish my frens to be happy... so... i wun do or say anything... i will give them my blessings...

seeing hw my bff drowning in her new found love... suddenly the way she speaks oso seem different... added in the gentleness and feminine, and noe how to 撒娇 liao.... reality hits me... she seems far le.. well.... nvm ba.. at least this is a happy thing....

hearing my frens toking abt their honey mood period... the sweet stuff tt is happening to them makes me tot of the times i once had... bitter, sweet, sour... but... it is juz a memory... a far far far and never will happen again de memory...

seeing yt and ivan (my 2 darlings) fulfilling their dreams... doing stuff tt they wish n dream to do... and actively lookign for their life time partner....

i wonder... wat m i doing? i'm fulfilling my degree dream... then? wat is my dream? my goal? i'm lost? i dunno... wat i noe is I'm NOT actively looking for partner.... so dun come n tell me abt settling down...

mayb i pmsing... or sleepy? mayb when i wake up tml... i noe wat's my goal.. noe wat i want... wahahaha....