MOVED

bye to the blog tt had accompanied me since 2005..... 6 yrs.... been thru ups and downs... time to move on....
TYL's blog has moved to http://dreamystace.wordpress.com
 yep... i've joined the wordpress gang..... see you there!

It is a super long time since i last blogged.... woooooooo..... nw nw.. shld i change change my blog to wordpress? hmmmmmmmmmmmm

July flew by, just like tt.... there goes my fave mth of the yr. Life have been great! Yes, sch work can be frustrating, assignment can be irritating, and exam can be annoying... however, I still love it! I loved my mth of celebration!

1st Jul 2011

My mth of celebration started off with meeting my super duper cute ex colleagues - Yan, Suping and Lihua. The 1st time ever, i went to Holland V without any intention to drink (alcohol)!

Had our dinner @ Everything with Fries. The bread taste nicer than the meat and of coz the fries are just NICE! Kelvis is juz being irritating for not turning up. IT IS OK! he is not being MISSED!

After tt we had coffee @ Coffee bean and that is the end of my 1st day of celebration

2nd Jul 2011

My dear Junming was leaving for his 2-yr backpacking trip on the 5th, so no matter what, we must meet up for my bdae b4 he left! So, me, junming and huixian met up for shakes @Once upon a Milkshake then dinner @Korean BBQ Buffet at Tanjong Pagar. The dinner place was PACKED! for $20, u can have pork, beef, bacon, mutton... YES, it is a meaty meal... and i realised tt even me as a meat person could not take it. but the food is... nice!

After dinner, we walked ard and found that there is a new beer place @Amara hotel call PRAGUE. Nice ambiance, the alcohol price is reasonable. a good place to chill! :)

3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th Jul 2011

I was home alone as my parents and sis happily went overseas for holiday leaving me alone at home chionging report. Good thing my kakis - Eric, Pina and Polly came over on the 5th (when my bro tooo went overseas) to do report tgt and Pina and Polly acc me for the night, so tt i would not be lonely!

8th Jul 2011

My massey classmates gave me n Elaine a HUGE celebration! it was a surprise! I knew sth was brewing but i didnt noe wat is it abt. n THEY accidentally found out my weakness and give me a hell of time by scaring me! GUYS, WAIT TILL YOUR BDAES!

they got me super nice presents and Doraemon cake! but i didnt know y i ended up spraining my leg.. and limped all the way.

After tt, i went to Sushan's wedding dinner @Hilton Hotel, and yep i was limping all the way. hahhaa... there was live band, it was soooo cool.. mayb i should keep tt in mind? hahahaha

10th Jul 2011

Due to my SPRAINED leg at a weird position, i cant go out with wenying they all. So end up, wenying, daniel, liyun and xiao hua came over to my hse and celebrated my bdae with me! We had lunch together and gossips!!! :)

After tt, my family and yanting and cheryl (my half family) went over to have dinner at Yhing Thai Palace. Cedric's Thai Restaurant, food is nice!!!!! love the fish maw soup especially! hahaa but need to start working b4 i can go eat again. i will sure go back and eat!! hahaha...

11th Jul 2011

My bdae! but i have to attend class and prepared for the test the next day... haiz...

14th Jul 2011

Had dinner with Jason, Jian xing, Eliza, Yanxin, Yanting and Harris. Crystal Jade Korean BBQ (again).... too much meat.. ahhhahaha....

15th Jul 2011

Hanging out tgt with the class clique. A celebration for me frm the clique. We had dinner at one ramen shop then rot in the Helipad. MY DEAR PINDA and ERIC, went to tell the live band to sing a bdae song for me, and i was being asked to go on stage. THANKS drinking buddies, I WILL REMEMBER IT! next yr, CAREFUL! hhahahhaha...

16-19th Jul 2011

I was rushing my presentations... crazy. coz i got a presentation on 20th.

21st Jul 2011

Finally! after much changes, 5G1U and Yanting finally met up for TYL bdae dinner. we had dinner at Jack's Place Civic center. Since it was so difficult to fix a dinner date, i die die oso attend even though i had another presentation to rush thru. (yep, i got another presentation the next day, haiz..)

23rd Jul 2011

Went for a spa and massage with yanxin b4 i start my revision on the coming exam.... Life....

and yep... revision for exam all the way... n it marks the end of my celebration mth!

I got this article from Wenying's blog. It is so interesting, so i decided to share it. HEARTBREAK is scientific proven! Tt is soooo cool.... beware, it is super long but worth reading! :)

By Ashley Cox | November 14th 2008 09:52 AM

Heartbreak is more than just an emotional defeat; to some the pain is very real. At one point or another, everyone must experience this mind numbing feeling (unless you confine yourself to a house and never interact with even a pet) but that’s not the norm and you’re probably not reading this article if you’ve had that kind of sheltered life.

Heartbreak can be caused by many different circumstances and that’s what makes this emotion easily recognized by nearly every person on the planet. It can result from the loss of a loved one, a partner, a friend and even a close pet. Or it can be caused from disappointment, betrayal or a change from known surroundings. It might not even be a loss at all but a sense of loss, or the realization that the love of the person you care most for is drifting far from where it had always been.

Love, in the same perspective as heartbreak, neither has a corrective definition nor specific amplitude implied by the physical word itself. There’s a never-ending limit to the definition of love because there are so many things we love and in many different ways. There’s friendship love, love for animals and possessions, love for music or hey, even food. Then there’s that kind of love that is so overwhelming perfect, passionate and meaningful, a love that you have never before been able to achieve. This is the love we’re going to be talking about throughout this article, but before we can continue on, we must first understand why we as humans are constantly searching to fulfill this emotion.

Photo by Me! Isn’t it cool?

A part of the desire comes from what we find most joyful in life. If you search for this answer, and look upon previous actions objectively, it’s simple to say that we are satisfied by making others happy. We receive complete satisfaction from doing things for others, and this feeling increases with the intensity of love we feel towards that specific person or thing. When you lose someone you love, you have lost the sense of purpose acquired by the relationship between them and yourself. You lose the purpose you felt when doing simple things to make them smile, and making yourself joyful in return. The cycle should continue endlessly, but as we know that could only occur in a perfect world, which this is not. Heartbreak happens, and it changes who we are for the better (in most cases) and so will it be for the rest of our lives and next.

“We of course equate the pain of loss to the intensity of the love, but that is not what is behind the pain. The more you love and feel loved, the greater the increase of your sense of purpose because when you do something for just anyone and they do not appreciate it; your sense of purpose is not completely satisfied. It requires seeing who you are helping, and their appreciation to make it complete.” says personal developer, David Samuel.

Continuous searching comes from our need not only to self imply a purpose of being, but also to find the “one” that will make us feel needed, appreciated, and most importantly, well, loved. We act in some silly ways just to be able to have a someone that we can call our own. We act crazy, we do stupid things, and we make regrettable mistakes, but hey, that’s just falling in love. We start picturing the rest of days together, share every ounce of pointless information we can recall, and create a bond greater than ever perceived, all before a thought of those three little words comes to mind.

Photo also by me, with help from Jen in creating the heart…

The Physical Pain

Anyone who’s ever gone through the emotional pain of a heartbreak more often than not can express the experience through the form of some type of physical pain. Emotions affect physical health in more ways than many realize, but how does the body physically feel the emotional loss; in other words, what is it that brings pain to the heartbreak?

“Pain is the way the mind responds to trouble inside the body,” says Alex Zautra, a professor of psychology at Arizona State University. “Emotion is the same way. Whether you feel love or sadness is also a response to something you feel outside the body. With pain it is a closer-in response, to something inside the body, but it is a response in an attempt to learn about and motivate recovery.”

The depression caused by heartbreak creates a barrier that can prevent us from feeling and experiencing life to the fullest, in all aspects. Symptoms vary byindividual and range from withdrawal from society to
physical sickness and pain. You lose a part of yourself when connections are lost, and its not far-fetched to say that you feel completely empty inside. There’s an ache, a deep ache that erupts from the inside of our bodies longing for the past. The pain is real and there’s no other way to describe how bad it really hurts than to name it heartbreak. Its a longing for the past and the pain of feeling completely empty and abandoned. It makes it hard to get up in the morning and to get through the day, but all wounds are inevitably healed through time, and thus you hope for the future to approach quicker.

When a person feels secluded or feels loss, changes in the brain’s blood flow occur. The anterior cingulate cortex (responsible for regulating physical pain distress) becomes more active during these times. This is seen in victims of depression who also register physical pain due to the detection of nociception, which triggers a variety of responses, one which results in the experience of pain. People who are depressed or who are under extreme stress are more at risk to develop heart disease and other cardiovascular diseases based on research that found depression to help in thickening artery walls .

Although most pain of heartbreak is not that severe, it still has a profound effect on daily living. Symptoms of breakup might include loss of appetite, insomnia, headaches, stomachaches, nausea, a ton of tears, occasional nightmares, alcohol/substance abuse, depression, eating disorders, panic attacks, loss of interest, fatigue, loneliness and hopelessness.

The Stages of Heartbreak:
Someone who is dealing with heartbreak follows patterns similar to those of the stages of death

1.Shock and Denial- you may deny the reality of the situation; this provides emotional protection from feeling overwhelmed by the situation. The shock of loss allows a state of emptiness to move in, clouding most judgment.

2.Pain and Guilt-after the shock wears off it becomes replaced with suffering and unbearable pain. Regret for things you did wrong, or things that you weren’t able to do with this person adds to further tears. Life feels chaotic during this time, and its best to openly discuss feelings and stray from bottling up your emotions

3. Anger and Bargaining- lashing out is a common form of attempting to release all unspoken emotions. This is the stage where the “why why why?!” questioning comes in. The pleas for returned love run rapid, trying to bargain with fate or with the person who was just lost.

4. Depression, Reflection, and Loneliness- like everyone else in this situation, a period of sadness clouds and
absorb your entire sense of being, leaving feelings of emptiness. This feeling occurs when you finally realize and accept the magnitude of your loss. Isolation from people is exceedingly normal, and offers a time to reflect on the past.

5. Acceptance and an Upward Turn- The feelings of depression lift slightly and life becomes possible to survive without that person so deeply intertwined with each activity. The days are a little easier to shuffle through, and you see the possibility of continuation. The reality of the situation is fully accepted and, although happiness may not return for some time, the ability to move forward has occurred.

Can Heartbreak Occur- Literally?

According to studies on heartbreak and how it affects people, most of whom women, a connection can be found between emotional pain and a literal form of heartbreak- heart attack. Depression is documented to affect its host physically and so is the case with heartbreak. The emotional stress is harmful and is said to possibly be cause for what’s known as Broken Heart Syndrome, cleverly laid out in the picture below.

Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy is a sudden temporary weakening of the myocardium, producing something similar to a heart attack. When the body becomes overwhelmed, primarily due to stress, hormones such as metanephrine and normetanephrine are released in excess with addition to proteins such as neuropeptide Y, brain natriuretic peptide, and serotonin.

“Our hypothesis is that massive amounts of these stress hormones can go right to the heart and produce a stunning of the heart muscle that causes this temporary dysfunction resembling a heart attack,” says cardiologist Ilan Wittstein, M.D., an assistant professor at The Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine and its Heart Institute. “It doesn’t kill the heart muscle like a typical heart attack, but it renders it helpless.”

How to Mend A Broken Heart

The best thing for a broken heart is to be patient and allow time to settle all unresolved feelings. Talking about your feelings with friends or family help to smooth the passage of the loss, as will allowing yourself time to reflect on all feelings and answer questions you may have for yourself. Keeping busy with hobbies you’re passionate about and trying new things also keeps your mind busy during hard times. Get a group of friends together and watch a movie, or if you’re more to yourself, try a quiet walk through a forest or even around the neighborhood. Give yourself time, and do things that make you happy. You are your own best friend and it’s important that you accept who you are and like who you are as a person before you expect anyone else to.

I seriously need ppl to understand the situation I'm in! i told ppl i'm very fortunate to have very supportive family and frens to help me go thru this phase of my life. THIS SUPER NO END MASSEY LIFE! Assignments, reports, exam then new assignment, new reports then new exam and the cycle continue till the day i grad.

i'm nt using it as excuse for nt going any place with u all or wat... i swear! i'm oso sick n tired of rejecting overseas trips coz of some idiotic exam or reject an outing juz coz of some toopid reports or assignment. I CANT HELP IT! if i have a choice, do u think i rather choose to be at home n camp with the notes???

yes, u see me playing game or rotting in FB or youtube. but tt is like an hr or so.. ya.. tt r the breaks... after an hr.. i 'm back to watever i'm doing... few hrs later..

to some of u... i'm juz suck at my time management, my planning sucks, my studying techniques sucks,... i suck at everything... i dunno hw to plan ahead.. only noe hw to waste my time in playing FB games.. n tell the whole world i'm bz studying... act as if i'm the most stress person in the world... i'm sorry i gave u such a feeling

i dunno wat i muz do in order to let u all understand wat is really happening in my life, in the sch... i'm not clever, i'm not smart.. i need to do stuff the long way, the hard way, the toopid way... i feel stress, but i cant say out.. coz it may seems tt i making a big fuss over nth... i laugh, i smile, i go crazy... i heck care... is a way to tell myself.. no, I M NOT STRESS!

=.=

now, the latest update of my mth!!!! :p

n yes, i'm enjoying every moment!!! hehehee more details when i'm to type a looooong entry! :p

I SERIOUSLY DO NOT WANT TO UPDATE THIS! my massey classmates booked me!!!!!!!! This is the scariest news i ever received!!!!

OK, this is the mth of celebration. Starting with my super duper crazy wonderful bunch of ex colleagues (current frens) Yan, Suping and Lihua. (our dear kelvis is juz toooo bz to join us). the 1st time ever, i go to Holland V n i didnt drink! hahahaha.. well.. 1. Too broke, 2. have to get up early later...

Went to eat at 'Everything with fries', not bad.. the meat r abit dry though. and had coffee @ coffeebean...

i love my bdae, but dun wish to be reminded hw old m i... hahahaa... yes, i'm 4ever 21! wahahaha..

i dunno y, but i was being scolded by someone who claim tt i'm childish, i'm wasting my money. i'm NOT truly happy. i'm pretending and acting as if i'm super happy....

COME ON, i'm enjoying my life! so wat if i'm a 28 yr old behaving like a 12 yr old? POLICE will catch mah?! BTW, a 12 yr old cant drink! I dun deny i'm childish. yes, i'm. n i guess the ppl who noe me noe it well. SO? being happy, cheerful, jovial IS NOT CHILDISH! if being a 28 yr old muz be serious, muz depress, muz see things at the dark side... not smiling everyday... then, sorry... i rather being labelled as crazy, as childish.

I love my life. Stress over sch work and empty pockets, crazy with outings, happy with my bunch of frens and family, having fun drinking and singing with no commitments. I'm living my life to the fullest! n I M TRULY HAPPY! u r not me, dun tell me DEEP inside me, i'm not happy. I'm pretending to be happy... WTH?! well... it doesnt matter wat u think... coz is no longer impt. and me being happy or nt, no need me to spell it out de.

meeting xian and JM later!!! hahhahahhaa 2nd session coming up!!! :p

hmmm... Everyone's asking wat i wanna eat and where i wanna eat.. but i really dunno leh. hahhhahahaa...

eh... ok, i wanna go Admiral Bar and Grill @ SG flyer. Dim sum? or eh... i dunno le leh... jap? u guys think for me.... hahaha.. KTV kakis! i wanna ktv!!!!! :p

ok.. here is the updated schedule.. :)

Ok... it is THE TIME of the yr!!! YESH, i may bz with my sch work, but NO WORRIES, i will try to squeeze time out for those who wanna meet me this mth.... (My dear MASSEY Classmates, i seriously think tt it is not soooo necessary we've a big celebration, i'll have a quiet celebration with Elaine. :) THANKS!!! :P)

Pls find my schedule for this mth (haven include my time for reports and assignment, coz i still dunno hw much would be given and when to be handed in). Pls book me early to avoid disappointment.. :p

oh ya... once booked, even i got assignment or report, i oso wun cancel, UNLESS it is life threatening! :) hope u guys understand.. THANKS!

eh,... HJM! u r leaving on 5th, WAY b4 THE big day.... being my best buddy... u shld noe wat to do?? *girnz*

Next week, b4 1st July, my time table is quite free tooo.... :)

After whole week of MADLAB! i'm free! frm the assignment.. but coming next will be 2 exams... haiz... REST? well... after these 2 papers ba.. then will have 8 days of rest b4 starting of my senior yr... YES, tyl is moving into the 2nd yr!!!!! hahahahhaa ok.. pray hard i survived...

but then again, i survived thru last week... i think i wun die so easily le... last week was totally 'horrible, terrible, incorrigible'... avg time of me leaving sch is 11pm. coz toopid assignments and reports all come tgt.. and to be handed in at the same time!

n while doing matlab, my stress level was up to the NEW max sia... it is a challenge to me... and ya.. i broke my own stress threshold record... i totally cannot imagine hw i survived thru... but i did. of coz, i did burst out in front of tyx lah.. she was being nice to guide me thru, but when she told me tt the stuff were all wrong, i totally went haywire and burst lor... well.... did manage to get it.... (using the 'wrong stuff' tt i was tot... yx de language... abit too chim)... hahahaa..

after i finished everything, i turned and saw tt eric n eprina (other kakis went home early) were behind me, i nearly went out of control. but of coz, my ego n pride were stronger... anyway, the worse is over. :)

Nw back to mugging!!!

TYL never use the F word... NEVER! but this person is able to make TYL use this word on him, he is juz ultimate! Super duper irritating and arrogant piece of shit! Well, who is he? He is a lab tech in my sch... no he is not. He is a lab tech in SP. My sch dun have such idiotic ppl de.

We have lab today at 2pm, but our lecturer told us to be there 30 mins earlier to prepare some of the samples 1st. Or else we gonna worked till very late. So we were there at 1.30pm to start preparing our samples.

We went in, he KNEW tt we were already in there, but he didnt move a single cell of his butt, to find out y r we there so early, NOR ask us who r we, NOR ask us wat we need. He juz cont'd to treat us as NON-existence. Well, we are absolutely FINE with it. IF we noe where r the stuff we needed are kept.

but the fact was, we DIDNT noe where the stuff were kept. n he is one FUSSY guy whom dun like ppl turning his lab upside down. so we asked him abt the samples we need to prepare POLITELY. he told us to wait for our lecturer to come ( wat the hell? we were instructed to come early to prepare, and cant find lecturer, go find him de!). SO we said, we need to prepare the sample as instructed.

He was kind enough to get up frm his work bench to tell us where the stuff are put, and we went ahead with our sample preparation. there are 3 benches in this lab, we took out our stuff and put it on one of the bench, he say we cant work on tt bench coz he needed it for the lab later with the poly students. Fine, we went out and work on another bench. He dun allow, coz he say we may spoil the microscopes tt were on the bench. (when we HAVEN EVEN start on anything, juz to put our lab manuals!). FINE, we r doing lab work but we CANT USE any of the bench. coz the benches are filled with microscopes which he emphasize tt they were VERY ex and tt we cant AFFORD to spoil it!

HELLO! we handled microscope b4 and we noe hw EXPENSIVE THEY ARE! and PLEASE look at hw ur POLY STUDENTS handling ur EXPENSIVE microscope b4 telling us that we MIGHT spoil them!

then he started making noise about double booking of lab. Dunno y our lecturer booked this lab at this period. when there would be another lab going on at the same time. Com'on, THIS IS NOT OUR fault! as if we wanted this to happen, as if WE BEGGED to make his life difficult (though nw i very much want to do tt). Then we found a small corner, we juz say we'll do it there. he said ok. leaving us in tt small corner w/o telling us where r the spatula and weighing boats... we went searching again lor, wat to do... haiz...

then one of us commented tt, 'nw i noe.. the higher level u studied, the smaller working space u will get. ' tt is the challenge.

As if we are free riders.. as if we dun pay our sch fees, as if we are liability to them n not assets. we r juz nt being loved anywhere!!! Haiz.. i hate 寄人篱下!

WAH! 1 mth! i didnt blog for a mth! due to the EXTREMELY bz mth... i juz dun have the time to blog. Assignment, report, presentation then report and assignment then presentation then report then exam.... then presentation then report...... CRAZY mth!!! haiz... wat to do.. i chose this path....

GE is here... i've casted my vote! there has been a very heated debate over the 2 weeks (i wonder does this contribute to today's extremely hot weather?) and frens with different political views started to oppose one another... haiz...

hey frens, ppl have different views... so we can share our views... but nt to the extend of fighting over it... i mean, it is abt the govt... they r nt going to reward u nor thank u if u stood by them in the expense of ur frenships.... nt worth it lah...

it actually scares me when i see tt the direction the 'discussions' were leading to.... aiyo.....

n i got 2 pieces of good news this week... 3rd May 2011, a little boy named Aidan was brought to this world by Mommy simin and daddy alex!!! and on 6th May 2011, a little girl (name nt known at the moment of post), was brought to this world by mommy Elena and daddy Mani!!! SOOOOOOOOOO happy for them!!!!! EXCITED!!!!! cant wait to see them sia... :)

i think i shld be going back to prepare my presentation.... haiz... n i shall slp so tonight i can stay up late to hear the polling results LIVE!

In life... u gain sth, u lost sth.... this is juz the basic balance of life ba...

I gain a bunch of great buddies from sch... i lost some kakis frm work...

Well, cant say lost... juz feel tt we r not close as b4... well... this is natural.. coz i'm out of the league le.... we have no more common topic... n i seems to be juz an xtra person in the grp..

I chose to leave my 'so-called' drinking kakis frm work.. at least i will not go drinking with them anymore...a personal decision and i noe i'm going to stick with it. Frm nw on, it is only my sec sch BESTIEs and my Uni kakis tt i would go drink with....

i tried my best to maintain the closeness with my other kakis frm work.... but then... we seems to be drifted apart.. actually quite sad... coz i feel tt they longer feel the excitement to see me... n i more n more feel like i'm the xtra.... the only person nw tt is close to me is only my buddy.. but she is overloaded n stress with her work le.... my kor... nw drifted FURTHER..... so far tt i dun even remember tt we were damn close b4.....

Ok... mayb i think toooo much... but well.. sch work is overwhelming.. i really shldnt be spending time think abt this.... hahaa..... time to hit back my research... so if the end really comes in 2012.. at least i got my degree... :p

Dear Aunties and Uncles,

SMRT is not going to give u a prize to be the 1st to board the bus, govt is not gonna give u extra money for being the 1st to reach the MRT gate, and u r NOT gonna be the early when u r the 1st to board the train! If each and everyone of us, go in orderly manner, time spent on SQUEEZING up the train and bus will be shorten. Then all of us will not to be late!!

Isnt it better?

I REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND! haiz...

After knowing my this bunch of boys in my class, i came to realise sth.

It is a natural ability for a guy to take care of girls or be responsible (regardless of age). To think tt I was constantly helping u to find excuses for ur behavior such as being tooo young....

U were young, but my this bunch of guys are YOUNGER! u claimed tt coz i was older, capable to look after myself to a certain extend, so u r not tt 'caring'. but then the guys i noe, they noe tt i was much older, yet, they r still caring and in fact, showed me with the care n concern, tt suddenly i feel tt i'm a queen! n to think tt they are JUST FRENS!

U claimed that i was ur special one, yet, i dun feel being 'appreciated' nor 'treasured'.

i was soooo damn toopid..

虽然讲了几万次，我会把你戒掉。。。 却一而再再而三的又想起你。 朋友听了都厌倦了！真是没用！现在，我要彻底的把你删除！一个从开始到现在都不珍惜我的人，留在心里、脑里都是浪费位！我还需要记更多更美好的事！

It is the 3rd mth of a new yr!!!! time flies! n i'm sooooo looking fwd to my grad in 2012 (provided we still survive in 2012)....

anyway, currently tyl is in class... having an hr break with a few classmates discussing on assignments and a few slacking (which includes me!) *grinz*

Back frm the 1st oversea trip to Kukup, Msia with my Massey classmates whom i call Massey Bonkers... though nt the whole class turned up, we had lotsa fun and let me noe more abt the ppl i have been hanging out with EVERYDAY ever since Aug 2010....

They are fun-loving and non-stop joke generator. u will never feel dull with them.... and most imptly, most of them LOVE to sing and r superb singers!!! n 1st time ever, TYL is contented juz to sit down there n listen to them sing... wahahahaha....

Proudly presents.... My Massey classmates @ Kukup!

Eprina - My whatsapp kaki cum lunch kaki cum tok cock kaki, Indo -chinese girl whom is so blur tt she amazed me everyday! wahahaa..

Polly - My lunch kaki cum grp mate cum tok cock kaki, Penang girl whom is serious when work, and damn spontaneous when it comes to play

Eric, Ye sen, Edwin - my drinking kakis, these 3 bros amazed me everyday... their frenship is so strong tt i juz love to see the interaction between the 3.... n yep... they are superb good and nice boys tt i always say i'm proud to bring them out to intro to ppl... They are much much much more gentlemen than some guys i noe who r much older than them... n they r responsible and caring which is lacking in most guys i noe...

Marcus, Cedric, Pinda (my drinking kaki), Ramesh, Siang wee - these 5... aiyo... NEVER stop in creating the funniest moment. They too r super responsible and caring.... ya.. they are BOYs, so non-stop actions frm them..

Ya, most of the funniest moment r created by these 8 guys mentioned above...

Celia, Ethel, Jiamin - i didnt noe tt they are THAT fun-loving till the trip. Jiamin can party (i found a clubbing buddy? wahaha), celia and ethel r sooooooo full of expression tt sometime i wonder if it is my sis, TYX had cast her crazy spell on them mah... hahahaa

We had our crazy times in Kukup, and pics say it all! wahahaha....

The class is united as a whole (not only those who went to kukup), I really hope tt we will not change even when we go to the senior yr! I REALLY HOPE tt we will stay so happy and united thru'out the 2 yrs!

This is definitely not the last trip.. more events to come for the Massey BonkerS!

Seems like i've juz started sch... n nw, i'm preparing for exams... the good and bad thing abt this course is, u wouldnt noe or notice wat date or wat day... u will only noe, datelines and exam dates.... b4 u realised it.. u r graduating le... wahaha... okok... i'm dreaming...

alot of things happen ard me this new yr... which i'm happy, yet at the same time lost and mayb teeny weeny of sad... n lonely?

1. Things in my family r getting better... i noe my family is gonna do very well this yr!! n really... i can see the efforts and i really do appreciate each and everything he/she did! n i tell u... nth can pull me away frm my family! I simply love them, esp tt super genius sis of mine! she can make me angry, make me sad, make me suffer, make me feel stupid... but she can NEVER make me stop loving her! in fact, i'm loving her more each day!!!


2. ppl ard me r moving on... and found their happiness... which i'm happy for them. getting married, r/s growing stronger and stronger, new found love, new found life, having the fruits of their love... moving on after a heart break.... juz noeing tt they r moving on... having another purpose in life.... it is a good thing....


3. getting more n more used to sch life... and mixed well with my classmates, though i very much wanted to be the same class as my bffs... i like my class nw! i think my class is more fun and more craziness and more talentS!!! wahahaha...


4. I no longer believe in love, n settling down is the last thing in my mind. Though i did toy with the tots of settling down during the 1st week of CNY... but well... it lasted for a week only. seeing my close frens (singles) are seriously looking out for ppl to settle down or already found one...suddenly it strikes me... i might be gonna be alone soon... part of me feel sad, coz my single kakis left me one by one... but then i'm not sadist.. i wish my frens to be happy... so... i wun do or say anything... i will give them my blessings...

seeing hw my bff drowning in her new found love... suddenly the way she speaks oso seem different... added in the gentleness and feminine, and noe how to 撒娇 liao.... reality hits me... she seems far le.. well.... nvm ba.. at least this is a happy thing....

hearing my frens toking abt their honey mood period... the sweet stuff tt is happening to them makes me tot of the times i once had... bitter, sweet, sour... but... it is juz a memory... a far far far and never will happen again de memory...

seeing yt and ivan (my 2 darlings) fulfilling their dreams... doing stuff tt they wish n dream to do... and actively lookign for their life time partner....

i wonder... wat m i doing? i'm fulfilling my degree dream... then? wat is my dream? my goal? i'm lost? i dunno... wat i noe is I'm NOT actively looking for partner.... so dun come n tell me abt settling down...

mayb i pmsing... or sleepy? mayb when i wake up tml... i noe wat's my goal.. noe wat i want... wahahaha....

无奈

1.动词 无可奈何：出于无奈

2.连词 用在转折句的头上，表示由于某种原因，不能实现上文所说的意图，有“可惜”的意思，

3.名次 对于事物没有办法所表现出来的态度

很多时候，我都处在这无奈状态中。对于自己的生活，都是充满无奈了，更何况是别人的幸福。

即使我说了上千遍，软硬兼施，你还是决定往前走。我还能说什么？ 这是你的未来、你的幸福、你的生活，我能管什么？

也许，未来不是我想象的如此糟糕；那么我当然我真心诚意地祝福你；也许未来正如我所料的伤人，我会心痛，也会伤心，但，这条路是你自己选的。后果自负。 我只能在旁边支持你，却可能减轻不了你的痛。

我虽然已对爱情没有了信任、也没有了希望， 我却还能感受的到爱。只要你们是真心相爱，我仍感受的到。所以，请不要以为我只会把我的想法套在你们的身上。 只是我希望我周围的人能先看清楚才决定， 不要让自己去面对那无谓的伤害。

一个人的幸福，不是一个旁观者能断定、能决定、能肯定的。但是如果我知道你为了某个人，到现在还在痛。坚持要忘记他的你，还会要知道他的消息吗？说还是不说？说了，你会开心吗？ 还是更烦恼？不说，你会怨我吗？我会是毁了你可能拥有的幸福吗？？？

It is 2011!!! i noe today is the 5th day... hahaha nw then decided to post this entry. Well... we r entering the new decade of the 21st century. So wat has happened for the past 10 yrs?

2001:

My 2nd yr in JC. till then i realised that i wasnt cut out to be a JC person.. but since it was already 2nd, juz die die oso study. I'm glad i did. coz this is the yr when i got to know my best best buddy... HJM! nw then i realised we knew each other for 10 yrs! we muz celebrate this yr sia... :p

2002:

The slackest yr. After getting A lvls results, as expected, i cant get into the course i wanted. and when i decided to go back to poly, i missed the dateline for the yr de intake. I taught tuition FULL TIME! and got my driving license coz i was juz too free.

2003:

Finally enrolled into poly, Dip in Chemical Process Techology. Due to the 1 yr lag, i wasnt allow to go straight to 2nd yr. I didnt regret, as i got to noe my now BFFs...Ly, XH, WY, Daniel.... and of coz... gotta noe him.... didnt noe at tt time that he was able to create such a big impact in my life

2004:

2nd yr of poly, went into food tech (my dream course). I was 21 !!!! had a great bdae celebration at West Coast. my different grps of frens came up with different tricks to trick me. He chose a different option, HE became part of my life, his calls, his encouragement, his laughter. at the same time, YP joined in the BFFs team. i went for my 1st overseas attachment - BKK ABAC. wooo... i knew my thai frens for 6yrs plus liao.. woo hoo...

2005:

He left, vanished.... and i got myself a bf, whom i waited for 6yrs before HE appeared. but end uo the r/s didnt last more than 2 mths. well, at least we tried. worked in my 2nd attachment - Danisco.

2006:

i graduated le!!!! I got my 1st job in Gold Kili! didnt noe at tt time that this job will be with me for soooo long. A place i loved most. it was juz like a 2nd home to me. Coz everyone WAS so nice and sincere. learnt a lot frm the ppl in there. Frm EQ, PR skills, sales, QA/QC, manufacturing, anything and everything under the sun. then i saw the 'TORO' looked alike OFM!

2007:

got closer to my office BFFs now(Kelvis and Yan). Cheryl joined the company too. that was the PEAK period in GK. we went thru thick and thin. The BEST rapport was during tt period where we all were so happy. Though the work was stressful and wasnt very established, yet we enjoyed the most during tt period.

My whole family went thru a big roller coaster this yr, and made us changed our lifestyle, our attitude and our mindset.. but it is all over now!! :)

2008:

Decided to resigned for my fave job juz to get into Massey Uni SG 1st batch. WY left for Aust oso came back for this course. Who noes, i was rejected. went on working on contract basis in Danisco, learning of the ingredient level of food manufacturing. HE decided to reappear again. but this time round, tot i was neutral, i tot my feelings for him had faded.....

2009:

OFM, CP went back home. missing the times we had. worked in HPB for a few mths b4 Gold Kili called me back. experienced in building up a factory, designing and planning of the plant.. COOL!!!!

I allowed myself to go out of control with HIM. i tot i wasnt serious, BUT.... things didnt go as i predicted. i wasnt strong myself, and got myself into tt deepest pit.. When he decided to start a new r/s with another girl. I decided to give up and juz walk away. no pt staying there....it hurt badly... it still hurts...

decided tt marriage is not the most impt thing i want, and starts not to believe in love....

2010:

once again decided to resign and go back to sch. and YES, this time round i made sure i cfm a place b4 i resigned! then BOOM! TYL in Massey Uni SG, going back the rushing reports, studying for exam, no income student life! got noe to a batch of cute little boys and girls...

survived one sem... 1.5 more sems to go!!!! :)

wooo 10yrs of my life passed juz like tt... more 10yrs to come. but the most impt thing for me nw is to survive thru these 2 yrs!!

Ok, time checked 2 am!!! i got work later!!! nite...

PS: Ivan, i think u will find a lot of typo and wrong phrasing or any errors ba.... coz i did this entry in 1 hr time and i'm half alsp nw!!! :p

I wanted to post sth abt the new year, as it is 2011!! but i think this is more interesting. Thanks to WY, she showed me this webby toking our Moon sign and Moon astrology. Moon sign is the position of the moon when u r born.

From this webby, http://www.findyourfate.com/astrology/moon-astrology/moonsigns.html, u can learn more about wat is moon sign.

Moon sign vs Sun sign (Sun sign is the normal horoscope we noe, for me is cancer.)

The Moon is said to rule your personality, while the Sun rules your individuality.The Sun influences our total self or our personality. The Sun therefore represents the way we are seen by others around us. The Moon represents the more of our inner world of feelings and emotions, and how we feel about ourselves. The Sun rules the day, but moon has an altogether mysterious side, with deeper more hidden aspects.

Well, my moon sign is Leo:

The Moon in Leo makes you strong, proud and courageous. You enjoy responsibility, and often take on too much of it. You have a natural attraction authority, and enjoy appearing in the public eye. You would rather lead than follow any day.Your inherent pride makes you very susceptible to love affairs.

Your actions at work attract the attention, and respect of your superiors. This can only mean good things for you as far as your career is concerned. As far as money is concerned you are very generous.

The Moon in Leo makes for a strong intellect and a strong love of the arts. Don't be surprised if your occupation involves the theatre, music, painting or literature. You also have a love for luxuries. You like to drink the finest wine life has to offer. You are lively in spirit, have a high intelligence and have good prioritizing skills.

Females with Leo Moon: Fair complexion, attractive, wide and generous features, big round eyes. They are generous, independent, leaders among women, jolly but easily offended or hurt and apt to be vindictive and jealous. Of fiery temper, fond of food and are religious. Joyous, sexy and craving for physical contacts, like to be away from madding crowds and prefer a solitary place. Sincere, frank, good married life on the whole. Wealthy, affectionate and passionate and as long as they love their partner, they do it intensely, otherwise will severe connections.

Leo Moon- Positive Traits	Leo Moon - Negative Traits
Loving Witty Radiant Artistic Dignified	Extravagant Arrogant Show-off Self-centered Domineering

WY told me is very me.. she feel tt it is quite true... personally i feel... ya... true to a certain extend ba... but nt on the attractive part ba.. wahahahahaha TYX gonna laugh till her head drop on this attractive part... :p