This time round... i felt the drag.... i no longer have the excitment to go over to BKK! NOT coz i've been there too many times... juz coz of a lot of things tt added up... i dunno y it become like tt... is it ALL MY FAULT!? ya.. i'm all to blame! this one blame me for dragging time... delay in booking of everything... tt one blame me for being too sensitive... other blame me for saying sth tt offended other ppl... blame me for being sacarstic... juz put ALL the blame on me ba.. i'm NOT entitled to be angry... i CANT show ppl i'm unhappy or sad or hurt.... i can only SMILE and say... hey, i'm OK... nth serious... sometime, i wonder... does ppl ard me treat me as a human being anot!?!? well.. suan liao.. as usual... i'm smiling... i'm ok....

good thing i still have things to look fwd to.... i get to see my thai frens!!! and i can buy accessories... (ya... i have a lot liao.... but it is never enough)

I DUN wanna organised this trip.. but i dunno y ended up.. i become organiser... i HATE being the organiser(for anything and everything)... coz
1st u cant get ppl to give u the truthful, constructive and timely ans or
2nd things go well and smoothly... no one will remember u r the one organising BUT if things gone wrong... ppl start blaming u
3rd NO ONE WILL APPRECIATE watever u do!!!!

SIANZ!

nw i need to stay positive... and continue smiling!

Oh ya... the environment in office nw is damn dangerous... i no longer noe who is friend and who is foe... who is the one is treating u sincerely and who is the one waiting for a chance to stab u... i'm very very tired of the 明争暗斗... and keep draining my brain to think of counter attacks when i sense tt there is an attack somewhere... I'm losing myself.....