My life in 2009 till nw is like...ROLLER COASTER? 15 days into 2009, i've experienced happiness, sweetness, tenderness, gladness, sadness, bleakness, hopelessness, and finally numbness.... exciting rite? nt many can experience so many feelings in juz 15days into a new year leh....

1. I was stunned by ur actions, u never will do tt to me! but u did, on the 1st day into the yr. I was totally lost.... where is ur T.L.C? suddenly, u seems very far away.... (sad, disappointment)

2. I met up with u on the 2nd day into the yr... u made my day. ur innocence, honesty and ur sincere actions made me laugh and 4got tt i was actually in a foul mood... u made me dun wanna let the night end.... u sent me back even though we were near ur place... u made me smile by juz thinking of ur rxns (happy, sweet)

3. i chose the wrong time to tok to u, i made the wrong choice of insisting u to ans my qns. i'm wrong to show my concern to u at the wrong time. everything i did is juz wrong... WRONG! so if i'm so wrong and u hated me soo much... well, i'll juz SHUT THE F*** UP! tt's the exact words u said to me... it hurts... it's wrong to worry abt ur headache, it's wrong to worry abt ur chest pains.... i really wonder... mayb we r juz 2 very different ppl... i cried the whole night... but i promised myself... THIS IS THE LAST TIME! (despair)

4. I received news that OFM is leaving for good (erm,,, i heard applaud? or sigh of relief? or did someone say FINALLY?)... he tendered his resignation letter...hw did i feel when i 1st heard the news? i dunno... felt nth... (numb)

5. It's confirmed that OFM is leaving on 6th Feb. He is getting married on the 14th Feb (this, he didnt tell me... i was told by the others... some say it's better to dunno than to noe)... ppl tot i'll be too sad... all tried to come and console me... i smiled and say i dun feel anything.. but still glad to be loved by so many... (glad, touched)

6. I met up with u once more for ur bdae... u told me u got a gf... i was dumbfold... then u told me u bluff me... u only wanna make me angry... i nearly strangled u.... but u were replying her sms whole night!!! i was soooo annoyed! then we had a tok, u held me tightly and said though we can never be tgt... u will never leave me... (this is kid's tok... but still. nvm... we r gd fren zhong de gd frnes.. hahaa) u will be there for me if i needed u... ur tenderness melted me... broke down all my defences... i cried once again in ur arms... everything tt had been supressed in me ever since the start of the yr... OFM's leaving, the other person's coldness... stress and unhappiness @ work.. everything... u didnt say anything.. u sang the song to me softly, with ur warmth and sincere.. is my greatest consolation... thanks... (touched, grateful)

Here i'm numb once more... wahaha.. erm... it is late @ night.. i think i'm nt in the clear head stage liao.. juz one more update
Abott - QC (12 hr, shift work, contract) asked me for a 2nd interview, if it is successful... will start work soon.. they working out a package for me... but i will nt accept it if it cant cover the income i lost shld i give up my tuition for this job..
Went for interview in Yeo's... pray hard for them to call me for 2nd interview!! hehee

I'll be jobless after 31st Jan 2009! hahahaa...

ok... eyes damn pain liao.. shld sleep le...