I got rejected! It hurts! Hurts more than when a guy u like reject you straight away. i told myself there is nth to be sad.. the most try again the next time round. I still have more time to work and to REALLY save up more. but y?? y everytime someone ask me abt the outcome, my tears came bursting out.. i REALLY dun wanna cry.. i mean it is nth big anyway... it is not as if i never being rejected b4....

Mayb this time round, i've too much confidence.. mayb i'm juz want it soooo much... or mayb coz it hurts my pride n ego? i mean.. TYL being rejected by a University?! It seems like a joke... mayb i shld not look fwd to it too much... nw it's time to look for a new job.... coz i dun wanna stay in tt company anymore... though asmine still refuse to acknowledge my resignation letter.. n yes, i submitted... n stated that the last day will be 31st July 2008. i noe she would wanna ask me to stay... but i really dun want.. sick n tired of the job... so to go study is juz an excuse to get out....

i'm weak...i admit... even though i'm mentally prepared tt i might not get in.. but the news is still a blow to me... i read the letter.. a typical rejection letter.... i force back my tears... i talk to my parents normally... i chat with ivan they all... n frankly speaking... it was the conversation with xin jie n ivan stop me frm crying in front of the lappy... coz it was damn funny to cry.. haha... but when i hear jm's voice... i broke down... dunno y... then i wanna him bring me out... jm n yt acc me out... n we chatted.... n i realised... i still very dependent on them... btw, yt n jm (if ever u read it)... even though we seems like bz with our own stuff... n have different grp of ppl to hang out with.. ultimately... u r still tt person who go thru tears n laughter with... someone i noe i cannot go without in my life.. U R MINE!! wahaha... both of u... hehe.. k. tt's childish... but still... Thanks... MUACKz

n wy... if u r reading this... PLEASE dun feel bad... i told u b4 le... ok.... treasure this chance... :)