I lazy to post again. Well, juz got the information that SP is FINALLY having that degree course in SG le. It is from a NZ University, i lazy to go copy paste the name.. hahaa... think is exactly the same thing what XH is studying in NZ nw. 2 years straight honours course.

I think most prob i'm going back to sch.... of coz money wise is a big prob... any sponsors? hmmmm.. wondering if i go back study, my hsehold got prob mah... it is a tough decision sia.... i think i shld go marry one rich guy 1st.. wahahaaa.... :p ok.. jokes aside...

if i try nt go KTV so often, try not go eat ex ex meals so often, try nt watch weekend movies so often, i shld be able to save, survive and give my family some rite? i decided to take up another tuition(a P3 boy), if i really preparing to go back sch... *thinking hard*

Life is so unexpected! One min he is right there alive and kicking, next min he is dead... lying in the coffin looking so skinny...

My uncle had passed away on 12th March 2008. He had a sudden heart attack at night.. and was sent to hospital, then at 3am, but dad got the call... they rushed down to hospital... he passed away... It is sooo deja vu, coz 10 yrs ago (or more than tt), my 2nd uncle passed away exactly the same way..

For ppl still wondering my which uncle, he is my dad's elder bro, the one at the satay bee hoon stall... he was thin.. but when i reached the wake, n went to see him in his coffin.. he was thinner... haiz..

the feeling of losing a relative sooooo suddenly is so terrible... though we nt really close with him... n even had some misunderstandings... i still cant seems to accept the fact tt he is gone.. 4eva.... seeing dad trying to hide his sorrow and regrets, seeing donald missing his dad... n sad, seeing auntie (unlce's wife) so pale n weak... i really really feel sooooo miserable...

Life was soooo unpredictable!!! Live everyday like ur last day... dun leave regrets....

Finally!!! got a show tt made me cry all my heart out!!! I really didnt expect the show to be so 'tear jerking impact' (quoted from the reviews).... ok.. before i got over excited....

I went to watch a Japanese movie - 'Sky of Love'. From the title, one know that it is a romance drama movie. With the female lead so cute and pretty.. she is only 20 this yr... the male lead is sooooo cute.... he is only 18 (well, dun 4get i'm into boyish looking guy with abit of baddy look).. hahhaa.. THAT's HIM!!! hee...




Ok... story wise... i muz say is quite predictable... however, the scenes are beautiful... with different shots of the sky, large green pasture, river side... (think yt will like the scenes?) n of coz... it touches your heart. ok.. it touched mine.. n i cry frm frm the middle of the show till the end.. still crying...

i went to watch it with my crying machine (YP) and LY, harris, JX and their fren wilson. The guys oso cried abit lor(ok, harris told me he only got a tear rolling down his cheek..eeek.. so cliche)...

wahaha... i'm soooo happy!!! coz i cried!!!!! hee.. ok.. i'm crazy.. but i really tot i lost my crying power lor.. when i saw cheryl and yt crying in shows... tt i didnt even tear.. anyway, the whole cinema was really crying (ok most of the females)... n one even cried out loud! and her frens had to hush her down... n we were juz sitting behind her..

when the show ended.. as usual... yp cant stop.... n ly n my eyes were swollen... the other girls frm the cinema came out either with a red nose or swollen eyes.. i think ppl who saw us where wondering wat happen sia...

if u feel like going to watch a show tt can make u cry or like love stories or wanna be abit emotional.. this show is highly recommended!! but if u dun like love story and dun like n dun understand y ppl cry over such a show.. then better dun watch it.. coz u will spoil the mood..

I'm on leave today, juz to watch the show 'The Leap Years'. Cool reason to take leave? wahaha.. I wanna sleep badly, that is y i took leave and also, my two boys are going into army liao... so decided to rot with them one last time lor.

Anyway, my 2 darlings (cheryl and YT) went to watch 'The Leap Years' and heard that they cried till dunno like wat. To be exact, Cheryl cried the most. Well.. after watching it, i only cried at the last part, i mean only teared... Sometimes i wondered, have i lose the ability to cry? I've watched a few movies that was supposingly touching, and i didnt even tear... what is happening to me? I'm no longer one who can even cry when watching idol dramas!

Maybe nw, love stories dun touch my heart anymore. What's more, i'm treating Love as a game! Love, to me, is no longer special, no longer heart warming. From frens ard me, frm my exp, i concluded tt love hurts! The more u love, the more u will be hurt. so y love?!

Of coz, i cannot be so extreme. I saw happiness.. i saw blissful couples. They are just the extremely lucky bunch of ppl who enjoyed the happiness. How many of us are THAT lucky? Well, I sincerely hope tt ALL my frens and family ard are THAT lucky. Coz i noe, i'm NOT THAT lucky.

Btw, after watching the show, makes me think, r we always waiting? A fren told me before, Life is a waiting game. Which is true.

Every morning, we waited to get the use of toilet, then wait for bus/mrt to work, wait for work to start. By lunch time, we wait for our food to be served, then wait for work to end. We'll wait for dinner served, then wait for bedtime to come. In the bank/or any govt bodies, we'll wait for our turn to get our things done. If u need any replies, we muz wait for at least 2 weeks. We are waiting all our lives.

Ppl wait for that special one to appear, wait for ppl to treasure them, wait for everything. Have anyone ever ask, y do we wait? for better life? Happier life? but what if the wait makes u lose it? juz like Li Ann and Jeremy in the movie. It took them 12 yrs to realise that they are for each other. 12 yrs, if they choose not to wait, will they nt lost tt 12 yrs of their life waiting and guessing? Instead can live happily for 12 extra yrs? or things will turn out differently? Like they will never be together if they didnt choose to wait. Chim rite? coz no one will noe the ans... and i decided not to think anymore, too taxing on my simple little brain in my head. I shall go and sleep more!!!!

I've read sth interesting from my frenster, and decided to share it.

28 things most girls dunno abt guys

--Guys hate sluts even thoughtheyhave sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a WHORE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then they're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

So my dear males species!!! HW TRUE?!?

Today went mentoring... after so many mths... surprise?? i oso very surprise lor... i mean it was raining in the morning!! and i woke up!! i wanted to go back sleep.. but then... i cant.. dunno y.. so got up.. n went mentoring... settled the treasurer stuff (sth i longed wanted to settle), n of coz... see my fellow mentors and mentees who still remembers me... wahaha..

After tt, went to the Red Dot Arts Museum (i 4got the actual name le), anyway, there is the MAAD, where they r selling stuff ppl designed by themselves de... the things in there r NICE!!! i liked it sooo much... of coz.. the price is not cheap lor... anyway, i still bought a pair of cuff links... for CP... nice nice.. then another for someone.. hehe... which i wun disclose.. :p

After tt, really feel like singing.. so dragged the whole gang go sing ktv... here.. i wanna really really really thank all of them.... YP n LY noe me well.. so actually suggested to go ktv.. i really wanna give them a BIG hug... wahaha... then WK n Jason.. they go KTV got sing song.. WK acc LY.. Jason acc me? wahaha.. anyway, they got sing...

the 2 ppl i wanna thank MOST r Harris and JX! if i can, i really wanna give u 2 a BIGBIG hug with a LOUD LOUD KISS!!! (ok... dun gimme tt look, BOTH OF U!! i nOe, wat're your rxns!!!!!! n dun worry, i wun really do tt!!!!!) coz tt 2 dun sing de... n coz i suggested it... they acc me... then somemore i think they became quite bored.. n JX was tired lor... i nOE both of u teng me de!!! hehee...

dun see tt 2 boys of mine... their mouth is killer mouth de lor.. NEVER say good things abt me! and like to abuse me, laugh at me, shoot me!!! but then again... they LOVE ME!!! wahaha ... ok guess wat their rxn nw? i tell u.. 'eeeee, who love u? u suck! we hope to see u die! love u?! bullsh**!'... they always like tt 嘴硬心软！hehe....

haiz.. both of them going army soon le... then no more rotters on weekdays le... then no one to lean on when sad le..(dun see harris blur blur... he is very good to lean on de leh.. i addicted to lean on him le.. wahaha.. then dun see jx skinny skinny... he hor... make me feel comfortable. ok... for me only... hehe... he let me feels tt i'm nt alone...) no one to entertain me when i bored in office le... no more dinner kakis b4 i go tuition le... (for me to get use to no dinner kaki.. i actually decided nt to eat dinner b4 tuiton.. hehee)...

As for wk..he is someone who i can tok to (like a human..) provided he is FREE!!! and jason.. my joker... wahaha.. i tell u.. no matter hw sad u r... look at his expression.. u will laugh!!! hahaa...

btw CJX, dun always force a strong front.. things happen... i can oso be the one there for u.. juz like u r there for me!! so dun ACT strong of me!!! :P