Nw TYL is in office... bored so blog... wahaha... Change comp le, so msn new de, then my comp can listen to song.. wahaha.. nw d/l songs into my comp. i think i siao liao.. if let boss see.. sure die.. wahaha..

Things r quite ok nw... OK only... wahaha.. need to adapt to a few changes..

At work here... Bosses nt in... as wat everyone tell me.. no govt.. wahaha... tt's y i so free to blog here... actually is nt free de lah.. is juz tt... abit sian lor...

juz nw was at pdtn... toking to FM... he said mayb he will go in Feb or May next yr. He asked me if i going. Actually, i told him if they did not increase my pay this time round, i may go lor.. but then again... nw i cant afford to be jobless lor... oso..here.. the bosses or shld i say Asmine is understanding... she give me a lot of freedom be it timing or movement as long as i finish my work... which is.. i think i may nt have in other companies lor... but we really have to aim higher lor... see how ba... muz see if i lucky enough to find a higher pay job.. hee

FM told me... i muz not go b4 he go... meaning tt he has to quit 1st b4 i quit... i asked him to go n die.. wahaha.. coz he say i spoilt him le... he already dunno how to live if i'm nt here with him. (kua zhang rite)... i say he ar.. always abuse me lor... still say need me... F.O.S!! He say he treat me so well.. still say abuse... he hurt ar... wahaha... CRAP!! well.. though is crap.. still shuang.. wahahaa.. ok ok.. i noe i siao liao... dun worry lah.. i wun get myself into deep shit de.. hee.. :p

It's once again a long time since i last updated... a lot of things happened recently.. too much till i really cant breathe... I wanna break down soon....

1st.. expo was tiring... then immediately after tt was my audit.. tt week... i muz say.. so stress so tiring... then audit tt day... i nearly lose my temper... and actually quarrelled with FM... though we made up later.. still i felt bad.. coz i shouted at him...

after audit... tot i was really looking forward for my break to BKK.. but then.. things are normally wat we tot... sth big happened.. made me have to cancel my trip... cancel my leave.. i dun blame anyone.. coz nobody wanna it to happen.. the weekend.. was the longest weekend i ever had... i was feeling so terrible... started crying the moment somebody started to tok abt it... i dun mean to make ppl worry.. but i juz cant control my tears...

some may think i'm juz being too over reacting... well.. i'm like tt... i cry when i feel like it... those who noe me for a few mths only already noe tt i'm like tt.. so i dun see y ppl who noe me 10-20 over yrs dunno... of coz... crying cant solve anything... but it's a way for me to vent my fustrations, to let out my emotions... cant possibly tell me to put everything at heart.. i cant de lor...

i wanna thank everyone who gave me the support thru out the whole thing... my darling yt... there for me... as usual... and acc me cry... n listen to me... yh n cm... 4eva there for me.. as a support... i noe i can lean on... yp and co... i noe u all worry abt me.. n yet i didnt tell u all anything.. well... nw i really feeling better le... sorry to make u all worry... and of coz.. one most impt person... tt is xian... she is there for me... juz like last time... n this is the time when i need her support... i noe she has her own prob... she herself also need support... still.. she is brave to stand up.. n lend me all her support... really thanks dear... and of coz... all my relatives n frens who gave me n my family the support thru out the whole thing.. n thank u for believing us... and nt those stupid reports...

frm the incident.. my bro say we muz learn sth... him - think b4 act... me - to be independent and strong... i'm still learning...