I very very de sian... nw working.. counting down the time to off work... Time passed so slowly these 2 days...

He left le... for 3 whole weeks cant see him... didnt noe time is so diffcult to pass w/o him. Maybe coz is juz the beginning, will slowly use to not seeing him ba...

every little thing will remind me of him... didnt noe he got such a great impact... oh no... jia lat.. me n CP r nw like drug addict w/o drug... hahaa.. he oso sian, i oso sian... i think he misses him more than i miss him ba... wahahaa... yet CP kept denying.. he say coz he scare i'll 4get him after 3 weeks.. so wanna kept reminding me of him.. haha...

both of us are waiting for his call.. jia lat sia.. one week haven finish.. we already sian half le.. dunno how to survive till he come back.. wahaha.....

Siao liao......

3 days 2 nights de chalet over le. This is the 1st chalet i went to tt i can sleep so well. y? coz 1st not many ppl... so i got the whole bed to myself, second i can sleep till 1200 coz nth to do.

Actually oso the most sian de chalet ba.. i was damn DL! 3 days 2 nights, organised coz the guys going into NS le, then they say wanna a gathering... at 1st wanna go Genting then end up working de cant get leave, got gf de, gf dun allow to go. so i suggest chalet. everyone agreed de lor.

so me n yp went ahead with the planning and then i was really looking fwd lor. guess wat when the date is near, one say no overnight, the other say can only come on sat and lotsa excuses. well... i REN!!

i organise de... so of coz i gotta go no matter wat lor. i took off frm my tuition then go there immediately after work. me n yp... were staying overnight on the 1st night nia lor. though end up yh n his gf came coz no bus back le...
Anyway, i noe yp sacrifice a lot oso... she came down all the way frm the west to east coz if she no come, TYL will be alone in the chalet. but sat morning she need to rush back to west again for tuiton lor. 我很对不起她 coz she was the one who always kana my temper... but i was really angry lor. i mean, u happily planned for a gathering, thinking tt everyone will appreciate and appear... coz long time no see.. end up... wat i got!? so if i happened to hurt yp.. i apologised... but still... no matter how good temper one person is will still be pissed de lor

Sat, all went off early in the morning abt 7am and I WAS ALL ALONE in the chalet. so i slept till 1200 lor.. nth to do oso mah... the saddest chalet i ever went to lor... JM say the bed muz be fantasitic sia... coz i spend so much juz to go n sleep.. i oso think so lor... then i was so fed up.. i walked all the way back to Pasir Ris MRT stat... juz to shop and kill time.

2nd day i tot finally got ppl come.. then can tok n play the whole night thru.. alot tell me they nt staying over... GREAT! so i spend so much book chalet is for my own pleasure nia lor... ppl juz attend some kind of BBQ party n go off lor... end up only 3 stayed... better than nth...

JM say the grp got no team spirit...n how come like tt de.. i oso think so... i start to think... the bond within the grp... is REAL de or wat... do we really feel bonded together? i mean shldnt everyone be as excited as me abt the gathering? or it juz me being kapo go plan... none of them interested anyway. well... as i say.. I M NOT ORGANISING ANY GATHERING ANYMORE... at least not for this grp of ppl... coz this time round i'm REALLY DISAPPOINTED in everyone..

Blame on me.. being too busybody to plan... blame on me being too suay.. to book at a time when everyone is not free(though everyone agreed on the date in the 1st place)... suan liao.. coz i really got nth to say.... no more strength and energy to plan and to do anything le... nw is totally 死心 le..

Kids are amazing!!! y do i say so? coz they are!!! they will make u dunno to cry or to laugh... wat happened??

today Asmine wanna give fei min a luggage, coz she dun want it le. wanna him bring over to china le, then throw away. my dad came drive me, so i helped him to take the luggage to my tuition center so he can come take it as it is nearer to his hse.

well, when my kids saw tt large luggage... the 1st thing they asked,"cher, where u going?" i juz tell them i'm running away frm them. they dun believe me... say i going to UK.. (pls note, to my students: big luggage = go UK, Germany, Italy) dun ask me y.. i was also puzzled.

then class started by me telling them that i'll tell them where i going if they settle down fast and do their work 1st.. they really gone in an amazing speed (a bunch of kpo kids, whahaa).. then fei min reached. he came and take the luggage. my kids got excited.. OMG!!!!

kept asking me if he is my bf. i told them he is not, he is only a fren, they say i bluff them. *faint* then i asked them to contiune with their work while i was outside helping fei min to see if asmine left anything impt de mah. my kids.... they really can be very gd paparazzi. they all peeking out from the back of the door, juz to see wat are we doing outside.

then got one will run back n tell the class... "teacher and her bf hug, hug" "they holding hands" and guess wat.. we were not even close enough to make any physical contact! omg!!! i went back into the class to get the class settle down and do their work.

one even ran out of the class and went str ask fei min if he is my bf in ENGLISH. Feimin was damn blur wat was she saying. *faint*

After feimin went off... they were asking me if he is my real bf? my 1st rxn was 'huh?' so i asked got things such as REAL bf and FAKE bf? she say no, only got REAL bf and EX - bf. interesting rite? juz a reminder, my class is a P3 class... so i wanna to noe wat they really noe abt Ex -bf and wat is a REAL bf. so i asked her to explained. this is her explaination:

Real bf: u go out together, hold hands, hug and kiss (eeekkkk frm the other girls in the class)
Ex bf: u go out together, he date u... but no hold hands, no hug, no kiss (eeekkkk frm the girls again)

my rxn: (-_-!!!)

nw then i realised the ex bf is not the ex bf we noe. is the X bf.. meaning everything oso cannot do de bf... (big cross)...

so kids are amazing rite??? so how shld i react??? to scold or to smile or to faint??????

HAIZ!!!!! TMD TMD TMD!!! damn du lan now... kaoz... y? coz juz feel this way lor... coz y? Happily oragnise things... feel so excited abt it.. end up getting cold/negative responses... how good will u feel???

Anyway, dun expect me to oragnise anything anymore.. i'm too tired, too fed up! coz dunno is i sway or wat... the dates i choose... always juz nice got clashes with other things de... best liao lor... then i have no rights to feel angry... coz always ppl got valid reasons to say cant go...

but still sometime i juz wanna be unreasonable abit lor... haiz... but sure kana scolded be unreasonable... kana blame to be ba dao... n better still tt person end up may seems like being 'FORCED' to go... haiz haiz haiz

not pin pointing who.. or wat.. coz ppl ard me all like tt... n i quite sian le... guess wat... every fri.. i would rather go back home (spend more on transport fees) to eat, or dun eat than looking ppl to have dinner... coz i know sure get 'No free', 'cant make it' blah blah blah for ans... n i usually dun quite like getting those ans... so dun like, then dun ask.. coz ask le sure will get these ans de...

what i hate abt myself if i tend to say 'NVM'!!! esp when ppl say 'sorry'.. coz i dun wanna ppl feel bad.. but end up... me myself burning inside... haiz... tt's y i hate the word 'sorry'.. it maybe a polite word... but to me... wat the use of saying sorry?? wat done cant be undone wat.. say sorry le... i still buay song.. juz tt... dun wanna say lah.. coz say liao... ppl think i xiao qi... unreasonable... haiz... SIANZ!!!

when ppl say sorry.. i have no right to be angry le.. coz ppl apologise le mah... aiyah.. suan liao lah... kaoz.. sianz lah...

Fri... Last day of the working week, last day of our freedom!!! coz boss coming back next week le... sadz...

Last night went shopping... wanted to change the crocs for Asmine's son. end up, got myself a new pair of shoes at $12.90...haha...

then walked further down.. went into Taka jewellery. At 1st wanna take a look nia... then shun bian see got nice nice chain to go with my star pendant mah.. coz all my chains are sliver de... wear for a few days become black black le.. so decided to see got white gold de mah... saw a few... but then was very ex lor... my 1st tot was... wah.. so ex how to buy.... end up i still bought at$100... i cant even believe i bought it lor... i spent so much to buy a chain..

wahaha.... not tyl rite? JM still ask me... i shou dao shen me da ji... i told him coz he whole week no reply my sms n too bz till heck care me lor.. wahaha...

wat i'm afraid most happened le... last night... CC sms me some wierd sms... then i asked him wat happen... then... he confessed that he likes me (in a way tt i dun like de lor.. coz he use the word love instead of like)... haiz... he say he likes me.. but he noe he sure fail.. coz he pei bu shang wo... i speechless... well... i did reject him straight away... telling him he shld noe best... at this moment, i juz cant accept a new guy. not coz he is a china worker.. is coz i still cant get out frm the past... but he no reply me.. then this morning... he no wait for me... he went home str after 0830... haiz... i dun wanna lose a fren juz like tt... i oso dun wanna this to affect his work performance... headache!!!!!!!

Today is our Annual RS-BP mentoring Cooking Comp... as usual... a BIG chaotic morning and 'boom' u see lotsa creativity and intresting dishes.

This yr is abit different.. the competition is design like a biz game... u r like opening a restaurant and muz take into consideration of the cost... and how much u price ur food, coz at the end of the day, the grp of the highest profit win. this yr got 2 winners.. 1 is the highest profit, the other is the overall presentation (taste, creativity and blah blah ) winner..

My grp won.. won the overall presentation.. hahaa... all the more prove to me tt i'm not a biz person.. haha... coz my grp made a loss.. hee... cost too high, price too low.. wahaha... me, jx, nisha, atiqah, afiq in a grp.. tt afiq.. keep saying he is the chef... esp when he heard tt we won... wahaha.. but in actual fact he didnt do much... juz helping here n there.. sometime dun even noe lost to where.. wahaha...

Life recently had been quite chaotic... work there so many things... so many things to remember.. i really scare i 4got some of the impt stuff... sep.. anytime AVA will come down for surprise inspection, channel U de 'Let's Party with Food' is going to start shooting in sep oso... so i muz prepare all the necessary pdts.. then exports there... coz they keep arguing wat is NON DAIRY CREAMER.. and wanna us to do admenments to our packagings... kaoz.. n my lab... aiyo... crazy liao lor...

the only relaxation is.. 2nd pdtn.. everytime go tok cock with them... wahaha...