End of March liao.. haha.. got my 1st pay at Gold Kili.. hee.. the feeling is different when i got my pay frm my tuition centre.. hee... coz its my 1st permenant job mah.. hee..

2 weeks here... quite like it lor.. ppl r nice.. somemore production there got shuai ge.. wahahaa.. though China man... hee... if wanna Singaporeans.. then all uncles lor.. hahaa...
here they like family lor.. taking care of ppl de. no wonder yp say they r nice ppl.. anyway, yp.. they still remember u lor..
hahah.. i was telling the pdtn supervisor, ah sheng abt u... he say.. oh.. tt skinny skinny de.. hahaa... candy oso remember u.. cindy too.. they all say u guai guai... haha... they haven see u lame.. wahahaa

salesman there.. got young de... n oso damn crappy.. n cute in certain actions.. but o have extremely shuai de lor.. wahahaa...

i still like to go pdtn there... at the mixer room... got one.. looks like Toro lor... but i never got his name.. sianz... this week.. on ave i go up there 2 times a day.. 'checking' on the quality n cleaniness.. wahaha... he is nt tall...i mean nt very tall.. the most 175 or below.. hahaa... but nvm.. shuai.. i can close one eye on height. hee

i realised tt these foregin workers... some of them are at my age.. or even younger.. i juz trained a new worker.. he is borned in 1987 de lor.. n downstairs got a skinny but strong guy.. somehow like zac like tt.. hahaa.. he is same age as me.. he mah.. oso nt bad looking.. but tt Toro better lah.. though this skinny guy.. he is tall... abt 180.. somewhere there.. hee... he always see me walking ard.. he always shout.. 'hey shopping ard again wo'. haha...

the aunties in the pdtn area all very nice... hee.. but hor prob is.. i dunno how to scold or say them when i saw them wearing accessories when they t suppose to.. haha.. boss say muz tell them u r boss... but i can do it when i with my poly kids.. with those elder than me.. how to do?! omg.. hahaha.. so i using respect approach... hope it works wo.. hee...

So many things happen.... n was so terrible, was so hurtful, was so disappointed.

all the while, she led me ( or shld i say US) the wong way.. making me (US) hate the wrong person. the whole thing turned out to be like this.. is coz of HERSELF! she herself is only to blame!

looking at the whole thing... we seems like a fool... we always tot she is the victim... WTF! she is the player! n we r juz some stupid figurines then she played with.. to think we were so hurt when she cried... we so angry with him... come to think of it... how stupid of me tt i cant see the whole thing...

she create so much drama, so much trouble.. cause the family to have sleepless nites... cause ppl who concern abt her to run ard... to try their best to help her.. giving up their personal time... end up... all r juz shows! a show she directed! she said sorry.. she made pormises... yet.. her sorry is worthless... coz she said it.. but dun mean it... her promises... r empty... she is worse than those guys i noe... at least those guys.. sometime fulfill their promises... she leh.. NOT EVEN ONE PROMISE SHE KEPT!

She made everyone utterly disappointed in her.. giving up on her.. once she was surrounded by ppl who truly concern abt her.. but she do stuns, she gave attitudes... create dramas... nw.. every1... even me! si xin le! no use wasting time on such a person... i chose to believe her, to trust her in watever she say in watever she do... n wat she did to my trust to her? she broke it! she lied even to me! she made promises to me... n broke it! even the person who most teng her... dun even bother to tok to her anymore!

i'm hurt by u... u broke the trust i had in u... i'm disappointed... u said sorry.. but u did it again... nw u said sorry again.. how much it worth? do u noe how worried ur family were? do u noe tt night u didnt go home, ur mom didnt sleep.. not even a wink... she was out whole night OUTSIDE LOOKING FOR U!! i didnt noe u r such a 无情无义、没有心、狠心的 idiot!

how old r u now? i mayb childish.. but i sure noe how to think... ur actions... r not an adult actions.. u r behaving like my 14- 15 yr old kids! no.. i shld say my 14 - 15 yr old kids r more mature... nw how to thin better than u! so dun ever say tt i'm childish! 因为你没资格！

u r a disappointment! please! go 反省反省吧！u've disgrace urself in the public n in front him... HE, someone u deem as impt! wat wld he think of u? wah... u love him so much.. he gan dong.. n be with u? U R WRONG! he think tt u r a disgrace.. a woman i shld say a girl... with no dignity, no pride, n shameless! someone who dun even spare a tot for others! u think he'll fall for u?! FAT CHANCE!

the person i noe.. who will always put others b4 self... who was sweet, nice, caring is gone... gone le.. wat left is someone i dunno... someone none of us noe...

i dunnno when she'll read this entry... but i still write lor, hopefully she'll come across this entry... n i noe the consequence of posting this entry.. coz she may nt be the 1st to read it.. it shld be another person who might read it 1st...

i muz apologise to my best fren.. i'm sorry i didnt tell u anything.. i dun wanna u be worried, yet cant di anything.. i dun wanna u feel as helpless as me.. many times i wanna tell u.. but i cld nt bring myself to.. coz dun wanna dampen ur happy mood... dun wanna u to think too much... sorry...

Today results out... finally... after working so hard for the papers... we got the results... overall... my results... erm... shld say... quite happy with it lor... but still sad tt my fd flavours i got C+. i noe fd flavours nt my cup of tea.. but i did put in considerable time in leh... suan liao lor.. haha

wat stunned me most is packaging... wao lao.. it was the last paper... n i really got no mood to study le.. in fact.. juz like tt read thru de... muz be lady luck beside me... hee.. yihang say dun wanna fren me le.. haha.. hang dun like tt lah.. let me once be proud of my results lah.. hahaa.. :p

at gold kili... worked for almost a week le... tml will be a week liao... haha... hmmm... finally got my own acct... so tml can d/l msn liao.. n personalise my desktop.. haha... nw thinking if i wanna bring my cushion go mah.. haha...

i wanna go get a big cup.. mug,, got doreamon and got cover de.. hmmm.. got mah?? i dunno.. muz go find.. hee... or mayb ask ppl find liao buy for me.. wahahhaa... :p

ppl there all r quite nice... guess wat.. i need to go down production line there... check all the production workers to make sure that they follow rules n regulations when working in the production area.. coz fd mah.. of coz muz be hygeinic.. then oso muz ask ppl query regarding the nutrition part.. n oso muz write complaint letter... esp when it is due to the quality.. n the thing i hate most is to read all the ISO, HACCP and BRC stuff... haiz.. but i have to.. coz i QC.. so when audits come.. 1st shoot is me.. haha... wao lao...

my boss... aka known as DESMOND NG haven come back yet.. if he come back.. i think i got more things to do sia... haha... coz muz involve in the R&D oso.. haha... nw my lady boss... renovating the pantry... n oso a room downstairs... to make into 2 labs for me.. so i gotta source for the equipment n stuff in the lab... haha... this is the part i like.. haha

well go play game liao.. heee... btw.. i've change my blog song to 同恩 - 本来. like it alot.. coz nice ar.. lyrics meaningful... haha....

同恩 - 本来
词:阿怪 曲:林松锦

下雨了站在玻璃门里头 并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我 夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头 不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了 手写的留言对象已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了 已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走 太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车 常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了 长长的简讯对象已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上 沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难 也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点 该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣 不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我 直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了 对不起长大太慢害
你遗失了我 抱歉让你白费了这么多

I started on my new job le. haha.. 1st day mah... abit boring... coz whole day read the documents on the ISO 9001 and HACCP. wanna sleep sia.. haha they say 1st day of work is like tt sian de... haha.. ya lor..

then the ppl there all chinese speaking de lor. haha... xian n ting say is my environment mah.. since i dun like to speak english,.. haha..

hopefully next week life wun be so sian.. haha.. or else i sure drag till dunno like wat sia...

sat.. after tuition.. nth to do.. so go aunt's hse... see ah mei jie jie 2nd child... carawin... i was amaze!!! he was double his size since the last time i met him which was 1 or 2 mths ago.. mommy now call him fishball.. hahaa... cute cute... hee nw i think he look almost as big as bing bing lor.. hee...

then meet ah hui in cwp... at 1st wanna go ktv... but too ex.. so no sing.. end up go my hse coffee shop eat, then he come up my hse get his stuff.. haha...

today gotta go ktv.. hee.. with ly they all... haha... going off le... or else later late.. hee

I'm back from Thailand... one week away in Thailand.. was quite enjoyable to me lah... dunno how the other 3 felt.. haha...

anyway, met my thai frens.. haha... really miss those times... Jo n Phan are an item now... omg... haha... there goes one potential... hahaa... ok ok.. joking only.. feel so happy for them.. Really appreciate Jo for taking off her time to accompany us.. n help us do so much things n organise so many things for us..

and oso muz thank Tum, Ae, Golf, Bow, Joy, Phan and many more.. they were having exams... still take off time to come meet us. Miss them lots... hhaahaa

This time round we like meet alot of ppl sia.. hahaa..a lot of ppl take care of us wo.. 1st r our thai frens, then WY's dad, then Zac's godparents... wao... BIG THANX to every1 sia..

one week in Thai... of coz lotsa things happen.. n most of the time kept us laugh till nonstop de lor.. esp WY de incidents.. haha.. zac lah.. kept suaning wy slow.. ok.. she was indeed WOLS at times... haha.. n she have her wierd way of doing things lor..dunno y she cant hear wat zac say.. so she either didnt laugh or give a blur face or say 'huh?'.. at 1st zac tot she was cool... so didnt find his lame joke funny.. end up realised tt she is slow.. she cant get his joke, tt's y didnt laugh.... got one time zac shopped till he very sian... so he squad down at the roadside to wait for us, wy asked 你的脚很酸啊？ zac replied 没有，很咸。 normally when someone heard this.. the 1st rxn will to scold tt person lame.. or broke into laughter... but wy no rxn.. she say 'orh'... then dunno wat happen... she then realised tt zac was laming her.. (tt was i think 30secs later)... then she started laughing... we all (-_-!)....
the funniest thing is tt when water got into one side of her ear, she tilted her head to tt side (this is normal), n she pour water down at the other side(this is abnormal). Zac was the 1st to notice it.. n ask her wat she was doing.. n she replied in a serious manner tt she was trying to get the water out frm her ears... we were amused... zac reminded her tt both ears r not connected in striaght line... haha... she kept insisting tt her mtd works.. Yihang told her it's coz she tilt her head one side n not due the water she poured in at the other side... hahaa... n the 3 of us were laughing like wat lor.. haha... (ok.. wy, wanna scold go scold zac.. he told me muz put this in my blog de. haha)

Thru' out the trip.. i guess Zac allow me to see the other side of him.. hahaa.. he let me change my pt of view of him completely.. nw i understand y he got certain actions... n i really respect him for being who he is.. hahaa... as for yh.. already 熟到烂... so no surprise lah.. but he is more n more 'color'... ok.. juz in case yh see lah.. say i bias.. i will say oso.. zac is oso very 'color'.. hahaa... nt as much as yh.. :p

met KL in Thai.. so qiao sia... n oso me n wy saw HK actor Liu qing yun n his wife in thai when we were shopping.. hee...

didnt shop much this time round.. coz our dear zac dun like shopping... n he feels tired easily when comes to shopping.. but he still amaze by my energy lvl when it comes to shopping... hahaa.. :p one thing.. zac is like a kid.. haha... u muz see him with his gun.. a big kid sia.. haha...

when Pattaya for one day.. stayed on the beach.. end up kana sun burn.. haha... played water sports... but i most of the time was swimming in the sea lah.. haiz.. poor me.. kana abuse by yihang n zac lor... bully me.. i mean us... me n wy... threw sand... made us do 'water stuns'!!! kaoz... zac better still lor.. i was with him on jet ski.. he was riding it... at 1st i was holding onto him tightly... coz he was to fast n furious lah.... scare me out of my life... then he slowed down.. i tot he liang xin fa xian... who noes, the moment i losen my grip a little... he picked up speed.. n i was thrown overboard in the middle of the sea.. N HE STILL DUNNO!!!! he cont'd riding for a dist.. then realised i was NOT behind him.. he stunned!!! but when he see me... he started laughing... kaoz...

yihang rode on the jet ski with wy behind.. this wy... screamed n shout once yh picked up a little speed... n nice yh.. slowed down a little... coz wy made so much noise... i made so much noise zac can still carry on.. OMG!! haha... then WY was thown into the sea, into the swimming pool by yh n zac.. coz they wanna a bdae bash for her... n for me.. i no bdae oso kana bash,... dunno how they caught my legs n hands.. n end up doing somersaults in the sea and pool.. drinking dunno how much water in.. tt day.. our stomachs (me n wy) were filled with water...

We celebrated wy's bade at Pattaya.. in Jo's dad de hotel.. at 1st wanna give wy a surprise. end up Jo gave us a SURPRISE!! we wanted a cake to celebrate her bdae only... we didnt noe Jo actually prepare so much sia.. i think WY was touched.... hahaa... hope WY enjoyed the bdae... it shall be the unforgettable de.. hahahaa...

hmmm.. shld sleep liao.. tml 1st day of work.. hahaa.. late then jia lat le.. hee.. :p

夜深了，我睡不着。有好多话，不知要怎么说出来。友情，亲情，爱情那个重要？有人会说三者都重要，有人也做出选择。我会选友情和亲情。你呢？应该是爱情吧？

我们之间，存在的不只是友情，还有亲情。我们好比亲姐妹。但到底发生了什么事？为什么我们之间只剩下的是虚伪的笑容，毫无心灵之间的沟通。我们不再像以前无所不谈，因为有很多事情，你选择不去碰。你是不是也和我一样有同样的感觉？还是你选择性的和我疏远？

也许是因为我的坚持吧。我不应该干涉你的感情，我也没有资格这么做。在此，我要奉劝大家：不要阻止别人的感情。因为，你们会和我一样，失去一个很好很好的姐妹。因为人以碰到感情，就会变成另一个人了。

为何我会阻止？不是因为你们不会有结果。我相信，若是你的，一定是你的。不管路多难走。只要你们是真心相爱，一定会突破种种困难，然后开花结果。我阻止，是因为我看到你的眼泪。你为他而哭泣。你因为不知他下一秒是否会离开你而感到不安。我看到的，让我好心疼。因为好在乎你，所以不想看见你不开心的样子，不想看到你哭泣的脸。因为你，我哭了好几次，我觉得自己好没用，你哭，我不知该怎么做。所以一心想把那让你不开心的原因拿掉。谁知道，我却好像做错了。因为你没开心。反而，你远离了我。不再找我。 逃避我。

也许我真的错了。错得好离谱。错在因为心疼你，所以不想看见你哭泣而劝你离开他。错在因为疼惜你，而骂你。我看到你的眼泪，看到你眼中的不安，看到你的不确定，你却说你和他在一起很开心。我还能说什么？只能说，希望你是真的开心。骗我不要紧，千万不要骗自己。

你说你不想放，因为你知道你放不下。我问你，知否有尝试过？你说有，很多次。我又问，你是否有进全力。你选择不回答。为什么呢？是不是因为你觉得我又要劝你离开他？还是你恨我，因为我反对你这段感情？
你想想看，每当他离开你，你有试着放下，但你没全力以赴。你封闭自己，让自己哭了好几天，不肯走出迷惘。然后宣告失败。你放弃放下。这不叫做尝试着放下。

你说我不了解你的感受。你说我不懂爱。你就懂吗？你知道爱吗？？？ 难道我的感情路，走得很容易吗？我的故事，你最清楚不过。婷的故事，你也非常清楚。我们不深爱我们心中的那个他吗？我们的痛，没的和你相提并论？凭什么说我们不了解？

我没告诉我们的朋友这一次究竟发生什么事。我不想别人再担心。痛，我自己扛。眼泪，往肚子里吞。

他的一句甜言蜜语胜过我十句的苦口婆心。真的不能忽略爱情的魔力。也许你真的能得到幸福。也许他真的能给你幸福。只是我瞎了，看不到。不管怎样，我希望你开心。我会一直把你放在我心里。你永远是我的好姐妹，好朋友。

我，在你心里还是不是好姐妹、好朋友？由你自己决定。即使你选择了远离我、恨我，我会尊重你的选择。因为我只想你开心。

03/03/06 marks the end of my three yrs poly life... today is the end... end of my exam.. end of poly life... no longer have to go sch... starting another stage in my life.. the REAL adult life where u only left with work work work n more work.... i always wonder... m i able to cope it mah?? coz my job has a very wide job scope... n it's really a very challenging job... can i do it well? ms toh believes tt i can do it.. then i more stress... coz cant disappoint her mah....aiyoz... hahaa

3 yrs liao leh... to think tt it was juz recently tt i got over with my 'A's results n got into SP to start all over again.. time flies sia.... juz like tt...i graduate liao.... hahaa.. ting oso coming back le...
3 yrs.. have i grown? have i changed? i oso dunno.. coz i feel tt it still the same me.. juz feeling older...wahaha.. haiz...

3 yrs... i've made great frens... wonderful frens... got noe to liyun 1st... the 1st fren in sp... haha.. suddenly got girl come tok to em i stunned.. she approached me 1st... wahaha... but i always wonder... y can she apprach me 1st tt time.. when she is so shy with strangers???? hmmm... then went into DCP 1B22.. know alot of ppl.. n got a big clique consist of 9 ppl... me, liyun, xiao hua, teckhong, daniel, shuhui, yiyun, yingxiu.... thru' out yr 1.. we had lotsa wonderful time... hee... muz thanx all those who gave me happy times... n always there for me de... without u all i dunno how i can survive thru...

2nd yr.. got into fd tech.. DCP 2B23... yeepei joined us.. with liyun n me n xiao hua in the same class.. then dunnO how we formed.. end up yr 3... the big clique again with me, xiao hua, liyun, yee pei, wenying, weijie, kahguan, zac, and yihang... had lotsa fun.. enjoyed the times we had... these r memories tt i will keep it forever.. unless i lost my memories... hahaha....

between 1st n 2nd yr.. he came into my life... 2nd sem of 1st yr and 1st sem of 2nd yr... he was there for me... accompanying me in every moment of my life... i was actually healing a wound at tt point of time.. n he was there for me... making the wound to heal faster... we had lotsa happy times and sweet moments together... sth tt i'll treasure it for as long as i can remember...
he left me... during my 1st ito in thailand... actually i realise tt the world is fair.. u gained sth.. u lost sth... i went thailand for ITP... got know to a bunch of wonderful frens in thai... n oso got closer to yihang... n i lost him... n till now.. i still wondering y... but it's no longer impt... coz i gave up le... will think of it occassionally.. will still feel the pain... but no longer have the urge to get back with him....

2nd yr end of 2nd sem.. my 2nd itp.. got into a relationship like a flash.. got out like a flash too.. haha... well.. we were not meant to be ba... though waited for him for 6 yrs... being with him was nt wat i imagined... mayb coz too long le... n coz was in a half give up mode... one thing... i've wondered recently.. last time b4 we got together.. he didnt say anything nice abt me... but still will recognise my gd pts... when we got together... he can list my gd pts.. though oso suan me lah... but when we broke up. suddenly i m a terrible person... coz he say i got no gd pts for him to say... y huh? m i so jia lat? i changed? frm bad to worse? haiz..

thru's out the 3 yrs... ting is always there for me... though most of the time is online de... but her presence really make feel comfortable... thanx darling... :p

thank him for giving my happiest time in 1/3 of my poly life...

thanx all my frens for being my frens for being the wonderful ppl ard me...

th n xh.. u r juz like my little bro n sis to me... i teng u all so much.. coz u 2 really like xiao didi xiao mei mei... hahaha... i really wish to attend ur wedding... hee.. ur da jie always here for u all... :p

yp.. ren hao jiu hao... dun overly hao... dun hurt urself... among the frens.. i worry abt u the most sia... coz u too gd liao... too weak liao... may get hurt when going outside to work.. haiz... learn to be strong.. i've learnt... so can u... anyway... jia you... may u reach ur dream of becoming a teacher... u can de!

ly, though we had disagreement at times... u had a great impact on me leh.. u show me a different pt of view in life...u let me learn alot of things.. u acc me crazy over shuai ge... u amaze me with ur theory.. wahaha... n amaze me with ur photocopy memory.. hahaa... u r a great person with a strong personality... believe in urself... coz u r capable de... n talented... juz tt u didnt realise it only... wahaha

yihang... if i no write... u sure complain.. wahaha... u mah.. no need worry de.. u noe so well wat u r doing... but dun be so 'colour' lah. aiyo... treat ur pw nice nice... enjoyed the times when we can debate over a qns on how to do.. how does it sound logical... hahaa...u r lazy... but when come to sch work... prob solving.. u r one of my strongest opponent n partner.. haha...u r always a great fren.. a listener... a person who is there to help... :p

wenying... my auntie... ahahaa... u allow me to see alot of things tt i missed out in my life.. i learn alot of things frm u.. frm ur life... n of coz.. another person who will acc me crazy over shuai ge...

zachary.. the shuai ge... i tell u wo... u caught my eyes ever since yr 1... hahaa.. anyway, ur craps n stupid actions really can make me laugh my head off lor.. u always can let me destress de... :p
u r some1 who really cut out to big boss de... jia you wo... hee...

hmmm.. like writing testimonials leh.. ahaha... these cant be use for jobs.. too bad.. hee... stillgot alot.. but lazy to type liao.. hee

3 papers down.. one more to go.. fd packaging.. but no mood study nw... haiz... hope this time can make it,... wahaha...

thru out the week, had been studying like siao... damn funny oso lah... coz everytime got yihang, zac, wj acc... stress oso will laugh till dunno like wat le.... haha

zac's bdae on 27th.. we got a paper on 28th... wahaha.. so poor him.. have to spend his 21st bday studying for his exam.. wahaha.. we went celebrate with him after 28th's paper.. go eat swensens.. wahahaa... coz this zac ar... everything oso have... n things he wants.. i think we cant afford de.. so decided to give him a practical present ----> boxers... he got wear de lor... n this is such a cute boxer lor... :p... he saw it le he high.. wahaha.... with elephant... the truks can take up got ruler... can measure.. wahahhaa..... erm.. ok.. abit too.. R(A) liao.. wahahaa


looking forward to the end of exam.. coz going thailand with zac, yihang and wenying.. wahaha... so happy.. can see my thai frens liao... going on the 7th.. coming back on the 14th... hee.. then 16th start work.. wahaha... all planned out... hope nth crops up...