After going thru 2 interviews.. 1st with the HR manager, then the BIG BOSS (MD lah)... i got the job... 16th mar will start work.. wahaha.. at Gold Kili - the company tt comes out with beverages..it's a new challenge... she told me i muz be independent... n able to take stress... hmmm m i up to it?? i dunno... juz hope everything will go smoothly...

met him for dinner today.. to pass him tt long belated bdae present... he cut his hair.. neater... nicer... i shld be happy... i WAS happy initially.. coz i really missed him.. but the moment i saw him... my mood was dampened.. 他给我的感觉淡了。though we chat, we tok.. he suan me.. i complained he bullied me.. but still... nt the same anymore... the feeling is not there anymore... i cried once again.. this time nt due to anything he say or wat he did.. juz feel sad.... sad by a fact tt hit me so hard tt i felt pain even deep inside my heart... he is no longer the one who give me the warmth and care like he used to... the care n warmth he gave... r juz memories... memories...

still can remember once he told me... when i was still healing frm the previous wound... '我不能像他对你那么好，但我能给你的是快乐的时光.' which is true... he had given many happy moments.. sweet moments... but still.. haiz.. he hurt me in the end too...

i realised sth today... i'm in too deep.. so deep till it scares me... how come?? i tot i wun... haiz.. i'm so stupid... y cant i juz get up.. 4get everything once n for all?! wat yanxin told me is correct.. i'm worse than huixian.. at least after giving.. she gotten back at least a status... at least sth... but me?? wat i got?? nth.. juz hurt n more hurt... so y m i still holding on?? m i going to take a long time to heal this time?? haiz.. drag so long le... i still cant get myself out of this mess!!!

anyway, this shld be the last time meeting him le... at least for me.. is the last time i took the initiative.. we r nw 最熟悉的陌生人。