Finally... one more to go... after 3 days of nutrition.. i'm concentrated with facts.. haha.. now having terrible headache... coz last night did not sleep well.. oso dunno y... tossing ard in bed frm 0030 till 0200... still not able to sleep.. thinking of too many things.. or mayb coz of the ribena i drank b4 i went to bed?? haha...
Actually was not in gd mood these few days... exam stress.. plus things i gotta noe on sat.. abt my xian...
i really dunno wat can i do le... it's like u noe she is hurting herself.. n u've tried all ur ways to tok to her.. to tell her.. it's no use.. dun be stupid to follow tt guy.... yet she still dun listen.. still willingly to follow him... n i'm so helpless... i'm total clueless... how to help her le... xian... u tell me.. when will u wake up?
xian... look at him!!! is he the one who truly like u???? y it didnt come across to u tt.. he dun like u.. he's juz using u.. coz his gf is not here with him? coz i always believe.. no matter how terrible a man is.. he wun treat the person he like or he love, so badly de... he is making u into a person he wants... not who u r... n u r not u anymore..... he made u lost ur pride...or shld i say u lost all ur pride coz of him... he is not respecting u.... in fact HE DUN TREAT U AS A PERSON! as a girl... u muz leave some pride for urself.. u muz noe how to protect urself.. to love urself... but wat i can c is tt u allow him to manipulate u!!! ur pride is gone.. u dun even respect urself anymore.... so wat if he is sweet at times?! so wat if he will come n fetch u when he is free?? but once he is unhappy.. he can leave u somewhere... then go off by himself... it's not tt he never did that to u b4... how can u tolerate this kind of ppl? it's juz like i use a knife to chop u.. then after tt i say sorry. i love u.. wat's the use?! then wound is there le... n is bleeding badly.. sorry can make it stop bleeding? can make u feel no pain???
y r u letting urself to live in such a misery? or mayb u dun think it as a misery? wat is in him tt u dun bear to leave him??? he has no looks, no character, no money, no everything.. the only thing he got is a gf in thai (quoted frm tyx...) perhaps we r not u.. so we dunno the enjoyment of being with him.... but then again.. ask urself... r u really hapy being with him?!
do u noe u really hurt n disappoint ppl who truly care abt u.. who truly love u????
do u noe wat ppl think of u now???
yes.. u can dun care... but still i muz tell u.. reputation is the most impt thing for a girl!!!!
u start to avoid us.. avoid toking abt the topic tt invovle him.... this porves tt u r not helping urself... we, ur frens, ur family.. trying ways n means to help u.. yet... u not doing anything to help urself..... u believe in fate, u believe in destiiny... but sometime.. ur fate ur destiny... muz control by urself!!!
of coz....i noe u will be thinking tt i've no right to tok to u abt leaving this guy... coz i'm oso as stupid, rite? BUT i will never allow myself to lose all my pride.. n not respecting myself.. once he did something that is out of my tolerance limit.. i wun cont'd ren de.. coz no point!!! anyway, he never did things tt r so overboard ar...
anyway, as xin jie always say.. i'm a door mat with a golden 'welcome'.. now i say.. u r a door mat with a diamond 'welcome'!
btw.. u r not alone, u noe.. we r always here for u.. we really do.... the decision u made(to leave him or not)... i may not support.. but whatever happen... u still have us..
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Thanks....know that u all are worried about me... i'm fine... that's his character and i know that long time ago... i also don't know what i see in him... but it's just so difficult to let go...dun worry about me... the day i scold him left and right, up and down will be the day the relationship ends...
if u noe it's his character.. n u like him coz of tt??? y u so fast submit to fate!! u r still so young.. u dun even wanna try to change ur fate???
u dunno wat u c in him??? yet difficult to let go...
to let go now.. u r unhappy.. for a short period of time... but to be with him.. u will be unhappy till the day he leaves u.. or u leave him.. tt's how long?? unless u tell me.. u r very xing fu with him.. u r happy.. n u feel loved!!! then i'll stop!
haiz.. i dun know what to say and how to say... maybe i should just let him go... things will turn out to be so much better... i tried so hard and i even hate him at times.. i can scold him so much in front of others but when he call me at night, i will just give in again... maybe it's really a mistake right from the beginning.. i want to be happy, of coz.. who don't want to be? just want to say sorry if i break anyone's heart... i, myself, knows that my heart will be badly broken in the near future.. by that time, the heart will already have a lot of wounds that cant be heal..
I can't wait for tt day to come when u finally see his true colors. But will that day ever come or will u be speding the rest of ur life regreting what u had done?
Still remember wat e tarrot cards said? Why do u sit down n give it a try when u dun believe in it? Its going to be the end of sept soon. When are u going to move on?
Will u do so if i can prove to u tt i can too?
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