Today after work.. went northpoint starbucks meet JM.. dunno how long since we last sit down n chat for so long le... still remember last time, when all of us still in sch, me, huixin, yanting, xian n jm... always sit down n chat the whole day.. rot whole day together... really miss those days... now yt in aust.. xin jie n xian bz working, jm bz with his tkd n studies... life is never the same anymore.. the clique is dispersing ba....

tok to jm lotsa stuff.. it's like long time never tok to him like tt.. though we met every week for mentoring... but then we never really sit down n chit chat lor.... told him i felt tt xian changed le.. dunno for the better or wat... but i think it's gd for her ba.. esp in the working society now... mayb i juz still not used to her new self yet... but come to think abt it... any1 who stepped out to the working world.. sure change de lor... only me... remain like tt.. the same.. no change.... coz i still living under a sheltered life ba... suddenly i felt tt i not tt flexible... coz still cant accept some changes....

told jm some prob i facing now.. at one pt.. i'm on the verge to tears... i dunno y i felt like crying... coz mayb wat happened in the morning during mentoring.. plus the stress piling up in sch n work... n of coz stress frm ppl asking me wat m i going to do after i graduate.... so everything come at one go.. suddenly feel like crying... but i didnt cry... not in front of jm... he, himself got lotsa things to worry abt liao lor... his tkd, his sch work, his rotract club n mentoring... i dun wanna him worry more... dun wanna burden him with more prob... he is having a tough time liao.. coz all these r too much for him to handle liao... being the President in his tkd club n VP in his rotract club... he looked thinner liao lor.... he is a perfectionist... asking too much frm himself... start to feel tt he is not efficient... poor thing... haiz... LIFE!

morning mentoring.. during debrefing... really scare me lor... didnt noe xian can get so worked up.. then jm oso raised his voice... i was really terrified... i dunno wat to do.... really wanna hold jm's hand n tell him relax... n hold xian.. tell her to use a more appropriate tone... so worry abt cheryl... so afraid tt watever they say hurt cheryl... n yet i'm helpless... dunno wat to do.... i'm so useless.. whenever come to this.... i dunno wat to do n say... only noe how to be scare... it's the late coming n paying fine issue... haiz... coz all of them.. their pt of views r different... tt's y got conflict... hope cheryl got no hard feelings.. hope xian they all can relax....