Feeling so terrible... so moody... haiz... 1st.. i woke up too late for sch... class starts at 11... n i only woke up at 1045.. so end up i staying at home now lor.. dunno wat happen oso... have been skipping n skipping classes... coz cannot wake up.. my alarm clock cant wake me up le.. mayb i juz too tired le... haiz....

then, LCM... i noe he's feeling very terrible.. coz ash in hospital.. so i understand he'll not be in best of his mood... but then... y does he have to be so harsh to me? so fierce.. snapped at me whenever i start toking... y like tt? izzit juz coz i dun love dogs as he does? haiz... i dun love dogs.. i admit.. so wat? does it make me a cruel person??? i c him so sad.. i oso not feeling gd mah.. so showing him concern.. he either snapped at me... or say i no need be so fake!! WTF! since when i offended this guy?! haiz...

then reports and reports and more reports... haven finish... exams coming in less than a mth... tests coming up in the next 2 weeks... haiz... going crazy le lah... sian sian sian....

haiz.. time to go sch le.. if not going to be late for the class AGAIN!!!!

Today after work.. went northpoint starbucks meet JM.. dunno how long since we last sit down n chat for so long le... still remember last time, when all of us still in sch, me, huixin, yanting, xian n jm... always sit down n chat the whole day.. rot whole day together... really miss those days... now yt in aust.. xin jie n xian bz working, jm bz with his tkd n studies... life is never the same anymore.. the clique is dispersing ba....

tok to jm lotsa stuff.. it's like long time never tok to him like tt.. though we met every week for mentoring... but then we never really sit down n chit chat lor.... told him i felt tt xian changed le.. dunno for the better or wat... but i think it's gd for her ba.. esp in the working society now... mayb i juz still not used to her new self yet... but come to think abt it... any1 who stepped out to the working world.. sure change de lor... only me... remain like tt.. the same.. no change.... coz i still living under a sheltered life ba... suddenly i felt tt i not tt flexible... coz still cant accept some changes....

told jm some prob i facing now.. at one pt.. i'm on the verge to tears... i dunno y i felt like crying... coz mayb wat happened in the morning during mentoring.. plus the stress piling up in sch n work... n of coz stress frm ppl asking me wat m i going to do after i graduate.... so everything come at one go.. suddenly feel like crying... but i didnt cry... not in front of jm... he, himself got lotsa things to worry abt liao lor... his tkd, his sch work, his rotract club n mentoring... i dun wanna him worry more... dun wanna burden him with more prob... he is having a tough time liao.. coz all these r too much for him to handle liao... being the President in his tkd club n VP in his rotract club... he looked thinner liao lor.... he is a perfectionist... asking too much frm himself... start to feel tt he is not efficient... poor thing... haiz... LIFE!

morning mentoring.. during debrefing... really scare me lor... didnt noe xian can get so worked up.. then jm oso raised his voice... i was really terrified... i dunno wat to do.... really wanna hold jm's hand n tell him relax... n hold xian.. tell her to use a more appropriate tone... so worry abt cheryl... so afraid tt watever they say hurt cheryl... n yet i'm helpless... dunno wat to do.... i'm so useless.. whenever come to this.... i dunno wat to do n say... only noe how to be scare... it's the late coming n paying fine issue... haiz... coz all of them.. their pt of views r different... tt's y got conflict... hope cheryl got no hard feelings.. hope xian they all can relax....

Last night worked till 4am... coz of the franchising proj... i need to get the movie done n up mah... 4 am... haiz.. nearly cannot wake up this morning... need to wake up at 9.. class starts at 11...

i was like a zombie... making my way to sch... i can predict tt my mood wun be so gd today de.... well.. when reach dover.... sth happen lor.. n can say quite happy.. or maybe can say brighten up my day... let me 4got tt i dun have enough slp.. mood was better.. haha.. in fact can smile whole day.. LY, YP, XH kept teasing me abt it lor... well.. too happy to care them.. hahaa....

Today tot have to present Ms leong de.. but luckily not enough time.. which means next week then present... then still got this franchising presentation today oso... at 1st tot ours not bad le.. coz got all my idol.. hahaa.. but then after seeing other grps... i realise 'one mountain is still higher than the other mountain'... hahaa... Zac de very cute... he really got tt 'style' of being a big boss.. hahaa.. then wy's grp de.. damn funny... WY is talented... she is so natural in front of camera... really muz make her go take part those acting n singing contests.. hahaa.... the puppet show by robin's grp is interesting... n of coz... like jiehong's grp presentation.. tt flash.. very funny.. n me n xh all say.. we gave them high marks.. coz they used junyang's photo... hahaha (j/k j/k)

after tt we're being forced to go for the opening ceremony of the SP sports complex... Ms Leong said we were 'nominated' to attend the opening... haiz... so warm.. n we have to sit down there... though like tt soccer match.. saw Lim Tong Hai... he not as handsome as last time liao leh... sad sad...

then went straight to tuition.. no time for dinner.. so no dinner... now hungry n sleepy.. but guess going sleep... hehee

hmmm.. have not been doing anything except rot.. for this weekend.. hahaa.. really very sian lor... too tired to do anything...

on thurs, went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Ly, YP, WY. Lame show... but it's nice n funny. brought me back to my pri sch years.. when my biggest prob was tt how to dun let my mommy noe i fail my spelling test again... hahaahaha... those were the days... i love the show.. hehehe... after tt, i told yp, this show is specially created for her de.. hahahaa

then on sat, mentoring cooking comp.. yihang n pei wen were the judges... n when they saw wat yanxin's grp came up with.. i think yihang immediately regretted coming.. hahahaa.. well, as usual... yanxin came out with sth extraordinary!!! hahahaa... most of the time make ppl think twice b4 trying.. hahahaa....

Never noe tt our mentees were so talented... within such a time constrain.. they can come up with dishes tt looked nice n tatsed nice (with the exception of yanxin's grp).. i regretting putting my jason into her grp... i like destroying my jason's future dream of being a chef.. hahahaa... but then again... except for the drink... the food tasted quite nice... but dun look nice lor.. hahaha... better than wat she did last yr lor... hahhaaha...

breakfast was the theme... n the different grp whipped out different kinds of bfast... n it was fantastic!!! of coz.. i love my mentees.. hehee... wee keong reserved a bowl of porridge for me, then jason fed me with tt oreo pancake (creation of yanxin's grp).. hahaha... making me no need eat lunch.. n can stay full thru out my tuition class... :p

hope this can let wee keong relax a little... he too stress up le.. really worry abt him...

i shldnt be here de.. i shld be in my room study for tml's nutrition test de... but then.. my room got bee leh... cannot study.. ahhaa...

Juz told yihang bee is very IN thing now.. tt day, yipei's hse oso got bee.. then wenying's hse oso got bee.. now my hse got bee... tml sure die de.. idiot bee.. if i fail tml.. tt bee sure kana!! hahaa

hmmmm.. juz realised tt recently is the season of breakups... hahaha... and guess who started the ball rolling??? It's me... hahaha,,, tt's wat loh qi say de... coz she n her bf oso 1 mth plus then break liao.. it's not long after my breakup... then terese oso broke up ard the same period... xiao hua say cannot come near us.. she n th juz passed their 2 yr anniversary.. haha.. welll.. suddenly our class... 3 of us back to the single mode liao.... yihang told me.. it's like trend like tt.. so he shall announce now patching up is the IN thing... so ask all of us to patch.. hahaha

well... terese there like possible leh.. haha.. coz she like very shaky leh.. esp it's seems like he still cannot get over with her... hmmmm... we'll c... hee...

sian sian sian.... i cant get the facts into my head.. jia lat liao..... muz go back to the notes liao... :p

This is the lyrics for my web song... zhen ai 真爱

片尾曲/演唱 : 183CLUB 词 : 柯呈雄 曲∶吕绍淳

记忆象游乐园般精彩 我们象对恋人相爱
幸福是应该不会是当然 只怪我们都太贪玩
思念象云朵般柔软 而你静静躺在我胸怀
我象是任性走失的小孩 紧紧抱着孤单

我们都曾经明白 也都曾经遗憾
错过了爱 就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白 怕容易被你宠坏
忘了该与不该
到哪里找回真爱 找回所有遗憾
爱的真相 就能够解开
多给我一些片段 拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

我是被你遗忘的精彩 你却带着记忆离开
心跳是我们唯一的呼喊 提醒我们曾经相爱
你的笑像阳光般灿烂 小心翼翼藏在我口袋
在我脆弱时给了我温暖 谁也无法取代

但我们都曾明白 丢曾经遗憾
一旦错过 就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白 怕又容易被宠坏
忘了该与不该
到哪里找回真爱 找回所有遗憾
爱的真相 就能够解开
多给我一些片段 拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

It's a sat night... n guess wat.. i'm at home blogging... hahaa..

As usual... morning went for mentoring... letting my sec 4 do the paper 1 again.. they having maths prelims on mon.. so it's the last time revision b4 the sat for their exam... jason n wee keong were having last min rev with mrs liau.. long time no c her le.. c her teaching them.. made me remembered tt time when we were in sec 4... we were all working hard for our prelims.. our o'lvl.. she... not changed abit.. as delicated as b4.. spending her time with the students b4 the exam...

when i asked her how old he son now... he is 8 now.. time really flies.. to think tt, the last time we went to her hse.. her son was still a toddler... haha.... she still remember lcm... hard to 4get lah.. i think most teachers all remember him lor... haha... ms elaine tan oso sometime will come ask me abt him... hahaha... telling me how he purposely not to finish her bio paper... n could even pass it... haha

after giving a briefing on next week's cooking competition.. jason n wee keong went outside sch n wait for me... they acc me eat my lunch.. then i went thru some more qns with them.. these 2 r damn careless lor...

Went for tuition.. as usual.. my k2 r still so cute.. my p5 still givning me trouble... lucky my p5 classes got a few handsome guys.. or else i sure faint.. n give up.. n not teach de... hahha.. my chinese class got chao chen... he's a quite boy.. tall... neat looking boy.. n his chinese is damn gd.. coz he in EM1 de... the way he smile.. cute... then got gabriel... my eng p5 class... he is juz like a little boy.. dun look like p5... very cute.. but his work is.. haiz.. terrible... hahha... but to tell every1 out there.. i still interested in guys older than me... not xiao didi... they r only for my vision pleasure.. hahaha....

after tuition, jason called ask if i wanna join them.. mrs liau is giving them tuition at civic centre... i was on the phone at tt time.. abt 1 hr or so later... i calleld jason.. he told me mrs liau gotta go fetch her daughter... so tuition end le... i went meet up with them.. rot for a while b4 heading to sakae sushi for dinner.. haha... love my two mentees... they r there for u to make u smile... when u need them.. hehe...

Jason n Wee Keong!!! better do well!! Gd luck!!! n i wanna c distinctions!!!! coz i noe u 2 can do it de!!!

juz reached home... frm concert at the bay at marina south... it's for the fireworks festival!!! Wenying got the tix to the piorty (spelling like wrong) area... n it's so near the stage!!! wao lao..... somemore with daniel's camera!!... i can take wonderful pics sia... all so clear... upload in my multiply n friendster photo album.. interetsed juz go there c lor.. haha

for today... 1st muz say a BIG BIG thanx to wenying.. coz if not tt she dun have the tix.. we were go.. n will miss out the gd show with 183 club, k-one, FIR, Marchi, Guo Pin Chao, etc etc... of coz got local singers... hahaa.....

next muz thanx Daniel!!! DANIEL!!! THANX.. coz i happened to borrow his digi cam for my assignment... he not only save my life for tt assignment.. but oso let me noe how powerful his cam is.. n can take the photos with all the shuai ge.. nice n clear... Daniel... sorry leh.. i told u i need it for assignment.. then i oso bring it along for the concert.. PS PS...but still muz THANK you soooo much.. muackz....

then muz thank liyun, wenying n yee pei.. coz the acc then we go... stand there for so many hrs.. i think worth the wait though... hahaha... then oso the place is not the nicest place to walk.. coz morning juz rained heavily.. so the ground was so muddy.. tt we had dirty legs all the way.. think oso worth it.... hahaha... ly n wy crazy over the k one guy, Liyang... so kept shouting his name... me crazy over 183 ming dao n shao wei.. so me n yeepei kept calling his name.. we screamed till dunno like wat le.. hahha

then we got the countdown to national day.. with our PM n all the overseas n local artises... n oso fireworks!!! really enjoy tonight... hahaha......

i'll have a sweet dream tonight.. hehe

Today rot at home lor... of coz ly they all come here do assignment... hehe... but then hor... while they were doing, i was watching my wang zi bian qing wa... haha.. the show so sad.... i cried.. but of coz lah.. hse got so many ppl... cannot cry out.. hehe...

anyway, after tt we were doingon our franchise assignment... abit headache... hehe... coz no matter how we do.. we not satisfy leh.. hehe... we'll try again tml....

Lcm left for thailand on sat le... tt guy hor... flying off on sat night... yet he went to work in the in the day.. then he was so late.. if i didnt go drive him to the airport...dunno how he die ar... haha... anyway the most no plane.. stay in Spore lor.. anyway, he did reach airport in time lah... hahha.. he ran in with his fren.. he owe me 1.. LCM remember my Adidas Jersey!!! n u owe me a treat!!! me n cheryl went walk walk in airport lor.. then go daddy there eat.... tok to her abt lotsa stuff.. frm mentoring,...to my relationship with cm, we r not together anymore.. yet we r closer than b4... n my life in poly... hahah... nice chat wo.. hehe....

hmmmm... got lotsa nice nice movie r showing... who willing to acc me watch??? i wanna watch Charlie and the chocolate factory... JM watched le... cheryl oso watched liao... n i wanna watch the maid.. this is a horror show... esp at this time of the yr.. who will acc me watch?? haha.. wanna watch Be with u.. yt told me was not a bad show... wanna watch The Island... ben told me not bad too.. wanna watch Wedding Crashers.. coz is funny..... so many movies wanna watch.... yet nobody acc... no $$ oso... sad sad... hee... i shall c who wanna treat me go watch... :p

Dunno wat's with me today! i'm in a damn sian mood lor. a little bit of thing oso can make me fed up de lor.... haiz.. PMS? i dun think so leh... mayb coz past few nights not enough slp ba.... mayb my tuition centre there the kids r damn idiotic... mayb coz FYP, report n stuff r giving me too much stress... mayb... aiyah.. dunno lah.... juz damn sian...

today, went sch early for FYP as usual.. then on the way, had a bun mommy prepared for me... after doing my analysis... xh they all asked be if i wanna have lunch... they da bao for me.. but i really no mood eat leh... didnt have the urge to eat... so i juz tell them to buy for themselves... it's amazing i dun feel hungry....

then after FYP.. we went for our pract... i wasnt my normal self.. running ard... jumping ard... laughing all the way.. i was quiet.. till zac come distrub me.. then i laughed.. n go crazy awhile.. then went back to the quiet sian sian look le... yp asked me not to be too stress over FYP.. i still can tell her i'm not stress.. so y m i feeling so sian?? i'm very sure nobody offended me... haiz... dunno n dun care...
anyway, during pract... pat's grp baked some biscuits for texture anaylsis.... n did ate some.. then tpt lcm acc me go dinner... but then he was still in camp... plus i oso no time le.. coz 6pm tuition... so went cwp.. tot c those food can tempt me buy sth to eat.. end up.. i went into cold storage.. looked at my fav sushi...no mood.. looked at my fav butterfly fritters... sian.... looked at my dear chocolate bars... dun feel like eating.. haiz....

end up.. i bought bun in fourleaf... coz tuition end at 10.. no matter wat still muz eat some... like tt i went for tuiton... the class was extremely noisy.. rowdy!!! i'm in a foul mood.. n they still testing my patience!!! all kana scolded... punished by me lor....

now feel hungry.. but still too sian to eat... haiz.. think go slp.. hehe

hmm.. these few days.. crazy over the new idol drama... call wang zi bian qing wa (frog) starring sam wang (5566, club 183), Ming Dao (club 183), Chen Qiao En (7 Flowers), Xiao Qiao (R&B, 7 Flowers)...

it's a very fairy tale type of story... n very romantic.. n of coz... in real life none of these will happen de ba... coz i dun think any1 in the world... or shld i say none of those i noe is so romantic...

A guy Jun Hao (ming dao) is a damn arrogant, mean, not flexible, MCP guy. he never give a tot to other ppl's feeling... wat he wanna do.. he'll do it.. he is very gd in hotel mangement though... he is the director of a huge hotel cooporation only son. he had a fiancee Yun Xi (Xiao Qiao).. and his gd fren Zi Jian (Sam Wang). they grew up together.. Zi Jian always like Yun Xi...

in one incident, Jun hao met with an accident.. then was knocked down again by Tian Yu (Qiao En) after tt he lost his memory... Tian Yu is a girl frm low income family... she likes to lie n loves money!! she hopes to marry a rich guy...
After jun hao lost his memory.. he became a nice guy, who think of others b4 self.. tian yu n jun hao spent time together n had lotsa romantic moments together. they fall for each other...
but then jun hao regained his memory.. n totally 4got abt his moments with tian yu... he back to tt mean n arrogant man...
Will he remember the times he n tian yu spent together? will tian yu n jun hao be back together?? i oso dunno... coz haven watch finish.. hehe....

hey those interested in the show.. go watch... haha... coz my summary too summarised... oh yeah.. i too crazy over ming dao.. n i think driving xh, ly n yp they all crazy liao.. hehee... but he cute n cool mah... for those still thinking who is tt guy rite... show u all the cute guy... he 180 cm leh... eng name is call Matthew. hehe.. so muscular... these r not his coolest pic.. but these r wat i can find now.. haha