I'm juz damn pissed! Y things had become like tt? You've noe me for so long liao yet still dunno me?!

I've respected you like an elder brother. i've treat u like an elder brother, i've always tok to u like ur younger sis! juz coz of ppl started to tok in front about us, u started to suspect tt i like u?! COME ON LAH! if i wanna like u, i would have loooong ago.. not till now lor!!! n then ppl always say things.. i cant stop them, but i noe very well, hw i feel towards u... so i no need to scare.. so when they juz say i let them say... then end up, u r the one kana influenced!?!??!?!

nw wat, juz coz ppl say so much things, make u suspected tt i like u (greatest joke of the century), u r treating me like u dunno me, like u hated me. I'm no longer in ur 'MUST MEET' list. i no longer in ur consideration when going out (u juz hope tt i dun follow!)

well, this is TYL! TYL believes in platonic frenship! and TYL is damn prideful and ego! if u wish tt we shld juz go back to acquaintance and not good frens, i glad to do so... SO BE IT!

原来我们之间的友情是那么脆弱的。 什么同甘共苦？什么有福同享、有难同当？都是废话！！！

nw then i realised, those days when we met our down times, we were always there for one another. we were so close, we shared our woes and happiness. we planned our 'revenge'... ALL THESE are fake one lor!?!? all the things we have been thru, cant fight the few words ppl tell u!!!

I M TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED IN U!!!!!

This is a long overdue post... well... i was bz and abit lazy... :p

Anyway, on the 27th Nov after our dear LWY's vocal exam, food tester TYL, ATXH and LWY decided to givethis new Taiwan Restaurant - Xi Men Ding 西门町 in Raffle's City a try. Though the 3 of us has limited captial - being avid food lovers... we juz cant help it but to try.... the price is abit steep though.

Su Ping, if u happened to read my blog... give this a try!!! :p

While waiting for food.. i juz start snapping away

This is... but it is NICE!! it taste alot better than pasar malam, and any other Taiwan snacks kiosk... haven try the REAL taiwan 盐酥鸡 b4... but this is the best among those in SG

This looked half finshed.. coz i 4got to take the photo b4 i ate.. hehehe.. this is pig's trotter mee sua... 猪脚面线.. the mian xian is different from wat we ate in SG.. is nice... 很有咬劲. and of coz, the braised pig's trotter... tender, flavourful.. yumz...

This is the 大肠四季豆... big intestines with French beans aka 4 seasons beans (directly translation). For those who dun like intestines, this is absolutely a must try dish. The dried shrimps are fried till crispy, the French beans are crunchy and the big intestines were fried till so crispy till u dun even noe tt it is big intestine. so ppl who dun like intestines can try it. :p

and finally, the 卤肉饭 with special order 梅菜 added in.... 梅菜入口即化... yet u dun feel tt it is some food that have been cooked and re-cooked for dance... the braised meat 肥而不腻... wonders....

but of coz, be prepared that the price r slightly high... some may think tt this type of dishes really not worth the money.... but to me.. i think is 值得.... :p of coz it is based on the tastebuds of ppl who never tried the authentic Taiwan food b4... this is consider the best of taiwan food of wat we had eaten in SG....

I shld studying food chem... but then it is juz so dry and i simply can remember all the rxn happening! i mean i noe wat happen to the food, i noe wat is the mechanism behind, but i cant remember who/what are involved! sianz to the max... well.. suan le.. i have to study

anyway... sharing with u my latest fave songs!!! lyrics super meaningful... :)

1. Hebe - 寂寞寂寞就好

2. Elva - 错的人

3. Kenji Wu - 没关系

I started to wonder again... shld i cont'd studying? yes, studying has been always my dream. nw i'm in it, and is enjoying every moment (of coz i still complain on the amt of report and work done).

my super seniors have graduated, n currently are looking for jobs.. either they cant find or the pay is as low as my last drawn pay.

Reality strikes me.. y did i put myself into this 'meeting datelines' misery for 2 yrs when ended up i cant have a big jump in my salary?

my frens told me i shld juz cont'd, at least i got exp... but still... TYX says we r constantly in quarter life crisis... i guess so.. wahahhaaa...

btw, i'm still having class nw.... :p

After watching the repeat telecast of Singapore Hits Award 2010, made me wonder, did I follow closely on SHA for all 16 years? hahahaha... i dun remember, but i'm sure for the past 16 yrs, i NEVER once without an idol. Looking back, i didnt noe y i even labelled some as idols... juz pure 'kiddish'? I shall list out my past idols....

From the day i noe that there is M-Pop, which i think 10 yrs old? YEP, TYL started looking at shuai ges THAT young.

I dun remember when, but 小虎队 and LA boyz songs were always in my THEN ULTIMATE LUXURY walkman. At that time CD was a damn high class stuff, so i only got cassette tape. The walkman was a gift i got passed down to me from my dad. If i still have it nw, it is ANTIQUE!

At 11-12 yr old, due to the influenced of my classmates, i started collecting stuff of my THEN idol - Leon Lai. Dun ask me y i liked him tt time. till nw i still wondered Y. mayb it was coz i felt tt he looked like my THEN fave cousin, and my classmates were wooing and ahhhing over some idol, i cannot lose out, so i mentioned Leon, and well, juz like tt he became my 1st idol. (年少无知) I even asked my dad to get his CD for me. I still remember, i had that 今夜你会不会来album.

That was the period of time when the 四大天王(Jacky Cheung, Aaron Kwok, Andy Lau and Leon Lai) and 四小天王 (Jimmy Lin, Nicky Wu, Takeshi Kaneshiro, Alec Su) were so popular. everyone juz go crazy with wither on of them or all of them.

Actually, i liked Andy Lau, but coz at that pt of time, leon, being my so-called idol, was always being compared with andy, and plus my bro like andy lau, i always 'reject' any news and pics of andy lau, to show my 'loyalty' to my 'idol'. (that was juz plain toopid)

During my Sec sch to JC days, I could remember who was i crazy with. But one for sure is Jeff Chang. His songs touched me even up till now. He is one of the talented singers i idolised, (TYL dun juz look at pretty faces guys nia, i appreciate talent too.) I got most of the albums he cut at that period of time: 宽容(1995)、梦想(1996)、挚爱(1997)、选哲精选辑(1997)、直觉(1997)、信仰(2000)、从开始到现在(2002)。Yes, this was how i love Jeff. i think he is the only idol i have so many albums de. wahahahaa

2002 - 2003, idol drama was a great hit and slowly all the boy bands were all coming out. 1st, F4 due to Meteor Garden series. They were the start of pretty face boybands in M-pop, and yes, TYL was once crazy over them, to the extend of queuing up for half a day (i got my resources nt to Q for days) for Vanness Wu autograph for his 1st album.

2003 - 2005 yr old, Jay Chou became VERY popular, and i got his VERY 1st album (a gift frm my cousin) and the talented grp, Tension (it's a pity this grp didnt last long). Then comes 5566, Energy! I was crazy over 5566, i would save up and buy the albums and merchandise. I got their 一光年, Boyfriend 挚爱 (2 editions), C'est Si Bon, Mr Fighting OST, 好久不见 and 喝彩。At the same time, TYX was crazy with Energy (with Toro and 牛奶), so u can imagine, how well we noe their songs at THAT time. but coz after Toro then subsequently 牛奶 left, we grew out of them le. As for 5566, the last 2 albums were not as nice as the 1st few, and slowly they spent their time on other areas other than singing, we also stop following.

2005-2009, Fahrenheit (飞轮海) came into the M-pop pic and sad to say, yes this is another pretty face boyband TYL was crazy with. I got pics of them everywhere, even on my office desktop. I was especially in love with Jiro Wang. Coz he reminded me of someone. Once i told that someone i was different frm her (who happen to like Fahrenheit too), as i noe him 1st, and coz of him i liked Fahrenheit - Jiro, but she likes Jiro 1st b4 she met him. Well, that was the past... so nw, the craze died down le.

Proud to say that, apart from the boys, TYL oso spend time looking at girls. SHE when they 1st appear in 2001, TYL oso follow all their news and albums. :)

As for now, i wun be as crazy, but still there are a bunch of ppl i adore, admire, idolised! wahhaa.. i will never say NO to Mayday (dunno when did i start liking them, but once start u cant stop), Show Luo, Rainie Yang, Jeff Chang, SHE, Zhang Yun Jing (She is damn shuai and cute!!!!!), Liang Wen Ying (Coz she is oso LWY? wahaha). and i wld not say no to handsome guys or nice music!

不知道从几时开始，我已经不再追看偶像剧；浪漫爱情小说也不再吸引我。是怎么了？我长大了？！ 哈哈。。。 可能吧。到了这把年纪还有少女浪漫幻想或许太可悲了吧。很多身边的朋友都会很开心，我终于长大了！ 哈哈。。。曾经就有朋友阻止我看偶像剧和爱情小说，她说就是因为受到影响，所以渴望梦幻般的爱情，对于爱情的要求特别高，结果怎样都找不到男朋友。几年前的我，也许就是这样吧。现在的我，选择性的远离爱情。

看见周围的朋友都在爱情里受尽了折磨，我为何还自讨苦吃？最近又好多朋友，不管是很亲近的，还是比较不熟的； 不管是男的、还是女的都在爱里受伤。分手的分手、悔婚的悔婚、后悔结婚的后悔结婚、说不爱了就不爱了。。。　不管是爱情长跑５年以上还是在一起一年以上。。。都敌不过变心。说什么天长地久、说什么海枯石烂、说什么永远、说什么一辈子的承诺、说什么至死不渝的爱。。。到头来，说变心就变心、说不爱就不爱、说分手就分手。有没有想过另一方的感受？请到深处时，对方伤风，你就会觉得呼吸困难；要分手时，对方在你面前的伤痛，你们却感受不到。爱情就那么脆弱吗？

我不知道自己有没有曾经深爱过；不过我很肯定我有很受伤过。。这种痛真的笔墨难形容。那种心就好像被揪在一起的痛、坐着都好像会窒息而死、走路像行尸走肉般、整个世界好像都塌了下来。我想这种痛，谁都不愿受到第二次。偏偏我让我自己第二次受到伤害。。。　真是可悲。。好累。。　看到周围的人，加上自己所受的伤。。。我真的不想再接近这所谓甜蜜、让人便美的爱情。如果变美丽的代价就是要面对着种种伤害，我宁可丑一辈子。至少我会很开心自在。不会为了另一个人有没有想你、是不是也一样爱着你、有没有背叛你、有没有照顾自己而烦恼！

有一本小说里，男主角说道∶“男人说爱你，当下真的是爱你的。”　就是这一秒说爱你，真的是爱你的。只不过，下一秒也许就变心了。人生还真的变化无常啊！

人最厉害的就是帮自己找借口。再牵强的理由都能说出了来。只要感情淡了、不爱了、想分手了。。。什么理由都有。

看了这么多，那些梦幻似的爱情、那些浪漫、感人的爱情对我来说就是戏剧。再也不是现实、我更不可能渴望的到。我不相信爱、更不对爱没信心。。男人，我照看；我照玩；但我绝对不可能再爱、更不可能放下心防再去爱。也许某天，有人能让我对爱情的看法改变，或是能让我有信心。但绝对不是现在！近期内，不可能会有我的喜讯吧。:)

Results for my 1st paper is out. It is a B+! haha.. i'm satisfied with this result. Coz i didnt aim high. Juz a middle range pass would be enough...

2nd paper juz finished, and now i'm preparing for a test on tues. But it seems sooo unproductive. i juz cant get the facts into my head... haiz.. no matter wat, i muz force myself to do it.

Last thurs, went KTV with my classmates after exam. I knew some of the guys can sing... but i didnt noe most of them CAN REALLY SING! OMG! i enjoyed every moment even when i'm not singing. jus sitting down and listen to them sing is a pleasure.

normally, most guys i noe, either dunno hw to sing or dun dare to sing. simon and darren aside... they are my ktv kakis... hehee but they are juz sooooooo superb.... haha i told eric i gonna bring him to ktv pub to show off le... wahahaha...

well, though i didnt get to be the same class as wy... i'm still happy! coz i LOVE my class! they are constantly amazing my with new things... wahahaha...

ok back to notes.. SIANESS!

Life in sch is getting chaotic... endless reports, then b4 u noe it... time for exam... sometime, i wonder... y m i rushing like mad? wat is the purpose? i didnt learn anything in this rush accept to meet datelines... oh yeah.. and think for a title for the report...

last week... i was rushing report till i didnt get enough slp.. i think the average slping time for the whole week is 3 hrs? haiz.. slp... my slp.... my bed....

i didnt noe i was stress... i tot i was only rushing out the report.. not stress... till one day, when i closed my eyes... i saw numbers... all the stuff i have calculated... all the facts and experimental errors... i cant slp peacefully.... then i noe.. I WAS STRESSED! sianz...

i realised being buried under piles of work and being stress didnt help in 4getting the past and ppl... in fact it made u miss the person more... at least for my case.... n I HATE IT! y muz my brain allow him to come into my mind?! i tot he is out of my mind for quite some time le?

yes... the more i stress.. the more i kana buried under the mountains of work.. the more i missed him... i missed his voice... giving the motivation to hang on, encouraging me to continue walking... i missed his encouraging and reassuring hug.. giving me strength.... i missed his failed attempts to made me laugh... and made me 4got watever was bothering me.... even juz his presence... oso could make me feel better... EEEKKKK.... y like tt?! i dun want it! i dun wanna be such a weakling!

i cant go find him... no way i gonna start running in circles again... no i cant call him.. coz i will want more than juz call. no, i cant do anything!!!! i juz cant do anything except to force him out of my mind! i hate him, i hate myself! i wanna ALT CTR DEL!

I've totally understand wat WY had been thru for the past 2 yrs! WY, so sorry that we werent THAT understanding.. i mean we understand ur situation, but then we did give you some pressure to a certain extend. Nw i can fully understand wat u had been thru, hw u were being torn between frens and sch.

DEAR family and frens,

The course I'm studying nw is call a CRASH course. That is why at the end of the 2 years, we can get bachelor with honors. It will take about 4 yrs to finish exactly the same course in NZ. My course is not what you all think about the REAL university life, where ppl are leading carefree life and enjoying every moment of it (even if u all are rushing for reports or mugging). We cant planned our time -table to our liking, nor we can bargain the due dates with the lecturers. Our one day of lectures is equivalent to 1 week of lectures in NZ. and yep, the WHOLE DAY. Dun be amazed tt the lecturer could finish at least 2 -3 chapters or even a half of a particular module a day.

We are all absorbing as much information as we can. coz by the end of the month, it will be the final exam of the module. PLUS, due to my course of study, we have a lot of lab work which required us to write report, and the longest due date given was 2 weeks. we had 1 which required us to hand in the report the very next day.

It is NOT that i wanna act hardworking or wat. It's i have no choice! TYL is famous of being a slacker, i'll slack every chance i have, BUT i cant! This is the choice i've made, i need to accept it. SO i may not be able to join the gatherings or slacking sessions as frequently. STILL, i tried to be there as many sessions as possible.

TYL is oso famous of MIA in class, but not this time round. Coz every min counts in the lecture. Last time, I MIA, i can juz self study i can fully understand and do well in exams. But this time round, i need to listen to absorb. Say tt i'm old liao, brain function not as well as last time and it is a long time since i last STUDIED for real. So I'm trying to absorb.

PLUS, TYL dun have any savings(serve me right), so now without work, my only source of income is from tuition. My time is divided for tuitions, reports and classes... n i dun really have any more time left.

I'm glad tt most ppl ard me are very understanding. However, i noe it is frustrating when i kept saying i not free, got test, need to do report blah blah blah... and can be very annoying when it comes to arranging time /slots.

Juz wanna let u all noe, it is NOT tt i wanna act hardworking or trying to SHOW OFF tt i'm REALLY bz with sch.. it is really I've NO CHOICE.

I've chose to come back to sch, i dunno if i'm able to survive these 2 yrs or do well... but i wanna do my best, at least i will not live with regrets in future.

Thanks ppl, for ur utmost understanding...

No matter how stress and 'xiong' the sch life is, we still made frens. I realised that I have yet introduced my new found classmates. hahaha... yep, they are funny, and cute. and most of them are just so young. TYX cant get away from ppl born in 1983, i cant get away from ppl born in 1987.

The guys in my class are of tyx's age, the girls are younger.

These are my 'clique' in sch. We have lunch together, sit together in class and go crazy in class. oh yeah, and read 'My Paper'. wahahhaa... so cute, pretty and funny.

Huijuan, the girl elder than me, she is brave to give up her career for studies.

The girls, most are TP students, they are clever, hardworking and pretty... hahaaa... they will ku zhong dai le...

These are the guys in my class. They are funny guys who never fail to amaze me with their "inner" talents. They can mimic lecturers so well that they tok in their slang/accent/ with their styles.

Some are just humorous. hahahaa..

went out with them last night, enjoyable! hahaha.. so these bunch of didis and meimeis are fun loving afterall... juz pray hard this course dun made us lose all the fun! :)

wooo.. i didnt noe it has been so long since i last posted an entry... well... life have been so bz lor...
Official start of the degree programme... a test every 2 weeks.. (in fact, i juz finished my 2nd test for the mth juz now), reports to be handed in the next day after practical... time juz fly pass...
next week.. i'll be off for study week... yes, my 1st exam.. 30th Sep... then 1st oct will start a new paper (known as module in SG context)... Crazy life....

last weekend i went to Crown Plaza hotel with my fave ppl... hahhaah thanks to cheryl for her invite... hehhehe... yesh.. i got a test today, i still spend my sat playing and staying overnight.. coz the place is juz superb!!! my rotters, yt and cheryl (it has been a looooong time since we last rot like tt?)... went for a swim at the wonderful pool, and slack at the lounge with free flow of alcohol and finger foods (not those frozen then fried stuff, are REAL cheese with crackers, nice cookies, etc) imagine u are seeping wine and eating cheese with crackers... with ppl u love so much ard u... HEAVENLY!!!!! ok.. i did 4got i got test at tt pt of time.. hheheheee

back to reality... time to go for lab.... then tuition then slack tonight!!! hehehehee :p

It is a long time since i last enjoyed myself this much! after much consideration, i decided not to go for my sch's welcome bbq and went over to GK 7th mth celebration. and i didnt regret it!!!!!!

when i reached wdl, simon came out and drove me in. When i stepped into GK, and walked into the event area, i didnt expect anything but juz 'hi' frm various ppl. coz the event this time round was quite 'sane' - not like past yrs, where all of ur running ard shouting and making ppl to bottoms up. they were all sitting at their respective tables eating and drinking normally.

I walked in, 受到明星般的欢迎，真的受宠若惊. i didnt expect it to be soooooooo.... overwhelming? *i can use this word rite?*, anyway, ppl frm pdtn, frm sales side surrounded me, pulling me to their tables... simon was beside me, pulling me away frm them, (i felt like superstar, wahahaha), then asmine came in and i hid behind asmine...

Then i started to run ard, saying hi made tons of noise. proud to say, 本来沉闷的地方，被我炒热了！！！hahaha.. ok, i admit i was damn noisy... but this type of function need to be as noisy as possible de mah... :p but, call me any names... but i really like the 'welcome' feeling...

as usual, drinks are widely available.. this time, there is Hoegaarden.... Woooo.... no one sang ktv, so i start the ball rolling, then can sang duet with Simon! LOVE IT!!!!

but ppl started to go off ard 7plus, b4 8, only left me, kelvin and de hua. Steven was drunk le, so we asked a colleague to send him back. then we left GK.

Kelvin and i felt tt it was still early, 8plus nia... and we haven reach our quota for drinks. so last min, kelvin asked me if i wanna go over to tony's coffeeshop there to eat and drink. and boom.. we were there with tony and ah yeo... we drank and eat (yes, the food there is 1000000000 x better than GK de buffet).... we chat till 11 plus.. soooooo happy... with them, no matter hw much u drink, u wun feel terrible or drunk... u juz feel happy.... :p

I was ultimate late for class today! coz of tt toopid bus! damn irritated with the bus! waited for half an hr, then 3 buses came tgt. damn!! and this is not the 1st time. TYX oso faced the same prob!!!! she left hse 1.5 hrs b4 me!!! the bus is already taking its own sweet time!!!

i'm sooooo gonna to write a complain letter to SMRT!!!!

Have been logging into blogger, but end up didnt update. Ok, time to update...

3 weeks of sch... gonna be the final week, then my degree preparation program will come to an end. Next mth, is the REAL thing, the start of my 2 years journey....

nw then i truly understand y wy told me she cant cfm dates with us when she was in Massey for the 1st few mths. They LOVE last min stuff... last min changed of time table, last min addition of workshops... NEVER one day i can go back on time... end up i have to rush for my tuition.... headache...

Good news.. NONE of my classmates can guess my actual age!!! hehheehee.. ALL to i'm born in 1986... woooo... actually... i'm 21 every yr... ehehhe... cool.... my classmates are actually interesting and quite good as of now.... and got shuai ge to see (wy drooling over him).... not bad lor.... hehehehe.... tt shuai ge is not my dish... he seems too guai... but he got a great body and nice tan color... :)

i always wonder.... have i changed? or will i change? is it for the better or for the worse? i've seen changes ard me... some are for the better, some are for the worse.. WU NAI!!! heard stories of a good fren... he was once such a good buddy... wat caused him to changed? dunno.. maybe his new gf? haiz... well... ppl changed every min.. we have to accept it... no matter wat rite?

Sch has started for 4 days... and there is no ONE single day tt i'm not rushing. NOT late for sch, is late for tuition.

timetable stated 5pm to end. but dunno y it can drag till 6sth. Nw i undestand y wy always told me they cannot cfm, coz dunno wat time sch end. FULLY UNDERSTAND!

Assignments piled up. I've handled in 1-2 liao, nw doing the 3rd 4th 5th... wooo.. wat i got myself into?! i'm looking fwd to weekends!

To my surprise, i got 2 girls in my class who happened to be my proj students for SFMA competition for 2 different yrs! cool rite! one moment, i was supervising them, next moment, we become classmates... wahahaha

2nd day of sch, i've met him. i stunned, dunno wat to do... i juz stunned and stared for 3 secs. my mind went blank. he nudged me, i juz mumbled a bye, and went off.... i didnt tok to him... dunno wat to say.... but when he nudged me... i realised hw much i missed his arms... (sounds wrong?) wahahaha... well, back to REALITY! tyl muz work hard... stop think those idiotic stuff :p

1st Aug - Last day of taka fair!

Old liao... work for 2 weeks with breaks in the middle i oso wanna die liao... wahahaha... but to think of the $$... ok lah...

@ taka, hunks and babes are in every corner... so cool... it is a pleasure to my eyes lor...

saw Kym Ng, Joanne Peh on separate occasions... noe a few more ah boys (the promoters)... wahahaa

2nd Aug - 1st day of sch! I pray tt everything will go well and smooth!!!

It marks the starting of my student life of 2 yrs!!!

Gambatte!

The time table is out.
wooo... and it is getting nearer and nearer to my dream of getting a degree...

It is so exciting yet scary...


the 1st lect/test is BIOCHEM by TSA!!! haiz... make me wonder....biochem is my killer!! TSA is my killer lect! haven start yet, i see my 死期... hw?! hw??

TYL, u can de.. jia you jia you jia you!!!

Have been clearing my desk, re-arranging my lecture notes during poly time... and I found this - an assignment for Effective Communication Skills - Journal Practice.

My Regret

I have a very good male friend. He was always there for me when I needed him. He accompanied me when I was lonely; he listened to all my grumbles; he made me laugh when I was too stress up; coaxed me to sleep in sleepless nights; gave me a warm hug when I was helpless. I felt that I was fortunate to find someone who was so nice to me.

One day, he told me that he wanted to go and stayed over at his friend's house for overnight computer games, so he could not accompany me the day after. The first thing that came to his mind was that he wanted to join his friends as they were all staying over for a night of games. He felt that cancelling our meeting that day was not a big deal. But I lost my temper the moment he told me he was cancelling the meeting, as the first thing that flashed in my mind was that I was less important than his friends; that I was nothing to him. I shouted at him, saying that he only came to me when he needed my help and all sorts of accusations. He tried to reason with me, explained to me. However, I was too angry to think rationally. I refused to listen to him and even hanged up on him.

In the end, he stopped contacting me for a few days. Actually, he did not contact me because he knew that I was still mad and nothing he said could get into my head, so he let me cool down first before he contacted me. At that time, my mind was telling me that he really did not treat me as a special friend; I was just a normal friend to him. He did not care if I was hurt or angry. I could not control myself, so I called and scolded him for being heartless, and insensitive. I told him that I was stupid to think that I was important to him. I was very unreasonable.

He was angry, and shouted at me. He asked why I was so unreasonable. Why I was putting so much to the situation? If I was not important to him, why would he bother to be there for me whenever I needed someone? I kept quiet because I was scared as he never shouted at me before. I realised that I was too irrational; I did not cool myself down to think properly. I let my automatic thoughts rule me and caused the fight. I apologised. He told me that my words were hurtful, and I should think about his feelings too.

After that incident, we were back to normal. Too bad, I did not really learn from this mistake, similar incidents happened a few more times. We are not close anymore.

Now, I have learned that I should not let the illogical me to rule me. I should have cooled myself down, clarified things with him in a peaceful manner. I should not have accused him and should not assume things. If I had thought first before I acted, I would tell him that I was not stopping him to be with his friends. It was just that I felt hurt when he cancelled the meeting that was decided a few days ago because his friend invited him last minute. Maybe thing would not have turned so ugly.

After reading this, the 1st thing i tot... WAH, I HANDED THIS TYPE OF WORK IN?!??! OMG!

1. The English sucks (and I realised that there were a few mistakes that my tutor didnt mark me down), i'm like marking my student's work, which i would blow my top! and to think tt my tutor gave me 74%. wahaha

2. How childish can I be?! OMG!! just coz of this incident.. i can create such a big woo haa!? wah!! Amazing!

but well... these are the memories that are so close to ur heart.. wahaha.. if not for this entry... i dun think i would even remember this had happened(till now i still cant recall exactly hw this incident happened). hmmm... i muz have felt terrible at tt time ba...

this oso proved one thing.. no matter hw hurtful/painful at tt pt... u will 4get eventually.. this entry was 4-5yrs ago.. wahaha...

I noe i'm slow... it has been more than a yr since she 1st started out as a contestant in Taiwan's SuperIdol 2008 (超级偶像2008), and nw her 2nd album 《相反的我》is already out.

I knew that there is this particular singer tt had created a big woo haa throughiut the contest, however i wasnt really into it, and the only song i noe was 《黑裙子》, ending song of 《敲敲爱上你》. Ivan was the one who 1st intro this song to me, and i was attracted to her vocal (i tot it was a guy initally), but again, i didnt really research on her. only noe that she is not those girly type.

I only REALLY get noe to her when i watched 娱乐百分百(100% Entertainment) recently. She was cute, shuai, funny... wooo... then i did an intense research on her. Starting to get to noe more abt her, and followed her clips during her contest. SHE WAS SUPERB during the contest. Now i understant y she was the 人气王 and sebsequently the Champion! She cried when she tok abt her ex and dedicate a song 《黑色幽默》to the ex... she showed ppl the 'Man' side of hers, the 'gentle' side, the 'cute' side, the 'Rocker' side, the 'funny' side... she is juz someone i looking out for for a BF!! wahahaha...

Oops.. i 4got to tell you who is she...

相反的我宣传照

Name: Zhang Yun Jing (Jing)
Chinese: 张芸京(original name 张芸菁)
Nickname: 京爷、阿京
DOB: 6/9/1983
1st album - 2009 《破天荒》
《破天荒》，《黑裙子》，《让我照顾你》 are a few songs i like in the album.
2nd album - 2010 《相反的我》
currently i like《坏了》, wait till i finish listening to the whole album! wahahaha...

So, she is my latest idol! my latest obession!!! wahahahahaa

Information from Chinese Wikipedia-Zhang Yun Jing
New Album《相反的我》can get from haoting.com - Zhang Yun Jing

Woo.. bdae is over...haiz... sadz... but i've enjoyed myself sooooo much... thank you everyone who made it happened and oso those who remembered and left a msg somewhere... wahahaha...

i went to sooooo many different rest.. tasted so many different kinds of food for this bdae....

29th June - outing with my office gang - Kelvis, yan, lihua, tricia, bingxiong. and TYX (she seems to appear in most of the celebration outings... wahahahaa)

Had our dinner @ SBW Bai Mi Fen (it is nice.. go try.. close on Wed)

Then we brought our Uncle Kelvis to MOF for desserts... wahahha...

This is wat my gang get for me.... :)

8th July - start of the official celebration... Steamboat dinner @ Fat Fish Rest on top the SBW hill... Old Nelson rd with 5G1u and YT... yes.. my fave gang.. as usual... it was filled with fun and laughter... just love spending time with them... anything will taste nice... :p

9th July - Out with dinner with my cute family. We had dinner @ Pu Tian Rest in JP. Yes, the food is nice, service is nt bad. and Thank lyn for ur bdae gift. :)

TYX was busier than me. We had Seoul Garden with Harris in the afternoon, then she went to JP for Ice Cream, then had dinner with us. See... i think it is more of her bdae.... wahahahhaa... :p

This Esprit Collection watch is DAMN EXPENSIVE is from my beloved TYX and TYW... Thanks darlings.... This is an automatic watch... it is juz soooooo coool.... wahahahaa...

10th July - TYX (see.. she is the fixed Guest of most of the celebrations) and I went down Taka to take a look at the booth Lion City have selling smoothie and some GK products... then met up with Kelvis and went to have a late lunch @ Kelvis and TYX's latest fave - Geylang 田鸡粥...

then after tt we met up with HJM, Cheryl for dinner @ Tampopo at Liang Court. It is super nice.... we had our fair share of Black pig there.. wahahahaa....

Then we went chilling out @ Helipad... cool place.. but nt really high enough wo... but the company counts!!! hehehee

Then we went back home for cake cutting session... so many ppl was at my hse... my bro's frens, colleague and his daughter... so nice of them.... THANKS everyone... then HJM stayed to watch World Cup 3rd placing match (Germany won!!!!!) wooooooo

11th July (actual day) - We went for our long awaited KTV @ Clementi Party World.... cool leh... wahahaha... then yp came in with bdae cake.. actually come to think of it... we RARELY meet up each other le.. everyone so bz with everything....

anyway, after tt we attended yingxiu's wedding... our yingxiu is the 1st to get married in our poly gang!!!! she was sooooo gorgeous... wahahhaa...

That almost wrap up my bdae celebration... hahaha

Oh ya... recieved a special sms frm Simon (GK), he 自弹自唱 Happy birthday song for me... so nice of him... hehehee..

he always will send me a song sang by him.... it is juz so nice.. it is like he will noe hw i felt at tt pt of time.. 他的歌有时真的有疗伤的作用。。。 :)