10th Sep was BP mentoring 10th anniversary carnival... it was held in SP Auditorium. we had 2 game stores... one is on fishing n the other soccer.. while some of us were bz mending the store, the others were running ard to play games... i think the mentees enjoyed themselves... we took lotsa photos... making it into badges..and postcards... very nice wo... hahahaa....

had the prize giving ceremony... mentors getting bronze, silver, gold and platimum award.. i got gold.. hahaa... next yr will be platimum liao.. i hope.. hahaa... anyway, wee keong n siti got the young learner's award... which is an award given to mentees.. who improve not only acdemically, but oso character wise.. jason oso can get it de.. but then my fault ba.. i 4got sms mdm soh to tell her.. so.... end up jason dun have... n he kept asking us y he didnt get.. hahaa...

had lotsa fun on sat... didnt regret giving up my work...for this.. hahaha.. though i earned $45 lesser... hehee...

haiz.. so fast exam coming ilao.. i shld be studying liao.. but no mood leh... c those notes.. i sian half... this made a big contrast between me n yanxin.. i too slack.. she too stressed... hahaa..
today is the start of study week le.. so guess.. shld go study now.. or else no time study liao...

Rot the whole day wo.. hahahaa... today no class... lazy do fyp.. slept till almost 11 then wake up... dun intend to study... too lazy.. no motivation....haiz....

so went out with mommy... go big aunt's hse.. long time never go le... miss all my nephews n nieces.. hahaha... aunt's hse like mini child care center.... so many toddlers... n they can be real noisy!!!! wao lao... can u imagine.... 2 toddlers.. running ard the hse.. chasing n screaming at each other... then another 9 mth old baby... crying n getting attention from ppl... n a 9 yr old boy.. hoping to find some1 to play with him... chaotic!! is the word i can use to describe the hse's scene...

still miss them lots... all still so cute... n i LOVE them.. though they r irritating at times... hehe.... well... soon... another baby on the way... hahaha... hopefully is a girl.. coz we have too many boys!!!!! not balance... hehee....

i tell yanxin,,, next time we cannot have babies so near each other de... coz our hse will oso be chaotic like wat it is now at aunt's hse.. hahaha....

Yt said i'm always someone who jumped in conclusion so fast without thinking properly.. then acted harshly... this is very true ba.. i guess... n i noe tt's y i kept quarrelling with ppl.. (shld i say with him only).. i dunno y i always got such a big rxn de.. haiz... this is not the 1st time le.. everytime i will suspect this suspect tt.. haiz.. n i noe everytime he tried his best to explian... but guess... he oso one day cannot tahan de....

this time he told me he got a test... then i said ok.. then realised tt his clasmate left the sch.. so how can he possible have test later in the day? i was so angry.. i smsed him... said he lied... he lied to me.. he replied saying he really got test.. i said it was in the morning wasnt it? then he didnt reply me.... i was very angry.. coz i hate it when ppl lied... normally jokes i dun mind.. but.. haiz...

Later the day i saw him nthe rest of his class coming frm a class... n they proceeding to the next venue... i was asking myslef... i misunderstood him again?? but how come he dun bother to explian? Yanxin said.. if she were him, she willheck care me.. coz i dun even thrust her.. y shld she bother abt me.. no use explaining... i was dumbfold....

all of them said i shld apologised... coz my fault... i was thinking.. ok.. sure.. later tonight i'll do it.. then... he called me tt night... guessed wat he told me the moment i picked up the phone? he said 'hey i really got test.. i didnt bluff u... ' i nearly cried... n say sorry.. i'm really sorry... but i didnt.. coz he told me.. sorry no use.. the hurt is there le.. tt's wat he told me everytime i accused him of sth n then realised i've wrongly accused him. i muz try harder to get rid of this idiotic habit...

Wanna tell him: -.. . ... --..-- / .. .----. -- / ... --- .-. .-. -.--

anway, went to get chalet le.. the promo package.. haha.. coz swimming pool closing at tt time.. so i chose the sea view de.. hehe.. so happy.. n excited.. cant wait till tt day.. :p going to start at 22 superstar... since we got so many superstar here.. wj claim he is andy lau, kl n des claimed they r jay chou, we say wy is sun yan zi... hahaha...

hmmmm.. sunday.. everyone out except me... yt acc me rot whole day.. i shld be preparing for my exams.. but i dun feel like bringing out my notes and study... well... spent the whole day changing the blogskin...n song of coz.. hahaa...

this i come up by myself de.. hahaha.. nice mah?? hehee... feel free to comment wo... :p

finally... went ktv le.. hahaha.... with wee keong, jason and cheryl... new songs all the way.. ahahaha.. esp 183 club songs... woo.... hehee... so happy... hahaha...

juz finished the show 'Dude, where's my car?'.. damn stupid.. damn funny... hahaha.. n i say.. GUYS R DUMB! n they can never do things right... hahaa.. ok...cannot condemn all guys lah.. hehe... not all guys r dumb.... haha... but all guys spell trouble!!! hmmm.... ok lah... cannot say all guys lah... okok... recently juz fed up with guys lor... hehe... even my dad n my bro.. haiz... dunno wat i owe them past life...

recieved my 1st teacher's day gift.. haha... though have been teaching for so long... yet... didnt really get any gift lor.. today, my k2 kid gave me... he gave me lotsa stuff... frm a small camera to 2 pens, to an hp accessory... to a doraemon!!! hahaha... tt's my fav.. hehee... all put in a box... n outside he drew it himself.. hahahaa... so cute... haiz... sometime i think i enjoy being with children more than i enjoy with adults... at least they r cute n innocent.. hmmm....

well... channel U coming up with great shows!!! mon n tue..7.30pm Pride.. (J-show) by Kimura Takuya... then wed- fri 7.30pm... wang zi bian qing wa by 183 club!!! hahahaa.... my fav show!!! OMG!! i'll be guai guai at home everyday le... hehe

Feeling so terrible... so moody... haiz... 1st.. i woke up too late for sch... class starts at 11... n i only woke up at 1045.. so end up i staying at home now lor.. dunno wat happen oso... have been skipping n skipping classes... coz cannot wake up.. my alarm clock cant wake me up le.. mayb i juz too tired le... haiz....

then, LCM... i noe he's feeling very terrible.. coz ash in hospital.. so i understand he'll not be in best of his mood... but then... y does he have to be so harsh to me? so fierce.. snapped at me whenever i start toking... y like tt? izzit juz coz i dun love dogs as he does? haiz... i dun love dogs.. i admit.. so wat? does it make me a cruel person??? i c him so sad.. i oso not feeling gd mah.. so showing him concern.. he either snapped at me... or say i no need be so fake!! WTF! since when i offended this guy?! haiz...

then reports and reports and more reports... haven finish... exams coming in less than a mth... tests coming up in the next 2 weeks... haiz... going crazy le lah... sian sian sian....

haiz.. time to go sch le.. if not going to be late for the class AGAIN!!!!

Today after work.. went northpoint starbucks meet JM.. dunno how long since we last sit down n chat for so long le... still remember last time, when all of us still in sch, me, huixin, yanting, xian n jm... always sit down n chat the whole day.. rot whole day together... really miss those days... now yt in aust.. xin jie n xian bz working, jm bz with his tkd n studies... life is never the same anymore.. the clique is dispersing ba....

tok to jm lotsa stuff.. it's like long time never tok to him like tt.. though we met every week for mentoring... but then we never really sit down n chit chat lor.... told him i felt tt xian changed le.. dunno for the better or wat... but i think it's gd for her ba.. esp in the working society now... mayb i juz still not used to her new self yet... but come to think abt it... any1 who stepped out to the working world.. sure change de lor... only me... remain like tt.. the same.. no change.... coz i still living under a sheltered life ba... suddenly i felt tt i not tt flexible... coz still cant accept some changes....

told jm some prob i facing now.. at one pt.. i'm on the verge to tears... i dunno y i felt like crying... coz mayb wat happened in the morning during mentoring.. plus the stress piling up in sch n work... n of coz stress frm ppl asking me wat m i going to do after i graduate.... so everything come at one go.. suddenly feel like crying... but i didnt cry... not in front of jm... he, himself got lotsa things to worry abt liao lor... his tkd, his sch work, his rotract club n mentoring... i dun wanna him worry more... dun wanna burden him with more prob... he is having a tough time liao.. coz all these r too much for him to handle liao... being the President in his tkd club n VP in his rotract club... he looked thinner liao lor.... he is a perfectionist... asking too much frm himself... start to feel tt he is not efficient... poor thing... haiz... LIFE!

morning mentoring.. during debrefing... really scare me lor... didnt noe xian can get so worked up.. then jm oso raised his voice... i was really terrified... i dunno wat to do.... really wanna hold jm's hand n tell him relax... n hold xian.. tell her to use a more appropriate tone... so worry abt cheryl... so afraid tt watever they say hurt cheryl... n yet i'm helpless... dunno wat to do.... i'm so useless.. whenever come to this.... i dunno wat to do n say... only noe how to be scare... it's the late coming n paying fine issue... haiz... coz all of them.. their pt of views r different... tt's y got conflict... hope cheryl got no hard feelings.. hope xian they all can relax....

Last night worked till 4am... coz of the franchising proj... i need to get the movie done n up mah... 4 am... haiz.. nearly cannot wake up this morning... need to wake up at 9.. class starts at 11...

i was like a zombie... making my way to sch... i can predict tt my mood wun be so gd today de.... well.. when reach dover.... sth happen lor.. n can say quite happy.. or maybe can say brighten up my day... let me 4got tt i dun have enough slp.. mood was better.. haha.. in fact can smile whole day.. LY, YP, XH kept teasing me abt it lor... well.. too happy to care them.. hahaa....

Today tot have to present Ms leong de.. but luckily not enough time.. which means next week then present... then still got this franchising presentation today oso... at 1st tot ours not bad le.. coz got all my idol.. hahaa.. but then after seeing other grps... i realise 'one mountain is still higher than the other mountain'... hahaa... Zac de very cute... he really got tt 'style' of being a big boss.. hahaa.. then wy's grp de.. damn funny... WY is talented... she is so natural in front of camera... really muz make her go take part those acting n singing contests.. hahaa.... the puppet show by robin's grp is interesting... n of coz... like jiehong's grp presentation.. tt flash.. very funny.. n me n xh all say.. we gave them high marks.. coz they used junyang's photo... hahaha (j/k j/k)

after tt we're being forced to go for the opening ceremony of the SP sports complex... Ms Leong said we were 'nominated' to attend the opening... haiz... so warm.. n we have to sit down there... though like tt soccer match.. saw Lim Tong Hai... he not as handsome as last time liao leh... sad sad...

then went straight to tuition.. no time for dinner.. so no dinner... now hungry n sleepy.. but guess going sleep... hehee

hmmm.. have not been doing anything except rot.. for this weekend.. hahaa.. really very sian lor... too tired to do anything...

on thurs, went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Ly, YP, WY. Lame show... but it's nice n funny. brought me back to my pri sch years.. when my biggest prob was tt how to dun let my mommy noe i fail my spelling test again... hahaahaha... those were the days... i love the show.. hehehe... after tt, i told yp, this show is specially created for her de.. hahahaa

then on sat, mentoring cooking comp.. yihang n pei wen were the judges... n when they saw wat yanxin's grp came up with.. i think yihang immediately regretted coming.. hahahaa.. well, as usual... yanxin came out with sth extraordinary!!! hahahaa... most of the time make ppl think twice b4 trying.. hahahaa....

Never noe tt our mentees were so talented... within such a time constrain.. they can come up with dishes tt looked nice n tatsed nice (with the exception of yanxin's grp).. i regretting putting my jason into her grp... i like destroying my jason's future dream of being a chef.. hahahaa... but then again... except for the drink... the food tasted quite nice... but dun look nice lor.. hahaha... better than wat she did last yr lor... hahhaaha...

breakfast was the theme... n the different grp whipped out different kinds of bfast... n it was fantastic!!! of coz.. i love my mentees.. hehee... wee keong reserved a bowl of porridge for me, then jason fed me with tt oreo pancake (creation of yanxin's grp).. hahaha... making me no need eat lunch.. n can stay full thru out my tuition class... :p

hope this can let wee keong relax a little... he too stress up le.. really worry abt him...

i shldnt be here de.. i shld be in my room study for tml's nutrition test de... but then.. my room got bee leh... cannot study.. ahhaa...

Juz told yihang bee is very IN thing now.. tt day, yipei's hse oso got bee.. then wenying's hse oso got bee.. now my hse got bee... tml sure die de.. idiot bee.. if i fail tml.. tt bee sure kana!! hahaa

hmmmm.. juz realised tt recently is the season of breakups... hahaha... and guess who started the ball rolling??? It's me... hahaha,,, tt's wat loh qi say de... coz she n her bf oso 1 mth plus then break liao.. it's not long after my breakup... then terese oso broke up ard the same period... xiao hua say cannot come near us.. she n th juz passed their 2 yr anniversary.. haha.. welll.. suddenly our class... 3 of us back to the single mode liao.... yihang told me.. it's like trend like tt.. so he shall announce now patching up is the IN thing... so ask all of us to patch.. hahaha

well... terese there like possible leh.. haha.. coz she like very shaky leh.. esp it's seems like he still cannot get over with her... hmmmm... we'll c... hee...

sian sian sian.... i cant get the facts into my head.. jia lat liao..... muz go back to the notes liao... :p

This is the lyrics for my web song... zhen ai 真爱

片尾曲/演唱 : 183CLUB 词 : 柯呈雄 曲∶吕绍淳

记忆象游乐园般精彩 我们象对恋人相爱
幸福是应该不会是当然 只怪我们都太贪玩
思念象云朵般柔软 而你静静躺在我胸怀
我象是任性走失的小孩 紧紧抱着孤单

我们都曾经明白 也都曾经遗憾
错过了爱 就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白 怕容易被你宠坏
忘了该与不该
到哪里找回真爱 找回所有遗憾
爱的真相 就能够解开
多给我一些片段 拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

我是被你遗忘的精彩 你却带着记忆离开
心跳是我们唯一的呼喊 提醒我们曾经相爱
你的笑像阳光般灿烂 小心翼翼藏在我口袋
在我脆弱时给了我温暖 谁也无法取代

但我们都曾明白 丢曾经遗憾
一旦错过 就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白 怕又容易被宠坏
忘了该与不该
到哪里找回真爱 找回所有遗憾
爱的真相 就能够解开
多给我一些片段 拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

It's a sat night... n guess wat.. i'm at home blogging... hahaa..

As usual... morning went for mentoring... letting my sec 4 do the paper 1 again.. they having maths prelims on mon.. so it's the last time revision b4 the sat for their exam... jason n wee keong were having last min rev with mrs liau.. long time no c her le.. c her teaching them.. made me remembered tt time when we were in sec 4... we were all working hard for our prelims.. our o'lvl.. she... not changed abit.. as delicated as b4.. spending her time with the students b4 the exam...

when i asked her how old he son now... he is 8 now.. time really flies.. to think tt, the last time we went to her hse.. her son was still a toddler... haha.... she still remember lcm... hard to 4get lah.. i think most teachers all remember him lor... haha... ms elaine tan oso sometime will come ask me abt him... hahaha... telling me how he purposely not to finish her bio paper... n could even pass it... haha

after giving a briefing on next week's cooking competition.. jason n wee keong went outside sch n wait for me... they acc me eat my lunch.. then i went thru some more qns with them.. these 2 r damn careless lor...

Went for tuition.. as usual.. my k2 r still so cute.. my p5 still givning me trouble... lucky my p5 classes got a few handsome guys.. or else i sure faint.. n give up.. n not teach de... hahha.. my chinese class got chao chen... he's a quite boy.. tall... neat looking boy.. n his chinese is damn gd.. coz he in EM1 de... the way he smile.. cute... then got gabriel... my eng p5 class... he is juz like a little boy.. dun look like p5... very cute.. but his work is.. haiz.. terrible... hahha... but to tell every1 out there.. i still interested in guys older than me... not xiao didi... they r only for my vision pleasure.. hahaha....

after tuition, jason called ask if i wanna join them.. mrs liau is giving them tuition at civic centre... i was on the phone at tt time.. abt 1 hr or so later... i calleld jason.. he told me mrs liau gotta go fetch her daughter... so tuition end le... i went meet up with them.. rot for a while b4 heading to sakae sushi for dinner.. haha... love my two mentees... they r there for u to make u smile... when u need them.. hehe...

Jason n Wee Keong!!! better do well!! Gd luck!!! n i wanna c distinctions!!!! coz i noe u 2 can do it de!!!

juz reached home... frm concert at the bay at marina south... it's for the fireworks festival!!! Wenying got the tix to the piorty (spelling like wrong) area... n it's so near the stage!!! wao lao..... somemore with daniel's camera!!... i can take wonderful pics sia... all so clear... upload in my multiply n friendster photo album.. interetsed juz go there c lor.. haha

for today... 1st muz say a BIG BIG thanx to wenying.. coz if not tt she dun have the tix.. we were go.. n will miss out the gd show with 183 club, k-one, FIR, Marchi, Guo Pin Chao, etc etc... of coz got local singers... hahaa.....

next muz thanx Daniel!!! DANIEL!!! THANX.. coz i happened to borrow his digi cam for my assignment... he not only save my life for tt assignment.. but oso let me noe how powerful his cam is.. n can take the photos with all the shuai ge.. nice n clear... Daniel... sorry leh.. i told u i need it for assignment.. then i oso bring it along for the concert.. PS PS...but still muz THANK you soooo much.. muackz....

then muz thank liyun, wenying n yee pei.. coz the acc then we go... stand there for so many hrs.. i think worth the wait though... hahaha... then oso the place is not the nicest place to walk.. coz morning juz rained heavily.. so the ground was so muddy.. tt we had dirty legs all the way.. think oso worth it.... hahaha... ly n wy crazy over the k one guy, Liyang... so kept shouting his name... me crazy over 183 ming dao n shao wei.. so me n yeepei kept calling his name.. we screamed till dunno like wat le.. hahha

then we got the countdown to national day.. with our PM n all the overseas n local artises... n oso fireworks!!! really enjoy tonight... hahaha......

i'll have a sweet dream tonight.. hehe

Today rot at home lor... of coz ly they all come here do assignment... hehe... but then hor... while they were doing, i was watching my wang zi bian qing wa... haha.. the show so sad.... i cried.. but of coz lah.. hse got so many ppl... cannot cry out.. hehe...

anyway, after tt we were doingon our franchise assignment... abit headache... hehe... coz no matter how we do.. we not satisfy leh.. hehe... we'll try again tml....

Lcm left for thailand on sat le... tt guy hor... flying off on sat night... yet he went to work in the in the day.. then he was so late.. if i didnt go drive him to the airport...dunno how he die ar... haha... anyway the most no plane.. stay in Spore lor.. anyway, he did reach airport in time lah... hahha.. he ran in with his fren.. he owe me 1.. LCM remember my Adidas Jersey!!! n u owe me a treat!!! me n cheryl went walk walk in airport lor.. then go daddy there eat.... tok to her abt lotsa stuff.. frm mentoring,...to my relationship with cm, we r not together anymore.. yet we r closer than b4... n my life in poly... hahah... nice chat wo.. hehe....

hmmmm... got lotsa nice nice movie r showing... who willing to acc me watch??? i wanna watch Charlie and the chocolate factory... JM watched le... cheryl oso watched liao... n i wanna watch the maid.. this is a horror show... esp at this time of the yr.. who will acc me watch?? haha.. wanna watch Be with u.. yt told me was not a bad show... wanna watch The Island... ben told me not bad too.. wanna watch Wedding Crashers.. coz is funny..... so many movies wanna watch.... yet nobody acc... no $$ oso... sad sad... hee... i shall c who wanna treat me go watch... :p

Dunno wat's with me today! i'm in a damn sian mood lor. a little bit of thing oso can make me fed up de lor.... haiz.. PMS? i dun think so leh... mayb coz past few nights not enough slp ba.... mayb my tuition centre there the kids r damn idiotic... mayb coz FYP, report n stuff r giving me too much stress... mayb... aiyah.. dunno lah.... juz damn sian...

today, went sch early for FYP as usual.. then on the way, had a bun mommy prepared for me... after doing my analysis... xh they all asked be if i wanna have lunch... they da bao for me.. but i really no mood eat leh... didnt have the urge to eat... so i juz tell them to buy for themselves... it's amazing i dun feel hungry....

then after FYP.. we went for our pract... i wasnt my normal self.. running ard... jumping ard... laughing all the way.. i was quiet.. till zac come distrub me.. then i laughed.. n go crazy awhile.. then went back to the quiet sian sian look le... yp asked me not to be too stress over FYP.. i still can tell her i'm not stress.. so y m i feeling so sian?? i'm very sure nobody offended me... haiz... dunno n dun care...
anyway, during pract... pat's grp baked some biscuits for texture anaylsis.... n did ate some.. then tpt lcm acc me go dinner... but then he was still in camp... plus i oso no time le.. coz 6pm tuition... so went cwp.. tot c those food can tempt me buy sth to eat.. end up.. i went into cold storage.. looked at my fav sushi...no mood.. looked at my fav butterfly fritters... sian.... looked at my dear chocolate bars... dun feel like eating.. haiz....

end up.. i bought bun in fourleaf... coz tuition end at 10.. no matter wat still muz eat some... like tt i went for tuiton... the class was extremely noisy.. rowdy!!! i'm in a foul mood.. n they still testing my patience!!! all kana scolded... punished by me lor....

now feel hungry.. but still too sian to eat... haiz.. think go slp.. hehe

hmm.. these few days.. crazy over the new idol drama... call wang zi bian qing wa (frog) starring sam wang (5566, club 183), Ming Dao (club 183), Chen Qiao En (7 Flowers), Xiao Qiao (R&B, 7 Flowers)...

it's a very fairy tale type of story... n very romantic.. n of coz... in real life none of these will happen de ba... coz i dun think any1 in the world... or shld i say none of those i noe is so romantic...

A guy Jun Hao (ming dao) is a damn arrogant, mean, not flexible, MCP guy. he never give a tot to other ppl's feeling... wat he wanna do.. he'll do it.. he is very gd in hotel mangement though... he is the director of a huge hotel cooporation only son. he had a fiancee Yun Xi (Xiao Qiao).. and his gd fren Zi Jian (Sam Wang). they grew up together.. Zi Jian always like Yun Xi...

in one incident, Jun hao met with an accident.. then was knocked down again by Tian Yu (Qiao En) after tt he lost his memory... Tian Yu is a girl frm low income family... she likes to lie n loves money!! she hopes to marry a rich guy...
After jun hao lost his memory.. he became a nice guy, who think of others b4 self.. tian yu n jun hao spent time together n had lotsa romantic moments together. they fall for each other...
but then jun hao regained his memory.. n totally 4got abt his moments with tian yu... he back to tt mean n arrogant man...
Will he remember the times he n tian yu spent together? will tian yu n jun hao be back together?? i oso dunno... coz haven watch finish.. hehe....

hey those interested in the show.. go watch... haha... coz my summary too summarised... oh yeah.. i too crazy over ming dao.. n i think driving xh, ly n yp they all crazy liao.. hehee... but he cute n cool mah... for those still thinking who is tt guy rite... show u all the cute guy... he 180 cm leh... eng name is call Matthew. hehe.. so muscular... these r not his coolest pic.. but these r wat i can find now.. haha

Today i've juz finsihed a chinese novel - Magic 7. it's abt how ppl forget their dreams coz of reality... after reading it, i was deep in thoughts.

how many of us still remember wat we dreamt to be when we were 5, 10 and 16? how many of us is studying or working out of passion and not 'coz we have to do it' or 'coz every1 needs to study/work'? Have anyone of us stopped wat we r doing and think, is this wat u really like? is this wat u really want?

Since young, we were guided to study hard.. so we can get gd jobs next time.. wat issit mean by 'gd jobs'?? Jobs with high pay even though u have no interest in it? in Spore, children have to undergo a complusory 6 yrs of eductaion. that is Pri 1-6. however, in order to be able to catch up in Pri 1.. it's best to go kindergarten. in order for kids to get use to sch life... it's gd for them to go to nusery b4 going to K1... in order for them to be able to cooperate/ communicate with other little kids... it's gd for them to go into play group.. and guess wat... at the young age of 3 ppl start studying. then after P6.. though it's end of the 'compulsory' education... every1 noe very well that w/o at least an 'o' lvl.. u cant do anything.. so ppl went on.. getting 'o' lvl or 'n' lvl', or ite. after that, there r options, poly or JC... JC then u have to get 'a' lvl.. but with only 'a' lvl.. we cannot do anything.. so we muz strive for a degree... we can choose the poly rotute.. at least a Diploma is SOMETHING... can get a job... but then agian.. to most of the ppl now... degree is the minimum... Dip. is also not enough... all add up.. coz of this.. most have to study for almost 20 yrs... but is this wat u want? study for 20 yrs, then come out, get a job and happily ever after.

wat job u want? wat kind of work u looking for? anybody ever tot of that? well.. i guess most had.. n most didnt get to do wat they want. E.g, u went to Uni sci course major in Chem coz u r very very interested in Chem, n really hope to work in labs or similar. but when u graduate, u cant find the job u want n u settle on sth else like banking... there's no link frm wat u have studied hard for n wat u r working as. this is the case for most ppl. wat they studied is very different from wat their job. this is call ?�`. u cant help it.. coz society cause u to be this way.

I've chosen the JC route.. to get 'A' then go unversity get a degree.. and end up... i cant make it... i can... to a course i have no interest in. somebody once asked me.. 'u have a chance to get into uni.. y u chose to go back poly?' i replied coz my results were not gd enough to get into the course i want. tt person cont'd, 'but at least u can get into the uni!' at that time i really tot i made the wrong choice.. to give up uni.. but then again.. if i went into the course i not interested in, juz to get the degree... coz every1 muz have it.. will i be happy?? no i wun.. in fact i'll be very miserable... most ppl wanna get a degree.. no matter if the course offered interest them anot... juz get a degree... but u r going to spend 3-4 yrs of ur life doing sth u dun like.. juz to get that degree... then when u come out, u do sth compeletly different... so tt 3-4 yrs.. can it considered well-spent?
then got another person asked me, 'y dun u repeat JC2 one more yr, retake 'A' again, then try Uni again' but ans was..i've lost interested.. JC is not a place for me.. i dun wanna stay in there anymore longer... but then they argued tt i can get into Uni faster.. Degree again! y every1 wanna take the shortest time to get the degree? wat does it signify? u r the cream of the crop? u r the best? with tt degree u get get 'gd jobs'? mayb is yes to all the ans... but one thing.. can u truly be happy? if u happen to be in a field u dun like.
i chose to go back poly, coz i'm doing wat i'm interested in... i want to do wat i'm interested in. i dun wanna be the slave in the society... to some of u.. this mayb stupid, mayb immature... some may even ask.. how r u going to survive in this cruel society?? yes, mayb someday i'll surrender to the society.. n like most ppl.. doing sth they dun really like.. but for survival sake... still, i will not give up my interest... will not forget my dream.. no matter how long, how difficult.. i muz fulfiled my dream..

to ppl out there: think wat is truly ur dream? there are many different routes to fulfil ur dreams.. juz how flexible u r... so y give up when they is a possiblilty?

i dunno how many ppl understand wat m i typing.. (coz my english not gd mah).. i oso dunno how many ppl disagree wat i've said.. but this is how i felt abt the society... so dun understand, then dun care lor.. ahhaa

it's abt 2 weeks after my bdae.. to be exact... 17 days.... i recieved a BIG Doraemon.. a belated bdae gift... came as a surprise.. coz i never tot i'll recieve anymore gift.. esp frm him.. haha... anyway, they said my previous Doraemon was 'murdered'... so they noe i wanna another one....

they asked him to get it for me.. for my bdae... hmmm.. i shld be happy rite? to get my Favourite Doraemon, frm some1 who i consider a very very gd fren... but then... y?? haiz.. i oso dunno... mayb coz noe him too well.... noe tt it's not frm him willingly ba...n noe he wun step into those shop n buy de lor.. xh helped de lor... haha.. had a bet with him.. n i lost.. so i never tot there will be a present from him... dunno.. mayb i shld be a stupid girl.. juz recieve n say thanx.. n dun suspect if it's really sincere anot... juz like little girls... mayb i'll be happier.. haha...

i noe yp, xh, ly n wy put in a lot of afford to get this doraemon... i noe coz of this they really went all out... to tolerate the attitude, the nonsense... i shld say this doraemon is from every1.. i muz thank every1... haha...

anyway, no matter wat.. still muz thank him... at least still got abit heart.. haha... n he gave me a chance to c tt i have a bunch of gd gd gd frens... thanx buddies!! LOVE U ALL SO MUCH!

Have been staying in lab these 2 days.. juz to dry my idiotic chocolates... they dun seems to get any drier... i cant get constant weigh!!! haiz... if i cant get dry samples... i cant cont'd with my analysis.. arghh.... anyway, heck lah.. i'm using my way le.. hahaa....

these few days, dunno y.. suddenly feel very de... troubled? oso dunno how to describe lor... juz tt suddenly feel very lonely.. though i got lotsa frens ard me... dunno y.. mayb it's coz THAT person not here lor.. n who's THAT person?? haha i oso dunno...

frens ard me.. so nice.. showering me with all the care n concern.. wat else i want?? how come i'm not as happy leh??? i shld be happy right?? i so xing fu.. not many ppl have so many nice n caring frens de... aiyah... dunno wat m i thinking lah.. sometime really hate myself... y m i asking so much?? cant i juz be contented?

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�n�Q�^��?�h�C�C�C�^�欷@�~�e�C�C�Cê?�骇诏u�函u�害nе?�Cesp whenever i heard jay's songs... every jay's songs.. got a story behind de... i'll start thinking lotsa things... n i'd be brought back to the past... so happy, yet painful.. things wun go back to b4... wat i can do is move on...

haha.. dunno wat m i toking abt lor.. heck care me... i'm ok de.. juz suddenly think of lotsa things.. then become abit moody de.. a lot of things.. all fated de.. cant do much.. hahaa...

Went for 3B23 class gathering yesterday. we went Fish n co at the glass hse there... hmm.. love it there.. coz fish n chips nice.. hehe.. ok i dun like seafood.. so other than fish n chips.. i dunno wat else i can eat.. ehehe.... not full force went... 5 guys in class only 2 were present.. haha... then tt 2 very xin fu lor.. hahaha.. esp zac. he ar.. went ard sit among girls.. like big towkay like tt... our yihang leh.. so faithful...guai guai sit there see see laugh laugh... he juz settled problem between him n his gf.. every min can hear her name frm him.. aiyo.. c lah... stilll give ppl attitude.. he himself so �b�G yet act dun care.. ǒ�Wso many days... haha....

our class self high lor.. suddenly suddenly got 3 ppl r july babies.. haha.. then singing bdae song for zac... whole class were quite high... i think most enjoyed the dinner ba.. hehe... on a total we spent $380.. hmmm.. dunno if it can be claimed fully mah??? haha.. zac paid bulk of it 1st.. really gotta thank him sia..

after we went out.. was surprise to c my mr policeman there... mr peng yong hui.. he was there for dinner.. juz tt coz inside no place.. so he gotta sit outside n wait lor.. hahha...

terese suggested to go to china black.. coz free entry... ask if we wanna join.. wy say dun want coz her dad back in SG.. she wanna acc him.. ly they all say very tired... dun feel like going.. then every1 looked at me... hee.. well.. i dun like these places... somemore sure alot of ppl de.. though i wanna go one of these days... however.. guess will go with kor they all or mr peng they all.. anyway, mommy daddy dun like me going these places...

i called cheryl on the way back.. asked if wanna come out rot.. then she agreed.. then oso asked lcm out... he ar... out of hse after 1 week at home.. with fever.. hehe.. rot at cwp as usual...