today went to Hotel 81 Selegi with Ivan.... (ivan say muz finish the whole sentence)... to acc him to get shirt frm a tailor... wahahahhaa...

We went to have our dinner at Victor's Kitchen.. This is actually one of my fave place for dim sum... it is REALLY nice... but coz it seems to be out of place and have not been there for quite sometime... i didnt mention it to anyone else until today.

Yes, it was LCM who brought me to this place... and i fall in love with it... the dim sum IS NICE... esp the carrot cake.. and yes.. LCM did da bao all the way back to wdl for me,... juz coz i called him and said i was hungry... hahaha.. i told ivan abt it.. come to think of it.. i was quite demanding then.. ehehehe... hahhaa.. LCM, if u r reading this.. PS lah.. for being so demanding then.... ivan told me... can see tt he is good in his own ways... but well.. hahaha... being frens is still a better choice...

Look at the food we ordered.. nice nice... of coz... the company oso plays a part....

Love toking to Ivan...with him... i can tok non-stop... he allows me to be toopid.. to dream (but he will tell me to stop dreaming), he listens to my most inner tots without condemning me... i can juz tell him everything and anything!!!! wahahahahhaa...

IVAN, LISTEN! u can change everything on u, ur looks, ur voice, ur hairstyle, ur size! but not the inner IVAN i noe... NEVER k?!?! coz i dunno who can allow me to speak so freely liao.. wahahhaa...

btw i found a happy place... it is the soft toys machines arcade @ Marina Sq.... no need to buy or play... juz walk ard... i feel happy.... (ivan say i very easily man zhu... )...

25th anniversary is finally over!!! great! today everyone is on leave... TYL is the only one working in the 1st floor office.. no pdtn today... aiyo... damn sian damn sian damn sian... toopid meeting...

Ppl say no matter what happen outside... u can always fall back onto ur family.. they are ur support... they are the only ones who dun betray u... they are the ones who always be there for u... i never doubt this sentence.. i always have a lovable, supporting family... in fact a lot of ppl envy tt i have such a family... cute daddy mommy, caring bro... lovable sis... wat more can i ask for rite?

BUT u noe... human changed... even ur flesh and blood kin changed... i was looking thru some old photos... i realised tt how happy we were last time... me n my bro were so close... i think we were buddies... even when my sis was born... she didnt break our bond... things changed as u grew up...

we no longer close... we no longer can chat... we are juz merely taking turns to speak... it is so hurtful... i was trying to care... but he doesnt care... i noe he is tired.. he need to work for long hrs... and need to take care a lot of things... but HE is the ONLY one tired??? he work for more than 12 hrs everyday... yep... it is taxing and tiring....but all he thinks tt he is tired? The stress i faced at work, when i need to go tuition straight frm work without dinner...then be stress by students' parents... and worried abt then students... when i have to work at home till wee hrs... this is not tiring.. coz to him.. i'm juz rotting on FB, going out with frens.. lazing ard.... I M ENJOYING LIFE!! while he is slogging all the way... to him, we r juz lazing and wasting our life away, while he is the only one working hard...

i can ask hw is he.... coz he will juz snap at me... i cant concern abt him... coz to him i'm juz digging and nagging and trying to get him into trouble... he seems sick.. juz asked if he is ill... mayb i can cook /made some herbal stuff for him... but wat did he say!?!?! he snap at me!!! i saw tt he anyhow spend money...i nagged at him... he ignored me... m i in the wrong?!?!

i'm here trying ways and means to save and to earn more for my studies... he juz spend his HARD EARNED money like money is juz a few pieces of paper... so i'm in the wrong..
i sensed tt sth is wrong.. i tried to ask... end up... the look on his face... i'm in the wrong again...
i shldnt ask, i shldnt care.. i shldnt do anything... i juz shut up and mind my own business..

so y shld i be sad and lost tt i have a fren who is no longer close to me.. even my own bro oso like tt liao... so i guess... it muz be sth wrong with me... i'm not a gd fren.. i'm nt a gd sis... i'm someone who cant live up to anyone's standards...

i'm hurt.. but .. i have to smile infront of everyone... i'm juz so tired....... really... who noes the stress i'm facing.. the fear... the unforseen future??? sometime i really juz wanna hide in my own shell.. never to come out..

i found a tiny note book, it was a long 4gotten notebook... reading thru it... i realised i had written some meaningful phrases when i read a chinese book. interesting.... muz share share... ehehehe

1. 爱情是一朵在悬崖绝壁边上的花，想摘取就必须要有勇气 ~ 莎士比亚

2. 信，可以挂号；爱情不可能挂号；等久了，人家就不收了。喜欢别藏在心底，一定要大胆告白

3. 不是不爱你，只是懒得说。因为除了爱你，还有更多更多的甜言蜜语，太多太多；所以放在心底，等着你慢慢发现。一举一动里都藏着我的真心，只是懒得说爱你。

4. 人总是有那么几分劣根性，得不到的东西总是最好的。再珍贵的宝贝，等到一拿到手，就被视为破铜烂铁了。

5. 选择你所爱需要成熟的智慧；爱你所选择需要建东的意志。

6. 人与人之间最远的距离不是生死，而是我在你身边你却不知道我的存在。~ 原∶张小娴but it is widely used everywhere

7. 所谓梦想这种东西，是人一辈子也放不了手的

8. 勇气并不会凭空出现，而等待或许会出现好时机，但是更多的时候，是自己创造出来的

9. 喜欢一个人，最好的结果，或许是跟对方在一起；但是在某些情况下，两个人在一起并不一定会幸福，所以他们选择退出、选择遗忘、选择回忆、选择守候。~ one of my faves

10. 记得，别随波逐流的等着幸福来找你，与其往后只剩下回忆，不如现在就拿出勇气

11. 当你发现所喜欢的人喜欢上自己的好朋友，不要退让，而是尽最大的努力试着打动他的心，然后让他做选择，这样，即使心碎，也绝不会后悔。

12. 在感情上，你所要学习的或许是如何使自己更自私的去爱；爱情一旦经过无私的退让或友情的赠与，往往就会因此变质。

13. 难过总会消失，而一定会有某些重要的东西，会永远留在你的记忆里。

14. 天堂不是个地方，它是种感觉。有人并肩牵手、互相陪伴关怀、踏实温暖的感觉

15. 遗憾像是把刀在心底割出一道伤痕；一道无法痊愈的伤痕，总在夜深人静时滴着血。那道伤痕，就叫悔恨。

16. 回忆之所以苦涩是因为思念。因为相思的苦，还有想念的涩。

17. 选择逃避或遗忘过去的伤痛，也许是最好的办法。但是只有选择面对才能成长。

18. 有些东西，即使破损得很严重，或者你认为它根本不再存在了，但这世界上，它永远是那么独一无二、无可取代。~ This is another of my fave

19. 谈恋爱就象写一篇作文，一开始，心里总有自己的架构和计划，只不过，除非动笔，不然你永远不知道，在空白的纸上等待自己的，究竟是什么过程、什么结局。

Woooo.... it has been a bz mth sia... everyday was filled with new 'surprises'.

FHA (Food Hotel Asia) 2010 is on nw tilll Fri.... @ Expo.... yep.. i juz came back frm Expo... and yep, i will be there on the last day too.. 1st day and last day... y? coz i nt pretty lor... tt's y my kelvis kor kor BEARs to let me do ALL the manual work... i got such a wonderful kor rite? wahahahaa

Ok.. Nw the updates.... I've withdrew my part time Adv. Dip. Course... wait... dun start screaming.... coz i got in!! got into Massey Uni! 2 yrs of crazy, no life, stressful (ok, exp + lect frm this course told me, the word stressful is still nt enough to describe it), no money, no nth... only reports, exams and more reports and more exams....

It is a change after 5 yrs.... m i prepared for it? i think i'm .... but u never noe...

the biggest challenge is the money.. 1st i need to save for sch fees, then having no income mthly... i cannot eat watever i like, buy watever i fancy...

yes, i'm excited... and looking fwd... this is gonna be a turning pt in my life.... i no need to wonder shld i go study EVERY YEAR when the application opens...

Soon TYL will be officially become a POOR STUDENT (穷学生), so kind-hearted souls out there.... pls make ur donations to TYL Funding Organisations... any amt oso can.. it is the tots tt count.. wahaha...

Gd bye KTVs, Gd bye Cabs, Gd bye nice food, Gd Bye late night movies, Gd Bye Chilling, Gd by shopping, Gd by overseas trip

Hello Reports, Hello Assignments, Hello exams, Hello no life.... :)

Today 6th April 2010, Ae is in SG, i took off to go meet up with him and we went Universal Studio SG @ Sentosa!

For someone whom NEVER been to any of these kinds of theme parks anywhere (Disney Land/Universal Studio/ Waner Bros etc) except for Genting Theme Park, Escape Theme Park. THIS IS COOL!!! it is a cool place, with wonderful rides and of coz beautiful place!

if not for Ae, i dun think i would have the motivation to go. The tix are so damn ex... but after going today, i DIDNT regret, and i find it WORTH!!!!

ok....1st thing 1st...

Today is a weekday, so the ticket is $66 per pax. However, due to the soft opening, DBS card has promo with them, so a discount of $6 per pax, which made our tickets $60 each. then, they gave us each a $10 cash voucher for food and $5 cash voucher for souvenirs. No minimum purchase needed. use as cash. so we no need to pay for anything when we r in there. ALL rides are inclusive

Frm Madagascar, to Far Far Away Land to Jurassic Park and Lost World to The Mummy in Ancient Eygpt to Sci-Fi City to New York City to Hollywood... It is filled with surprises... ok.. it is a pity that some rides are still not open yet, esp Battlestar Galactica™, but still is good...

The ride in Ancient Eygpt was surprisingly and amazingly good... tt we went for it twice... then oso the 4D movie, is cool.. plus the weather was ULTRA sunny today (TYX and I got a sunburn on our nose.. wahaha.), so didnt miss out much except for those tt r still closed...

i shall not spoil all the fun.... go and experience it urself!!!!

i dun understand y SP made us go ALL the way down juz to take the admission card? At 1st i tot there was a series of process to go thru, tt's y when they told me my enrolment day was on 27th Mar, 0915, i 认命.. i cant avoid it.. i have towake up early.

but due to some circumstances, i was only back home at 4am on sat morning. hahaha... ok, i'm NOT blaming anyone.... this is really NOT intentional... things juz happen... wahahaha... it sounds wrong.. time flies when u enjoyed the company... nvm.. anyway back to reaching home at 4am, i only got to sleep at 5am. i woke up at 8am, and went out fast, hoping to reach at 9.15am.

I was slightly late, i went into the enrolment center, saw a familar guy. I knew is him... but then... i went ahead with my enrolment without calling out. i went over to hand in my letter of offer, then went to a counter, where the person asked me to filled up a survey form and she gave me my admission card and told me that, that's the end of the enrolment, i can check my time table one week before the term starts. i blur... tt's the end? and they made me all the way down juz to get tt card??? y cant they juz sent to me?? aiyo... i was suppose to meet yan and lh @ 12noon, but i was already free by 9.30am!!!!!

i went out... walked ard wondering where shld i go to rot my time away till it is time to meet them. (they were either slping or finishing some work, so cant come out early). i walked back to the station, once again i saw the familar figure walking otwards the car park... he got into a car and drove off...

suddenly, i was wondering... hw long we have not contacted each other? he got his driving licence during this period? he told me he didnt wanna learn driving. he say motorcycle was more practical... wooooo... things changed... well... it doesnt concern me anyway... hahahaha

anyway, i rot my time away in LJS in clementi. when it was almost time, i realised tt there was no longer any shuttle bus to ikea frm clementi, so we changed then meetin place to Queenstown.

we 3 girls, went to ikea then anchor pt then queensway shopping center even though ALL of us didnt get much sleep the previous night. but we ddint stay out too night.. so by evening, we went back home le.. and guess wat... our uncle called me at 9pm, asking if we r still otuside.... uncle said he is an owl, out only at night... but the truth is... uncle dun wanna go otu with us in the day!!! :p

Tt's my dreamy Sat... time to slp... WEEKENDS FLY!!

A walk down the the familiar road, then i realised tt hw much memories were being throw at the back of my head... they were buried in the far end of my brain by myself....
if i didnt walk down tt familiar road... i guess i wun even remember the memories existed...

Sometimes i wonder.. hw do we determine 'letting go'?

Scenario 1
Girl A talked about the happy days she had with Boy A to anyone who asked.
She would smile and said, "Those were the days..."
And when Girl A met Boy A, they can chat happily like old times, and truly care for each other. Boy A would still tell Girl A everything (juz like last time), abt his newborn, his family, his surroundings. Girl A will also tell him everything from her work, her complaint, her whining...

There is no awkward situation or anything... juz pure frenship between these 2 who were once more than just frens....
Girl A would think of Boy A frm time to time. At the same time Boy A would also wonder hw Girl A is doing if they didnt contact for awhile. Both were very happy if there is a chance for them to meet up.
Girl A and Boy A both keep the things tt remind them of each other with them , so they can see it from time to time.

Scenario 2
Girl B didnt talk much about Boy B. She sometimes 4got that there is a Boy B in her life.
Yet, whenever she was at a place where they were once been there..... she would be in dazed.
Everything that had happened in the past, appeared before her like a movie.
Boy B did not contact Girl B, neither Girl B contacted Boy B.

When they happened to meet on the road or thru common frens, there was an awkward situation. They dunno hw and wat to tok about. mayb they would juz smile or simply walked past each other.

Girl B saw photos of Boy B with his current gf. Girl B will go into daze once again. Thinking about hw he sweet he was, now he is no longer there for her... but for another girl.

However, Girl B would never think of him, if she didnt pass thru the familiar places, or hear his name or see his photo.. She would hide everything tt is somehow related to Boy B.
Boy B tried to stop all contact and tried nt to go places that Girl B frequently goes.

So have girl A let go of her past r/s? Let go of Boy A and vice versa? or Is it Girl B who have let go? Boy B also let go already?

刚看完Channel U 的魔幻视界，突然觉得跟现在自己就好像戏里的魔术师。。。

戏里的宣传部Ming对魔术学徒小鬼说∶

“观众爱看垃圾，我们就做垃圾。。。观众爱看色情，我们就做色情。。。我们就是要把观众拉回来。”

戏里的名宣传部经理Irene对魔术师James说:

“收视率就是成绩，收视率就是一切。。不管节目素质好不好，只要有收视率就是好节目。”

我老板今天早上跟我说:

“顾客爱喝屎，你就做屎。你做的产品再完美，顾客不喜欢，就算失败。你做的一样你认为是烂的东西，顾客喜欢，就是成功”

“销售成绩就是一切。不管味道对你来说好不好，会卖的，就是好产品，不会卖的就是失败的产品。”

James 和小鬼都好无奈，他们对魔术的热诚却为了收视率，要一而再的妥协。就如我现在的处境。为了销售成绩，我得让步。不爱人造味精、人造色素、人造糖精却一而再，再而三的放入我调的产品。
成本高，要减，所以加如糖精/味精。市场上最好卖的产品-有放入味精，我们就得加。。因为这是顾客要的口味。

小鬼说一句话:
“到底有没有人真正了解魔术、真正欣赏魔术？”
我问:
“到底有没有人真的会品尝食品？懂不懂什么是天然味道？”

想想看，好像只有我们这科系的人才讨厌味精、糖精的味道。市场上，大部分的人都爱吃人造味道。

什么推陈出新？什么创意？什么创新？这简直就是废话！销售额就是成绩单，就是断定产品的好坏的唯一标准。因为，在我们这社会里，没有人能接受新颖的事物。认命吧！我还真怀疑自己到底适不适合在这行混。

最近有小人在老板面前说东说西。还我得每天听老板说教。 说什么我们没改进、没进步。 问我有没有回家检讨、反省。问我有没有问过为什么产品会失败？我倒想问他们（包括那位小人），他们有没有回家检讨、有没有反省？为什么一定是我的错？孩子生出来不受欢迎，难道我不难过吗？为什么什么东西都说是我们？
每天就好象打仗。 好累，所以懒得管、懒得看、懒得说、懒得解释。我不好就不好，我没能力就没能力。

Yesterday was the birthday of our BELOVED BLUR BERNYCE! Lim Wen Ying!! hahaha...
Only the 3 of us went out, the others were not free. So me, Harris and LWY went out for lunch and coffee and rotting... LOVES rotting time with ROTTERS.

Anyway, those who noe wy, shld noe she always does sth perculiar/abnormal/weird/amazing/amusing..... well, on her birthday, she didnt disappoint us...
We went to Coffee Club for coffee/desserts/cakes... i'd asked the waitress to put a candle on a slice of cake. So when the cake was serve, i asked harris (who happened to sit opp her) to take a photo of her and the cake. and dunno wat happen, she laughed/breathe too hard... and the candle flame was being blew off by her actions. WE 3 stunned! We didnt sing birthday song, she didnt make a wish, the candle was out le... we looked at one and other then burst out of laughter....

since we have no lighter and we dun wanna to ask the waiter to light it for us AGAIN. we decided to do things the reversed way. Since candle was blown, then she would make a wish, then we sun birthday song.... cool rite? WY, always make sure her life is different frm other ppl... more exciting, funnier.. wahahhaah.... tt's the reason y everyone loves her rite? wahahaha :p

It has been sometime since i last updated!!! wah... my blog nearly went into coma.. wahahaha..
nw i'm in the crossroads on my life AGAIN! haiz.. i hate myself for not able to make decisions.
i applied for Adv Dip, by right i shld get my confirmation and enrolment package nw... but till nw i didnt get it...
on the other hand.. i got the application form for Massey Uni... i think my lecturers die die wanna me go study for 2 yrs FULL TIME. they seems like refuse to let me study Adv Dip PART TIME! it makes me feel like they purposely dun send out the confirmation letter and enrolment for me! y???

nw wat???
Massey Uni Degree with honours (+/- SGD 14k for 2 years)
2 years FULL time, back to the no life student... no income.. lectures everyday, rush reports, study for exam... wat if i got rejected again!?!?! then i cant study adv dip... oso no degree....
but then i will get a degree with honours, no office politics, no more arguments with bosses...

Adv Dip (+/- SGD 2k or 4k? i 4got... for 2 years)
2 years PART time, study after work, tiring, stressful.... coz still have to study and rush reports
but then i got constant source of income and i still have a life..

aiyo... hw?? ppl already pursuing their own career liao... i'm still troubled to study or not!! OMG!!! haiz haiz haiz,,, how how??? eeeeekkkkk..

Yes Ivan.. i noe u beat me in blogging abt Lyn's Baby... i let u de.. coz i was tooo tired.. hahahaha... if i really wanna beat u.. u think u would win me!?! wahahahaha

Anyway, yes... our dearest mommy, lyn gave birth to her 2nd girl on 6th feb 2010!!!! and on the 2nd day, ivan and i (the baby lovers) went to find her and baby
baby was sound asleep... coz BOTH Ivan and I are cushions to the baby.. so when we carried her.. she was sleeping so soundly... (hahah.. ivan, i die die oso wanna drag u into becoming 'cushions')
Look at her... soooooo sweet in uncle ivan's arms...


Well, mommy lyn haven tot of a name... so i decided to help her.. mommy lyn... i think hor... baby chinese name shld call 莘琳、莘玲(like cyndi wang xinlin?? (i noe the chinese character different lah... hahaha) 莘蕙？莘芯？莘怡？莘婷？莘芹？hahaha.. ok..i'm free... n i noe u r oso free in slowly thinking of a nice name for baby...

English name - Sherlyn (a combination of sis and mommy... ivan's idea.. i juz put it out.. :p)
Sherrie, Sherry, Shermaine, Sherice, Sherley...
hahah.. ok.. time for me to sleep... Mommy lyn... enjoy thinking for baby name.. :p

What happen if u done a thousand of nice/good/ right things? Nothing happen. What happen if u done one bad/wrong thing? EVERYONE BLAMES U! This is life... in a soccer season, u were the top scorer... ppl will remember u the most 2 seasons.... but if u've got an own goal.... ppl will remember u 4eva.... This is juz being a normal human...

Ppl will appreciate u... will be grateful to u.. but the appreciation and gratefulness lasted a short while... sooon they will 4get... this is how everyone behaves, u and i and everyone... cant deny..
BUT if u done sth nt right or hurtful, ppl will remember everything... it will last for a long time... may nt be 4eva.. but definitely last longer when u appreciate what someone have done.

i'm wondering... y shld i be nice when end up wat did i get nth... bosses blame u when things went wrong (n sometimes u are wondering wat u did), bosses blame u for nt doing ur job properly (n u really wonder WHAT IS UR JOB?) bosses are like tt, frens sometimes family oso like tt... i'm tired... and i feel like heck caring everything.. juz do wat i need to do... nth more... no pt go all out...

This time round... i felt the drag.... i no longer have the excitment to go over to BKK! NOT coz i've been there too many times... juz coz of a lot of things tt added up... i dunno y it become like tt... is it ALL MY FAULT!? ya.. i'm all to blame! this one blame me for dragging time... delay in booking of everything... tt one blame me for being too sensitive... other blame me for saying sth tt offended other ppl... blame me for being sacarstic... juz put ALL the blame on me ba.. i'm NOT entitled to be angry... i CANT show ppl i'm unhappy or sad or hurt.... i can only SMILE and say... hey, i'm OK... nth serious... sometime, i wonder... does ppl ard me treat me as a human being anot!?!? well.. suan liao.. as usual... i'm smiling... i'm ok....

good thing i still have things to look fwd to.... i get to see my thai frens!!! and i can buy accessories... (ya... i have a lot liao.... but it is never enough)

I DUN wanna organised this trip.. but i dunno y ended up.. i become organiser... i HATE being the organiser(for anything and everything)... coz
1st u cant get ppl to give u the truthful, constructive and timely ans or
2nd things go well and smoothly... no one will remember u r the one organising BUT if things gone wrong... ppl start blaming u
3rd NO ONE WILL APPRECIATE watever u do!!!!

SIANZ!

nw i need to stay positive... and continue smiling!

Oh ya... the environment in office nw is damn dangerous... i no longer noe who is friend and who is foe... who is the one is treating u sincerely and who is the one waiting for a chance to stab u... i'm very very tired of the 明争暗斗... and keep draining my brain to think of counter attacks when i sense tt there is an attack somewhere... I'm losing myself.....

罗志祥又创造了另一奇迹！！

Yes, SHOW LUO had his new album out already! 罗生门 is the album title. 12 tracks..
www.haoting.com has the album intro

专辑介绍
世界用7天创造 舞王用7年打造 罗志祥SHOW巅峰造极第7张音乐力作 [罗生门]

打开爱情的 罗生门 解开真实与谎言的密码
打开音乐的 罗生门 再创亚洲舞王全新神话
潮男领SHOW自我突破 2010装饰系潮男主场秀

台湾人的创意 好莱坞的班底 [爱的主场秀]MV开创亚洲舞王新神话
700万钜资远征纽约歌剧院
罗志祥化身剧场守护者大秀墨镜舞

第一道爱的罗生门 = 冲动

爱的主场秀 爱情刚开始的相遇 棋逢敌手 斗智斗勇 谁才是这场游戏的主导者? 结合BIG BEAT的电子流行摇滚曲风 墨镜舞王光芒四射 为什么要在一起 当感情过了冲动期 有时候会让人忘了当初心动的原因…
首度诠释爵士JAZZ灵魂乐曲风,展现成熟绅士魅力,让人惊艳

第二道爱的罗生门 = 伪装

习惯就好 回忆就像一道关不上的门 寂寞要花多久时间才能习惯? 阿沁(F.I.R) 继冠军点播曲[我不会唱歌]后,再次量身谱写SLOW ROCK抒情摇滚年度K 歌

第三道爱的罗生门 = 挥霍

爱疯头 当爱上一个人,为爱疯了头,赴汤蹈火,海派献出所有也不算什么! 首次尝试轻快的英伦摇滚节奏. 浪漫偶像剧[海派甜心]片头曲.

搞定 为了爱的证明 搞定所有要求 五体投地的挥霍 只为对方开心 带有80年代DISCO和HOUSE 节奏的轻松舞曲.

生理时钟 热恋时挥霍相爱的每一分钟 ,二个人像生理时钟24小时同步着 融合POP R&B 节奏的甜蜜小品

第四道爱的罗生门 = 等待

爱不单行 爱不是单数,相信自己能拥有幸福,对的人也在未来等待与你相遇 由马毓芬制作,金马奖最佳作词人严云农全新温暖情歌,浪漫偶像剧[海派甜心]插曲

第五道爱的罗生门 = 受伤

罗生门 是否真爱的学分 非要摔痛了才能修得成?那千奇百怪艰深的学问 就像罗生门 R&B节奏蓝调重拍节奏舞曲 畅销作词人陈镇川最新力作

第六道爱的罗生门 = 报复

危险的念头 当一段恋情结束,最危险的念头 是心存报复? 还是念念不忘? 情歌圣手姚若龙填词,罗志祥呐喊男人不为人知的心酸,成熟唱腔感人肺腑

第七道爱的罗生门 = 勇敢

老实讲 感情世界里 想爱就要及时说 当错过对的时间点 有些感觉就再也回不去了亚洲知名制作人李伟菘制作,郑淑妃填词.唱出爱情淡淡的哀愁与事过境迁的感慨

The whole album is superb!!!!! and he had gimme another K song!! 习惯就好-VERY VERY VERY VERY nice song.. good k song! hehe...

Bonus tracks WOW (feat. Elva) and IN YOUR EYES (feat. Rainie Yang) are also MUST LISTEN songs... GO listent to the album at www.haoting.com!!!

Yes, it is a brand new year! as Ivan said, i shld have a positive entry. hahaaha....
Well, hopefully this is it...

To kick start with the year, we went back to Malacca with Shwu Yann. Cheryl, Paul, me and Lihua had a different kind of experience in Malacca staying with Yan.
our very 1st experience is that the bus broke down when we juz entered the expressway.... this is the 1st time yan yan met this too.. hahaha... and the 1st time ever, we took 7.5 hrs to reach Malacca from SG.. cool rite??

Then we went on a makan spree... of coz not 4getting the Chendol and Assam Laska. Though i'm not really a fan of laska... taste wise is not tt bad...

We stayed over at Yan Yan's hse, which is so different frm wat we r staying in SG... but the place is HUGE and cosy.. hehe.. and is cooling at night and COLD in the morning even without fan/air con....

on the whole, it was enjoyable. muz yan yan muz be so tired lor.. coz have to run ard with us.. and drive... i dun think she got enough rest... THANKS GIRL!

next trip up.. my 2D1N batam getaway... to celebrate Jason bdae... and to go on spa and massage trip.. though the grp is getting smaller... we'll still enjoy it? yep.. i'm going on the 9th - 10th Jan... I'm actually quite broke sia... hmmm.. muz save up for my BKK trip liao...

Ok.. 1st day of work in 2010... i shld learn to see things at a +ve side.. and oso to be calm and witty whenever kana shoot. Wat is all these rite? TYL is a survivor!

My life sucks big time! everything seems to go wrong.. work life, personal life, love life.. SUCKS

1. being scolded coz i say i dunno to PLC or contactor or watsoever... this is not my field, hw shld i noe?!? i'm NOT all rounder! i'm juz a normal human being with my strenght and weakness!!!!!

2. beind shoot for nth... was given instrcutions by boss that i shld communicate Technically with the customer directly.. nw he scolded me coz i replied the email... n better still he always blame ME n nt his staff nor the customers! it's only me who is in the wrong.... i cannot tahan... i ran into one of my worker's arms and cried out loud... y m i being scolded for sth i FOLLOWED instructions? n i searched for the BLACK and WHITE the whole day, juz to EXPLAIN myself.

Then, the very impt person in my life is so angry with me tt she dun wish to tok to me. n i dun even noe wat to do... coz anything will trigger the anger.. n it will make things worse...
anyway, it is me lah.... i'm juz plain to toopid... being a directionless creature.. no pt explaining as it is a fact.. n everyday at work... explaining is damn tiring... after work.. i still have to explain...
make matter worse... even my own bro oso need me to EXPLAIN MYSELF for 2 whole hrs!
y?? m i such a failure that the whole world need me to explain myself then they noe wat is happening or why i do this/that?

Mommy said tt ever since i went back work.. i've changed... i become more aggressive... and noe hw to protect myself le (which she feels is good).. i have been miss goody for so long (my mom always say i dunno hw to protect myself)... after being shoot so frequently... i become a porcupine.. i will retaliate if i feel threaten.. mommy say she understand coz my work environment, tt's y i become like tt... but she felt tt i have become from this extreme (extreme nice and temperless) to the other extreme (like a porcupine)... she asked me.. 'R U HAPPY?'
i didnt ans... but i wanted to say, I M NOT! i hate myself nw! i'm no longer the nice TYL tt is easy to get along with... i'm no longer the friendly TYL who is well like and well love by everyone.... i'm juz someone who everyone hates! i have more n more time being alone.. n i hate it! Mommy say i shld learn hw to strike a balance.. can protect myself.. n at the same time be friendly...

with all these happenings.. i realised tt i miss him like crazy.. hw i wish he is here... holding me tight.. telling me everything is juz a nightmare... hw i wish i can really cry my heart out in his arms... with him acting cute n silly juz to make me laugh... but no... this will never happen again... n i shld say luckily he is not here.. coz if he is here.. but have no time for me.. i think i will be sadder... well.. blessing in disguise...

haiz... 无奈，无助，无能为力.. my life is juz so F*** UP!

I had this weird dream:

I dream tt i drove a BENZ (ok... dun ask me hw come.. i oso wondering it myself), to a chalet @ dunno where. This place got chalet and condo de... this is supposingly a chalet with Jason, JX, Harris and gang... but i saw my pdtn workers toking to me.. telling me hw to go to the chalet.
(As i say.. this is a weird dream)

Then i parked my car at somewhere very far away from the stated chalet... and walked towards it.. then when i reach the place.. (it was up on a hill), i went to explore and see is there any possibility tt i can park my car near the chalet... as i walked out of the chalet.. there is this guy behind...

he is my BF in my dream.. he walked towards me and hugged me and asked me where i was going? and we held our hands walking ard to find the place for my car to park. Then i found out tt i can reach the chalet if i drove up a multi-storey carpark... i have no confidence in driving up.. so i asked 'HIM' if he wld acc me... and if i happened not to be able to drive.. he shld take over..

Then next sence... we were in the car... he was holding me the way i like guys hold me in REAL LIFE... then everything was blur blur.. i woke up...

I DIDNT GET TO SEE WHO IS THIS SUPPOSINGLY BF!! only noe he is quite tall and big.. (NOT FAT... is juz not those skinny type)...not wearing specs.... then dunno liao...

funny dream rite?? i was wondering m i so in need of a guy till like tt?!?!? wahahahhaa.... anyway, i shall go n sleep and see if i can get a clearer pic of this Boyfriend... :p

"hi, hope everything is fine for u. Dun reply me, coz i still not intend to have anything to do with u yet. I juz feel that it's unfair to u that i suddenly MIA since u did nth wrong. Sorry, but i really cant be the good fren u hoped for. so no contact is the best for both of us n the best thing i can give you the last time. Without me, mayb u'll be happier. Take Care."

Yes, it still hurts... but it shld be done. I'm choosing the 'should do, must do, have to do' path instead of the 'want to do' path... this is the 无奈 in life. Just let nature takes its course.. time heals....

BTW, a happy note....
ONLINE RADIO IS BACK!!!

Tiny changes to my blog... ok.. yx will say she allergy to pink... but this time round i did not purposely put pink de.. wahahaha... juz to suit my header de.. hehe

I've changed the song... u will find it familiar.. it is the same tune as the song 寂寞光年 - 刘力杨 the ending song for the channel 8 show 双子星...

Jade Liu changed the lyrics, and nw is a new song call 礼物. It is in her new album 转寄刘力扬

刘力扬 - 礼物
词：刘力扬 曲：80 time

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜 翻阅过去画面
想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋

走一步又一步
我才发现绕了个圈
走了好几年
又回到原点

你送的礼物 会不会太特别
毫不避讳 那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物 在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆 把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点

世上最残酷的 恐怕是时间
困住人 一切却还向前
干涸的眼 再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步
却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了
为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物 会不会太特别
毫不避讳 那不安的传言
但渐行渐远 习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物 在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆 把过往走一遍
穿了这些年 难免会有污点
就像每段爱 总会有终点

你说做自己吧
我们都做回自己
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物 原来是一场劫
夙命一样准确
可笑到想要 你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑
鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲
承认曾经备受煎熬

鞋上那记号
只有你能明了
过了这一夜
我就全忘掉

Damn.. feel like sleepin.... yes.. it is the middle of the day.. n i'm doing a report halfway... and am damn sleepy le..

anyway, juz to inform ppl who r out there worrying tt tyl might go into the way/direction or anything.. STOP worrying... wahahaa.. coz it WILL NEVER happen... y? coz it wun happen lah... coz it is not morally rite lor... :P



They are not my type of coffee nor tea nor dish... yes.. initially, it was quite interesting to noe them.. coz they are like big bros, looking out for u... n better still.. no need to worry abt them.. they will worry abt u.. (GOOD thing abt older guys)... hahaha



But, they are soooo uncle, so no fun... soooo erm... *boring*.... ahahah... not funny... at times really damn bored sia.. hhahaha.. n quite sian lah.. so no worries... :) plus i dun feel the sincerity of being frens.. i dunno leh.. it is a total different feeling from OFM and CP... tt 2.. i can really feel tt they sincerely wanna be frens... but these few... i dun have the feeling.. i always feel there is a motive.. so i dun treat them very well actually... as compared to OFM they all.. hahaha



wahahahahahaa....

Got this from a fren's blog... it is very meaningful... one or more applies to u.... they are frm famous authors or ppl ard the world....

1。莎士比亚说:
再好的东西都有失去的一天。
再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天。
再爱的人，也有远走的一天。
再美的梦也有苏醒的一天。
该放弃的决不挽留。
该珍惜的决不放手。
分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过！
也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过

2。几米说:
当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你,
当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,
我们还要继续错过.
我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。
你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

3。刘心武说:
不要指望，麻雀会飞得很高。
高处的天空，那是鹰的领地。
麻雀如果摆正了自己的位置，它照样会过得很幸福！

4。亦舒说:
人们日常所犯最大的错误，是对陌生人太客气，而对亲密的人太苛刻，把这个坏习惯改过来，天下太平。

5。郭敬明说:
我终于发现自己看人的眼光太过简单,我从来没有去想面具下面是一张怎样的面容,
我总是直接把面具当做面孔来对待,却忘记了笑脸面具下往往都是一张流着泪的脸.

6。刘心武说:
对不起是一种真诚，没关系是一种风度。
如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗！

7。韩寒说:
再累再苦就当自己是二百五再难再险就当自己是二皮脸

8。安妮宝贝说:
当一个女子在看天空的时候，她并不想寻找什么。她只是寂寞。

9。遇见平凡说:
缘分像一本书。翻的不经意会错过童话; 读得太认真又会流干眼泪.

10。张小娴说:
爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。
不曾被离弃，不曾受伤害，怎懂得爱人？

11。亦舒说:
无论怎么样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的； 越是没有人爱，越要爱自己。

12。刘心武说:
与其讨好别人，不如武装自己；
与其逃避现实，不如笑对人生
与其听风听雨，不如昂首出击！

13。张爱玲说:
娶了红玫瑰，久而久之，红玫瑰就变成了墙上的一抹蚊子血，
白玫瑰还是“床前明月光”；
娶了白玫瑰，白玫瑰就是衣服上的一粒饭渣子，
红的还是心口上的一颗朱砂痣。

14。三毛说:
一个朋友很好，两个朋友就多了一点，三个朋友就未免太多了。
知音，能有一个已经很好了，不必太多，
如果实在没有，还有自己，好好对待自己，跟自己相处，也是一个朋友…

15。雪小禅说:
我以为终有一天，我会彻底将爱情忘记，将你忘记。
可是，忽然有一天，我听到了一首旧歌，我的眼泪就下来了，
因为这首歌，我们一起听过。

16。郭敖说:
我们始终都在练习微笑，终于变成不敢哭的人。

17。三毛说:
不要害怕拒绝他人，如果自己的理由出于正当。
当一个人开口提出要求的时候，他的心里根本预备好了两种答案。
所以，给他任何一个其中的答案，都是意料中的。

18。梓色心晴说:
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了~
女人哭了，是因为她真得放弃了。

19。玄漪说:
能够说出的委屈，便不算委屈；
能够抢走的爱人，便不算爱人。

20。张爱玲说:
爱情本来并不复杂，来来去去不过三个字，
不是“我爱你”、“我恨你”，便是“算了吧”、“你好吗”、“对不起”。

21。马云说:
晚上想想千条路,早上醒来走原路。

22。饶雪漫说:
这个世界欺骗了我，我必须给与还击，
我不会放掉任何一丁点儿属于我的幸福，
哪怕付出的代价是从此坠入地狱，我也在所不惜。

23。郭敖说:
每个人一生之中心里总会藏着一个人，
也许这个人永远都不会知道，尽管如此，
这个人始终都无法被谁所替代。
而那个人就像一个永远无法愈合的伤疤，
无论在什么时候，
只要被提起，或者轻轻的一碰，就会隐隐作痛。

24。GARVEN说:
话是人说的，屁也是人放的，
说话和放屁一样，都是一口气而已。

25。三毛说:
某些人的爱情，只是一种“当时的情绪”。
如果对方错将这份情绪当做“长远的爱情”，是本身的幼稚。

26。张小娴说:
如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。
真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

27。人非草木说:
再丑的人也能结婚，再美的人也会单身！

28。张爱玲说:
因为爱过，所以慈悲；
因为懂得，所以宽容。

Does anyone of the sayings trigger ur memories? or emotions? or agreement?
Well... they did, for me.. :)

I'm juz soooo excited.... hehe.. helping to think of names for hx baby liao leh... hhehee... baby due in January wo... Hx, u muz remember... for baby sake and ur sake.. u muz keep a happy and relax mindset wo....
Think most prob is girl wo.... n we r deciding on the following names.... let's vote!!! hehehe

1. Iris - Colorful, Rainbow (dervied from Greek, ancient symbol of powder, dedicated to God Juno)
2. Abbie - Joy of the Father (English)
3. Felicis - Latin word for Happy, Lucky, Fortunate
4. Kelis - Beautiful (American)

which is nice???

Other than the preious few in my life, i have one VERY IMPT person. she is definitely NOT perfect, and she can make u scream and pull ur hair and be angry at her... yet, u cant live without her!!

She is lazy, pure lazy that she would rather sleep than acc u have KTV, or BFAST or LUNCH or SUPPER, BUT when she noes tt u r really craving for it.. she die die oso acc u.. (provided she in good mood lah)

She is crazy,,,, she can be acting silly with u, laughing happily at one moment.. next moment.. she will scold u for being so silly...

She is a critic! she can condemn u till u upside down, she can be so straight fwd tt u would be hurt by her words, she is someone who wish u to be the perfect person in her mind. she wanna u to live her way and live up to her expectations.... YET, deep down, u noe she accepts u as who u r... juz tt at times she wanna remind u to be careful.. dun get hurt... (but sometimes, b4 i get hurt.. she hurt me already.. aiyo... hahaa)

She is such a bimbo!! her actions, her way of toking, her knowledge... will make u wonder.. hw come she can study for degree with almost 1st class honours... she made u cry and laugh at the same time. DUN ever test her chinese! u will vomit blood! go shopping with her.. u will go crazy if u r not trained b4.. yet without her, ur life is a bore...

She makes no sense!! she is random and lame and can come up with actions and theories a NORMAL human being cant think of de.. n her weird stuff may make u laugh till u cry!!! this always make my day.. n i muz say, i'm PROUD to intro her to everyone ard me.. coz she bring laughter to everyone!!! (ok.. she will complain.. she say 'my mommy dun give birth to me as an entertainer de ok')

She very no respect... she dun give u a damn if u r the mighty god or the teacher or the lecture or the wise old man.. if she think tt there is no logic or not realistic... be prepared to shoot by her... she wun give face de... This is her...

She is a damn lousy cooker... and yet loves to offer to cook for ppl...

i'm attention seeker, she is attention attracter... so sometimes i really wanna strangle her of attracting all the attention... BUT, then again... it is ok lah... coz sometimes she attract the WRONG guys.. which i really glad tt i dun.. wahahahahaa...

see.. everyone has flaws... even her.. she is not perfect, she is damn irritating... but i juz cant live without her.. she missed me when i dun come home early reguarly (she uses suaning to bring this msg across to me), she really cares... though she dun show... she is actually sensitive de wo.. (she acted like she is nt... ) she really needs someone to tok with (SHE WILL NEVER ADMIT IT), she is also has a fragile heart.. she needs ppl's support for her to carry on with her damn irritating sch life... she is not as strong as wat everyone sees to be..

she loves u, so she have very high expectation for u... so when u cant do it.. she will condemn u.. but then she still accepts u as who u r...

so this is her.. MY BELOVED SISTER!! TYX.. Tan Yan Xin!! haha... i cant imagine my life without her! n i'm s0 proud to intro her as my sis to everyone... (though she loves overtaking.. wahahaha..)

i'm REALLY REALLY afraid to lose her.. tt was my most terrible nightmare in my younger days...

I went to buy my watch... hehe Titus watch!! hehe.. yes, using the money my darlings gave me de.. so can say is my late bdae present...
THANK YOU - Ms Wong YT, Mr Darren Peng YH, Mr Hong JM, Ms Hoon HH, Ms Cheryl Wee SH, erm... Ms Tan YX... r u involved?? hahaha... THANK YOU OSO lah.. coz u contributed 1st mah... hehehee MUACKz.. hehee

It is rose gold wo... hahhahaha

一封寄不出去的信

XXX,

结果，我们还是走到了这一步。想起来，好像一切是注定的。

还记得吗? 我曾和你说我有个不祥的预感∶我即将失去你，因为你离我越来越远。

你叫我别想太多，你不是好好的坐在我身边吗？当时的我觉得好感动、好幸福。因为有你，所以就忽略了在心里最深处的呐喊。

心底很清楚地感受到这一切都是个梦，很快就会消失，但我却宁愿沉浸在你给的甜美时光里，也不愿去面对心底的呼喊∶我即将走入一个深渊，一个会让我痛苦的深渊。我放纵自己，让自己去享受你所给的一切，我以为当你离开时我会很快就淡忘一切，我以为我能潇洒的放下。

我太高估我自己了，还是太低估了我对你的感情？我自己也不知道，只知道我想逃，不想在这里打转。 好累。

我已做了决定。三年前是你选择离开、选择逃避。三年后，是我选择离开。

说不会心痛是骗人的。我的心比什么都还要痛。看见你送我的熊，眼泪会不由自主地掉下来。经过曾和你走过的路、看过的事物、做过的事都会让我勾起那些回忆。我一直都在和不一样的人去同样的地方、做同样的事，为了就是要制造新的回忆。但都不能。

说不想你是骗人的。无时无刻你的笑容、温柔、可爱表情、幼稚的举动都会出现在我脑海里。想要有人陪伴、有人给与温柔的拥抱时更加想你。所以，我一工作来麻痹自己。让我自己忙就不会有空闲的时间想你。

虽然还会担心你；怕你有心事不说、怕你累坏身子、怕你吃不好睡不好。但我想我的担心是多余的。你现在也许很幸福。

我很累。真得好累。不明不白的关系托了这么多年，是时候有个了结。我选择放弃、离开。既然你不能给我爱情，我也给不了你友情，我们就走到这里。其实这决定不只害我失去一位我最在乎的人、也害你失去一位好友。真是抱歉。
不过还是要谢谢你曾在我生命中留下美好的回忆。心还是会痛，但长痛不如短痛。再托下去我会更加遍体鳞伤。

也许我会用一段很长的时间把你淡忘、也许我一辈子都忘不了你。以后的事，谁能预料？只能说，也许很久很久以后再见到你，能若无其事的和你打声招呼也不一定。

祝福你，
曾经的好友

if u realised tt my font size is bigger. yes.. no worries... nt ur screen prob... u didnt see wrongly.. i've changed it!

COZ I GOT A BROTHER ( A BLOOD BROTHER WITH SAME MOTHER AND FATHER AND SISTER), by the name of Mr. BEN TAN YONG WEI, age 25 yet with a mentality, hearing and sighting condition of a 70 year old man complained tt my blog is soooooo complicated and the wordings are so small tt everytime he reads it, he feel like bashing me up! SO TO SATISFY HIM, i increased the font size!!! and when i'm free, i'll make it OLD MAN PROOF!

btw, this is my blog.. i think i can write watever i want rite?

to the selected few: msn me to get the full story. If u r still wondering if u are the selected one? reassure.. u r not..

Have u ever encounter this kind of scenerio?

Early in the morning 0930, ur hp rang (u normally off ur hp when u r asleep, ONLY on it when u awake, so u WERE REALLY wondering y n how come ur hp will ring! and plus u slept at 0430 juz nw, so u can imagine the ring of hp WAS definitely NOT a WELCOMING sound). U picked up the call.
While you were still blur blur, the other party gave u the shocked of ur life! this happened to me THIS MORNING...

"U r still SLEEPING?!"
"Yah..." Hello!? it is 0930! n it is a SAT morning, of coz i'm still in bed!
"I'm waiting for u at the swimming pool nw, n u r still in bed?!" the caller shouted

WAIT!? since when i promised to wake up early for a morning swim? NO, i didnt promise! i didnt say yes! i was sure! but y is the caller there n INSISTED tt I had agreed!?!?

"Huh? I got say i going meh? no ar.. i didnt promise..."

I was scratching my head.. n trying to wake tt mind up and rake all the events tt had happened the past few days... I WAS SURE i didnt say i going....

"Yes, u did! nw hw!? u r leaving me here? u fly me aeroplane!" Yes, the caller sounded pissed

Inward, I groaned! TRYING damn hard to remember DID I EVER SAY tt i going swimming?!! n My body really do not have the strenght to get up....

"when did i fly aeroplane? i didnt promise u!!" OH DEAR! help me! i wanna sleep somemore!!!
"YES! YES!! I WANT u to come out nw!!!!" if this caller is any other body... i think i wld juz hang up n go back to sleep... but tt is my PRECIOUS FEW!

I dragged myself out of bed.. mentally thinking where did i put my swimming costume.. and hw can i pack my stuff using the fastest way... n wondering did i say YES in my dreams!? n trying to reason out with the caller that i DIDNT agree to go swimming...

Yes, i was thinking of going out liao... of coz, not tt i admit tt i had agreed to go swimming and had forgotten.. is coz tt caller is the PRECIOUS FEW...

Then... wait.. i heard tt behind the shouting, there was a smile... a laughter... THIS CUTE CALLER OF MINE, called me early in the morning at 0930 after her swim, to wake me up and gimme a scare of my life and then smile and say
"It is a nice sat morning! u shldnt be sleeping! u muz wake up!"
"aiyo, i slept at 0430. Please leh.. let me sleep can?"
"who tell u to sleep at 0430?"
"I normally off my hp, hw come it is on today? and u can reach me?!"
"HAHAHAHAA.. it is FATED! WAKE UP!!!"
"my da xiao jie, i really slept at 0430!"
"i dun care, i woke up so early... so u oso have to wake up!!!"

I groaned again.. n she laughed... and say 'i missed u leh, so call u lor'
GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH!!

Oh god! i never on my hp till i wake up! n i think i juz accidentally on it b4 i slept today... this happened! really fated sia...
Supposingly i shld be in a bad mood and gonna curse n swear.. haiz... but i think i owe this person in my past life sia.. i wasnt abit pissed, and even acc to chat till she reached home. n the details? i dun really remember... coz i was still in dazed!!!!

yes, this person woke me up... end up, at 0930 i was online and playing FB!! my sis woke up and asked me.. "did u even sleep?"
HAIZ!!! u noe my reasons!

YES, this is the precious few that u will spend ur time with.. rot ur time away with, and u enjoy the company. This is the precious few tt u noe hw tired u r, or hw bz u r, u will oso make the effort to meet each other (esp when u all haven meet each other for sometime); be it juz a 30min dinner plus a short walk frm cwp to my tuition kid hse, or a long lazy afternoon. this is the precious few who noe ur whole family inside out, and can share ur woes. This is the precious few who can laugh at ur joke of the day/year, suan u like no tml, listen to all ur complains abt work, or simply to bitch ard and cry with u when u r hurting. This is the precious few tt u noe, even if they say they r not gonna meet u, does not love u, tell u to stop zi zuo duo qing or angry with u or say tt his/her dog is more impt, they will always be there when u need them... this is the precious few tt will hit u and scold u and remind u if u happen to go towards the wrong direction... this is the precious few tt will acc u, when the whole world is attached and living in their own world....

so wat if this precious few is attached!? wahahaha.. dunno leh.. we'll see when the time comes.. hehehee

Side line: This cute caller of mine, happily tell me tt she is going to take her LONG awaited afternoon nap at 1400 and thanks to her, i cant sleep as i'm meeting a fren at 1500 so i need to go out at 1400!!

NW IS 0400 AGAIN! and i make sure my hp is OFF this time round.. YEP! it is off! n dun try calling my hse, my room dun have phone anymore.. hehe...

Thanks to Ivan, i got a webby of dream decoder @ http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=snake!! hahaa

Snake

To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. If you are afraid of the snake, then it signifies your fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive changes.�
To see the skin of a snake in your dream, represents protection from illnesses.
To dream that you are eating a live snake, indicates that you are looking for intimacy or sexual fulfillment. Your life is lacking sensuality and passion. If you vomit or throw up the snake, then it may mean that you are overcompensating for something that is lacking in your life. You may be rushing into something.

Hmmm.. conclusion: People ard me ARE callous, ruthless and cant be trusted... coz alot snakes ard me...then one big white snake squased to death means tt one of them will be removed frm my life?!

Scary rite?! WHO CAN I TRUST? poor me.. i shall be low profile nw... n only stick to my beloved yt and ivan.. wahahahaha

suddenly got the 'spend $$' feeling... so went to buy a new card tag for office access card, a new hp pouch and accessory for my hp! As those who noe me shld noe, I'm A VICTIM of cute stuffs... well.. my beloved bro seems to 4got abt it... i bought all these ALL BY MYSELF!




Asmine went China, she cant find anything to buy.. but saw alot of doraemon.. so end up getting these for me... cute lor... wahaha...



I had a werid dream previous night.. i dreamed tt i was in a room with A LOT of snakes haning down frm the ceiling.. once u walked past.. can feel it sliding ard ur shoulders/back.. *shivers*....
then suddenly saw a white snake on the floor.. being 'squashed' to death by a door.. bloody image.. "shivers*... i noe dreamed of snakes is actually quite good... however, my dream so weird... wonder wat it mean... any dream decoder?? hahahahaa

ok.. this sounds stupid... but i've lost everything in my hp!!! y?? story goes like this:

I realised tt my media player cant read the memory in my memory card and can view photos frm my camera album. I was wondering wat happen for abt 1 week.. then i decided to use media manger to sync my hp with comp... but still it cant work... so finally i decided maybe is the software out of date... so i downloaded the software... to update my hp...

but i 4got one most impt thing... coz i cant sync my hp with comp... i 4got abt the stuff in my phone memory... so end up i didnt back up!!! n GONE, the whole list of phone numbers which took me 3 days to organise.. so frens/suppliers whom i met/saved ur number after i bought my this new C905, which is after Apr 2009, ur numbers are gone... so if u all are kind enough sms me using ur number...

then ALL the sms i DID NOT delete for memory purposes are gone! all memory GONE! i told yp... she say she gonna celebrate. y? coz she told me it's time to start afresh... 4got abt watever had happen... all memory gone is good.. at least i wun go back thinking wat had happen.. n hw sweet things were last time..

yes.. myhp is nw as good as new... with new software... limited phone numbers, and zero sms... mayb it is an indication...start afresh... can i do it?! y do i still feel the pain? i tot i'm numb.... haiz...

anyway, XH!! i'm really counting down liao.... mayb cant go overseas.. coz seems like no one got time to go... but we def WILL do sth!!! hahahaa

"The Biggest Loser" is now on... n the 2 contestants are juz to slackers who cant resist food. Bring chocolate cakes, mooncakes to any of them... see if theey will tell u they are on diet... wait... they will say they r on diet... BUT will still eat...

bring them to any Zhi Char... order crabs and stuff they like... you will see them eating happily... hahhaa... both of them have the voting system... and seems like yx is leading on the score board... y izzit so? coz her frens r loyal to her... BLINDLY... hahaha.... i have a few feedbacks frm her frens.. :
1. she sure will not lose so much weigh.. but as a fren we still vote for her
2. aiyah.. vote for her, let her happy
3. aiyo..i press wrongly lah

erm... so u noe hw she got all the votes?
anyway, i'm starting the betting system.. who is interested?
the rates for both of them are as below:
1. Yt - 1:5 (i decided not to be evil to put 1:10... hahaa)
2. Yx - 1:2 (this is base on the votes online)

Well... being the closest person to them... i cant take sides nor vote... so... i take bets!! hahhahaa

oh ya... another insider news.. one of yt's vote is yx's beloved bro vote de... Y IS THIS SO?! coz yx bro always side his sis.. so when he saw the title 'Who is the biggest loser?' he straight away click on yt... coz his beloved sister CAN NEVER be a loser!! hahahaha...

Enough of the updates... pls choose wisely.. n place ur bets...
Contact me for the bets... and will give the latest update on the voting results.
Voting will end in 88 days.

Damn irritated! Y I dun seems to have sth nice and happy happening recently!?!?

I got a news frm tt boss who is not my direct boss... he told me, my baby is not not selling. N need to change. so held a meeting to discuss wat shld be changed! he said ppl didnt noe tt we r selling white coffee. I DIDNT SELL IT AS WHITE COFFEE IN THE FIRST PLACE!

then half hr earlier, he commented tt for us R&D ppl, shld think out of the box. dun wanna a 'me too' product. Dun follow the crowd. Half hr later, he told me tt my baby is so different with the white coffee in the market. THE TASTE PROFILE WAS DIFFERENT WAT!!! hw to sell it as white coffee!?!?!?

From the start, they wanted a product that is no longer the 'uncle and auntie' style. i did it... nw they told me it is not selling, coz no one noe it is white coffee and uncles aunties dunno wat is Double Shot! Come on! at 1st he blamed us for not focusing on the targeted grp of the pdt. but who is the one NOT focusing!!? i wanna target young and executive RIGHT FROM THE START!!!!!!! nw coz a few commenting that we r not selling white coffee, they wanna change the pdt to white coffee and sell!!! wat sales not good...

Did they noe tt they actually nearly kill it when it 1st launch!? they happily change the raw mat. when it juz lauched and when i wasnt ard, the tatse went off!!! when i came back, i insisted in using back the original raw mat... then it is slowly moving up, they tell me sales not good.. so need a plastic surgery!!!

Say wat, R&D have a say... i say liao.. end up!? still do wat u all think is right! anyone consider hw i feel!? tt is my baby!!! a baby i spent a year formulating FROM scratch... n they AGREED ON THE DESIGN!! ok.. i agree that the pdt name shld not be at the bottom.. BUT IT IS A NEW STYLE WAT!?!?

They wanna change, let them change! i nt gonna care! next time they tell me to position my pdt, i shall tell them, they will change anyway... so they decide!

Anyway, ppl tell me... my DOUBLE SHOT... comment on the design... I WANNA THE TRUTH! no need care if i'm hurting anymore... coz i numb le!

wah... life is crazy recently. with the shifting of factory almost can drain me... i have been working OTs plus my weekends burned juz to go back to new office, then this long weekend, i have been waking up at 8sth to go office till i 错乱.. even asked my mom wat day is today when she woke me up... haiz.... wat to do?? i chose to come back coz of the shifting... so have to accept it lor...

due to the stress and the anger and the tireness... i have no appitite!!! i cant finish my lunches and didnt have my dinners! (stop asking if i slimmed down... i didnt.. hahaha... 20 over yrs de hard work is nt fake one.. 不是说减掉就减掉的！！) hahaha..

yes, my boss went crazy... n anyhw shout at me, blaming me this blaming me tt... scolding me this, scolding me tt... it was a mental torture for the whole week!! no one will understand hw i REALLY feel till u REALLY in the situtation urself... and of coz... those who r working with him will understand too... n guess wat... i got 'nice' colleagues who LOVE to allow me to tok to my boss coz she is afraid of getting scolded.... damn it rite?! toopid lor... n her fault become my fault!!!!! i scolded her for a few times liao... but it is NOT enough to compensate the mental torture i got for the week!!!!

finally i cannot tahan on fri, esp when he shouted at me across the office! i shouted back... but as usual... tyl cannot get angry without crying... so i cried... n ran off to my office...

then i was quite glad coz i got REALLY lovely colleagues at the same time... yan yan came down n acc me... and tok to me... then my china guys actually tried to console me... esp mr xue.. he was juz like a big bro... then mr kelvis wasnt there when the incident happened... but when he heard.. he came down to my office to find me too... yan yan was telling me jokingly... wah... though no cp and ofm console u.... still have her... haha... actually... got kelvis and yan yan in the office is the only consolation... I LOVE THEM!! hehee...

then another china guy, mr min... he tok to me over the net.. coz he was at the old site.. didnt noe wat happen... juz heard frm others... but he too... like a big bro... coaxing me.. hahaha.. suddenly i got big bros wo!! hahaha

yes.. my boss after tt tried toking to me... (when he feels happy lah...) i juz answered him necessarily... other than tt.. i juz went off... i told darren... i think i've shield everyone frm all the scolding frm him for the week le lor...

SG is a small small place...

guess who i met juz nw when i went out for steamboat dinner at bugis with yan, jimmy, irene and kelvin?!
yes, it is tt DESMOND who had disappeared completely in my life...
i saw him when he was queuing up to go up the escalator. i saw him then, but decided nt to call him.
However, 人算不如天算, i was being pushed (bugis at tt time was very crowded)... end up i went up on the escalator at the same time...

i was still considering to call him anot... but then end up.. being polite.. i tapped him.. he turned n look at me.. he stunned...

Desmond: eh..
TYL: ....
Desmond: heheh.. how come u r here?
TYL: y cant i be here?
Desmond: (laugh... those very PS laugh... like when i caught him red handed tt kind of laugh)
TYL: (took out hp and call)
Desmond: laugh...
TYL: y r u laughing?
Desmond: nth (passing uneasy signals)
TYL: ... (tok on phone... asking where yan was)
Desmond: ....
TYL: i go le.. see ya.. bye
Desmond: bye...

2-3 mins the most..damn weird.. for those who were curious.. he was alone...
y do we have to become like tt?!?! i dunno.. i only noe... i dunno hw to treat it as nth happen anymore...
n i think.. i'm starting to hate him... (or nt?)... SIANZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

00:00 31st Aug 2009, Msia National day..
at this pt of time, there were fireworks opp my blk.. yes... a whole stretch of fire works... but either due to the economic downturn or due to the fasting mth for Muslims... it wasnt as 'crowded' as past years... 'crowded' means the a lot of fireworks...

anyway, life have been quite bz with my daily routine... Work, then tuition then sleep then work again, then tuition then sleep then work again.... goes on and on and on till fri... the only difference is tt i have taking cabs home after tuition... hahaa.. sianz.. my $$ have gone to cabby's rental fees... anyway, y did i take cabs nw?

1. I'm damn tired... lazy a) to walk to interchange and b) to take bus to interchange then change to my bus again

2. last time, on my way back... i can chat on phone or gossip/bitch till i reached home... but nw... my phone kakis either sleep early, or too bz with sch work or out for fun... so dun wanna disturb them... the only phone kaki tt can chat with me till wee hrs, had disappear completely frm my life...

3. shorten the time of being alone, can shorten the time for my mind to run wild.. then i can throw myself at my lappy then play till i dozed off... meaning i can spare my mind frm thinking of those 有的没的...

on thurs and fri, i went to attend a ISO 22000 internal auditor course... n got noe to a few different ppl... i was being arranged to be sitted in between 2 BIG guys... i mean big hor.. like lcm like tt (minus tt big round tummy.. oops... sorry... i mean.. aiyah.. u all imagine lah... ) they are chefs.. but nw come out n open a factory on their own.. supplying fresh veges/salad to food chains like subway.. n when they told me tt.. i stared.. they dun look like vege guys.. they looked like buchter.. ahaha.. ok.. cannot be so bad.. they are nice friendly giants... hehe.. to my surprise.. they were actually looking at buying our this sold factory.. but they told me the price was too high.. so end up didnt buy... then their consultant is same as mine.. small world rite? hahahaa

then noe another guy, a young boy frm msia (i only noe tt he is younger than me after 2nd day), he is a manger in subway chain... he is someone full of ideas and ambition... guess wat.. he paid for himself to go for this course (his coy nt sponsoring him... the course fees cost over $700 even after rebate frm govt for coy who send employees for courses)... he told me.. he shld upgrade himself... learn more things... so even gotta pay for himself.. he oso dun mind... he oso cant find job after grad (yep, he juz grad frm local uni), then working temp as manager in one of the subway chain.. aiming to go into his field of study, or HQ of subway to become auditior... amazing sia.... he is 3 yrs younger than me lor..

then a girl frm Mymmar who is comfortable speaking in Mandarin and her own language.. but understands english... she studied law in Mymmar but work as admin and qc in SG SME... yet she dun mind.. she say lawyer is a very stressful job...

then an uncle, who is expert in almost all the certifications... he is my idol sia... he like soooo familiar with audits... can tackle auditors easliy and noe a lot of procedures at the back of his hand... (we have role play and workshops)..

Now i slowly like to go for courses alone le... coz i get to know sooo many different kinds of ppl... and different ways of thinking... interesting lor...

ok... upcoming week will be a SUPER DUPER BZ week for me.. coz y? XIN JIE's wedding and my coy 7th mth praying session is on the same day.. FRI!!! so need to help in preparations at office (for 7th mth) and at home (for xin jie wedding)... *excited* hehheheee oh ya.. n oso need to pack my stuff liao.. gonna shift!!!!

刚看完一本小说，小说的某一篇就这么说道：

"如果能说忘就能忘；能放就放，那么，你其实还没真正爱过。真爱过一个人，不是说放就放得了、说忘就忘得掉。
记忆只能逐渐淡忘，不能完全抹灭"

我在想我一直叫我周围的朋友不能 ‘刻意忘记’，因为这样会更难忘记。真的是，说得容易、做得难。我发现，我自己其实也陷入了那 ‘刻意忘记’ 的阶段。

因为当你经过你们曾走过的路、做着你们曾做过的事、听着你们曾拥有过的歌；都会让你不经意的回想起当时快乐的时光、 曾说过的话。然后眼泪就会不知觉的填满眼眶。纵使你身边有很多很多的人在帮你制造很多很多别的记忆，都无法替代那一段回忆。
就是因为如此，不想再让自己那么狼狈、不想再让自己看起来那么窝囊、更不想让自己这么痛苦，所以选择 ‘刻意忘记’。

三、四年前，曾经有过这段痛苦阶段； 如今又回到这里。可笑的是，竟然是为了同个人！明知道会有这样的结果，还是放纵自己。能怪谁？怪只能怪自己不够意志力。他变得更温柔、更体贴、更细心，那又怎样？！只要意志力强，这些都不会让我动摇的。不过，我没有，所以动摇了，然后再次掉入深渊，结果又到了现在这里。

我很想、很想只当他一辈子的好朋友。在他需要人的时候陪伴他、在他无助的时候支持他、听他诉苦、陪他笑、看他认真做着一件事还是听他说着那些无厘头的歪道理。不过我做不到；我根本就没有自己想象中的那么伟大。我们之间已没有‘纯友谊’了。

"所谓‘纯友谊’，是当男女双方都没有人在潜意识之下跃过名为‘友谊’的界线；若有人不小心越界，那‘纯友谊’ 就不可能存在了。"（这也是从我刚读的小说里的一句话）

上一次，是他选择逃避，所以消失。这一次，是我选择放弃还是他选择离开？我也不知道，但也是不重要了。因为事实就是：他再也不会回来了。我们再也回不到过去了。

也许，这一次我需要一段很长很长的时间。不过，不管是一个月、一年、十年还是一辈子，我相信这段记忆会慢慢被我淡忘掉的。我只想请周围的朋友不要一直逼我一定要马上忘记、也不要一直说他到底值不值得。因为这样不帮会帮我淡忘他，反而会让我更想他。

可能，我会突然间静静的望着前方，不发一声；这是因为我在哀悼我一段栽下种子却发不了芽的爱情和一段我亲手杀死的友情。。。。。。。。

Random stuff of my life....

Was too sianz to work... so took a photo of my desk....

My tortoise family, an elephant with shoes frm Holland, and a kangaroo frm DPex... of coz... nt to 4get my doraemon pencil holder and my new addition, doraemon's correction tape... with my comp desktop wallpaper - Saiyuki (anime)... hahahaha


Above the desk, where my deskjet is... stood a Dpex bear and a little bear in cage (Courtsey frm Kelvis, he say tt bear 浸猪笼

Went to see Cheryl @ TTSH, then had dinner @ Curry Flavor in Novena Sq. It was abt 2045, and the last order for the ala carte buffet was 2130.. guess wat, Yan Ting, Yan Ling and Shwu Yann actually ordered the ala carte buffet.. and we ordered like we 10days never eat... SY was soooo shocked tt we can eat so much.. she say she will have nightmare lor... Her shi liang is damn small lor.. hahaa.. so end up is me n yt.. hahhahaa...

A table full of food!!


A happy YT with all the food... in the end we didnt finish.. NOT tt we cant finish wo.. is tt they wanna close liao.. so we have to go..hahahahaa

As our yt is on her new proj.. she got a new pattern on her hand....

Can notice the different color tones?? this is the result of her new proj.. hahahaha

Then today, Ivan had craving for Mac, we meet up with Xinjie then go King Albert Park for Mac.. dun ask y we go so far.. CWP oso got... this is us lor... ahahhaa.. Upon hearing the gd news frm lyn.. we went down to her hse after dinner.... and of coz.. did not miss the chance of playing with little sherlina....

Upon seeing this, it just make ur day! hahahaa...


Personally, i like this... soooo like Baby of the Month, tt type of pic...


The star... hehe

Lyn, mommy say since this time round is so different frm your 1st(as in the vomitting part)... this might be a boy wo... hahahhaa... :p let us noe when the time come... see we guess correctly mah... :p

This is a nice song from Z-chan new album... He had rest for abt 3 yrs b4 coming up with this new album. I like this song 暗恋 which happen to be the same name as his new album... lyrics are meaningful... nice nice...

《暗恋》 张智成

四目交接的时候不要停留太久
适可而止的问候关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞也不能对你说

啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远

相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
甚麽会多一些甚麽会少一些

就让别人去猜测我们清白的很
就让自己去承受那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友能不能有要求
如果会发生甚麽也是我想太多

啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口微笑中藏著难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
甚麽会被消灭甚麽才会复原

那是我的底线继续将你暗恋

Mystery solved! hahaha.. found out le....
it is daniel!! really is daniel....hahahahaa....
He bought this b4 he went Aust, then we had no time to meet up... so i guess he left it in SG and ask someone to send it to me when my bdae is nearing... hahahaa

hw did i find out? coz i saw his nick abt nearly lost his life on the road in Aust, i went to ask him wat happen... he saw my DP...then he said 'oh.. so u've recieved the bookmark'....hahaha... everything solved... he say it meant to be a bdae surprise for me.. but came abit late.. but still.. i was suprise.. wahahaha.. THANKS DANIEL!! u r SSOOOOO SWEET!! hehehe

Went with my 5g1u + yt - lyn to Keppel country club/ keppel club for DIM SUM!!! hehee... My grp noe me best!!! hehehe

yum yum... hehehee.. thanks guys! hehhee

Then after tt went cine watch The Haunting in Connecticut with Ivan... Finally, someone is willing to watch horror shows with me!!! 旧爱还是最美！！ I dunno y nobody wanna watch with me lor.. I SWEAR i didnt scream!! hahahaa...
ok.. like the story... got meaning de... apart frm the scary part.. hehe

After toking to my jiu ai.. made me realised... y shld i be sad?! i mean.. i can laugh n tok abt the memories we had.... haha.. jiu ai say, both of us dunno wat we want... so is dragging.. then he oso say.. since i cant see future with him... then let go... coz no pt holding on.. (ok..i think ppl tell me this for more than a thousand times... ok.. it is me.. hahahaa)
jiu ai didnt force, didnt comment, didnt reprimand me.. juz listen n advice... (ok... mayb coz he is oso somehow similar to him?? when come to handling these types of stuff?? )... well... he always has his own way in seeing things... hahaa.. no matter wat.. THANKS JIU AI!!! i love u the most lah.. hahahaa

ok.. nw it time for u ppl to help me solve the mystery...
i recieved a present from the mailbox... n this person did not write down his/her name (dunnO is blur or purposely de)... my mom threw away the envelope liao.. so cant show u all the handwritting.. left only the present...


I've tried to narrow down the search... who noe i love tortoise and is being called TYL

Those who noe my full address
Yan Ting (but i dun think she will be tt 'free' to do this type of things)
Cheryl (handwritting looks like hers.. but she say she didnt send)
Yipei (she is damn bz with sch work.. so i dun think she got the time.. plus handwritting nt hers)
Wenying (she is tooo stress with her sch too... no time to even chat on phone.. moreover, she is nt clever enough to get ppl to write the address de...nt possible)
Simin (erm.. she doesnt look like someone who will send mysterious gift.. haha)
(still got who.. i dunno le leh)

Those who i think will do this type of surpries..
Ivan (but he swear tt it is nt him this time)
i really cant think of anyone else...

aiyo.. this mail is SG de... so cant be xiaohua.. or daniel... (wait.. daniel told me he wanna gimme sth.. but got no time to meet me... but then he left for Aust on the 4th liao leh... )
i dun think is any of the guys.. so ppl... help me think1?!? hehee

My bdae is over, but celebration cont'd!!

Meeting my 5G1U plus YT on the 19th Jul
then China guys (only left 2. haiz) on the 18th...
then the poly frens (nw they are slogging.. hahaa.. studying for exams) + little boys gang on the 25th...

Oh well, so it wasnt tt bad after all... i mean.. i noe all my frens love me... though they always 'act' heck care me.. wat more can i ask for, rite? so wat if there r some idiot dun even put me in the any part in their heart? i'm still well loved!! hahahaa.. (ok... 我在自我安慰, but still...THANKS TO ALL MY DARLINGS!!! :P)

Went to the zoo with Aeddan and Darren and Cheryl on wed... hehee.. Thanks ivan for his help to get the card for us.. if nt, the entrance fee is damn ex lor... whahaha... *muackz*... look out on FB for the pics.. darren will put it up (soon, i hope?) wahahaa...

sianz... tt day got a fren asked me 'so hw long u gonna celebrate this yr?' i stunned... n think n tell him 'seems dun have leh'...

Till nw, i'm booked by my coy+frens on the 10th (cheryl's farewell), and my jiu ai is trying his very best to organise one meeting for the 5g1u+yt grp... (thanks jiu ai... coz i think u r bz with ur classes still wanna think of this... )
i dun even need to cancel my tuitions... i juz continue... seems so bz yet it is not bz with my bdae... my poly gangz all bz with sch... so no time, then others are bz with work... i'm oso bz with hhx wedding...
even wanna have a meal with my family oso need to postpone...
y m i complaining?! it is not as if everyone is bz purposely... but juz.. i oso dunnO... wanna whine...

with tt old woman gimme tt face!!! i'm juz wondering.... i didnt go pray a long time liao izzit?! offend ppl till i dunno... btw, i'm easily agitated recently.. *pms*?? i oso dunnO... but if u happen to hear one of my irritated voice... and wat... please dun take it at heart...

it is the 1st of jul!!!! had my experience in shanghai, hangzhou. things are ex, ppl nt very friendly, air is polluted, fashion - erm... nt very nice (i wonder y, they shld have nice nice clothes). n most imptly, it is sooooo warm!!! wat the diff with SG??? haiz...

then stayed in 5 stars hotel in Hangzhou, DAMN COOL LAH!!! nice nice, so comfy.. i can really stay in hotel whole day lor... then in back to Shanghai, stayed in a 5 star service apartment, heard tt it is opened by a s'porean. it is highly sercure lor... u need to have a key card to go onto the lift. n it only allows u to go to the level u living in. there are a lot of foreginers who r working in Shanghai living in this place... this serivce apartment got a mini kitchen too...

i'm soooo sick n tired of chinese food lor... the KFC (chicken is NICE!! but other than tt.. all CMI), n i craving for all my western and jap and thai food... but then again.. go china eat jap??? go china eat thai!?? hahaha...

too lazy to post photos up.. wait till i free k?? i dunno wat m i bz with.. but i seems to be very bz lor... wahahhaa...

PPL, i'm almost fully booked le leh... book me in advance hor if u all wanna meet me... wahahhaa.. i shall list out the schedule for ur ref. ahhahaha (follow my jiu ai style)

1/7 - tuition till 2200
2/7 - tuition till 2200
3/7 - tuition till 2100
4/7 - BBQ with expo promoters
5/7 - preparing for Huixian's wedding (Evening is free)
6 to 9/7 - tuition till 2200/2100
(if wanna book me muz tell me in advance, so i can make arrangements with my students)
10/7 - booked by my cheryl darling
11/7 - booked by my family
12/7 - HHX Wedding

:)

b4 i flew, we agreed to meet.
he was late as usual. This time round, he was late with a reason - he was looking for tt Me-to-you bear for me! (he told me he had a hard time choosing... nw i oso wonder.. if he wrapped it up himself oso mah.. coz it was sealed with carton tape instead of normal scotchtape)

when he gave it to me, i was stunned. though it was written on the bear 'special fren', i'm still touched... he told me those 'speical love', 'love 4eva' sounded so mushy and so unlike him... so he dun want. n he say i got enough of pink stuff... so he got me a green sweater de... he say, 见熊如见人... hahaa.. coz i'm not coming back frm Shanghai...

he is irritating, annoying, toopid, idioticm and act as if he dun care at times... but i really think he is cute in his own ways.. and silly... sometimes... i really dunno wat to do with him...

I'm leaving on the 21st 0830 flight. Dun miss me wo... hahaa..

We seems to be very bz recently... i have been not meeting some of my rotters recently. izzzit coz we had been meeting almost everyday, so when nw when we didnt get to see each other for a few days, i felt tt it is ages since we last met? hahaa.. ok.. to all my rotters... I noe tt we r all bz with a lot of stuff... but... TYL is leaving on the 21st leh.. n i'm afraid tt i gonna miss u all until wanna die ar.. wahahaa...

so dinners? rotting time this week? hehe...

It is confirmed! i'm leaving for Shanghai on 21st June!

Life have been crazy.... expo juz finished.. n we were so crazy... i love expo.. though it was tiring.... saw an email.... talking abt the difference between like n love.... like n love is juz a thin line difference... so alot of ppl will think tt it love... but it is like... think it is like... but actually tt is love.... after reading it... i wonder....

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。
當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；
離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。
當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；
離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'
然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，
但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，
就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；
對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於,
當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

Does this send u to think back?? do u like/love tt person in ur mind? the r/s u r in... izzit a love or like? this email made me think.... so wat is he to me? then i realised...
如果这是我爱你最好的距离，我可以欺骗我自己离开你.............

WY, need ur help....tell u more when i see u online...

It is early in the morning.. n i'm already in office liao... tired... my dad drove me here today... so i'm damn early today...
well, today is the starting of food fair.. will be damn bz over the weekend... it is from 29th May 2009 - 2nd Jun 2009, @ food expo hall 5! those who r my double shot fans... go there n get it!! hahaha.. it is @ $5 per box with free mug leh!!! support my double shot ba.. hehee...

last night was the last straw! i cant take it anymore! i'm juz so disappointed! haiz... dun come n ask me y n wat is it abt... i'm too sick and tired of it liao... this time roound i chose to give it up... haiz... sianz... sianz...

Well... i guess alot of ppl are waiting for my entry on my Penang trip.. actually i was in Sugei Petani (SP)... the factory is in there....

It was a long time since i took SQ... it is COOL lah... it served food tt i like...bread stick (like foccasia) with melted cheese... and shrimp... yum... hahaa.. and the plane wasnt full... so i got 3 seats for myself! hahaa. nw i noe the diff between $300+ air tix and $50+ air tix.. hahaha

i reached Penang Airport, the boss's sister fetched me.. she then send me over to my hotel for check in 1st, after tt to the factory... as u noe..thru out the trip frm Penang to SP... was those biz type of conversation lor... u noe... tok abt weather and stuff.. nth personal...

then when i reach factory, the boss and lady boss greeted me and showed me ard the factory... then after tt it was lunch time.. me, the boss, the lady boss, the sister and the son... we went to a newly open rest called Bali Bali... it is more like indonesian food... but ok lah... accetable.. at least all stuff i eat lor... juz tt abit spicy.. i still can take it... hahaha.. of coz i no need pay...

the son.. dun ask me shuai anot.. he is not my cup of tea.. too honest looking.. n he is only 22 yr old!!! hahhaa.. so... well.. erm...

i stayed till 4plus.. i was damn bored le.. nth to do... so they asked if i wanna go back hotel 1st.. then will fetch me for dinner at 7 plus... i was like.. WAH! got dinner somemore... so i went back hotel rot.. wanna go for a swim.. but 1. swimming pool was soooo isolated.. no one there.. 2. it was tooo damn hot.. tt it will scald ur skin... so i decided to rot in my room, then bring my lappy down to the lobby to surf net...

7, the boss and family came n fetch me... this time with another addition.. their youngest son... minus the boss's sister... we went to a chinese rest for dinner... i was praying hard tt they didnt order sth i dun eat (i dun dare to tell them wat i dun eat.. so i dun eat A LOT of things)....

boss ordered a fish (i eat.. phew), prawn (i eat.. phew), pork leg (my fave!), claypot seafood (i starting to stress), brocoli with abalone slices (i almost fainted!)...
the boss keep putting food into my plate... he gave me sotong!! i was like... erm... but end up i buried it under my prawn shells... hahaa.. then i dun wanna abalone slices (i dunno is real de anot)... so when the dish was served.. i quickly took the brocoli and eat... hopefully tt they saw me taking.. so no need help me take.. end up.. the ladyboss took one of the slices for me!!! coz it is ex.. so i dun dare to throw away like the sotong.. so bo bian... i ate it with a BIG mouth of rice.. i nearly vomitted lor...wy say i 生在福中不知福... she wana eat oso dun have.. hahah.. but iwas the most stress dinner lah....

After tt i went back hotel... nth to do.. so took a loooong bubble bath (heavenly!!!) then after tt zi lian awhile... then play mahjong all the way lor.. till i slept

next day the boss fetched me, n we went yum cha.. NICE!!! n CHEAP!!! but i didnt pay lah... but i long time never eat such nice dim sum lor... hahaha.. then went facotry.. did the necessary stuff.. the lady boss drove me over to penang.. then we started the buy and eat...

1st to durian road side store.. yum yum.. then to shopping.. (i didnt buy much.. coz nth interesting.. plus they follow me ard..i stress... hahahaa..).. then to eat char kway tiao... laksa, pohpiah, ice kachang, blah blah blah.. so damn full lor... tt was when i saw the sign 'changed for not ordering drink is RM 0.50 ONLY'... damn funny...

then after tt lady boss n her daughter went back to SP.. i was with the sister... she brought me to her hse.. her elder son.. (think quite young, didnt ask for age), is somewhere near my cup of tea.. hahahaha... but still.. i think too young... hahahaa...

then after tt she brought me to another shopping center... then oso nth much to see... juz bought some funny coffee samples.. anyway, they bought me 8 boxes of dao sha piah!!! OMG!! i dunno hw to carry lor... then my bag was full of coffee samples and puddings lor... sooo heavy.... i have to hand carry the dao sha piah... hahhaa...

n i wanna put it up on the overhead compartment.. but... haiz... i was tooo short..cant close it.. so an air stewdardess helped me lor... eeeek... des was asking me.. did i particularly misss him at tt pt of time... i gave him a punch.. anyway, tt was my trip... boring to a certain extend... but fun and exciting.. hahaha

I got myself a new HP!!! Sony Ericsson C905! hehee... it is pink in color... so i got a pink lappy and a pink hp... cool rite??? wat's next??



There r suggestions of pink doraemon (erm... looks weird lor... in action city got), a pink house (my hse already has pink walls), a pink room (my sis will kill me for tt.. she is allergic to pink), a pink BUTT (this is my fav darling say de.. wahahhaa)...



Ok.. decided... i'm going Penang ALONE! so end up i stay one night nia... hehe...

I had a tok with him... he told me sometimes he felt guilty towards me (sometimes he is juz bullshitting)... sometimes when he called to ask me to help him settle some prob is actually purposely de.. he can solve it himself.. he juz wanna call n ask hw m i... using the prob as an excuse (i dunno hw many percent truth)... he said a lot of things which made me to wonder hw much can i believe his words... haiz...

I told him... frm nw on... i gonna let him suffer.. the more he dun like me to 烦 him, the more i will do tt... then he replied, '那，我一辈子都会说我讨厌你来烦我，这样你就会烦我一辈子.'

i stunned... TOOPID!!!

oh ya... I had a fren telling me today '宁愿相信世上有鬼，都不会相信男人那张嘴'... hahaha... cool rite?? hehee

Wooo.... i'm going on a biz trip to penang... 15 may - 18 may... anyone wanna join me over the weekend?? or else i'm alone wo.... alone!! scary.. hahahaa

Ivan wanna come spend the weekend with me?? wahahahaa..

sianz... i'm dozing off....

WAH! Nw then i realised this mth... my entry is on every tues leh... so i was still wondering shld i post an entry today anot... but then i damn buay tahan lah.. so still decided to post it lor....

This morning i was supposed to call a govt body (i shall nt state which GOVT body, i think all pattern same same de) to clarify something.

1st i called the general customer service number,

the person sounded quite friendly and helpful - he said i shld call to the specific department, and gave me 2 numbers.

i called the 1st number - NO one pick up (it is 1000, gov body starts work after 10?)

i called the 2nd number - i told the person my problem,

her reply, "what are you talking about? this is not my department? u call the wrong number"

she sounded damn irritated and fustrated!

i was still toking to her in a nice n polite way, "but this number was given to me by the customer service officer."

"It is not our department try calling XX or XY." 'click' she hang up on me!

hw the hell i noe wat is XX or XY?!?!

NVM... i called back the 1st number, she picked up... she already sounded irritated (i was wondering izzit tt they have a tiff with bfs or husbands b4 going to work), i told her my prob and asked if i called the right department.

She say yes and ask me wat was the prob, i told her the prob, she say, 'pls call ABC department 1st to verify if it is right or wrong. call 61234567" then she hanged up!!! (2 person hanged up on me in one morning!.... more to come!)

i called the number she gave, and he answered my qns and verified... and i started to ask another qns... he replied, "this is not my department, pls call (the previous department)."

I'm too speechless.... wat is this?! to save their own asses!??! till this extend!? my qns is not those need in depth explaination... i only need a clarification!!!!

I was so fustrated till i went online and search for ans... though i cant get the OFFICIAL ans frm the GOVT body, but still i figure a logical explaination by MYSELF!

Our Govt have beeen promoting good customer service, kindness and polite acts... PLS, go and educate ur govt ppl 1st b4 spreading the campaign to the public. 所谓上梁不正下梁歪. Our own ppl in the govt bodies dun even follow it.. hw r u all gonna convince the public to follow!?

HAIZ!!!! to think tt our govt always say tt we are going to move up to a graceful country! yes... they treat ang mos in a damn polite way lor... then treat us SG fellow ppl like ..... haiz... as if we SG ppl (their fellow ppl) r nt human.. so dun desreve gd service... sianz rite?

This morning is nt a good start for me!!! I went out wearing my sandals... then half way, it snap! i cant walked back... so i called my dad to bring down a pair, who noes he brought down the wrong one.. he brought down my mom's.. so i slipped on my mom's n went back home to change... on the way back home.. my mom's shoes oso spoil.. the whole sole came off..

i woke my bro up to drive me to work.. when he noe the reason, he told me... 'tell u to WEAR shoes... NOT eat shoes... next time put 2 extra shoes in ur bag!'... hahaaha

Ok.. life back here.. not much change ba... still as havco and crazy... the only thing tt is different is maybe OFM n CP not here ba... actually, quite miss OFM, BUT.... miss only coz he can help me settle stuff in work... wahahaa...

Well.... go off nw... have to work liao... hehe

Ok.. as most of u noe by nw... today is my 1st day of work... and yes, i'm back to Gold Kili.. my ex coy...

i spent the whole day to do spring cleaning and housekeeping... haiz... well.. actually nw then i realised... i really miss this job... i mean.. yes.. it is tiring and very demanding.. n sometimes nt being appreciated... but then i love the feeling tt i can control things... as in... i can make certain decisions as long as i got logical explaination.. anyway, as yt say... i'm bossy in naturee??

it is late.. n i'm too bz to take the photos of the pressies my darlings bought for me in taiwan... hopefully i got time this weekend...

it is late... time to sleep.. or else tml no need wake up le.. hehe...

and i got this frm WY's blog... a personality test... heeee

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Hw true????

Wooo.. have been bz watching anime (Sayuki) - THEY ARE JUZ SOOOOOO COOL AND HANDSOME... and oso bz play Facebook game - Restaurant City (those in facebook, please join me!!! i need more frens to lvl up!!)

I miss my darlings!! my rotting kakis!!! they r coming back tml liao!!! hehehee!!! cant wait to see if they got bring back Jiro Wang for me mah.. wahahaha..

anyway, i'm starting work soon... but will not disclose where and do wat 1st... let it be a surprise!?! hehee.. okok.. n those who noe le... pls... shhhhhhh... dun say 1st... and mayb when some of u noe le... u all will disagree.. or mayb jump up n down scolding me... but... this is my choice.. let me face all the consequences myself... i'm aware of the consequences and am willing to take up the challenge. i really hope to build up my career frm here. if still dun agree, juz dun gimme wet blanket... :)

Ok.. as promised.. once i got my own lappy, i will upload the song by Liang Wen Yin - 可以不爱了, it is in the playlist! hahaa.. yep... it is a pink lappy!!!! wahahahaha

New playlist has all the 'new' songs recommendations.. wahaha.. actually some songs are not tt new lor.... like 飞轮海 and 梁文音 de... their albums were out for sometime le...

ok... i like to recommend this new person - 纪佳松. I was trying to find his photos online.. but either is very little or i got his name wrongly... anyway, he was actually a producer, a song writer... (at the backstage de).. but wilber pan (his gd fren) encourage him to cut his own album coz 1. he can sing, 2. he is handsome, 3. he is talented!!! hahahaa.. so BLUE J is his new album... the songs in my playlist are some of his..

one of the song 同一个遗憾 is a duet sing with his gd fren.... WILBER!!! juz in case u all wondering who is wilber... he is our beloved 潘伟伯!!! hahaa..

Next, there are 2 song frm the latest show 爱就宅一起 OST... nice nice.. the show is oso nice... OK.. those who DUN LIKE idol drama, PLEASE dun watch it... coz it is 夸张，and typically 'DREAMY'!! hhahahaa... I LOVE IT!!! coz got JIRO WANG (juz in case, he is 汪东城 aka 大东)... HE IS JUZ TOO DAMN CUTE! hahaa...

and of coz, Jolin's new album is out!!! and here are some of the new songs.. heheheeee...

i dunno y it didnt auto play.... u all juz click play urself lor... wahahaa

hmmm... it was quite sometime since i last updated... counting down to the trip for my rotting kakis.... 2 WHOLE WEEKS they will not be in SG.. will be in Taiwan... mayb they will see Jiro? mayb Show?!? haiz... my cute yt told me tt if she really see jiro, she will take a photo of him and get his autograph for me (so nice and sweet rite? pls read on), n she will ask him to write, DEAR TYL, TOO BAD U R NT HERE... WE R HAVING FUN!!!!
so nice of my dear.. wahaha

Jiu Ai, pls take good care of the girls... and esp my dear and lao da jie... i scare lao da jie too happy with her BIG DAY... she become blur blur.. then as for my dear.. u shld noe she is ALWAYS blur... make sure she wear specs!!! no more mixed up with Shell logo and moon liao.. and oso.. DUN ALLOW her to play mahjong... though she can play TAIWAN mahjong.. but who noes.. when she REALLY get a chance to play TAIWAN mahjong, she go back to HK mahjong... then... her chinese is pte ltd de leh.. jolt down all the funny things she say? hahahaa... okok.. i shall nt say anymore.. if nt my dear will use her dog to threaten me!! wahahaa

Ivan, YT, XY, Xing jie, HZ ENJOY URSELVES!!!

recently, have been listening to 933 and get to noe tt Liang Wen Yin (Xing Guang 3 Ban, 2nd place) had a song (which is nt zhu da), is VERY NICE!! ok.. i shld say all her songs in the album are nice... but i like to intro this so...
KE YI BU AI LE... i cant get the song coz i cant d/l... this is nt my comp... once i get my lappy.. i will upload... juz enjoy the lyrics... coz it is the lyrics tt i like.. very meaningful... lyrics and music by PENNY DAI...

可以不爱了
词曲/戴佩妮
演唱/梁文音

把窗户偷偷都打开 让阳光统统照进来
让风放肆地吹散 我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有 都搬到我房间里来
现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 住在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己不看 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最后我可以不爱了 你却说 舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得
避开你 欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住再一次抱你
躲开你 转身以后的消息
这一次我可以

Woo... 1st week of my work has ended... i worked for 4 days this week, next week i will be working for 3 days!

Wat m i working as?? it is a data entry job, BUT, this is the MOST brain-draining data entry job lor... everyday i went back feeling damn shag... then go str to tuition... energy level is damn low lor... cant even scold my students.. wahahahaa... my mommy say coz i too long never use brain liao.. so use a bit a brain of coz no strenght lor.. wahahahaa...

I am cosolidating data nurses get from 120 indian and 120 chinese elderly males of wat they have eaten for the past 24hrs for 2 days. so making 480 surveys to be key in. this is a study on male elderys' diet... hw it affect their calories and their calcium intake...

one of the other part time worker had already started on the chinese males le, so i have to work on the indian males. and i really had a hard time doing this. Y? coz i need to key in each and every food they eat into the database. the food have to be found in THEIR own data base... but indians have their own special cuisine, everyday they will eat sth so special tt i have no idea wat it is.... so everyday i will go google on the food they eat to noe wat they r exactly eating so i can break down the ingredients to be key in.. as it will affect the nutritional values...

then better still, their database had some error... so the nutritional values tt was returned after keying in was all wrong... wrong conversion... end up speed was slowed down... plus the connection and the webby is damn slow lor.... sianz... heheee... then my supervisor told me normally one can finish keying in 10 surveys ie 5 pax a day. i didnt go lunch still cannot do it lor.. 1st day i did 8, 2nd day only 8, third day 6 ba... then finally... today 10!!! wahahahaa... coz today all prob already solved.. i only need to search on the food nia... hahaa...

ok... i'm tired liao... headache...

Ok... i'm starting work next mon (16/03)

Temp Data Entry Job @ HPB. It is at SGH there...
$8 per hr, work from Mon - Wed
Normal Working Hrs...

hehee... so i will go work liao then go tuition wo.. hahahaa.. :p

OK.. i noe the webby i previous intro de was down... hehee...

nw let me re intro a new shopping webby.. cool accessories and bags, nice tops and bottoms... and they even have men apparels (coming soon)...

it is call... theBuyology.com

juz go in and take a look ba... :)

This is Fish Leong's new song, a very meaningful song... specially for those who r mending a broken heart. and of coz, wy says this song reminded her of me,,, so this song for me too.. hehee

歌曲：别再为他流泪
歌手：梁静茹
专辑：静茹&情歌-别再为他流泪

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了
心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉
你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

AVA got opportunity! hehee... try my luck.. coz at least got 2-3 positions tt i'm interested in!! n it is a govt job... hehe

ok.. enough of my work thing le... my darlings.. if wanna discuss, we meet to discuss k?? hehee... sth cant discuss here, juz in case...

anyway, last night after my tuition, i went to meet a fren in cwp. then suddenly someone called me... n it was my bro! guess wat i saw?! there is a girl behind him, the one who went out with him on valentine's day and blah blah blah.. the mysterious girl.. finally appear!! the whole scenerio was quite funny... coz when i was facing my bro, behind him was the girl, behind me was a guy... then both of us got the 'aiyah, kana caught' de look. it was damn funny....

Anyway, we'll wait n see hw my bro n tt girl ba... hehehee