I'm back to my lazy mode... no update for quite sometime. JX say dead again.. i say his blog oso dead lah.. wahahaa...

haiz... life haven been nice recently... i dunno how to put it.. juz feeling terrible? aiyah, dunno lah... juz tired lor... mayb i shall stay at home, n not going out... heck care everyone and be alone.... dun wanna go out.. dun feel like doing anything... dun wanna entertain anyone, dun wanna tok to anyone!

I'm lousy in toking, esp will it come to bickering. rarely, i will win anyone, this is the reason... i dun feel like toking.. watever i say, i will end up losing... being shoot back and i dunno hw to fight back... home is like tt, work is like tt... frens ard me is like tt... even ofm oso like tt... sianz lor... suan liao... dun tok lor.. gd thing is ofm noe hw to pacify me after tt....

BTW, I M NOT GOING CHINA!!!!!!!! haiz.... so wat if we r close... the time the went back china, frenship is still there... but nt anything more! please give some credits on my taste of guys. OK.. i noe tt the guys i liked or used to like are not TOP quality and not wat ppl deems as Mr. NICE GUY or watsoever... but then again... i wun joke with my future. Whatever is happening now is the for the fun of it. I like being with them.... coz they treat me the way i wished ppl ard me will... (but none done tt)... yes, i behave like a kid, so what? everyone bound to have the 'kid' in ur heart, is juz tt i'm more barve to show it up front!!! nth to be ashame of lor...

haiz.. suan liao.. i dunno wat m i toking abt... so can heck care everyhting... juz remember I NOT GOING TO CHINA!!!!

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It is a day of tai tai lifestyle. It is a girls' day out with yp and wy (ly was sick today). We went AMK hub.... sometimes... it is really nice to have a girls ony outing... where we can bitch ard.. and gossips and see shuai ges.. wahaha...

well.. 1st, we had a late late lunch at New York New York... as usual.. chocolate fondue is never out of the pic. We ate and gossip and rot... then wy she wanna go O2 Skin to buy skin care pdts... so we went... and looked at the products.. of coz.. i oso bought a new nail polish color and sticker... marie.. i got butterfly for u.. but no pink de.. u come my hse see.. hehe...

then after wy spent $150+... we went shopped ard... then i suggested pedicure or ktv... yp say ktv is so common.. we everytime go.. we shall do sth different.. so pedicure... we went to the nail spa in AMK hub... it was fully booked and quite ex... so decided to forgo.. and went to shop ard amk town center.

we happened to walk past this shop, manicure and pedicure de.. newly open.. we went in.. n 2 hrs.. we were in there.. doing full pedicure service... haha.. ticklish sia.. me n yp were trying hard nt to burst out laughing...but our dear wy.. still can very relax... sit there enjoying the process.. hehe... $160 for 7 sessions.. package..


Our feet after pedicure


A closer look....

After tt, we decided to make sure it is extremely dry b4 we made our way back.. we went coffee bean, sit down and chat... then we discussed till xmas celebration.. we are planning it le!!!! hahaa...

we decided tt... we like tt come out pamper ourselves once in a blue moon is cool!!! hehehe...

Wy told me tt she is leaving to study in Aust next yr Jan... with XH in NZ, WY going to be in Aust... me leh? shld i go for further study oso?!? haiz.. even if i want oso difficult... 30k... where to get the money?!?! haiz.. when i tok to mommy abt tt.. she didnt even care... it hurt me.. i mean... i really wanna study... is juz tt i noe tt we cant afford .. so i told them is ok.. but.... suan liao lor... haiz... i shall see wat else can i do.. other than study to get my pay increase higher.... quite difficult though... SG is such a 'paper' coutry... no skill nvm.. muz got 'paper'... companies are willing to pay more to brainless idiots who got 'paper' than those who are skilled but no 'paper'.... haiz...

WHO WANNA SPONSOR ME?!??! mayb i shall get myself a rich husband... wahahaa...

My sis kept asking me... izzit true? izzit true tt she is going to attend a 'China' Wedding? Well, nw not only sh eis askng actually.... a lot of ppl are guessing rite? okok... Let me tell u.... a Wedding? is impossible... i think... as for anything other than that.. it MAY be possible... wahaha.. i say MAYBE nia...



Tt day we were toking abt leaving the company... he told me if we both leave at the same time... sure got ppl say we elope wahaha... then i told him i shall go 1st.. then when his permit expires he go off... he refused... he muz leave b4 i do... i smiled.. n tell him.. 'coz u cant live w/o me rite???' he smiled and walked away......



he asked me again if i will go send him if he really going back... i asked if i can say i dun wanna go.... he kept quiet for awhile.. then replied, 'i think it is better u dun go too.. if not...'



i immediately finished the sentence for him.....

'see me start crying le.. u dun bear to leave le, rite?'



He replied he will juz say.. 'cry ba... i go le...' :p



anyway, watever happen... it is juz for the time being... sure no future de mah.. hee... ppl can say i wasting my time... or watever... but juz...dun care.. for fun, laughter, peace n joy.. hehee

I'm crazy.. really crazy...

Love his beautiful eyes... love to see him serious at work... he is so charming at tt pt of time... love his smile... esp when tt smile is only meant for me!! and love it when he wana act cool.. yet cant help smiling.... love him when he smile, toouch my head and scold me '白痴' when i'm juz being silly... Love to see him getting jealous when i'm close with other guys... Love to see tt he try all means to protect me frm any possible harm...

tt day, i was happily toking to other ppl... n neglected him (normally he gets my 100% attention)... he walked away... n stayed in one corner... then i realised... i went up to him... n tease him of being jealous... he smiled... n pinch me on my cheeks and said... 'hw come ur skin so thick??' i juz tell him... his eyes betrayed him.. :p

i'm going hua chi again!!!! wahaha... well.... we shall create a beautiful memory... at least b4 he leave.. hee...

*serious* yp... i noe sth very impt n stressing is happening... but remember.. no matter wat.. we r always here giving u the fullest support!!! fight till the end!! anything come find me... tok to me... thrash it out to me oso can... juz dun keep everything to urself.... nt good for ur health de.... 要记得！不管怎样，我们一定会支持你！！！！！！坚持到底！！！！

Stupid lah!!! My toe pain over the weekend... then finally nt so pain le... this morning, i go kicked the toilet door... PAIN!!!!! then nvm, juz nw.. was standing in front of my colleague's table... i 4got my toe is in pain.. i go tap my foot on my shoe.. then PAIN!!!! then start bleeding again!!! *sob* *sob*... wao lao... pain!!!!!!! PAIN!!!! *WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~!!!!*

Then i used my doraemon plaster....but still pain!!!! *SOB* *SOB*!!!!

Early in the morning.... i injured myself!!!! sianz... today, alot of ppl on bus. i was up on bus, then when the bus break... my leg slide and hit the heels of the woman standing in front. n at 1st i tot normal pain lor.... then i felt sticky... i looked down... blood oozing out frm my toenail... i almost fainted on the spot!!! aloot of blood lor!!! then wanna cry liao.. but bus so many ppl.. dun dare to cry....

This is how my leg looked like.. after wiping off some blood... YUCKY!!!!!!



scary rite??? i went show off to everyone... then tt OFM.. mei niang xin... still wanna go poke it!!!! stupid man!!!! then cc n cp say hw can i be so careless.... then i go complain to cc tt ofm still wanna step on my foot.. cc say.. ofm wanna die ar.. hahaa.....

nw i feel so cold... oh no!! i shivering!!! ~~~~brrr....~~~~ jia lat!! kana infected!! oh no!!!

Your EQ is 120

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

I'm at work blogging again. Every morning, come work will slack till 10 sth 11 then start work... then on n off slacking.. haha.. i think if i change job.. i might not use to it sia.. coz no slacking... wahaha..

Anyway, met a supplier yesterday. She told me abt Mrs Ngann's FRIC (or FRCI or dunno lah... juz noe consist of these few letters). Mrs Ngann needs ppl to work there in SP, in the labs....with full facilities... this really make me excited leh.. feel like applying a job there... i was telling my supplier.. i shall get back all my grp members and work there.. hehe... then it will be like the good old days... stress... yet fun... hw i miss those days....

so YP!!! WY!!! LY!!! YH!!!! XH!!! hw hw?? wanna go back work there??? hehehe.. is also pdt development.. but more professional ba... well, at least in SP, no pdtn workers to complicate matters.. wahaha... but oh no.. got xiao di di!!!! those studyin in SP de... wait they too shuai!! OH NO!!! everywhere oso got complicated matters sia... wahahaha....


Btw, the WHOLE of my pdtn thinks that I'm with OFM!!! n the thing is that we didnt deny it... wahahaa... okok... Dun be crazy liao.... if we really together, think a whole lot of ppl will kill me for tt.... no... i think they all will heck care me.. n i'll be left friendless sia.. wahaha....

Mayb i shld really go off after i got my bouns next yr.. quite tired le... I'm more n more sure that I HATE QA stuff!! but recently, my boss kept sending me to ISO, HACCP, Risk mgmt courses leh... haiz..

Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~

不该结束
演唱∶南拳妈妈 专辑∶藏宝图

窗外的雨停了天空还是灰的
因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着在笑容里停格
画面会永远留着

给多的是付出 少给的不算输
感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部
你还是想结束
我说你永远幸福

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始 祝福的结束

快乐的开始 不该悲伤的结束
走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住你给的
全部的全部

窗外的雨停了天空还是灰的
因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着在笑容里停格
画面会永远留着

给多的是付出少给的不算输
感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部
你还是想结束 我祝你永远幸福

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始 祝福的结束

快乐的开始 不该悲伤的结束
走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住
你给的全部喔~

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始祝福的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住你给的
全部的全部

Personally, I like the lyrics. Very meaningful. For the sake of those who cannot understand Chinese (I mean too chim de), I'm going to translate DIRECTLY!!! but of coz not till like wat yp and yx and jx always do de... still got meaning de...

The lyrics is about ending a r/s ->
Giving less doesn't mean losing in a r/s
There is no win or lose in a r/s
I've given u everything, yet u still wanna end it
I'll give you all my best wishes

Started happily, dun end it sadly
Those who give more will then understand the meaning of HAPPINESS
Start with smiles end it with wishes

Started happily, dun end it sadly
We've walked till end,
what's left are well wishes,
I'll always remember everything u've given to me

Pardon me for the weak command of English. This is BO BIAN!!! coz got ppl complain i put everything in Chinese... n they either take a very long time to understand or dun understand... just too bad... ppl ard me eat potatoes.... INCLUDING my OWN sis!!!! *sianz*

Finally! It is alive once again!!! have been neglecting my blog... partly coz juz plain lazy to update.. wahaha..

Then when this JX... suddenly wanna start a blog... he tempted me to work on my bog once more.... so nw... with the new look, it is up again!!!!

Ok.. background song is 南拳妈妈 new song: 不该结束, very nice and has very meaningful lyrics. Enjoy!!

It is 2 am nw... n I've got work later... so it is better for me to shut up nw.... and sleep....
wahahaa!!!!

under re-constructions

How can i 4get tt there is this place for me to vent all my fustrations?!?!?!?! DAMN FED UP TODAY!!!!! kaoz..

my bosses going overseas for 2 weeks next week... this week they wanna settle everything... ok, fine.. i can understand, but then when supplier cant produce wat they want, they come scold me!?! as if i nt as fustrated!!! supplier cant give them wat they want, my fault. supplier cant make it in time, my fault!!! kaoz.. then i lazy to fight back.. juz stand there and let them shout...

sianz lor.. juz coz i dun normally show my temper... doesnt mean i dun have temper de lor.. once nt happy... then blame me.. scold me, shouted at me!!! wao lao... my bosses are good n nice.. juz tt when come to times like this... i'm a chu qi tong!!! and i really buay tahan lor....

Then somemore tml on course... going with tt person who i dun like!!!! and 2 days!!!! 2 days of suffering!!! omg!! i rather go alone lor... haiz... sianz sianz sianz....

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

It is a long time since my last post. Too bz.. or shld i juz say i'm juz pure lazy to post it. Now i'm in office, refusing to start work. It is raining heavily outside, so i cant go out to my 2nd floor pdtn... n i've sore throat and coughing badly. Feel so weak....

Anyway, life have been exciting i guess. every weekend is filled with programmes. Juz came back from chalet last week with YP and Co. plus my 2 boys, WK and JX, my poly boys and LY frens. Well, it wasnt that bad. But frankly speaking, if not for tt 2 boys, i guess that whole night muz be quite tense? wierd? but anyway, with JX and WK ard.. never a dull moment. Unless JX is his attitude mode or sleepy mode and WK in his sleepy mode.

before the chalet, went to watch 2 movies. Harry Potter and Secrets.
Harry Potter - YP, WY and TYL
Secret - Jimmy, YT and YL.

Harry Potter, as usual is a very exciting show yet sad... i cant wait for the next to come out. this is the only fantasy show i'm addicted. wahaha...
Secret is a very nice show. Very romantic... the twist is so unexpected. YX told me it is quite absurd, coz she cant see the beauty in it. Jay is sooo talented!!

Let me intro the new guy in my life.. wahahaa... Jimmy - a salesperson from Lion City. A guy who is 9 yrs older than me.. n he is a person who everyday will come suan me, then we will argue everyday. Argue till like tt lor.. i now label him as DA HUAI DAN!!! so he always bully ppl. Well, dun read too much into it... coz he is NOT interested in me, and NEITHER am i. He is interested in somebody else (though i still have doubts and i dun really trust salesman.. haha)...

Well.. boss is here.. time to go back work liao.. SIANZ!!!!

It is quite some time since i last update. Well, very fast, my bdae is over. my company family is over.. FUN, FUN and FUN have stop for the mth. Time to get down to serious work.

my bdae celebration stretched for the whole week starting from 07/07/07 to 14/07/07. Well, a big thank you to everyone who remembers my bdae. Be it a sms or a celebration.... i'm very happy le.

07/07/07 - Jason finally can book out, so we meet up and have dinner at Fish & Co, The Glass House. The whole grp of us - JX, Harris, WK, YX, YT, YL, Jason.

10/07/07 - JX, Harris, WK, Cheryl and YX planned a surprise bdae for me at home. and my 3 boys (JX, Harris and WK) each gave me a cute doraemon. SO CUTE!!!! Please go to my mulitply page and see... i lazy to upload it here. wahaha.. I heard tt this bdae party is planned by my darling YT de, but she got dance tt day... cant make it. still muz thank her.. *big hugz* and i noe JX planned till very pek chek oso... but he still got tt heart to plan... oso * big hugz* hehe...

11/07/07 - recieved a lot of sms, the one tt surprise me the most is from JM. His bdae wish came from far far away Russia. I MISS JM!!!! and if jm is in front of me, i will give him a big big hug.. wahaha.. then in the evening met Cheryl, YT and xian for dinner at The Hot Pot in Suntec. It is a steamboat buffet dinner, though is not cheap, the food there is not bad.

12/07/07 - Dinner @ Heeren Sakae Sushi with 5G1U. A long time since the whole grp had met up. That day, the whole grp is present. and i realised tt, with tt grp, i'm the ONLY ONE who is till SINGLE and very much AVAILABLE!!!!! WAH!!!! shld i be stress?? wahaha.. suan liao... i too lazy le.. hehe...

14/07/07 - Dinner @ IMM AjiTei with my china clique. I forced them to eat Jap and enjoy the green tea ice cream with me!!! hehehe.. and OFM say he owe me a bdae present, but he dunno wat to buy for me, so he decided to treat me to eat my fav - sakae sushi (he dun like sushi, so it is a big sacrifice... wahahaa.... )

The only clique i didnt meet this time is YP, LY, WY& XH... and my guys... with XH in NZ... the rest of us r bz (r we? or is it me only??) still... YP! WY! LY!!!! APPEAR!!!!

then from 20 - 22/07/07 is Gold Kili Family Day 2007 @ NSRCC. Had lotsa fun!!! 1st realised tt my salesman can sing REAL well.. really enjoy singing with them!!! Then spent the night with OFM, CP and CC... wahaha.. drink a lot (as usual.. drinking is a tradition in this company.. haha) dun worry, i was not drunk tt night.. so nth happen... hehe...

Anyway, would like to intro SHE new song. It is the last song in their latest 'PLAY' album. Lyrics and music is written by SHE themselves. Lyrics by Selina, Music by Ella. It is not the zhu da, and it is not tt attract attention type of song. but when i heard this song, i feel tt it is sooo close to my heart. It is a song abt frenship between girls... being so close tt dunno wat can we label each other as... reminds me of TYL and WYT.. yes, we have our difference, we have our disagreement, yet we laugh together, cry together.. ( n yes we really CRY!!! though at the end of the day, we wonder wat we r crying for)... wahaha... we care for each other... n giving each other support whenever we need (though i think she is the one who is giving me the support, coz i too dependent?) juz to tell yt.. THANK YOU for being there for me for 10 yrs!!! you r more than juz fren nia... u r my LAO PO!!! wahaha.. btw, the title of the song is LAO PO!!! hee...

作词:任家萱(selina) 作曲:陈嘉桦(ella)

从昨天到今天 还有明天
感谢老天 让你们陪在我身边

爱的心痛的心 等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱
我很放心

当初见面的不安 彼此的探索
也许有些茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲 扶持与包容

老婆 老婆 我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

STUPID!! WAT THE HELL!!!! KAOZ!!!! wao lao!!!!!!! i dunno wat to say liao... i'm fustrated!!!! stupid idiot!!!

1st ppl keep spreading rumors tt fm got himself a new gf... then though he didnt admit.. he oso didnt deny.. but woman instinct tell me... he got one... well.. fine.. i didnt expect much frm him either...

then come back... ALONE at home.. still ok... nvm... tot online got ppl tok... CJX dunno wat happen.. refuse to tok... one of his moods again... then still nvm.... was discussing to go out for dinner on wed.... MY BDAE!!!! i happily ask LCM to join!! i mean... my bdae is impt to me.. n i wanna those frens who r impt to me to celebrate with me... ivan they all longed booked me le... then yt oso.. then cheryl...i juz wanna him to join!!! it is a long time since we go out have dinner together le... y cant he juz see the pt?! going out for a meal issit so difficult!?

STUPID!!!!!!!! STUPID!!! STUPID!!!!! grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!

haiz... recently was pissed off by guys lor... really dunno wat they thinking sia!!! tmd.... sianz lor.... suan liao... 4get abt the unhappy stuff... no use...

It is THE time of the year!!! wahaha.. one whole week of celebration starting from today. heehee....

070707 is a special day.. isnt it??? once in a hundred yrs lor... special...

anyway, morning slept till 12 when i was woken up by our mr ou!!! he called and asked if i still wanna go sing song anot.. how come i still sleeping?!.. damn lor.. he was the one saying he cant cfm mah.. so i of coz sleep de lor... we went singing with him, chen ping and yt and yx lor.. wierd combi... but.. still funny.. wahaha... yx lah.. as usual... yx n yt say Mr Ou very short and very small built.. so nt suitable for me.. i say lah.. i looking for guys above 175 de lor.. wahaha.. i didnt say Mr Ou lor... wahaha... well... but i decided to buy a tortoise n name it after him... wahaha... n he agree wo.. wierd man lor...

Then after tt went meet jx, wk, jason, harris in town with yt and yx... went fish n co, the glass house eat. then... our frens here very good lor.. go tell them my bdae.. then make me stand on chair holding sparkles... then sing song... well... ok lah... at least they remember n celebrate with me.. wahaha... tt's y i love my darlings soooo much.. THANK YOU DARLINGS!!!!

wk going into army soon le... cant imagine how he looks like lor... without hair.. he love his hair so much... jason juz booked out... he become tanner.. and muscular... which is good leh.. wahaha... next shall see my shuai shuai wk... will become more shuai mah..... hehee... anyway, oso lookin forward to JX's turn lor... coz he oso love his hair alot de lor... wahaha... *evil*...

Nw TYL is in office... bored so blog... wahaha... Change comp le, so msn new de, then my comp can listen to song.. wahaha.. nw d/l songs into my comp. i think i siao liao.. if let boss see.. sure die.. wahaha..

Things r quite ok nw... OK only... wahaha.. need to adapt to a few changes..

At work here... Bosses nt in... as wat everyone tell me.. no govt.. wahaha... tt's y i so free to blog here... actually is nt free de lah.. is juz tt... abit sian lor...

juz nw was at pdtn... toking to FM... he said mayb he will go in Feb or May next yr. He asked me if i going. Actually, i told him if they did not increase my pay this time round, i may go lor.. but then again... nw i cant afford to be jobless lor... oso..here.. the bosses or shld i say Asmine is understanding... she give me a lot of freedom be it timing or movement as long as i finish my work... which is.. i think i may nt have in other companies lor... but we really have to aim higher lor... see how ba... muz see if i lucky enough to find a higher pay job.. hee

FM told me... i muz not go b4 he go... meaning tt he has to quit 1st b4 i quit... i asked him to go n die.. wahaha.. coz he say i spoilt him le... he already dunno how to live if i'm nt here with him. (kua zhang rite)... i say he ar.. always abuse me lor... still say need me... F.O.S!! He say he treat me so well.. still say abuse... he hurt ar... wahaha... CRAP!! well.. though is crap.. still shuang.. wahahaa.. ok ok.. i noe i siao liao... dun worry lah.. i wun get myself into deep shit de.. hee.. :p

It's once again a long time since i last updated... a lot of things happened recently.. too much till i really cant breathe... I wanna break down soon....

1st.. expo was tiring... then immediately after tt was my audit.. tt week... i muz say.. so stress so tiring... then audit tt day... i nearly lose my temper... and actually quarrelled with FM... though we made up later.. still i felt bad.. coz i shouted at him...

after audit... tot i was really looking forward for my break to BKK.. but then.. things are normally wat we tot... sth big happened.. made me have to cancel my trip... cancel my leave.. i dun blame anyone.. coz nobody wanna it to happen.. the weekend.. was the longest weekend i ever had... i was feeling so terrible... started crying the moment somebody started to tok abt it... i dun mean to make ppl worry.. but i juz cant control my tears...

some may think i'm juz being too over reacting... well.. i'm like tt... i cry when i feel like it... those who noe me for a few mths only already noe tt i'm like tt.. so i dun see y ppl who noe me 10-20 over yrs dunno... of coz... crying cant solve anything... but it's a way for me to vent my fustrations, to let out my emotions... cant possibly tell me to put everything at heart.. i cant de lor...

i wanna thank everyone who gave me the support thru out the whole thing... my darling yt... there for me... as usual... and acc me cry... n listen to me... yh n cm... 4eva there for me.. as a support... i noe i can lean on... yp and co... i noe u all worry abt me.. n yet i didnt tell u all anything.. well... nw i really feeling better le... sorry to make u all worry... and of coz.. one most impt person... tt is xian... she is there for me... juz like last time... n this is the time when i need her support... i noe she has her own prob... she herself also need support... still.. she is brave to stand up.. n lend me all her support... really thanks dear... and of coz... all my relatives n frens who gave me n my family the support thru out the whole thing.. n thank u for believing us... and nt those stupid reports...

frm the incident.. my bro say we muz learn sth... him - think b4 act... me - to be independent and strong... i'm still learning...

The 3rd day of expo had ended finally!!! so tiring, legs aching.. throat drying... dunno how long then i can start singing again.. omg!!!

food expo.. so many ppl are there... and guess wat... tons of aunties and uncles are there trying to get some cheap stuff... i admit.. we ourselves are oso looking for cheap stuff in fair... BUT!!! never noe ppl can be soooooo irritating!!!!!! they love the pepsi slogan soooooo much... 'ASK FOR MORE'... omg...

The whole place is in a mess... ppl anyhow throw litter... then keep squeezing and hogging onto sampling side... no sampling... no ppl... better still... we are letting ppl try our new pdts... chocolate latte and osmanthus green tea.. both are cold and nice and refreshing... and guess wat... everyone standing down there... drinking... nt tt we mind.. i mean.. letting ppl try so tt they noe the taste the can buy de mah... but NO!!! they are there eating their fish cake or whatever... then drink the tea.. finish one small cup.. get another cup.. and continue enjoying watever food in their hand and drink... then goes on... hogging the place... then the ppl who really juz wanna taste the drink has no chance to drink....

better still... we refuse to give them extra enviromental friendly carrier bag.. they will start drinking the samples... juz to 'earn' back... wao lao...

This is wat our promo are... for every purchase of $5 and above will entitle an enviromental friendly carrier bag. So from here.. it is understood tt $5 one bag, $10 2 bags and so on... will... dunno if aunties fail their maths or wat... $4.50 will request for the bag... n if we refuse... then the threaten nt to buy... well.. threaten us.. never die b4 sia.. we juz say.. ok nvm... wahaha...

then when we tried to be nice... like $4.50 we close one eye give them the bag.. they love pepsi soooo much once again... coz 'ASK FOR MORE' again!!! tt's y we became strict with the bags... then we sometimes are scolded being stingy... but sorry lor... using the hard way will never the mtd to handle us de lor... wahaha....

Then we conclude tt Aunties are mad, irritating, scary... aiyo... and alicia told me.. after the 5 days of work... she can come up with a list of the dummies guide to flirting with aunties...
she had the 1st 3 guide out....
1. give them spastic smiles then they will think u are very cute then buy thing from u
2. never ever tell them tt they are old and auntie.
3. even if u give them some pathetic freebie, must act like its worth a lot until like its very worth it tt u give them tt pathetic amt already.

cool rite? think tyx shld have more to add in... we shall compile a whole list!!!!

and i think here are some of mine...
4. act ke lian.. as if they ask for more... i gonna lose my job and my family cant survive
5. chat with them like u are juz one of them... (acting san ba!!!)
6. tok to them using flowery words and expression.. make them feel tt they are sooo wonderful...

well.. it is late le... time to sleep.. later still need to go office, then back to tt war zone!!! BATTLE WITH THE AUNTIES!!! 2 more days!!!! more update on aunties sooon!!!!

It is a long time since i last update.. have been damn bz... coz audit coming... sianz... then food expo coming up.. btw Food Expo 2007 is starting on 25th May - 29th May.

Later gonna attend tyx's grad... tt's y so late still haven sleep.. coz of her... i took leave lor... funny thing is tt... OFM oso took leave today.. n we both dunno till mon morning... when he told me he gonna be on leave... n we were excited.. coz both of us can take leave on the same day.. but at the same time.. we shouted jia lat... y?? coz wed there sure be gossip!!! TYL and OFM on leave the same day... aiyo... tai qiao le....

Changed my blog song.. to Fei Lun Hai - Xia Xue - Summer snow.... nice nice... wanna change layout... but cant a nice one... so might as well remain lor...

anyway, juz to inform ppl... a very gd fren of mine had an online shop call littleDREAM... inside got a lot of clothes frm HK... go in n see see.. who noes u might juz fall in love with one... please support support...:p

wah... amazing... 2 entry for the mth of April... too lazy to type... and oso too bz... i mean wokr till so sian liao... so to type an entry... quite tiring.. hahaa...

today.. i mean yesterday (28th April 2007) attended RSS 20th Anniversary... time flies... to think tt 10 yrs ago.. when i was in Sec1.. i attended the 10th Anniversary... Saw a few teachers... Ms Tan (Physics teacher) still rememeber me!!! omg!!! she say... Yanling... i of coz still remember u... i stunned... then Mrs Liau... and Ms Elaine Tan... all remember me.. coz i have been appearing in RSS mah.. but surprisingly.. they all remembered LCM!!!! and Mrs Liau even ask me to tell LCM to appear lah.. wahaha... think mayb shld invite her to one of our annual gatherings... wahaha... let her see her LCM.. haha.. she is nw the VP of West Spring...

After tt, we went to Eski Bar... with ben, marie, tyx, tyl, jx, jason, yt, wk n gf, harris... it is a cold cold place... haha.. but the drink wise.. nt very fantastic...like the icy cold room though... but still prefer Mt Faber the Jewel box to chill out.. hehe... Here r some of the photos we took..


Cute little TYX.. hate to admit it.. but she is cute n pretty... PROUD OF HER!


Some of the stuff we ordered...


They say they are cold....believe?


Juz me n my sis during sane n normal times...


Longg time since we had such a loving pose. wahaha....


Personally, i really like this... so natural... so sweet.. so... dunno... wahaha.. juz like it... juz tt the lighting wasnt very good..

1st post in April... Time really flies leh.. in company for one yr plus le... Knowing my china guys... also one yr le.. tt day was still discussing with FM... he was amazed tt we had known each other for a yr plus le... soo fast....

tt day (7/4) went KTV with my china guys... coz CC bdae... enjoyed most of it.. small hiccups happened... which made me, CC, FM and CP quite 尴尬. FM n CC were drunk... though CC say he wasnt drunk...

We actually went shopping 1st... FM was asking me y i didnt bring another girl along... to acc CC.. coz he's bdae boy... he said 'get a girl for CC lah... i dun want... whole night i'll be urs..' i stunned... but well... things didnt turn out as wat he said....

We sang and went crazy in the room... Shen Tong crazy... sing a lot of songs.. say dedicate to my sis de... we all heck him... he is crazy over my sis lor... omg!!! but i nt tt stupid let him get near my sis lor... my sis will not be interested anyway... juz let him be crazy lor... wahaha....

then we were singing Jolin and David de Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo.. i oso dunno and 4got i sang with who at 1st.. i only remembered final part is me n FM sing... wahaha... it was soooooooooo sweet... okok... i noe i'm crazy... but then when we sang together.. we truly enjoy ourselves.... everyone were looking at us... saying we r soooo xing fu... wahaha... (i dun even noe at tt pt of time was he drunk anot)...

after tt.. things started to went out of hand.. coz there was a girl... CP's niece... very close to FM.. they started playing and went crazy.. flirting... which i admit i was not comfortable... but still heck... i noe tt at one pt.. CP went to tell CC tt i dun seems to be happy... tell CC to go ask FM to tried to be discrete... well... FM was too drunk le lah... then when i wanna go off... CC got angry.... he say he noe wat i was thinking the whole night (he tot tt i was nt happy coz FM and tt girl was flirting and he negelcted me)... well... i tried to tell him i wanna go off was not an excuse.. but nth seems to go into him... still i went off... with CC feeling angry.. FM still drunk and enjoying himself... n CP seems to be in a difficult position... still.. i went off...

I went to meet daddy they all.. go geylang makan... wahaha..

well... after the whole thing.. i guess we tried nt to tok abt it.. esp FM n the girl... coz FM didnt bring up.. nor CC... we r juz like normal again... with tons of secrets... hopefully things will clear up soon ba...

TMD!!! I WAS TYPING FOR ALMOST MORE THAN HALF A PAGE!!!!! n i dunno wat i pressed... n the whole thing was gone!!!!!!!!!! kaoz...

haiz... as i say.. bad things come in bulk... this weekend was a damn damn pissed, warm n dunno wat heck day....

On Sat (24/3), i have to go back to work... which i dun mind... but i was in charge of mentoring session on tt day!!! n dun wanna disappoint the students... i tot can ask tyx to help me take over.. she agreed... but guess wat.. she overslept and didnt turn up!!! (1st aeroplane take off!)... lucky mentoring not only her sia... i was damn pissed le.. plus the weather... damn hot.. make me double pissed!!!

when i reached office... surprise tt ah seng was there oso.. then went ard surprising ppl tt i was in factory... then went tok cock with cc and cp... then went up disturb fm and st... Asmine bought me bfast.. then whole day i was running up and down lor... playing mostly.. wahaha..

then me n cc n cp actually agreed to meet after work to go orchard de.. so i went up ask fm wanna go mah.. he say he going to help st move hse so cannot... i keep nagging st dun move hse tt night... juz to go orchard..

anyway, i was too tired.. so went home early... to sleep and ask cc n cp to sms when work finish.. who noes... at 630 both of them sms me... tell me tt cp got sth on and cc wanna acc him go,.. n cant acc me go orchard.. (2nd aeroplane take off!!)... i was so angry... i refused to reply their sms.. TYL can tolerate everything... but dun evert try to put aeroplane lor... CP called and apologised.. i heck care him... then i sms fm tell him everything... he still can say he support me... muz be angry with them.. he really tiao bo li jian lor... but hor... Intentionally or not... tt day fm replied me in a way tt kept making me burst into laughter..reminds me of HIM.. HE always noe how to make me laugh when i was not happy...
anyway, i realised that except for CC, the other 2 are experts in coaxing girls lor... wahaha...

anyway, the heat was unbearable.. i went to lib.. and drag jx there oso.... after tt on my way home, i sms jm to tell him wat time to meet the next day (sun)... who noes he say he was abt to sms me and tell me tt he cant make it tml as it was his dad bdae... i stunned!!! (3rd aeroplane!!!!).... i was sooo soo..angry till i went to make konneyaku and agar agar... my mommy damn cute lor.. she go tell tyx to make me angry frequently so she everyday got agar agar eat... (-__-!!!)

On sun, i wasnt in one of my best moods... then again.. the weather was sooo hot... i went out to meet qq and ph.. coz qq say wanna treat us dinner.. then on my way out... HE called!! he called to ask if i free for movie.. well i didnt.. i nt free mah.. too bad sia.. noe it is juz mere coincidence... but he really made my day le lor... juz like last time... HE appears when i needed someone.... LAST TIME... memories..

Things have been so havco recently... so many shipments.. then the shipping person resigned.. a new girl took over.. n i need to help her.. coz she nt familar with the products... and oso cant speak chinese meaning tt i need to help her communicate with the production... so end up.. i`m involve with shipping oso...
then nw purchasing oso leaving.. n it`s me again to help (if there is a new person, if nt.. i really die!!!)... haiz... very stress lor... different countries with different reqiurements.. one wrong move.. whole container will be back to ur side with u bearing all costs.. then boss will start blaming everyone..

then audit coming.. next, they chasing me with the new pdt.. and and.. wat else?? haiz... seems like i involve in everything except the accounts part sia... sometimes i wonder... wat exactly is my post sia.. i enjoy working here... love the ppl... so is still ok... but sometime juz nt very balance lor.. y everything muz be tyl? very stress de.. esp when u having a big responsibility... when everyone tot u can do it de.. a slight mistake oso cannot be tolerated de lor... n sometime really emotionally drained till i dun feel like doing anything during weekends... but i still got mentoring to worry abt...

i wanna slowly let go of mentoring.. but then again... i cant... coz it seems like nobody helping out... n i really bu fang xin sia.. but.. if i everything wanna worry hor.. i sure die at young age sia... wahaha.. sianz...

Today is the day!!! The day when truth come to light... wahaha.. What happen??? Well let's start frm a week ago.... no... shld be a mth ago.... Yp approached me.. asking me how shld we celebrate the bdaes... 21st birthday of our 2 dearest frens... Liyun and Wenying... We cracked our brains... think of a special and unforgettable bdae for them... and... after much discussion and we decided on a bdae 'surprise' for them... i mean a 骗局

Date: a week ago... coz in order to make the whole thing look very real... we already start to sow seeds a week b4 the actual day (today 11th March 2007)...

i met wy... and chat with her.. telling her the recent gossips and my life... n of coz purposely say something very very ji bao... such as... i got a bf le... n he is no other than Fei min... and we are in an underground relationship... and of coz much more...

and as expected she go tell yp (who already noe the whole ting le)... Yp very very pei he... say tyl this time jia lat le.... wan guo huo le... then for the whole week.. my so call relationship was in the chat topic on n off....

Fast fwd to today (11/03/07)... i sms yp last min.. tell her i nt joining them le.. coz i going out with FM... expected wy n ly to be angry.. coz we already set today aside for them le.. how can got bf then fly them kite... wy didnt believe it.. coz she say i will nt like tt fly them kite de... but ly believed.. coz she already stunned how come i suddenly got a bf... then i added in by saying bf angry... so have to acc him... wahaha...

then while eating... they kept bombarding me with qns (mostly ly... coz she didnt noe the whole thing).... at this pt of time.. muz say Pai sei ar... xiao hua n daniel.. no time to explain to u all.. so u all oso kana pian... wahaha... anyway, the story... (50% turth)was amazing real lor... (i really proud of myself.. shld go n be script writer sia.. wahaa)... coz all taken in... YP gave them the present... each got 2 pcs of underwear... wahaha... can u image.. 8 ppl sharing tt 2 panties... wahaha... n they believe tt we only give them tt.. wahaha....

then while we eating ice cream... i suddenly become very quiet... tt's juz to pei yang qing xu for the show later on... wahahaa... btw my cute yp.. wanted to sms me.. end up sms ly.. scare us big time sia... wahaha..

anyway, while we were shopping around.. i came up with an excuse of need to meet FM.. seems like sth no good is happening.... coz he insisted tt i go meet him... so... i went off... in actual fact... i went to buy cake and go find a place to wait for them... then.. when all is done.. i call yp... here.. i muz say it a pity tt mediacorp didnt get us as actress sia... wahaha.. daniel say i'm best actress and yp is the best supporting actress.. wahaha.. wat do we do?? nth... juz a simple tele conversation...

TYL call YP
TYL: i'm done le.. walk to somewhere near them.. make sure they can hear ur conversation..
(YP walked towards wy...)
YP: you sonuded weird.. you ok?? i tot u suppose to be in orchard meeting Fm?
(TYL at this pt of time is laughing like mad... still give instruction to yp..)
TYL: i still in marina... he came and find me... and he told me CC....
YP: YL, dun cry.. wat happen? tell me wat happen... slowly...
(WY walked towards Ly and tell her wat happen.. all crowd ard to hear wat happen)
YP: Dun cry, wat did he say? wat did CC do?
TYL: Say tt CC created more trouble... making FM really feels bad... (Really dramatic sia)
YP: FM wanna a break up?? YL, u dun cry... where r u? i come find u...

all of them come out n find me... on the way ly still worry later wat shld she say.. coz i crying till like tt,, (sorry lah ly... make u worry for nth.. hee... ).... then when they see me smiling with a cake there.. they stunned... and of coz... shouted pian ju!! then i smile... and tell them there is more to come... wahaha.. then i took out the REAL present for them.. - Chomel choker, earrings and hairpin set for Ly and Sovil Titus watch for Wy... they were surprise...

Then we tell them all abt the whole thing was juz to pian they all... their expressions was.... PRICELESS sia... wahaha... and poor wy... kana pian for more than a week.. wahaha... and she say we bully her.. dunno is my story so real and acting skills superb... or she is juz toooo... erm... innocent? wahaha...

LY and WY, pei sei lah... but really hope this is an unforgettable bdae for u all.. hee... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!

Btw.. during Jul... i'll be going India or Russia to find JM lor... depending on where he go... Coz b4 i went home juz now.. wy and ly say tt they will be back for revenge.. so.... for my safety i better disappear 1st... JM, july i go find u!!!!! wahahaa... :p

Recently, have not been posting.. y?? too bz lor.. bz with wat... watching show lor.... wahaha.. LATEST SHOW: 花样少男少女 by Ella (SHE) and Wu Zun and Jiro (Fahrenheit)... cool show.. NICE!!!

Fri night watch till Sat morning 6am.. then Sat night watch till Sun morning 3am... coz is soooooo cool and shuai and sweet and... anyway, ok.. i noe i'm crazy.. coz now i'm back to panda again lor... but WORTH IT!!! tml shall be the day.. coz i think last episode.... I even change my blog song to the ending song of tt show.. is by Tank - 专属天使 a nice nice song lor...

ok.. so wat i did in the day.. i didnt sleep lor... On Sat, i went NTU with xiaoling, yt to support JM!! His retirement match... actually... really pai sei to say tt.. noe him for soooo long... never see him 'fight' b4 lor... noe tt he is in TKD for a looong loong time... but never see him in action b4.... sso his retirement match.. how can i not be there?? if i nt there... i think i'll have regrets sia..

Anyway, didnt noe tt he can be sooooo shuai!!!! he is in my shuai ge list le... when he is in action.. omg.... damn mi ren lah... n i tell u.. his popularity is not anyhow say de lor... so many supporters... haiz.. i not his only fan club liao.. sadz... but then again.. i'm his special fan club!!! (i say de... my mommy gonna say i thick skin again.. wahaha)
He was soooo cool lah... thrash ppl... 7 nil in semi and finals... 7 is the game pt... he reached 7pts b4 time out... yx say he shi lian ar... so fierce... wahaha... and of coz... in the end he is champ!wahaha... as i say.. he is always my champ!!!!! hee.. anyway, coz yt wanna go off... n i feel weird if i stayed in NTU alone.. so went JP rot with WY... and shun bian wait for him to finish his match... so.. actually.. i missed his finals... jm asked me how come i didnt stay to watch till finals... well.. i told him my tortoise got watch can le... (send him my tortoise pic to support him juz b4 his finals.. haha) :p...

long time no meet wy le lor... so rot.. then chat lor... tok cock.. gossip... wahaha.. i think we r really san ba sia... hee...

today, went to jason hse... gamble whole day.. at 1st lose till very jia lat.... but slowly... keep winning.. but overall still lost... very funny de lor... jason bro.. whole day gamble with us... then alot of action and pattern, reminds me of Jin Xiu Yi in the show... n guess wat... he tot i'm 18/19.... till jason told him tt he muz call me jie jie... shld look at his stunned expression!!! Jing dian sia... wahaha.. really lor... i'm actually 3 yrs older than him... wahaha... coool lor.. stun ppl like tt... heee....

today i shall sleep early... tml work le.. (sianz).... below is the lyrics of the song 专属天使... meaningful n nice wo...

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间 是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽 而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
你总能平复 我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
我才看见 它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会 像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现 我一定还在沉睡
oh..绝望的以为 生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! soooo fast.. a yr passed... was so bz, ever since a week b4 new year.. coz all working.. then come home do this do that... wah... n coz too little sleep... i fall sick juz b4 eve!!! i was having fever lor... kaoz...

Anyway, last day at work was fun... coz all washing up.. so i mostly go ard playing lah... hee... help them wash pdtn... here and there... and that CC.. say i yue bang yue mang.. n refuse to let me help him!!!! see lah.. hao xin mei hao bao... humph... anyway, after the washing, we got lucky draw. actually i wanted the vacuum cleaner de.. mommy needs one lor.. or the steamboat oso good.. coz ours very old le... but then all i didnt get... instead i got $100 robinsons voucher... well, good oso lor.. wahaha...

1st day of new yr... as usual... went ah ma hse... then like market like tt liao lor.. sometime i'm really amaze... coz we actually dun have a lot of ppl.. yet we can make noise tt is higher than any of the markets sia... this is a speciality of my family...

after that went to ah pei hse.. there i really dun feel at home lor.. though his family is consider our close de.. coz dad's bro mah.. but... i rather stay at my mom's side de relatives lor... ah pei there.. so... dunno lah.. juz feel tt all so fake.. dun like...
and hate it when they give me a feeling tt they look down on us... yes... we are def nt well to do.. so what!? we dun do anything illegal and anything tt harm ppl de lor... not like some ppl... in front of ppl act saint.. then behind stab ppl... my aim now is to earn enough money... then open a shop let my parents look after the shop!!! and get out of there fast!! so ppl wun think we r eyeing for tt stall!!! it is losing money anyway... wat so great?!

Anyway, there we stay awhile then go off le... n good lor.. there got a man... he gave my bro n sis angbao.. n HE DIDNT GIVE ME!!! i dun care he give how much or wat... it's not the money problem.. but is my mian zi lor.. kaoz... i looked married mah?! KAOZ!!

Change the blog song to Cao Ge's new song... in his Superman's Album --> Ni Shi Wo de Bao Bei (你是我的宝贝)
it is a song he wrote for a girl.. when he call this girl and tell her abt this... n even sing for her.. end up.... still kana rej lor.. sad lor... if he sing for me... i of coz say yes de... coz he wrote personally de lor.. how many guys will be so talented?! hee

Ok.. enjoy the song.. it is nice...

Very fast.. we are into the 2nd mth of 2007. Time really flies... I'm also gonna work for a yr liao... Amazing..

Ever since the start of 2007, every weekend, there bound to be sth on... mommy say i very bz... wahaha.. okok.. this week.. sat.. went for Mentoring's Meet the parents sessions... didnt really get much sleep actually.. coz was making the movie till 5am, woke up at 8am... well.. the movie turn out to be well recieved (i hoped)... then not enough sleep oso worth it de..

After tt went town shopping with Jx and Jason... JX wanna shop for his clothes mah.. guys!! buy things hor.. really fast de lor... aiyo... went to shop ard to see if i can get any nice shoes... but was either too ex or nt nice.. haiz... sianz..

anyway, after tt we went to meet yt and jul... went TCC (again)... for coffee.... then they all wanna choose the sofa seat.. who nOes.. the sofa seat damn cold lor.. freezing sia.. so nt very comfortable oso lah.. wahhaa...

In the evening went to Ponggol there to meet Xh and went attend KL's Bdae celebration. He ar.. as usual... having a big red nose... which is y we include a box of Lemsip for him in his present... wahaha...

This yr... ALL my poly kakis all 21st bdae lor... every week seems like got a celebration.. omg... broke liao lor... haha...

Toking abt bdaes... come to think of it.. every yr i'll definitely got a bdae celebration or surprise, be it big or small... coz i got a bunch of wonderful frens.. who noes tt i really 重视 bdaes... n no matter how bz they are or wat.. they will definitely squeeze some time out.. sooo... I M SOOOO XING FU!!!! wahaha... i love all my frens sia... muackz... hee.. be it u frm sec sch, jc or poly.. ahaha... or even mentoring... wahaha..

Oh ya.. btw, cheryl, if u r reading this.. HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!! :p

A lot of things happen... till i really dunno how i shld react... i'm tired... i wanna heck care everything... but i noe i cant... i see her... my heart aches... but at one pt.. i'm very angry with her... angry y she dun wanna help herself... y cant she juz walk out of her own.. y she wanna make everyone ard her to be sad, worry, and tired???

mommy told me semms like i'm very impt to her.. n my presence make a great deal of difference... but i noe i muz be strong in front of her... but the moment i heard her voice... i already wanna break down le... so it will be worse when i see her.. i need to be strong 1st... haiz...

she told mommy that i was very fierce when i tok to her.. but did i?? ok.. i sounded firm.. coz i wanted her to get herself out of tt shit... mommy say i shld occassionally tok to her...

nw i decided to 4get everything.. my main aim and objective is to help her.. to get her out..

Lazy to work... went read other ppl blog... then come across the quiz in marie's blog... decided to do it.. wahaha..

You've Changed 68% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal.In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

You Are 32% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head. You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

Wah.. 2 weeks.. into 2007.... these 2 weeks.. bz bz bz... coz work... then play.. then work... wah... then hor end up nt enough sleep... so body very heaty.... nw abit sore throat liao lor... my boss tell me to go drink chrysanthemum... he is so proud of his chrysanthemum... wahaha... so wat happen these 2 weeks??????

6th Jan (Sat) - SPinnovex
Went SP with JX to see yx's proj... tt chair tt cause tons and tons of problems and complains to Dream Home.. wahaha... tt YX hyperactive de lor... say she wanna keep low profile.. this type of pattern.. how sia?? next life lah... kaoz....

Then JX and I went to meet YT, Cheryl and Jul for dinner... Korean food.. all spicy... n conclusion... i'm not suitable for korean food... wahaha... yt ordered Korean Beer try... nt tt bad... then tt JX.. dunno how to drink de oso drink... end up...

does he look drunk????

After tt we wanted to go St James Power Station.. but min age is 21.. n our cute JX is only 17+!!!! haha... so cant lor.. (i dun understand wat we doing with this 6 yrs younger de little boy.. wahaha)... we finally decided to go Mt Faber - The Jewel Box for a drink. Knowing tt JX cant drink...i ordered a mocktail for him (see where to find so gd de ppl??? aiyo...).. but he still drunk anyway, coz he tried all our drinks.. which all have alcohol content... and he lost in game... wahaha..
The 3 women....

9th Jan (Tue) - Cheryl flew off to HK
Took leave... then woke up early in the morning juz to go airport send cheryl off... quite amaze tt i could wake up... wahaha... Yong hui, LCM, Yt and me... send cheryl off.. then LCM and yh went ot sch... me and yt went to town... cute yt... were so tired tt.. when we were having bfast at taka delifrance... she slept... then when shops opened le.. she like one dragon like tt.... amazing... how the opening of shutters can make wonders.... Raining heavily...

after tt i went JB with my parents juz to eat... then sleep all the way... wahaha... till time for dinner...

13th Jan (Sat) - Steamboat dinner @ TYL hse
Had mentoring meeting in the morning... then quite fed up with someone... but well... suan liao le... after tt me, jason, jx and yt went buy stuff for dinner... then go my hse rot... had dinner... then gave jason a surprise bdae celebration... hope tt he feels happy abt it.. wahaha...

Me and my 3 boys....


R they gays???

Life's back to normal.... holiday is over.. back to work again.. today boss happily gimme a few proj again lor.. haiz... hopefully i can do it.. i realise i alone.. i dun have the motivation to do it sia.. i need my Y-gangz... wahaha... hang... yp.. where r u?????? wahaha..

anyway, went to daniel's bdae celebration on the 1st Jan 2007... 21 yr old le!!! big guy le... wahaha.. got him a neckalce, boxer and a car air freshener... but too bad.. i 4got to take pic of it 1st.. wahaha.. the car air freshener is damn cool.. wahaha.. anyway, hope he like it... wahaha

tt day, i saw a nice rainbow at his hse.. so nice.. so clear.. so wonderful... saw two rainbows... one outside the other.. soo cool lor.. never seen such clear rainbow before lor... i showed jx.. then he told me he once saw one big round de.... so meaning it is possible to see a big round rainbow... so i decided my dream is to see the big round rainbow... wahahaa...



Can see the two rainbows? one is fader...



Nearly wanna Daniel to chop down tt coconut tree.. Blocking my view.. haha

Happy New Year!! Everyone is doing some sort of New Year Resolutions... i was wondering... actually.. how many really go towards the resolutions they made? wahaha... coz i definitely not someone who can make it. wahaha... but for the fun of it... i oso wanna make some New Year Resolutions.

1. Spend Less, Save more.
2. Sleep Early
3. Come out with my very own formulation of beverage.
4. Dunno le... see how... wahaha

2006 passed... so fast... to think tt i was still bz with my spinnovex at this time of 2006.. seems like yesterday lor... 2006 de Jan was havco... crazy.. yet fun... thinking back... sch is still a better place.. though hate exams... wahaha... nth dramatic happen in 2006... at least nt directly connected to me de lah... but 2006... got a lot of dramas for me to see... to think.. to be angry with...

2006... the starting of my working life... so fast rite??? learn a lot of things... attitude towards certain thing have changed.... n thousands of things change... be it good or bad..

well... 2007 is here.. juz hope tt it will be a better yr... as it is PIGGY year!!! wahaha...

It has been a busy week sia... fun filled and excitement and tiring... wahaha.. now i'm juz like a zombie... n need to sleep.... but when can i really fully recover all my sleep?? wahahaa...

here's my whole week...

22nd Dec
i decided to bake a bdae cake for HJM, so went to buy ingredients after work. at 1st tot no one acc me... so get JX come out acc me... who noes end up my colleague oso wanna join coz she oso wanna bake cake. Go out with JX very gd de.. auto will help u take things de... so i think guys with elder sis are really gd de lor.. they noe wat they shld do... wahaha... but then again... jason and weekeong oso dun have sis lor.. but they really noe how to take care of girls lor... mommy say.. 'gentleman' comes naturally in a guy.. be it he is a young boy or a man... so i cant juz help someone to give an excuse for his ungentlemanly act as coz he is still young... mommy say, 'look at jason, wee keong and JX, 3 of them younger than him leh.. (ok... she has someone in her mind tt she feels tt he is a lousy guy)... so can u still tell me coz he is young?' then i gt nth to say le.. wahaha...

Anyway, i reached home.. rot and wait for cheryl and yh to come.. by the tme both reached my hse.. n we start to bake cake... both come coz wanna see how to bake cake... then we tok, baked.. till 4am... n create a mess in my kitchen...

yh went back home after helping me clear up.... cheryl slept on my sofa...


the left over.. after decorating the main cake...

23rd Dec

slept till quite late... rot whole day at home with xian... then went ktv at night with HJM.. tt HJM... happily sleep till 4get my appointment with him... call him never picked up... i dunno to be angry or to be worried sia.. xian said if he is a gd fren... then be angry... if he is ur bf... then be worried... wahaha... anyway, coz the cake quite ugly.. so i made him come my hse n eat cake.. i refuse to bring it out... wahaha... then he has to come lor..
this is how the cake looks...

he waited for my parents to come home to bring him sth to eat.. then eat his cake.. then acc me, no shld say wait for me to finish watching saiyuki relaod 1st... b4 driving him back.. n tt was already 2am... come back home already 3am... i was online chatting till 5 am...

24th Dec

Slept till 11, then rot... then went shopping last min in junction 8 to get the necessary xmas gift and huijing's present.. get a thomas the train white board for bing bing... i already bought a game CD-rom for dylson le... then went big aunt hse... give the gift... rot till yx willing to come out... then go changi for huijing's chalet... abt 10 sth.. my bro 'gay frens' all come le.. we bbq.. suan each other.. then at 0000.. we cut cake... her bdae falls on 25th Dec... we got her a big powerpuff girls cake... n think she love it... did she? wahaha.. dunno... nice?

anyway mommy was scolding me.. say 21st yr old i go buy cartoon cake... but the thing is tt... u like tt cartoon.. no matter how old u still glad to see sth de mah... wahaha then we sit there play black jack till 5am.. slept at 6.. i think...

25th Dec
Merry Xmas... woke up at 8... coz tyx need to go for tuition... we made our way back.. tyx go tuition.. i go home sleep.. but dunno y.. i only slept for an hr or so.. then wake up liao.. juz lie in bed.. nth to do...
evening... went airport fetch yt.. my darling is back for gd le!!! wahaha... excited lor... my dad oso excited sia.. call me and ask me 'kidnapped' her down to his stall.. wahaha... then again... drag.. rot..chat... by the time i sleep was already 2am.. and i got work next day!!!

then rest of the week.. i slept at ard 2 am lor.. so whole week really like zombie... then realise one whole week no see yp.. finally... last night met her for dinner.. whahaa... one whole week no meet.. coz she change job.. no see her online..

my this weekend is filled with programmes again.. n hopefully i get enough sleep.. wahaha...

Juz came back from camp... 15 Dec - 17 Dec 2006 is our yearly mentoring camp.. got new mentors join in and of coz old mentors went crazy.. we had our fun times, exciting times, heart warming times, angry times, and of coz.. scary times... lotsa things lor... typed one whole day oso cannot finish.. on the whole... quite enjoy the camp... coz love to cook for whole lot of ppl.. then oso like to take care of ppl... wahaha... esp when i have to take care of my 'big kids' such as jason, wee keong, jian xing and yanxin... wahaha... overall.. camp was... smooth sailing.. wahaha..

Tues, went to Tampanies safra for dinner... then go TM shop. Saw my doraemon cup again.. really wanna buy.. but.... when i was still there thinking of buy or nt to buy... my nice bro bought it for me le... so good hor...he say he wanted me to buy sth tt is over 70 bucks de... dun mind buying me tt doraemon... tt cup cost only $7.90 lor.. so kind of bro... wahaha


Went watch movie juz nw with JX... I FOUND A HORROR MOVIE KAKI le!!! finally!! wahaha... cool lor... got ppl acc me watch horror movie le.. no need jm drag himself go liao lor.. wahaha... we watched 'Cinderella' the korean horror movie on plastic surgery de.. nt bad lah... hee

change my blog song to 183 de song.. their new album de song... though their album out for quite sometime... recently then i really go listen lor.. then fall in love with this song '为你征服全世界' .. is very nice... the melody like olden english song... nice nnice... wahaha

183club -为你征服全世界

忘了他 我说
真的不值得你难过
越忘记 从前的你快乐而且自信
就像是夜晚 你红着腮
连笑起来都是那么自然
迷人的双唇和眼神 如今却不在

就算有天他不在你身边 请你记得曾经的少年
因为那是独一无二的美 可以为你征服全世界

睡了吗 沉睡的你如此beautiful
忘了他 彻彻底底不再为他痴狂
我是这么乖 像个小孩
静静做着功课等着你的回来
你会带个糖果给我 谢谢你的爱

当你的心一点点地打开 让我还有资格去比赛
难免受伤难免有些遗憾 至少有天爱你会明白
我希望你会记在心里 你永远都是那么地美
不管对爱多失望 没忘记你是谁

don't you don't you lost my words no baby
你的背影胜过全世界 情给情的包是你的笑颜 可以为你征服全世界
把你的心一点点地打开相信 有天你一定会明白

睡了吗 沉睡的
你如此beautiful

Yesterday, went Junction 8 shopping. Mr Ben lah... ppl now is car salesman, then must wear nice nice.. can go out see ppl de.. and say need cuff links... n guess who paid? ME!!! we spent $95+ for his belt and cuff links... to think tt i only wanna pay for his cuff links... he lah... haiz.. my BROTHER!!! good rite??

Belt and Cuff Links ($95)


Cuff Links ($63+)


Belt ($31+)

Then went shopping... leather slippers got buy 2 get 1 free... so.. me, yanxin and huijing each bought a pair lor..

guess which is mine, which is tyx? hee...

Then saw a big doraemon cup... tall tall de.. with cover and spoon.. cost $9.90... but still thinking to buy anot.. haha...

Next 2 weeks will be a very bz week sia... 1st going for mentoring camp frm 15th - 17th... really looking forward.. then 22nd baking cake, 23rd meet jm, 24th go huijing chalet celebrate her bdae till 25th.. wahaha...

I'm free! free from tuition le.. wahaha.. quitted tuition center de job le.. coz very sianz.. dun wanna teach le... nw only got 2 pte tuitions.. enough le.. wahaha..

a week passed.. all the guys POP le..my life.. still the same lor.. work, sleep, work, sleep.. boss go china today.. next whole week wun be back.. then bryan (boss kid) came office these few days... then always come 'bully' me.. see!!! a 3 yr old oso bully me.. sad rite.. wahaha..

i got a surprise.. pleasant or not.. i dunno... he is back. he come find me.. as expected coz wanted sth... haiz... how shld i feel? how shld i response? haiz.. suan liao suan liao.. dun think dun care..

btw, my bro - ben starts selling cars.. 2nd hand or parallel import. Interested can contact him at 92778681 . Let him give u best service.. wahaha...

It's a long time since i last update wo. coz no mood... or shld i say lazy.. sianz lor.. coz every night come back so late le.. then watch tv, bathe.. then can prepare go sleep le. suddenly feel tt old liao.. coz by 0000 will feel damn tired.. then wanna sleep... cannot tahan till 1 or 2 le.. wahaha.. partly oso coz every night read book.. then lazy to come online.

I've quitted my tuition centre job.. so now only teaching pte tuition.. 2 nights nia.. not tt taxing le... ermm.. i mean more time to go out le.. wahaha.... nw sat n sun.. can see me at home everyday.. haha.. coz nth to do.. no one acc me out mah.. so might as well.. stay at home.. save money.. wahaha...

Have been reading chinese novels again.. then came across sth very meaningful... 《思念不只三天两夜》by 深雾
this is not novel.. is short stories... each story is a touching, sweet, yet sad de love story..and make ppl think it is closely related to reality.

“只要我还是想着你，不论是春夏秋冬，也都是四年的季节”
“当你自以为已经成功摆脱四年的时候，它已经偷偷从生活的细节中入手，慢慢，慢慢的进占你的每一天。”
“因为寂寞，所以想你。但是，我发觉，我越想你，就越寂寞。”
I love this: “到了今天，我已经不知道，我是因为寂寞而想念你，还是因为想念你而感到寂寞。”
dunno y.. when i saw tt phrase... i fall in love with it... mayb coz is closely related to me? haha.. dunno...

Was at JE tt day... a place i didnt go for a looooong time.. ever since i graduated? in fact, i didnt go the west side (including west mall, JP, JE) ever since i left SP... or mayb earlier... y... juz dun feel like going lor... mayb subconciously.. i dun wanna go there ba.. unless meeting yp they all.. i rarely go there le.. every corner there reminds me of lotsa things.. esp bukit batok and je mrt stat.

If i say i've forgotten everything... 我是在骗人，也在骗我自己吧。毕竟那是一段难忘的回忆。也许我真的忘了他的样子（说真的，他在我脑海里的样子真的很模糊了。），但那感觉仍然存在着，那温暖，让我觉得现在很冷。

好多时候，我以为其实那些是不久前发生的，仔细一想才发现已过了两、三年了。我们算是选择性的失去联络，只能在此说：“好好照顾自己”

today went sing again. this time with yp, wy, ly... hahhaa... when i say i wanna go out. my mom ask me.. 'with ur china guys again ar?? i told u how many times dun be so close with them y u dun listen?' haiz.. this is my mom...

anyway, yp facing such a big prob.. n of coz with her character. i dun think she able to tahan... haiz... poor thing rite?? cry everytime tok abt work... softer than me sia... as i say le... i nt flooder le... i learnt to be stronger... NO TEARS... whahaaha...

as for my work here.. suddenly very bz.. got alot of things to do lor... work for almost 9 mths le... very fast.. n started to hate boss.. hate the sight of my boss... wahaha... but wat to do.. he gimme salary de... so have to tolerate all his suaning... and insults... well.. i realise tt work in here... really muz be strong sia.. or else... boss say one thing jiu break down.. i think i've briken down dunno how many times le... i'm lucky to have lady boss behind me and of coz my china guys.. wahaha...

ppl are worried abt me.. coz i too close with my china guys... particularly OFM!! whahaa... yx even come ask me he got chance mah.. well.... i learnt NEVER say NEVER.. so... nobody noes wat will happen..if he got chacne... muz depends on how much he willing to sacrifice lor.. wahaha.. say as if real... he hates SG.. i dun like CN.. so quite hard lah... wahaha...

i only fa hua chi nia.. coz he is cool, funny.. he is cute and strong... he noe how to tok... and most imptly... he is someone to lean on.. when i really tired emtionally or physically.. though he dun understand wat i vexing over... ahaa.. but dun worry.. once bitten twice shy... i wun be like wat happened two yrs ago.. i will try my best nt to let history repeat itself...

Came back from a whole day of fun with my china guys!!! haha... well, quite enjoy day!! ly, yp and wy came to my cwp today.. then asked me wanna join them mah... of coz i cant.. i meeting the guys mah... who noes... thye say i zhong se qing you... wah... my pretty ladies...my theory is 1st come 1st serve lah.. wahaha.. next time advance booking... wahahaa... :p

1st, went to Tampanies Mall eat international buffet with FeiMin, Chen Ping and Chun Chen. The Pariss in TM had changed to FamilyInternational buffet and the price is cut half lor. Today os $22++ for lunch. The spread is not bad.... though still like sakura.. wahahaa.. coz the cake selection too little.. wahaha.. ok.. i'm crazy.. spend so much go eat cakes... Chen ping siao de... go eat so many oyster.. i wondering if he stomach can take it anot... wahaha... then feimin say he wanna try.... then after the 3rd one... he gave up.. he hates the taste... n YUCKS!!! wahahaa...

Then after tt we came back to wdl.. then FM say wanna go sing song.. he treat.. then we went sang for 4 hrs lor.. chun chen left to chinatown to send money back to china. me, chen ping and feimin went back wdl, met up with shen tong and wei dian(a xiao shuai ge) to go sing song. in there we went abit crazy.. n me listening to their china singers and songs... wahahaha... omg!!!! but still quite interesting lor...

tt FM... kept on disturbing me.. when i singing... he wld take a cracker and wanna feed me.. make me always no sing properly.. then say he treat me so gd... then i still heck him....*bish*
one thing is tt they smoke in the room lah... feimin and chen ping.... tt time went ktv with them.. i set a rule for them cannot smoke... this time they treat.. i no say.. haiz.. then fei min still can smile.. and say.. wei qu ni zhe ji ge xiao shi ba.. *faint*...

sometime m wondering... r we consider frens? or wat? we may seems close... but how much things he say is thr truth? and r we juz using each other?? well.. can i juz dun think so much... and enjoy the attention he showering me... and oso the care.. the fun.. the... everything he giving me? hahaah. dunno dun care...juz hope tt i will not fall too deep inside.. wahahaha....

DAMN!! Idiot!! DAMN DL!! stupid!

Today had a meeting, coz nw is peak season of my company...good lor.. solve all prob once and for all... then guess wat?! my boss is juz a TYPICAL MAN!!! TMD!! blame everyone else except himself!

1st, packaging - due to canda prob.. coz ANG MOs kia si, so dun wanna us put NON-Dairy creamer coz in there might have milk or milk pdts... is a big allergen... i agree.. so end up, our pdt are being recalled.. n need to change the packaging coz non dairy creamer is not exceptable.. ok.. good.. i changed.. when the artwork design is almost ready.. can burn to CD and let printer print.. he wanna change sth else.. so the printing has to wait again.... then when already things are almost done... he wanna add in sth else... GREAT!!! he juz cant make up his mind!!! then nw the pdtn need packaging.. but we dun even has the artwork fixed!! he blame me n my purchaser for nt chasing the suppliers!!! kaoz.. 1st our suppliers nt only helping us do design nia leh.. 2nd.. who are the ones kana curse by suppliers!!!??? n he blame us nt chasing them to be faster?! wat the !!! kaoz!!!!

nvm... then raw materials come in, they will have a pdt specs... n certificate of analysis... meaning the microbial content and the moisture content of tt particular batch... all along - even b4 i joined the company, there is NO SUCH THING as taking the raw material to test n see if the supplier gave the correct figures mah... he ask me how coem i didnt test the moisture of the raw material... i told him got COA.. he juz asked, 'u thrust ur suppliers ar? these things i need to tell u mah?? 你读书读到哪里去？' TMD!! the company DID NOT HAVE such practice.. n NO ONE TELL me is required!! and even if my sch got teach me CANNOT thrust suppliers, how i noe if the company got this practice anot!? WHEN NO ONE EVER TELL ME!!!!! BLAME ME! kaoz!!
if i make my own decision, he will say.. bu ya zi yi wei shi!! TMD then wat he want!?

Juz fed up.. juz nw really wanna shoot back him de... but my 'rice bowl' at stake... haiz.. suan liao... ren!!!! wait... till juz one fine day...

说女人难搞，我说中年男人更难搞！！！！！

吃饱没事做就再看一些以前的照片。发现了我和彦婷都蛮喜欢的一张照片。当时我们一起去泰国，就在一个瀑布，我，娴和婷就想一瀑布为布景合照。谁知，我妹，欣就非常好玩地坐在我们前面。照片冲洗出来时，我们三个竟然成了背景，欣成了主角。这张照片真的让我们笑了好久。这是好久以前的事。现在，人、事、物都变了。让我真的觉得好无奈，这世界没有不变的事，变得让我束手无策。
当时的我们，真的好开心。好想好想那一段日子。

偶然的情况下，我发现了去年我们为娴而制作的短篇。那是为了庆祝她的21岁生日。很快的，一年过去了。一年内，发生的事好多。多到我真的好没力再去管任何事，没力再面对任何突如其来的事。

一年前，我、娴、婷还是那么的亲近。即使婷身在远方，我们都不会感觉有距离。后来，娴选择性的远离我们。我们再也不知彼此的行踪，也不知彼此过得好不好。更不知彼此在想什么。为什么变成这样？我一直都在问我自己，可是我真的真的不知道答案。 我真的希望她会爱她自己，懂得更珍惜自己。

只能希望婷回来后，我们又能回到从前。那个什么东西、什么问题都会提出来的我们。

It's quite some time since i last appear. Anyway, whole week had been tiring.. coz Asmine going off to Korea for exhibition, then alot of things she gotta settle 1st lor.. n most of her stuff i'm doing lor.. wahaha... then we got the 2 main segments for our show.. so have to run up n down frm mediacorp. very interesting but TIRING.. haha...

anyway, for yx's bdae.. i wanted to buy a neckace for her... a white gold de.. so i went to citigems.. who noe the sales person intro me a pendant.. got little crushed diamonds in it de.. n was on sale.. i love it very much... end up.. i spend money again lor... to get tt set. necklace for yx.. n pendant for me.. wahaha... (ok.. we can share if she want) the whole set cost $176. Jm kept shaking his head.. haha.. coz i keep spending... haha.. he say i need to learn how to save.. hee...




btw, he is back le.. FINALLY!! but... he was being shifted to night shift.. haiz.. sadz rite?? well... suan liao lor... anyway, as promised... he really got me a tortoise lor.. cute cute de... then i put on my office desk.. but of coz will bring it back if i'll be away for long... coz scare ppl go take and hide it.. hahaa...




Hopefully he will be transferred back by next week.. hee.. got alot to tell him sia... thru sms very ex.. wahahaha... :p

It is almost lunch time soon.. bosses in meeting... so nw can tou lan abit... wahaha... ok..i everyday oso rotting. hee... anyway, yesterday is tyx bdae.. and went to eat till very full lor.. ala carte(dunno how to spell) buffet mah.. at Dragon Gate Restaurant. Food not bad..but i not really a big fan of Chinese food mah...

Last night i recieved a sms.. he sms!!! he didnt 4get me...wahaha.. he gave me his no. and also ask me if i m ok?... i told him wat had happen.. he said he was still thinking of lengthen his stay.. i tell him impossible.. coz here really cant tahan le... and of coz.. me n CP will sure die sia.. if he dun come back soon.. wahaha... he then back to his hao lian style.. say 'Jiu zhi dao mei you wo bu xing' haha...

siao liao...yp say wo zhuang dao ta le... my mei say wo zhuang dao hei qing le.. wahaha..

I very very de sian... nw working.. counting down the time to off work... Time passed so slowly these 2 days...

He left le... for 3 whole weeks cant see him... didnt noe time is so diffcult to pass w/o him. Maybe coz is juz the beginning, will slowly use to not seeing him ba...

every little thing will remind me of him... didnt noe he got such a great impact... oh no... jia lat.. me n CP r nw like drug addict w/o drug... hahaa.. he oso sian, i oso sian... i think he misses him more than i miss him ba... wahahaa... yet CP kept denying.. he say coz he scare i'll 4get him after 3 weeks.. so wanna kept reminding me of him.. haha...

both of us are waiting for his call.. jia lat sia.. one week haven finish.. we already sian half le.. dunno how to survive till he come back.. wahaha.....

Siao liao......

3 days 2 nights de chalet over le. This is the 1st chalet i went to tt i can sleep so well. y? coz 1st not many ppl... so i got the whole bed to myself, second i can sleep till 1200 coz nth to do.

Actually oso the most sian de chalet ba.. i was damn DL! 3 days 2 nights, organised coz the guys going into NS le, then they say wanna a gathering... at 1st wanna go Genting then end up working de cant get leave, got gf de, gf dun allow to go. so i suggest chalet. everyone agreed de lor.

so me n yp went ahead with the planning and then i was really looking fwd lor. guess wat when the date is near, one say no overnight, the other say can only come on sat and lotsa excuses. well... i REN!!

i organise de... so of coz i gotta go no matter wat lor. i took off frm my tuition then go there immediately after work. me n yp... were staying overnight on the 1st night nia lor. though end up yh n his gf came coz no bus back le...
Anyway, i noe yp sacrifice a lot oso... she came down all the way frm the west to east coz if she no come, TYL will be alone in the chalet. but sat morning she need to rush back to west again for tuiton lor. 我很对不起她 coz she was the one who always kana my temper... but i was really angry lor. i mean, u happily planned for a gathering, thinking tt everyone will appreciate and appear... coz long time no see.. end up... wat i got!? so if i happened to hurt yp.. i apologised... but still... no matter how good temper one person is will still be pissed de lor

Sat, all went off early in the morning abt 7am and I WAS ALL ALONE in the chalet. so i slept till 1200 lor.. nth to do oso mah... the saddest chalet i ever went to lor... JM say the bed muz be fantasitic sia... coz i spend so much juz to go n sleep.. i oso think so lor... then i was so fed up.. i walked all the way back to Pasir Ris MRT stat... juz to shop and kill time.

2nd day i tot finally got ppl come.. then can tok n play the whole night thru.. alot tell me they nt staying over... GREAT! so i spend so much book chalet is for my own pleasure nia lor... ppl juz attend some kind of BBQ party n go off lor... end up only 3 stayed... better than nth...

JM say the grp got no team spirit...n how come like tt de.. i oso think so... i start to think... the bond within the grp... is REAL de or wat... do we really feel bonded together? i mean shldnt everyone be as excited as me abt the gathering? or it juz me being kapo go plan... none of them interested anyway. well... as i say.. I M NOT ORGANISING ANY GATHERING ANYMORE... at least not for this grp of ppl... coz this time round i'm REALLY DISAPPOINTED in everyone..

Blame on me.. being too busybody to plan... blame on me being too suay.. to book at a time when everyone is not free(though everyone agreed on the date in the 1st place)... suan liao.. coz i really got nth to say.... no more strength and energy to plan and to do anything le... nw is totally 死心 le..

Kids are amazing!!! y do i say so? coz they are!!! they will make u dunno to cry or to laugh... wat happened??

today Asmine wanna give fei min a luggage, coz she dun want it le. wanna him bring over to china le, then throw away. my dad came drive me, so i helped him to take the luggage to my tuition center so he can come take it as it is nearer to his hse.

well, when my kids saw tt large luggage... the 1st thing they asked,"cher, where u going?" i juz tell them i'm running away frm them. they dun believe me... say i going to UK.. (pls note, to my students: big luggage = go UK, Germany, Italy) dun ask me y.. i was also puzzled.

then class started by me telling them that i'll tell them where i going if they settle down fast and do their work 1st.. they really gone in an amazing speed (a bunch of kpo kids, whahaa).. then fei min reached. he came and take the luggage. my kids got excited.. OMG!!!!

kept asking me if he is my bf. i told them he is not, he is only a fren, they say i bluff them. *faint* then i asked them to contiune with their work while i was outside helping fei min to see if asmine left anything impt de mah. my kids.... they really can be very gd paparazzi. they all peeking out from the back of the door, juz to see wat are we doing outside.

then got one will run back n tell the class... "teacher and her bf hug, hug" "they holding hands" and guess wat.. we were not even close enough to make any physical contact! omg!!! i went back into the class to get the class settle down and do their work.

one even ran out of the class and went str ask fei min if he is my bf in ENGLISH. Feimin was damn blur wat was she saying. *faint*

After feimin went off... they were asking me if he is my real bf? my 1st rxn was 'huh?' so i asked got things such as REAL bf and FAKE bf? she say no, only got REAL bf and EX - bf. interesting rite? juz a reminder, my class is a P3 class... so i wanna to noe wat they really noe abt Ex -bf and wat is a REAL bf. so i asked her to explained. this is her explaination:

Real bf: u go out together, hold hands, hug and kiss (eeekkkk frm the other girls in the class)
Ex bf: u go out together, he date u... but no hold hands, no hug, no kiss (eeekkkk frm the girls again)

my rxn: (-_-!!!)

nw then i realised the ex bf is not the ex bf we noe. is the X bf.. meaning everything oso cannot do de bf... (big cross)...

so kids are amazing rite??? so how shld i react??? to scold or to smile or to faint??????

HAIZ!!!!! TMD TMD TMD!!! damn du lan now... kaoz... y? coz juz feel this way lor... coz y? Happily oragnise things... feel so excited abt it.. end up getting cold/negative responses... how good will u feel???

Anyway, dun expect me to oragnise anything anymore.. i'm too tired, too fed up! coz dunno is i sway or wat... the dates i choose... always juz nice got clashes with other things de... best liao lor... then i have no rights to feel angry... coz always ppl got valid reasons to say cant go...

but still sometime i juz wanna be unreasonable abit lor... haiz... but sure kana scolded be unreasonable... kana blame to be ba dao... n better still tt person end up may seems like being 'FORCED' to go... haiz haiz haiz

not pin pointing who.. or wat.. coz ppl ard me all like tt... n i quite sian le... guess wat... every fri.. i would rather go back home (spend more on transport fees) to eat, or dun eat than looking ppl to have dinner... coz i know sure get 'No free', 'cant make it' blah blah blah for ans... n i usually dun quite like getting those ans... so dun like, then dun ask.. coz ask le sure will get these ans de...

what i hate abt myself if i tend to say 'NVM'!!! esp when ppl say 'sorry'.. coz i dun wanna ppl feel bad.. but end up... me myself burning inside... haiz... tt's y i hate the word 'sorry'.. it maybe a polite word... but to me... wat the use of saying sorry?? wat done cant be undone wat.. say sorry le... i still buay song.. juz tt... dun wanna say lah.. coz say liao... ppl think i xiao qi... unreasonable... haiz... SIANZ!!!

when ppl say sorry.. i have no right to be angry le.. coz ppl apologise le mah... aiyah.. suan liao lah... kaoz.. sianz lah...

Fri... Last day of the working week, last day of our freedom!!! coz boss coming back next week le... sadz...

Last night went shopping... wanted to change the crocs for Asmine's son. end up, got myself a new pair of shoes at $12.90...haha...

then walked further down.. went into Taka jewellery. At 1st wanna take a look nia... then shun bian see got nice nice chain to go with my star pendant mah.. coz all my chains are sliver de... wear for a few days become black black le.. so decided to see got white gold de mah... saw a few... but then was very ex lor... my 1st tot was... wah.. so ex how to buy.... end up i still bought at$100... i cant even believe i bought it lor... i spent so much to buy a chain..

wahaha.... not tyl rite? JM still ask me... i shou dao shen me da ji... i told him coz he whole week no reply my sms n too bz till heck care me lor.. wahaha...

wat i'm afraid most happened le... last night... CC sms me some wierd sms... then i asked him wat happen... then... he confessed that he likes me (in a way tt i dun like de lor.. coz he use the word love instead of like)... haiz... he say he likes me.. but he noe he sure fail.. coz he pei bu shang wo... i speechless... well... i did reject him straight away... telling him he shld noe best... at this moment, i juz cant accept a new guy. not coz he is a china worker.. is coz i still cant get out frm the past... but he no reply me.. then this morning... he no wait for me... he went home str after 0830... haiz... i dun wanna lose a fren juz like tt... i oso dun wanna this to affect his work performance... headache!!!!!!!

Today is our Annual RS-BP mentoring Cooking Comp... as usual... a BIG chaotic morning and 'boom' u see lotsa creativity and intresting dishes.

This yr is abit different.. the competition is design like a biz game... u r like opening a restaurant and muz take into consideration of the cost... and how much u price ur food, coz at the end of the day, the grp of the highest profit win. this yr got 2 winners.. 1 is the highest profit, the other is the overall presentation (taste, creativity and blah blah ) winner..

My grp won.. won the overall presentation.. hahaa... all the more prove to me tt i'm not a biz person.. haha... coz my grp made a loss.. hee... cost too high, price too low.. wahaha... me, jx, nisha, atiqah, afiq in a grp.. tt afiq.. keep saying he is the chef... esp when he heard tt we won... wahaha.. but in actual fact he didnt do much... juz helping here n there.. sometime dun even noe lost to where.. wahaha...

Life recently had been quite chaotic... work there so many things... so many things to remember.. i really scare i 4got some of the impt stuff... sep.. anytime AVA will come down for surprise inspection, channel U de 'Let's Party with Food' is going to start shooting in sep oso... so i muz prepare all the necessary pdts.. then exports there... coz they keep arguing wat is NON DAIRY CREAMER.. and wanna us to do admenments to our packagings... kaoz.. n my lab... aiyo... crazy liao lor...

the only relaxation is.. 2nd pdtn.. everytime go tok cock with them... wahaha...

I HATE HIM!!! I HATE HIM!!!
Two weeks ago, he msg me on MSN asking me abt sth.. 2 weeks later...i msg him on MSN using the same nick, same acct same email tt i've been using for years... he come n ask me who m i?! funny rite?

He called me on fri... which was 4 days ago... telling me he is sian.. wanna tok to me... telling me he still owe me a meal and movie.. n will do it b4 he go into NS.. ask me abt a song.. ask me to send him...
4 days later... today... i decided to send him the song.. i msg him on MSN.. he come n ask me who m i... wah.. amazing rite?? is this call fren??

m i such a failure as fren? or he is a failure?? haiz...

ppl told me may be a misunderstanding.. mayb his bro using his acct... well.. i dunno n dun care... too angry le!!!!!!!!

It's quite sometime since i last updated.. wahaha... n i'm back!!!! wahahaa.. i sounded happy??? yes!!! i'm!!! coz... i had a huge huge huge crush!!! omg!!! i'm being hua chi again... but wat to do!??! wahaha.. TYL mah... hee

ok.. wat's with the crush?? actually... long time got crush on him le lah... juz recently become BIG!! haha.. who?? Fei Min lor.. who else.. my Toro look alike... he so handsome lor... wao lao.... we had become very close.. coz i eveytime go up pdtn disturb them mah..and he got my no... n occassionally sms me.. n blah blah blah.. wahhaa..

recently he got his annual leave approved and wanna go back China... for 3 weeks.. so wanna me help him to check out air tix... n try to get air tix... tt day, he waited for me outside my tuition center... he is SOOOOO HANDSOME!! more handsome than he looked at work.. when he wears the company polo tee... waahaha... he was wearing a white collared tee... n jeans.. standing outside my center smoking.. waiting for me to knock off... (he passing me his air tix money)... so cool lor (ok.. minus the smoking part).... he dun have the typical 'china man' looks lor... satisfy my xu rong xin... wahaha... my boss came out saw him.. ask me 'ur bf ar?'... how i wish i say yep.. wahhaa... ok.. DREAM ON! wahaha..
we went off... then he treat me makan at 888 de coffeeshop.. then we bicker... n tok.. hahaa...

today he poor thing lor... normal 2nd storey pdtn got 3 ppl de... today 2 MC.. only left him.. alone.. so i kept running up pei him.. i call him my Ou ye ye... (his surname is Ou).. he call me gui sun zi.. (haiz... coz i like wu gui lor..) wahaha.

Sat, went to YH hse for a swim.. hahaa... wdl go habourfront for a swim.. i think only i so stupid.. wahhaa.. but there no ppl... somemore.. even the public showers got warm water de lor.. 1st time ever after a swim i no need to have a cold shower.. wahaha.. me, yp n wy decided next next week will go his hse swim again.. then we shall try the suana... wahaha...

poor yp... ku ming yuan yang... haiz... but i see roland.. he nt bad... though sth bad muz happened or else y her sis so violently object it??? but still.. she shld tell yp wat happen.. n let yp judge tt person herself.. n nt force her mah... i believe in yp.. she noe wat she is doing.. n she is the most zi ai girl i noe... so wat's there to worry.. yp is nt a baby.. she can judge a person... she noe wat is danger.. wat is not... dun see her like nua nua like tt.. she is actually a tough n stubborn girl.. y cant juz let her have a chance to make her own choice n decision?? even if it's a wrong choice.. at least she tried... n learn sth frm it lor... yp.. 我挺你！ hahaha... we all here support u..