03/03/06 marks the end of my three yrs poly life... today is the end... end of my exam.. end of poly life... no longer have to go sch... starting another stage in my life.. the REAL adult life where u only left with work work work n more work.... i always wonder... m i able to cope it mah?? coz my job has a very wide job scope... n it's really a very challenging job... can i do it well? ms toh believes tt i can do it.. then i more stress... coz cant disappoint her mah....aiyoz... hahaa

3 yrs liao leh... to think tt it was juz recently tt i got over with my 'A's results n got into SP to start all over again.. time flies sia.... juz like tt...i graduate liao.... hahaa.. ting oso coming back le...
3 yrs.. have i grown? have i changed? i oso dunno.. coz i feel tt it still the same me.. juz feeling older...wahaha.. haiz...

3 yrs... i've made great frens... wonderful frens... got noe to liyun 1st... the 1st fren in sp... haha.. suddenly got girl come tok to em i stunned.. she approached me 1st... wahaha... but i always wonder... y can she apprach me 1st tt time.. when she is so shy with strangers???? hmmm... then went into DCP 1B22.. know alot of ppl.. n got a big clique consist of 9 ppl... me, liyun, xiao hua, teckhong, daniel, shuhui, yiyun, yingxiu.... thru' out yr 1.. we had lotsa wonderful time... hee... muz thanx all those who gave me happy times... n always there for me de... without u all i dunno how i can survive thru...

2nd yr.. got into fd tech.. DCP 2B23... yeepei joined us.. with liyun n me n xiao hua in the same class.. then dunnO how we formed.. end up yr 3... the big clique again with me, xiao hua, liyun, yee pei, wenying, weijie, kahguan, zac, and yihang... had lotsa fun.. enjoyed the times we had... these r memories tt i will keep it forever.. unless i lost my memories... hahaha....

between 1st n 2nd yr.. he came into my life... 2nd sem of 1st yr and 1st sem of 2nd yr... he was there for me... accompanying me in every moment of my life... i was actually healing a wound at tt point of time.. n he was there for me... making the wound to heal faster... we had lotsa happy times and sweet moments together... sth tt i'll treasure it for as long as i can remember...
he left me... during my 1st ito in thailand... actually i realise tt the world is fair.. u gained sth.. u lost sth... i went thailand for ITP... got know to a bunch of wonderful frens in thai... n oso got closer to yihang... n i lost him... n till now.. i still wondering y... but it's no longer impt... coz i gave up le... will think of it occassionally.. will still feel the pain... but no longer have the urge to get back with him....

2nd yr end of 2nd sem.. my 2nd itp.. got into a relationship like a flash.. got out like a flash too.. haha... well.. we were not meant to be ba... though waited for him for 6 yrs... being with him was nt wat i imagined... mayb coz too long le... n coz was in a half give up mode... one thing... i've wondered recently.. last time b4 we got together.. he didnt say anything nice abt me... but still will recognise my gd pts... when we got together... he can list my gd pts.. though oso suan me lah... but when we broke up. suddenly i m a terrible person... coz he say i got no gd pts for him to say... y huh? m i so jia lat? i changed? frm bad to worse? haiz..

thru's out the 3 yrs... ting is always there for me... though most of the time is online de... but her presence really make feel comfortable... thanx darling... :p

thank him for giving my happiest time in 1/3 of my poly life...

thanx all my frens for being my frens for being the wonderful ppl ard me...

th n xh.. u r juz like my little bro n sis to me... i teng u all so much.. coz u 2 really like xiao didi xiao mei mei... hahaha... i really wish to attend ur wedding... hee.. ur da jie always here for u all... :p

yp.. ren hao jiu hao... dun overly hao... dun hurt urself... among the frens.. i worry abt u the most sia... coz u too gd liao... too weak liao... may get hurt when going outside to work.. haiz... learn to be strong.. i've learnt... so can u... anyway... jia you... may u reach ur dream of becoming a teacher... u can de!

ly, though we had disagreement at times... u had a great impact on me leh.. u show me a different pt of view in life...u let me learn alot of things.. u acc me crazy over shuai ge... u amaze me with ur theory.. wahaha... n amaze me with ur photocopy memory.. hahaa... u r a great person with a strong personality... believe in urself... coz u r capable de... n talented... juz tt u didnt realise it only... wahaha

yihang... if i no write... u sure complain.. wahaha... u mah.. no need worry de.. u noe so well wat u r doing... but dun be so 'colour' lah. aiyo... treat ur pw nice nice... enjoyed the times when we can debate over a qns on how to do.. how does it sound logical... hahaa...u r lazy... but when come to sch work... prob solving.. u r one of my strongest opponent n partner.. haha...u r always a great fren.. a listener... a person who is there to help... :p

wenying... my auntie... ahahaa... u allow me to see alot of things tt i missed out in my life.. i learn alot of things frm u.. frm ur life... n of coz.. another person who will acc me crazy over shuai ge...

zachary.. the shuai ge... i tell u wo... u caught my eyes ever since yr 1... hahaa.. anyway, ur craps n stupid actions really can make me laugh my head off lor.. u always can let me destress de... :p
u r some1 who really cut out to big boss de... jia you wo... hee...

hmmm.. like writing testimonials leh.. ahaha... these cant be use for jobs.. too bad.. hee... stillgot alot.. but lazy to type liao.. hee

3 papers down.. one more to go.. fd packaging.. but no mood study nw... haiz... hope this time can make it,... wahaha...

thru out the week, had been studying like siao... damn funny oso lah... coz everytime got yihang, zac, wj acc... stress oso will laugh till dunno like wat le.... haha

zac's bdae on 27th.. we got a paper on 28th... wahaha.. so poor him.. have to spend his 21st bday studying for his exam.. wahaha.. we went celebrate with him after 28th's paper.. go eat swensens.. wahahaa... coz this zac ar... everything oso have... n things he wants.. i think we cant afford de.. so decided to give him a practical present ----> boxers... he got wear de lor... n this is such a cute boxer lor... :p... he saw it le he high.. wahaha.... with elephant... the truks can take up got ruler... can measure.. wahahhaa..... erm.. ok.. abit too.. R(A) liao.. wahahaa


looking forward to the end of exam.. coz going thailand with zac, yihang and wenying.. wahaha... so happy.. can see my thai frens liao... going on the 7th.. coming back on the 14th... hee.. then 16th start work.. wahaha... all planned out... hope nth crops up...

This is an interesting website minghui intro de... hahhaa... though ppl think is bo liao.. i still think is fun.. wahahaa

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After going thru 2 interviews.. 1st with the HR manager, then the BIG BOSS (MD lah)... i got the job... 16th mar will start work.. wahaha.. at Gold Kili - the company tt comes out with beverages..it's a new challenge... she told me i muz be independent... n able to take stress... hmmm m i up to it?? i dunno... juz hope everything will go smoothly...

met him for dinner today.. to pass him tt long belated bdae present... he cut his hair.. neater... nicer... i shld be happy... i WAS happy initially.. coz i really missed him.. but the moment i saw him... my mood was dampened.. 他给我的感觉淡了。though we chat, we tok.. he suan me.. i complained he bullied me.. but still... nt the same anymore... the feeling is not there anymore... i cried once again.. this time nt due to anything he say or wat he did.. juz feel sad.... sad by a fact tt hit me so hard tt i felt pain even deep inside my heart... he is no longer the one who give me the warmth and care like he used to... the care n warmth he gave... r juz memories... memories...

still can remember once he told me... when i was still healing frm the previous wound... '我不能像他对你那么好，但我能给你的是快乐的时光.' which is true... he had given many happy moments.. sweet moments... but still.. haiz.. he hurt me in the end too...

i realised sth today... i'm in too deep.. so deep till it scares me... how come?? i tot i wun... haiz.. i'm so stupid... y cant i juz get up.. 4get everything once n for all?! wat yanxin told me is correct.. i'm worse than huixian.. at least after giving.. she gotten back at least a status... at least sth... but me?? wat i got?? nth.. juz hurt n more hurt... so y m i still holding on?? m i going to take a long time to heal this time?? haiz.. drag so long le... i still cant get myself out of this mess!!!

anyway, this shld be the last time meeting him le... at least for me.. is the last time i took the initiative.. we r nw 最熟悉的陌生人。

PQM test down! EIC test down!! tml will be flavours pract test... we have to name the unknown.. n describe how it smell... juz by looking, smelling or tasting the samples.. haha... hope tt wun die till too ugly....

Past few days were nightmare! 1st IA had to rush finish. almost every night stayed till 4am... then reports tt we owed... must all hand in by last fri... coz teachers need to key in the marks... stress stress... this is call last min work lor...

8th feb was the farewell party... interesting programmes... finally can see matthew they all dance live de le.. whahaa... took lotsa pics... still waiting for ppl to send....enjoyed... hehee... then after farewell, me, yp n ly went jp to find gift for kg... though need to go back rush IA report.. but still wanna get sth for him mah...

9th feb was KG bdae.. tt idiot man!! i was totally pissed tt day lor... coz y.. i spent the whole night to wrap the present in layers... n think of sth for him to do each layer.. n of coz wanna he unwrap in front of us... as a little celebration for him.. who noes.. the whole day cant find him!!! guess wat... he in IR!! tt make me more piss lor... y guys dun seems to appreciate wat ppl do for them??? treat them as fren.. tt's y spend so much effort de mah.. if dun treat them as fren... i dun even care lor.. kaoz!!!! i was angry.. n i tell myself.. never to celebrate any of the guys who born in the year 1986 de bdae!! dun bother abt the sms.. dun bother abt the present... waste of time, money and brain cells only! till nw, i still quite sore lor.. but of coz lah.. nt tt xiao qi de.. esp since he apologised le...

10th feb... i spent the whole day in sch to finish up IA.. me, ly and yp.. tot xh still got a lot of reports to do.. so dun dare to stress her somemore... did till 4am. then 11 sth went to sch... do all the way till 6pm... no drink no eat.. juz do.....after 6... then me n ly realise we had not eaten... n was damn hunrgy.. wahaha.. went get wafer.. n made my way to RSS.. took leave to attend the mentoring meet the parents session... as i say.. i never regret of taking leave for mentoring de...coz sure enjoy de lor.. all my beloved mentees become mentors... then the sec 2 ( nw sec 3 de).. all see me stun.. coz i wasnt wearing specs.. wahaha.. then i suddenly got 2 sons.. one is syzwan and the other is hydayat... wahhaa... yt.. jealous mah?? wahaha.. syzwan leh... hehee... syzwan is the cute boy.. hydayat is the boy who always wanna get back at me.. coz i sabo him go on stage once.. wahaha....

haizz... exam starting le... sianz... muz study... sianz sianz sianz

His bdae present is still with me... dunno when then can i pass it to him... y did i buy it in the 1st place?? haiz... i wanna meet him b4 CNY to give it to him... but he didnt want.. i oso dunno y... he always has his own wierd reasons. he asked me to 4get his bdae... coz he dun celebrate bdae.. so to him, bdae is not impt... i dunno y he got such a rxn.. i happily go find sth suitable for him. happily ask him how shld i pass him his present... he gave me this kind of rxn...

i was really pissed!! the 1st time ever i got so fed up n wish to get this person out of my life once n for all.... i told him.. might as well 4get him as a fren... he said he dun mind... if it was few mths back... i'd treat it as him joking... n i'll make noise... n bicker with him.. but tt day.. i was tired.. damn tired.. i had no rxn... i was angry.. i dun feel like toking... i'm totally disappointed... in him, in me... i dunno wat really happen... i dunno wat the hell he is thinking.. wat i noe is i damn tired of everything!!!!!!!

where is the person who noe it when i stress; who will make me laugh when i nt happy; who will console me when i'm sad? that person is gone... gone long time ago... so y m i still so stupid.. holding on?? i told ppl ard me.. i'm going to give the present to other ppl... but i noe i wun. coz this is a gift for him... n only for him.. if it's with other ppl.. it is juz nt suitable ba... haiz... feel like send it to his hse thru post... then mark the end of everything.. treat it as i never noe this person b4...

can i do it??? haha.. i dunno... 人是矛盾的，不要想起，却不舍得忘记。

Sch started after long break of CNY... yet we all still in holiday mood sia... no mood study de lor.. go class juz for the sake of attendance only.. wahahaa...

after sch, we went lib to find some info for report,... then go flavors lab see others doing their beverage.. wahaha.. n taste losta drink till mumb sia.. wahaha.. we, y-gang helped zac's grp to taste their yoghurt drink.. fun sia... wahaha.. tt food lab is juz like our 2nd home like tt le.. hee...

after that went PS to watch movie.... with yihang, zac, yipei, wenying.. we watched FEARLESS.. nice show.. wahhaa... action packed.. with jet li.. he really old le.. can see he aged alot sia... but still cool lor.. fearless is based on a true story of the chinese wushu hero huo yuan jia... ending quite sad.. coz he died... tt YP!!! she cried non-stop sia!! the 1st time yp cry i laugh.. wahaha... the 1st time i see someone watch action pack movie can cry till dunno like wat... wahaha...

she say very touching... which is true.. esp those words he said b4 he died.. but still nt to the extend of crying till so jia lat leh... after show in toilet.. she still cry lor.. wahhaa.. yp really a very very kind n emotional soul lor..

then today, me, ly, yp, xh, th, yh n ter went watch Zodiac... SG productions.. think this is the 1st time they doing animation... not bad for a 1st timer ba... but if u r looking for 3d effects n excellent animation, then better dun watch it... coz will be disappointed de lor.. still nt up to the standard ba..

Lucky this time round... yp no cry... yh said she may cry coz she feel sad for cow, coz cow shld win n not mouse... wahaha... ok lah.. dun bully yp le.. hee... tml no sch.. so slack.. n hopefully can finish all my stuff

CNY holidays going to end soon... wahaha... 4 days of holidays... so fast.. tml gotta go sch le.. sianz... very fast.. exam coming le.. haiz... anyway, this CNY quite fun sia....

1st.. on new year eve, we went to msia to play with fireworks... haha.. yep... fire works.. those they displayed it during national day, xmas, New Yr and CNY de... in SG only govt can use it... haha.. in msia... we can buy frm stores then light it ourselves!!!! hahaa.. was so fun... hehee.... took 2 hrs to reach my uncle's place... then 2 hrs back SG... when reach SG.. already 4 am le.. wahaha....

1st day of CNY went to ah ma hse... fourth auntie told me i getting prettier n prettier... i almost faint lor... kaoz.. how can use pretty on me lah!!!!! yucks!!! i no want be pretty.. wahaha... anyway, she say i chun feng man mian... hahaa.. say surly nw got bf... i almost faint oso..i where got bf nw.. guys r giving me headaches... how to get a bf??? give me more headaches only... hahhaa

then to ah pek hse... Donald 1st yr gimme ang bao.. coz he married le mah... guess wat... his wife same age as yp they all n he is one yr older than me... n they giving me ang bao.. abit wierd sia... haha,.. but juz take only... hee...

go yanxin's godpa hse... then back home DO REPORT!!! sianz... hahaa after tt go big aunt's hse... play with all my nephews.. wahaha....

2nd day drove to KH's hse...with yh, jj... 1st yr no LCM.. he started work liao.. on 2nd day on new yr.. sianz lor.. if lcm go.. sure tease junjie de... coz he was there oso.. n say wanna go KL see sun yan zi with yh.. yh almost fainted sia.. wahaha... zhen wei, chang cheng, cheryl were there oso... after tt they come my hse.. tot lcm would join us at night.. end up he didnt appear... he no reply our sms, no pick up our calls... he seems like withdrawing frm us lor... sometime i wonder izzit coz of me... but so long already... there wasnt any prob till recently mah... dunno wat happen oso... dunno to worry, to be angry or to be sad.. or i juz think too much...
we played black jack.. n guessed wat... i won!! wahahaa... in the end.. i won... hee...

3rd day, which is today.... met yp, ly, yh, wj, xh, th go wy's hse.... then to yp hse... then finally my hse... today wy, yp, ly, xh all ebase supporter sia... wear ebase de clothes... n xh, yp, ly wore the same one.. different color only.. wahhaa... they came my hse... derrick they all oso here... so we played balck jack again... wj lost... me won again.. hee.. this yr is a gd yr... wahaha... dun care got bf mah... win money can le.. wahaha...

25th Jan 2006 marks then end of FYP. today was the FYP formal presentation. we were so stressed up... coz afraid that there would be sth worng.. in fact i think i've stressed ly and xh. so sorry abt that. i was very very stressed coz i noe mr tan, my co-examiner was not satisfy with our results. so he bound to bomb us with qns de. i prepared and made sure that i had absolutely logical explaination to each of our results.

this is the 1st time i wrote scripts for my presentation, this is the 1st time i felt tensed for my presentation. this is the 1st time i practice a lot of time for my presentation. haiz... i tot we were prepared for his bombing...

but.. he asked qns that was... too stunned?! n i cant explain... i tot i could tackle his every qns de.. but then his qns was too sudden.. my mind went blank.. n xh did the explaination. by the time i recovered... i think is too late to explain le. the lecturers in the room helped us... which we were really grateful... Thanx wo....

ly n xh were asking y was i laughing at the back... i only told them so that i wun cry in front of them... coz at that point of time.. i was really disappointed.. disappointed y the always seems confident me can be stunned for so long.. n end up.. didnt help much in the explaination... angry y he suspect our ability to get results... n of coz the stress tt had been with me recently... then moment i reached FC 2.. i saw YP.. actually i meant to whine abit only like i normally do.. but then dunno y.. whine become cry lor... sianz... i think i scared most of them ba.. coz frm wat i noe... all of my poly frens (except 1) never seen me cry lor.. yh called it the 难得一见的奇观。i almost fainted... but i was disappointed in myself.. n was angry with myself mah.... haiz... sianz lor.. cry in front of quite a lot of ppl.. yp, ly, xh, wy... still nvm.. i didnt noe tt kg, wj n jeremy were there too.. till xh told me!!! omg!!! wj told me after tt that he saw all my ugly side le.. i mearly wanna punch him sia!!!!

after tt we took a very very very loooooong time to decide where to eat... as all got different preference... however, we decided to go eat ala cart buffet in a hotel... ly gotta eat crab to her fill... haha she wanna revenge... coz the day b4, coz of fyp... she skipped dinner... n her bro tot she eaten le.. so ate up all her crab... wahaha...

It's quite sometime since i last updated. have been very bz for the past few days... Reports n data sheets to be finished, then got spinnovex stuff to prepare and work 5 days a week... sleep oso nt enough le... so cant update.. wahhaha

dunno y.. juz took up lotsa classes... mon, tue, thurs, fri, sat.. all got teach... wahaha.. sometime i was wondering wat the hell m i thinking.. making myself so tired.. wahaha... then coz tt spiinovex is a very big thing... somemore our project is highlighted... so muz be really be presentable lor.. today is the last day of spinnovex le... finished! finally! ahaha... nw time to cheong FYP presentation le... haha

Spinnovex quite interesting lor.. alot of things to see, to play,.. then very interesting things happen oso lor.. coz we in the main tent... so is a mixture of all schs in SP.. we get to noe quite a few ppl frm different sch.. wahaha.. coz only our side got samples to eat mah...mine chocolate, and yixian's coco puff pastry... n coz my side here got 3 beauties... liyun, xiao hua and yixian... wahahaa...

alot of VIPs came... and they made it sounded as if the VIPs are scary ppl.. in fact... the VIPs are nice ppl... n understanding... scary de are those lecturers lor and company's representative... they asked qns tt dunno who the hell can ans de lor.. wahahaa.. overall... quite enjoyable.. minus the boring part, eg. explaining.. nth to do, wahaha.... then got the closing ceremony de.. but i got wedding dinner.. so cant go... hahaa

went to Donald's wedding juz nw... cant imagine it lor!! he is getting married!!! he is a yr older than me only!!! he is already married!!! n me?! still here... running ard like a kid... seems like never gonna settle down... haha... sometime i wonder.. will i ever really fall for a guy.. n settle down mah.. hehe.. think tt will be many yrs later ba... by tt time mayb alot of frens ard me already daddy n mommy le lor... hahaa.... hmmm... mayb i'll be single forever.. wahaha... okok i can hear yt, ivan, xin jie shouting 'it'll never happen!!' hee.. well.. u never noe wat will happen in the future....

Wao... finally.. i got my laptop.. hee... my own comp le... wahahaa....

hmmm... it had been raining almost everyday... then my hse damn cold lor... then everynight so late so think gonna fall sick soon... hahaha....

watching e mo zai shen bian (恶魔在身边) by rainie yang and he jun xiang... very nice... last few episodes i cried till dunnno like wat.. hahaa... coz sad mah.. yet sweet... LOVE ah meng!!! hahaa... now i realised tt.. nan ren bu huai.. tyl dun like.. whaha... then nan ren tai huai.. yp dun like... hee... we r different...

I recommend everyone go watch ba... hehee....

on sun... went to chloe's 1st bdae.... at orchid country club... hahaa... so nice rite??? then went over to see ah mei jie jie's new born... her 2nd child... he was supposingly to come out on 13th jan de... but then i think he too anxious to see the world... before 2006.. he came out already... early by.. think abt 2 weeks... he was soooo small.... then yx dun dare to carry... wahaha...... anyway, he looks like ang mo... with brown hair and greyish blue eyes... hahaa... juz like his elder brother... i say daivd's ang mo genes overpowered my jie jie's asian genes.. tt's y the 2 kids all so ang mo.. wahahaa....

tml got PQM quiz... yet i'm still here rotting... haiz... time to study le.....

Wao... FINALLY!! on 06 - 01 - 06, FYP report handed up le.. wahahaa... at least can rest abit.. abit only.. wahahaa.... haven been sleeping well.. coz everynight work till very late.. wahahahaa....

06-01-06 oso my darling flying off.. haiz... my tuition ended at 2200... at 1st tot can make it to airport to sned her off de... haiz.. but end up.. kor n i on car wait for jj wait tilll too late le.. cant reach in time... so we go kopitiam drink coffee.. tt JJ lah.. met problem tt's y late de... anyway, after tt kor drove me home... my ting flew off...

before i went tuition, went suntec with my ting.. she bought so many things... hahaa... siao de.. hehe...

haiz.. tis time she came back.. i so bz... like really no meet her like tt... i mean didnt meet her as much as i use to ba.. when then can we go back to last time?? haiz...

i juz took up lotsa tuition classes... every week do 5 days.. i think i really siao le.. ahahaa... nvm lah.. tired better than nth to do.. then anyhow think.. hee

HAPPY NEW YEAR! it's the 1st day of 2006! a new year.. a new start?? hee...
had a little celebration last night.. BBQ at my hse.. with my bro's grp of frens, n my poly grp of frens. Initally there were lotsa conflicts n stuff.. but end up.. it was a fun event.. hee.. enjoyed!!

LY, WY, YP, XH, TH, WJ, KG, YH and PW were invited. At 1st we were toking abt staying overnight at my hse... end up.. YP, LY decided not to stay overnight, then WY oso... then TH sick cant come, XH cant make it either.. to tell the truth.. i was really disappointed le.. can u imagine.. u spend so much time and effort.. then ur respond was... 'hey, i cant make it'... but of coz i noe i canty blame them...
yesterday, it was raining heavily.. then we were wondering r we able to BBQ.. n i gave it till 6pm.. to see if the rain would stop.. well.. meanwhile things happne.. n i was totally pissed!! 1st.. muz apologised to XH if my tone yesterday wasnt gd.. coz i was really not in gd mood yesterday.. woke up late.. rush down to work w/o eating anything.. plus all the sms.. n rain...
ok.. i admit tt when YP called i nearly wanted to shout at her.. but i chose to kept quiet.. coz nt YP's fault.. i'm juz feeling pissed.. YP, if i hurt u or anything.. i'm sorry.. i really didnt mean it de... then i totally sian half...

of coz.. end up.. rain stopped, ppl arrived... n of coz.. had fun... at 12midnight.. they went down to the beach to watch fireworks.. then after that the girls went back.. left YH, PW, KG n WJ.. we played all sorts of stupid games.. drank quite a lot too.. then i think KG abit HIGH le.. haha.. drank too much.. wahaha...

abt 3.. YH n PW went back.. my bro drove them back after he drove his frens back.. then WJ n KG stayed... me n my sis n the 2 of them sat in my lving room tok, crap, suan, sabo, laugh, lame.. till 9 sth in the morning.. none of us slept.. haha.. but of coz.. by tt time we were abit dreamy le.. so WJ n KG went off.. while me n my sis went to bed..

poo KG kana suan by me till dunno wat.. i think he went back home cry ba.. hahaa.. lucky he nt living on high rise building.. or else mayb can c on headlines ' Boy, 19, jumped down from building on New Year's Day' wahahaa.. ok ok.. cannot suan him le.. or esle sure got bao ying de!!! hee

Nw back to FYP!!!! HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's coming to the end of year 2005... thinking back.. wat have i done this whole year? wat had happen this whole year?? hmmm.... cant remember much oso leh.. hahaa... get into a r/s and out.. realised wat i really want? go crazier.... have i grown up?? i dunno... suan le.. nvm.. hahaa

juz my blog song to SHE new album song.. xie xie ni rang wo ai guo ni (谢谢你让我爱过你)... nice nice.. like the lyrics.. go find ba.. lazy to find it.. hee...

went to watch the promise on wed... not bad.. hee... stroywise oso nt bad.. actually quite romantic oso.. hahaa... didnt plan to watch de.. but since ppl suggest.. then juz go ahead with it lor.. turn out to be not bad..

let juz say.. on wed.. i'm happy.. yet disappointed.. disappointed coz i can see that i no longer the only one... there's someone creeping in...i mayb still someone significatcant in his heart... or mayb my position is being replaced le....well.. it's expected anyway.. haha..

Two days of fun.. or mayb shld i say 3 days of fun.. time to start work le.. go back to my FYP liao.. haiz... sianz...

After 24th BBQ.. 25th went to orchard with kg, mh.. they acc me do some last min shopping n oso see if got toys on sale to buy for my nephews... after that went over to cm's grandma place for BBQ again.. hahaa....

went there with yonghui, yanting, xueli and xian... later konghwei and jingjia joined us.. at 1st quite sian lah.. coz too many ppl.. so abit wierd wierd.. then yt n yh went play with that big dog lor... after that eat crap n drink.. not bad afterall... hahaa... cm's dad asked jj they all to drink.. n took out XO (i think) haha.. one of those hard liquor.. haha he gave the 3 guys each one cup diluted with water... haha end up we girls oso drink with them lor.. but nt nice de.. haha.. i like sweet sweet de better.. then after tt.. still got tiger beer.. siao liao lor.. i oso drink with them.. though nt much lah,... haha.. coz all i dun like tt.. hee... anyway, kana bomb again lor.. asking me n cm.. haiz.. tell them how many times le.. still dun understand... aiyo... they dun accept the reason as i used to have cm ard.. aiyo yo... haiz.. nvm lah.. lazy to explain liao.. hahaa...

this morning went swimming with cheryl, juliana and yt.. then after tt come back home rot.. wanna start on report de.. but really no mood.. so pack some stuff.. then went to sleep... jio kor go ktv.. coz long time no see him le... so evening went ktv with jj, kor and zw lor.. cheryl joined us for awhile.. the 3 of them.. sang really well lor.. go ktv with them ithink i satisfy juz sit down there n hear them sing can le.. kor is the singer.. the pther background voice.. they can belnd very well lor.. haha can join super band le... then i really think zw really sound like ah du.. hee.. kor.. forever so powerful de.. n i think he really got improve.. esp the high notes de... his 假音very nice lor.. hahaa...

then realised tt jj n kor picked up smoking.. asked them how long they started... they said long ago.. then i realised how long i haven meet them le... i've learned that i cant be so extreme like last time le.. wat my bro said is correct.. i cannot be so extreme le... alot ppl ard me smokes lor... so learn to accept.. but of coz.. those closer to me de will hear me nag lah.. wahahahaa... welll they still the same old ppl mah.. so aiyah.. dun care lor.. but if it casue my discomfort... then they die.. wahahha

Merry Christmas!!! hahahaa...
Juz came back frm BBQ.. small gathering of sec sch de... nice n fun.. n cosy.. hahhaa
great time..
kana sabo juz nw.. as usual.. haha with cm lor... who else.. haha.. ok..
ppl... listen up.. me n him impoosible le.. we wun go back together de.. at least in near future.. cannot say never.. u never noe.. wahahaha.... i dun think he will ever wanna me as a gf.. n vice versa.. we r nw still gd frens.. hahaa..
as for the unclear behaviour... blame me ba.. hahaa.. coz i too used to him le... xi guan.. become habit... :p
so on the whole.. we r only very very gd frens only... wahahahaaa

Anyway, go wrap presents le.. wahahahaaa

haha.. finally.. finish le.. finish e-learning assignment le.. now chiong FYP n IA report le.. haiz... when then can no need chiong???

abit sian.. hahaa xmas coming le.. muz prepare xmas gifts le,.. hee

I'm fed up! i'm damn piss!! i say i dun wanna care le!! i say as long as she happy.. i dun care who she wanna be with le!!!
but then.. still i was totally disappointed! angry?! i dunno... i dunno how to describe how m i feeling now... partly i'm hurt by wat my mom said to me.. she said i unreasonable, i'm ba dao... she said u think u very big ar? who r u?! u r nth to her.. so how can u interfer?
suddenly i woke up,... i'm nth to her... really all these yrs.. being sisters for life... coz of a guy.. i'm being labelled as nth to her..

another part is tt i cant see the fact y she still wanna go back to him?! i noe i really cant do anything... i noe she happy can le.. but i juz dun wanna be hurt again... i dun wanna her go thru tt hurtful experience once more.. i care abt her,.. i love her.. in fact i love her more than i love my bro n my sis... but then... haiz.. suan le lah..now then i noe... it wrong to care for one.. it's wrong to feel hurt for one... i give up... i sian le.... mommy say ppl so happy.. he bought her levis jeans for her.. give her this give her that... wao... so giving expensive gifts is show of loving her!? now then i noe... ok... then so be it... even her family oso can accept.. who m i to object? ppl wanna go out with who no need my approval!

wat mommy say is correct.. how can i be sure tt she'll be hurt by him once more?? mayb they will be very xin fu.. n happy forever... MAYBE... ok lor... if tt's the case.. i'll be happy for her... go ahead n be with him...

to whoever reading this, YES i'm ureasonable! i'm 霸道！hate me if u want.. dun like it.. LEAVE ME! DUN COME NEAR ME! i'm juz an idiotic person who have all the bad pts in the world... i nobody.. i'm nth... i'm nth to everyone.... so get away frm me b4 u hit one of my unreasonable waves!

I cried.. Finally i can cry.. i can still remember how to cry... dunno for how long le.. i didnt cry... coz i 4got how to cry.. coz grow up le.. cannot be like cry baby.. coz cry cant solve anything... nowadays i juz laugh it off... tt's y.. to poly ppl, i'm a strong girl.. who can keep cool when problems arise... actually mah... is coz circumstances made me to the way i'm now.. coz if i dun keep my head clear.. every1 oso kan jiong.. how to get work done?? who tell me to be older?? hahaa

actually have been accumulating le... ever seems last week or the week b4... when i started to rush all reports n fyp draft.. every night oso nt enough slp.. then of coz mood no gd le lor... then dunno where to vent... last time still got him to let me sha jiao.. though nw got yihang.. listen to all my grumbles... sometime oso suay suay kana suan or scolded by me for no reason ( for this.. muz apologise, sorry ar yh, n thanx).. but still feeling different... n nw got wj oso.. online crap with me.. listen to me... acc me till late nights (though i think most of the time, is pong qiao he there de.. haha.. but muz thank him anyway.. hehee).. sometime let me suan.. hahaa,, still.. HE IS not HIm... hahaa,, as for yp.. a lot of things cant tell her.. coz it will only stress her even more... yt n cm.. dun wanna them worry abt me.. so only grumble... but never cry in front of them coz i too stress... so accumulate.. till today my bro said sth wrong.. i bursted!! haiz.. my poor bro.. he is always the one who kana one of my those moods.. hee.. oso muz say sorry...

anyway, e-learning week start le.. a lot of assignement... *faint* sian diao... btw, will put all the assignment up in this blog.. feel free to use as check list.. hahahaa

Today we got our class gathering... very fun lor.. hahaa,, zac n yp.. no drink oso can high lor.. hmmm.. no no no.... zac got drink coke.. drink coke then he damn high le.. hahaa.. hyperactive.. took lotsa stupid photos... n of coz made wj take photo oso hee.. :p... muz thak you mr ng n his wife.. for letting us go their hse there bbq.. heee.. so nice.. wahahaa... actually whole thing was fun crazy.. n abit R21?? hahaha...

DAMN REPORT!! it's 0214... doing THAT FYP report... haiz... the results are so wierd!!! kaoz... wat else can i do???? sianz.. think wait till ly n xh come le.. then we discuss how.. haiz.... sian sian...

E-learning week start le.. everyday muz go up do assignment... then yt oso go off le... to bangkok.... hahaa.. this time round when she come back.. i dun think i've met her as much as i did b4... last few times when she come back.. we'd meet each other till c each other oso sian.. hahaa... but this time round.. she said we rarely meet.. true enough.. i realised tt... ever since poly chang acadamic calender... i dun seems to have time to meet her.... then somemore recently got so many reoorts... so being FORCED to stay at home to do... haiz... darling... sorry ar... when u come back frm Bangkok.. hopefully i'm free to rot with u till u sian of me.. hahaha...

read her blog juz nw.. saw her entry on the kite flying... hmmm... suddenly got a lot of 感触... when u juz started flying the kite.. the kite starting to get higher n higher.. one person ask u, ' wat if no more string le? will u let it go?' i guessed most will say 'i'll let go' as u can see that there r still so much left on ur hands... but it come to letting go of ur kite when there is no more string left.. u hold it tighter.. coz u dun bear... u dun wanna let go of it so fast.. as u r not mentally prepare.. it happended too fast... then.. b4 u noe it... ur hands loosen... kite fly away.. u gave a chase.. but cant get it back... how u feel? depress... disappointed...

this seems like the case in a relationship... the starting of a relationship... u say, if he wanna go.. u'll let go... but u never expect when will it happen as u juz started...u r confident... but when it really happen... it was too sudden to u... no matter how long u've been together... unknowingly, u let go... u tried ur best to save it... to get the relationship back.. but in vain... feeling sad n disappointed.. but tt's the end...
guess most ppl feel this way ba... 一段感情的结束，往往都让人措手不及

So long never update le.. coz the whole week was so bz.. cant even get gd night's sleep sia... haiz.. coz was finishing all reports... this is the last week of the sch term...n lotas things due this week... then somemore FYP muz hand in draft.. n i'm so so so tired sia... by the end of the week.. i was like dreaming throughout sia...

then finally, the last day of sch.. today... after submitting all the reports le... we decided to take a little break.. b4 starting to chiong a whole new set of assignment again... we went to ktv this afternoon... main reason is hope tt yp can c kz there... hahaha.. but dun think got yuan.. haiz.. sorry leh yp... make u disappointed...

today we went ktv with new kakis... whahahaa... n we got the shock of our life!! 1st, kg n wj n yh agreed to go ktv with us... then after we heard wj sing... we all stunned!!! coz it was sooooooo nice sia... whahahaa...

Anyway, yp, ly, wy, me, xh, wj, yh and me.. all 8 of us.. went ktv... still got free one for one promo... then additional 20% off.. so not really ex ar.. everytime we heard that ppl say wj singing very nice... like andy lau.. we tot they joking only.. coz wanna suan wj... however, we really how andy does he sound like... n guessed wat.. the moment he sang.. 每次醒来... all stunned... the whole room silent... coz.. it was soooo nice sia... really sound like andy lau lor... wy say she never can imagine tt wj can sing so well.... yp kana enchanted le... n me of coz lah... having a soft spot for guys who can sing n sing well... i was like... 'OMG!!!' ahahaa... hey, but that dun mean ANYTHING hor!!! but mayb i going to label him as my idol after my kor.. wahahahaa.... Mayb only.. hehee but hor... WJ.. brush up ur chinese lah... aiyo.. wahahaa

Then another interesting thing is yh lor.. he dun sing de mah.. then we dragged him to go ktv with us today.. n practically FORCED him to sing... then he kept crying that he ggave us his 1st time... his virgin voice... whahaha... actually he sing nt bad de lor... he dun dare only lor.. so soft... aiyo... suddenly i see a shy shy yh.. wahahahaha... nt very use to it sia..

then hor... we made yp n kg sing ming ming hen ai ni... when they sing.. we laughed.. wahahaha...

enjoy the day... feel relax.. haha

this is a song by 1st ladi - never be replaced.. shld be lah.. ahaha...
like the song the moment i heard it in Ebase Marina Square.. haha.. enjoy wo...

one week past again juz like tt... i'm broke!! wahahaa... coz need to pay for the laptop... starhub got this promotion mah.. upgrade intenet then got laptop for $299. hee.. then coz have been going out almost everyday.. spent $$ oso spent till siao liao lor... ahhaa...

Thurs, went watch movie with yt.. the show Perhaps Love... by Jacky Cheung, Zhou Xun and Jin Chen Wu... a very muscial type of movie.. juz like phantom of the opera like tt... n i like it.. not bad... story is quite nice leh... after that, went ah hui's hse had steamboat dinner with cm, cheryl, yt.... it's a late late dinner... hahaa... coz lcm n cheryl all came late mah.. cm got work b4 that..cheryl got mentoring meeting... so by the time we started eating is abt 10 plus liao lor.. eat till abt 1 sth.. ahahaha...

On fri, went shopping with yp n ly... go marina square... after renovation, marina square abit luan ar.. hahaha.... bought a new tortoise for my hp... lost my pair of tortoise le.. so nw get a new one.. hee... so happy....

then yesterday went tuition.. after tt come home,.. yt n xian at my hse... watch movie, watch show... then i cooked dinner for them... hee... after that cheryl n cm came.. all rot at my hse..

then today, later meeting yp they all study for tml quiz.. hahaha... n still got a few more reports to finish!!!

Wao, tired sia.. past few days... internet played tricks on me.. happy then let me online.. nt happy make me offline.. sian diao lor...

so many things due next week.. siao le... everyone chionging FYP report.. but ours like still haven do yet.. haiz... then got 3 reports due next week.. one data sheet.. one journal, then muz submit in the spinnovex poster by fri.... n next mon got another quiz... wao... sian... e-learning week got 2 tutorials, one big poj.... aiyo....

my ah ting ar.. went msia trekking for one day only... her leg bruised like dunno wat!!!! kaoz... dunno she go fighting or go walking de leh... muz make her guai guai stay at home these few days to prevent more injury.. but then again.. she at home oso will kana blue-black de.. hahahaa... suan liao... hahaa...

It's 0309... n i'm still rotting online... juz came back frm mentoring camp... juz bathe... waiting for hair to dry.. so come blog lor....

actually wanna stay overnight in sch de.. but then realised tt i got a test on mon.. so have to come home lor... though i dun c any difference coz now i still not sleeping... enjoyed the camp.. really sad tt i missed most of it coz of sch... poly changes the academic calender... so it's so different frm sec sch n uni... haiz.. tt's y now i trying to battle with my reports n quizzes... while my mentoring can have camp...

LOVE THE MENTEES!! hahaa... they were so fun loving.. so cute... really miss them sia... actually was thinking of giving up mentoring le.. coz i was so stressed up n so tired... but today.. go le... well... hard to give up lah... haha.. the sec 2s especially... they were so wonderful..
really proud of the graduated mentees.. like jason, wee keong, sebastian... the camp they did the planning, the leading... n heard sebastian is quite a leader.. gd gd... of coz there's certainly be hiccups... n things tt they missed out or didnt realise... hope they can learned sth frm this experience...

Coz i Crazy of the show 恶作剧之吻，the background music is the ending theme of the show... and of coz.. the lyrics... hee...

歌曲：恶作剧

歌手：王蓝茵 专辑：恶作剧之吻原声带

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险
请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息

我才发现你很耀眼
请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼
没有人了解
没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋

我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧
你给的恶作剧

Today had the 1st quiz of the sem... juz hope tt i did ok.. haha... having confident n reality is always different,, hehee...

These few days have been so crazy,... laugh till siao... everyday crap with zac, yh, wj, kg... sometime can laugh till stomachache de.. KG.. always famous of self-destruction... recently.. alot of them follow him self -destruct oso.. so we came up with this new term SDS - self-destruction syndrome... a new virus.. can spread easily de.. wahahaha....

Recently was crazy with a new show.. call 恶作剧之吻 by Zheng Yuan Chang n Lin Yi Chen... very nice.. funny... n zheng yuan chang... soooo handsome... esp when he tt kind of playful smile... n his tt wanna smile yet dun wana smile de 时候... 更帅！reminds me of...... well... nvm.. hahaha.....

that night.. was crapping with yh, yp n wy... n we came up with this Hall of Fame... call the 变态 hall of fame aka pervert hall of fame... ranking as below

0. YH
1. Zac, Terese
2. Wj, Wy, Yp
3. KG

Ranks r subjected to changes. Coz of threatening of the master... coz zac shld be 0 de.. n yh shld be 1 de.. but coz master was threaten.. so zac is demoted to 1, n yh promoted to 0.... hahaa

This week... i warched 2 movies... at 1st shld be 3 de.. but end up..didnt watch the 3rd movie.. mon went watch harry potter, wed watch Tom Yam Goong with LCM coz he got complimentary tix.. then tot thurs go watch show with Jm.. but then either the tix were sold out.. or no movie we wana watch.. haiz.. sian.. end up rot in PS with JM the whole day....

this week seems so bz... rushing thru a lot of things.. FYP, SPinnovex, Reports, Data sheets... haiz... headache ar... but wat to do... last sem.. our grp still haven not think of sth on IA... aiyo... jia lat sia... sian...

thurs... during EIC... our lecturer gave us a big scare.. haha.. i nearly sweared out loud.. hehee actually in SP almost 6 sems le... attended 4 LC modules... only like this EIC lecturer... the 1st time ever.. i wun drag to go for her class... the 1st time ever.. even late oso will rush to her class... coz she is funny.. n she is not boring.. n she wun make me feel like i'm attending ENGLISH lesson.. heee...

Today watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire at JP with Wenying, YeePei, Yanxin. We were so excited.. n really looking fwd to watch the show.... it's full hse.. initailly wanna watch 1630.. end up off sold out le.. so bought the 1800 tix..

then we went to food court.. have our dinner... n gossip.. cannot imagine.. WE CAN REALLY GOSSIP SIA... haha..

anyway, we went into the cinema 10 mins b4 6 i think.. n the crowd was.. WAO... think coz nw school holiday.. so a lot of kids lor... the 4 of us found our seats... n settled down.. behind us got 4 kids.. listen carefully.. 4 BOYS!!!

anyway, GV is famous to have an at least 10 min advertisment.. during tt 10 mins... the youngest boy of the grp behind us... ran up n down to the toilet for 4 times.. everytime he go he'll say "i too excited le, ugent..." in chinese.. OMG!!

here's another incident.. oso during advertisment
Boy 1: wao... the advertisment very long leh
Boy 2: aiyah, it's like tt... got at least 10 advertisment de
(yp n tyl n tyx already got water droplets le... yp say next time watch advertisment muz count)
Boy 1: wao.. then now advertisment no wat le?
Boy 2: shld be 7 or 8 le...
(TYL, TYX, YP, all faint)

YP say... next time we muz remember to count the advertisment... haiz...

then.. show started.. the no longer wanna go toilet... we THOUGHT FINALLY we will have peace.. but well... thru out the show.. we'll have a boy telling the other boys wat will happen next... with a volume whereby we can hear it clearly EVERY single word.. haiz.. so i say, we have a fortune teller... then yp say we can packed up n go le.. coz we noe wat happen le.. wahahaa..

the 4 of us.. feel like killing them sia... haiz... got one time.. we were so excited.. coz it was in suspense... dunno wat will happen.. then the boy behind juz say.. 'hey, he wun die here.. he'll die other place'... all 4 of us sank back into our seats.. secretly saying THANK YOU to the boy!!!

then halfway thru, a boy ask the youngest boy 'hey, this part is boring, u wanna go toilet? i acc u'
so.. the two boys ran up n down again.. to the toilet.. aiyo!!!!! finally, near the ending of the show.. credits haven even show hor.. the youngest boy ask.. 'so the baddie didnt die ar?' the 'mr. noe it all' boy replied, ' no... the baddie will die at the last last vol'... wao.. interesting... fortune teller tell us wat will happen not only wat will happen in this movie.. but oso in the future part....

For ppl who still wondering how come we can hear their conversations so clearly.. coz these boys dunno wat is call lower their volume... they spoke in the volume tt even if we dun feel like listening.. oso muz listen.. haiz...
SO much for a movie sia...

hmmmm... so late le.. i still online rotting.. juz finished watching vampire show mah... a date with vampire 3.. hee.. very lame.. very chim.. n oso very touching...

anyway, finished one of the report.. n data sheet.. tt is due on tues... fri de.. haven even touch it.. haiz... then muz do fyp de report... bz bz bz... think 1st quiz coming up le...

tt day Effective Interpersonal Communication class... teacher asked us.. we wanna be married/single/unmarried but live with partner... realised alomost whole calls choose married... as for me.. i chose single... a few yrs back.. if u asked the same qns.. i'll choose married.. but nw i wanna be single... coz i dun think i can find the guy who i love, n will love me de.... very difficult ba... simin once told me, i shld stop watching all my idol dramas.. coz it made me think n hope for a guy who dun exsit in this world de... hahaha...

actually wat i want is very simple mah.. i muz feel comfortable with him.. n i muz love him.. he muz love me... he muz be a man.. who noe when how to take care of me... protecting me.. yet muz be like a kid.. who will make me laugh.. will make me feel tt i have to take care of him... hee... as for i everytime say guy muz be at least 175cm.. is crap lah.. got means bouns.. no oso nvm... hehe... not much hor... but still cant find.. hahaa.. yanxin say this kind of man is out of the world.. ahahaa... then i shall be single!! hahaa...

This has become a dumping ground... where i dump all my complains here... coz i dunno where else can i dump le... all my frens all r already having headaches with their own stuff... so better burden them with more...

Very sian.. FYP not smooth lor... due to the SPinnovex thingy... we got lotsa extra work to do.. like the SPinnovex magazine write up.. blah blah.. then FYP report haven finish, more reports are dued soon... then this sem got another proj, IA.. we gotta think of a pdt which we can add flavour, muz do the packaging... it involves 3 modules!!! haiz... so many things to do... n i'm stress.. yet have to keep my cool... coz the more i kan jiong... the more i cant get things done de...

FYP tt chocolate.. haiz.. results r not wat they expected to be... n keep suspecting our methods... our calculations... we spent the whole holiday coming back everyday to do, then sch reopen le still doing lor... n the machine dun wanna cooperate... end up it took us longer time.. we worked till 6pm then leave sch.. n better still the wheather was against us oso.. w/o waring.. it started pouring while we were halfway to mrt station.. so... expected... WE WERE WET frm head to toe... n were so cold... we checked n re-checked n rechecked again to make sure there's nothing wrong.. n calculations do n redo n redo again... arghhh... wat else can we do? the results r like tt wat... haiz

then things didnt help at all when i quarrelled with lcm tt day.... sian lah.. dunno wat's with him.. dunno wat's with me... haiz... wat i need now is comoforting words... to make me calm down, relax.. so i know i can cont'd with my work... i noe i can do it de.. is juz tt too many things happen at 1 time.. i started to suspect my ability... wat i want is juz comofrting words.. letting me noe no matter wat... my frens... those i considered impt will be there for me.. i dun ask much wat... haiz.. suan liao.. back to my work le...

Wao.. cannot imagine it!! our project was selected to exhibit in SPinnovex 2006 which will be held in Jan (19th - 21st) dunno to feel excited or wat... haiz.. coz ms toh told us today that our project will be on of the highlighted project.. meaning we'll be videoed... n a lot of extra stuff lor.. our grp, n matthew's grp.. frm wat i noe...

haiz... report yet to finish... more reports coming in... n nw this.. my final sem is not easy sia... feel tt so many things piling up.. n now i muz start work le.. but i juz cant bring myself up to work!!! where is my motivation!!!??? argghhh.... i need to start my work le... haiz... sian

today, my students all fly me aeroplane.. so i no need go work.. haiz.. $30 less... sian... but wat to do.. they after exam liao.. ppl withthe right sense of mind wun go tuition de lor.. wahhahaa.. sianz...

these few days wasnt in very gd mood.. so ppl somehow or rather... kana my idiotic attitude... i apologise here... wahaha... very moody recently.. abit of thing oso can piss me off.. ting asked if it PMS... i say mayb.. hmm... but i think i noe too well y i so moody ba... haiz..

really thanx ppl who beside me.. no matter if they 有意，无意... those who make me laugh n forget abt wat m i moody abt.. hahaa.. thanx zac, hang, wj, n kg.. for the idiotic, funny n crazy toks.. wahahaa... they really can make one 4get things... thanx ly, yp, xh,wy.... entertaining me... tolerating my moody behavior.... thanx my darling ah ting... hehe... always there to listen all my complains... all my whinings.. (sopmetime oso scold me for being stupid.. hjahaha) n lame me.... ok.. this 'lame me' portion.. i think above mentioned names.. all did it... n really can lame me till i cannot get up de... wahahaa.....

Change the background to blinking stars... think not so messy liao.. wahahaa...
Anyway, also change the song to MayDay - Ya Guan (牙关).. Like this song alot.. very nice... lyrics wise... oso not bad.. hehee....

牙关
演唱:五月天
词：阿信 曲：怪兽

放肆的尽情挥霍 那一年玩的多疯
你和我 站上全世界的最快乐 的巅峰
等着雨停的午后 你希望此刻永久
而现在 永久就是永久的牢笼
让我一直在等候 等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待 ..

然后咬紧了牙关 等待更多的等待

如果你 爱过我 你不会就这样走
就这样 丢下我 和那些天真承诺
如果我 再也不 不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后 却又咬紧牙关

你最爱哪个歌手 最爱吃什么火锅
最爱把 小小的脸 轻轻的靠在 我胸口 　
这城市每个角落 回忆都霸占街头 　
我知道 你会想起雨停的时候
我知道你会回头 等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待 ..

然后咬紧了牙关 等待更多的等待

如果你 爱过我 你不会就这样走
就这样 丢下我 和那些天真承诺
如果我 再也不 不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后 却又咬紧牙关 继续漂流

继续等候

Today, after pract... was still early.. so went to JP have lunch.. with ly, wy, yp, xh.... well... crap most of the time... wahahaa... hmmm.. always very depress when i at JP.. but of coz.. with the girls ard.. never a dull moment....

xh accidentally dropped a bowl of prawn noodle... n juz nice my bag was there... so end up.. my bag got prawn smell.. prawn flavor.. wahahaa.. yp told me ly is crazy abt prawn.. so sure love my bag.. hahaa...

we went walking ard in JP.. looking at everything n anything... typically rotting... then we went into value $ shop... didnt find anything interesting... then we saw the machine.. tt u put in $1 coin.. got capsule come put.. then inside got cute cute figurine de.. i told them my sis juz bought one orange de.. then yp n wy were the 1st to be so excited.. coz it was cute.. it's the smilely got head tt can nod de.. hehe... anyway, wy put in the coin 1st, n she got a yellow de... then yp tried.. nshe got a pink de.. then ly got orange de... then xh went to exchange for coins.. coz she oso tempted le... she got a blue de... then i oso exchange coins.. n guess wat.. i got the dang ou's colour.. wahahaha...for those who dun watch frog prince n dunno wat is dang ou colour, it's green.... hee then xh wanna play again... n she got the same green de.. hehee... wanna get it for th.. wahahaa...

then we say mon, we put tt on our bags.. wahahahaa

anyway, went back home.. sleep a while.. then go out west mall meet JM.. long time no see this guy le.. finally he this man wanna come down frm his hill top n come meet me... tell him alot of things.. frm huixian's recent problem.. my recent problem... blah blah.. i think i was the one who did most of the toking sia.. hahaa.. he listen.. he always listens... no matter how i keep grumbling.. he always there to listen.. BEST FREN!! hahaa.. anyway, he seems to be very troubled... ask him wat.. he juz say sian... hmm.. so i gueess... coz now exam period.. then he damn sian lor.. juz hope he after exam then ok le... :p

tt day, went over to find yihang n zac during lunch break.. coz i running away frm sth n someone.. so left frm fc 1 to fc 3 to find hang n zac... didnt have lunch tt day.. coz too many ppl so very sian... n oso no mood to eat...

anyway, was crapping with zac n hang... was toking abt wat to do after we graduate... for the both of them of coz go NS... as for me.. i'm very tired of studying.. so of coz go work le.. then hang tell zac i wanna open cafe... then i told them i changing my mind.. i wanna open steamboat restaurant... then hang say can get food supply for zac.. hahaa... zac say he gimme cheapest price.. haha.... so my shop haven open.. already got supplier liao.. wahhahaa..

then they were toking abt going overseas to study after NS.. of coz.. tt 2 rich boys... going overseas of coz no prob.. haha.. i was thinking.. if i work for the 2 yrs when they in NS.. mayb i can save enough to go study after 2 yrs with them... provided i earn enough n save enough.. hahaha... i told them... they say.. of coz... we go NS.. u work.. then got money.. we 3 go study together...
they go find apartment, buy car... i resposible for their 3 meals.. then i say they go buy everything.. wahahaa... zac say.. at the end of 1 yr +... i'll be the richest of the 3.. hee...

actually.. above was really crapping.. though really have in mind to sudy.. TYL.. though keep saying very tired le.. wun be happy if she didnt get degree de.. haiz.. human beings r always so 矛盾 de.. however.. really muz c financially if i'm able anot... money is a very very big prob.. esp 1 yr + not in SG... cant work... have to use my savings n parents' money.. hmmm... well.. we'll see how lor... hang.. dun come after me if i cant make it at the end of 2 yrs.. hahaa... then u n zac.. happy 二人世界吧. hee....

Time flies... one yr passed.. last yr.. at this pt of time, i was preparing... to leave for Bangkok, Thailand for ITP for 5 weeks... one yr flew passed juz like tt....

一年前的今天，我出国的前一天。
一年前的今天，我们最后一次高高兴兴地出去的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次打电话给我问我你该穿什么出门的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次在电影院里让我靠的一天。
一年前的今天，我最后一次在你怀里撒娇的一天。
一年前的今天，你最后一次抱着我说‘一个月很快就过去’的一天。
一年前的今天，你给我你那温柔、可爱的笑容的最后一天。
一年前的今天，你拉起我的手的最后一天。
一年前的今天，你紧紧搂着我的最后一天。
一年前的今天，我们快乐时光的最后一天。

well... one yr le... yt said it's not tt i cant forget, is i dun want to 4get.. haha.. well, mayb ba.. but wat i noe for sure tt this will be part of my memory... for a long long time... i wun hold on to it though.. hee... today shall be the last time i mourn for this loss... today is the last day, i'm going to cry over this matter...

Today rot whole day at home.. still playing warcraft.. this time frozen throne.. ahahaha... jia lat... addicted till siao le..
anway, forced myself to look at the FYP experimental results... haiz... all wierd wierd de... the results are not the same as wat they claimed... jia lat.. dunno is we do wrongly.. or the nutrients r lost somewhere during processing... haiz.. now having headache.. dunno wat to do with the results le...

mommy complained tt i didnt help her out in hse work.. only noe how to play game... haiz...end up she wanna me to hang out the laundry for drying lor.. then i do lor... since she complained liao.. dun do... she will nag 4eva de... those who come my hse b4 will noe tt my hse dun use those bamboo kind to dry laundry de.. we used those foldable kind de... then can hang in balcony to dry de mah... i pushed the hanger to kitchen to put up the laundry.. then was abt to pushed back to the balcony.. the thing suddenly collasped... n folded up. n better still with my finger stucked there.. SO PAINFUL!!!!! i was screaming.. then mommy ran out frm her room.. she saw me n the folded hanger.. she scolded me...say do one thing oso make so much noise.. haiz.. my finger pain leh.. then i tell her i hurt my finger... very painful... she say ask me do one thing i go hurt my finger... while pulling my finger n see how bad it was...

OMG!!! as if i beg tt thing to injured my finger de leh.. wao lao... my finger so pain... i not so stupid to hurt myself juz to escape frm hsework leh.. haiz.. my finger swelled... n so painful.. even touch lightly oso feel the pain.. now i'm typing with my 4th finger high up in the air.. ahahaha...

juz nw after hurting my hand.. my mom put some overdued medication on my hand.. then say as long as i dun put into my mouth... i wun have any fatal danger... (-_-!!) then i cont'd with my frozen throne... she saw... she say.. wao.. hurt finger le still can play ar... then i showed her how i hold my mouse... hahaa... she almost fainted.. n heck care me .. hehee...

nw it's swelling no more... but still pain... haiz.. but i still wanna cont'd with the war.. wahahahaa...

SCh reopen.. but coz this week got 2 public holiday.. n oso the 1st week of sch.. so nothing much in sch... we seem like having hoildays for an extra week... mon go sch.. then tues is deevapali, wed no class.. but go do FYP, then today (thurs) hari raya, then tml(fri) no pract, so no sch... wahahaa...

Finally finish the experimental part of FYP... now left report n posters for the SPinnovex.. hahaa.. this sem got another big proj... call the intergarated assignment (IA) which concern the grades of 3 modules... aiyo... n muz work in grp of 4.. I HATE starting of sch sem.. where we nned to look for grps... haiz.. suan liao.. life is like tt... 人在江湖 身不由己。we cant do lotsa things in our own way.. like wat yp say.. yi da ju when zhong... haiz...

these few days, wasnt in a very gd mood... hse got lotsa things happen... uncle hospitalised, but he discharged yesterday le.. daddy leg pain, yet no time go get injection... then gotta work more than 12 hrs a day... then me myself facing lotsa prob... sian sian sian..... juz hope things r not wat i imagined... juz pray hard tt it's me who is thinking too much....

hmmm... iwebtunes no more le.. so no songs.. then finally found another way... hee.. then got song le... this song is Bye! Boy by 7 flowers... it's frm wang zi bian qing wa OST de.. hahaha.. n I HVAE FINISHED THE WHOLE SHOW!!!! so happy... coz ending so sweet so nice... yes.. a lot of ppl dun like the show.. coz they feel tt it is too fairy tale... too kua zhang.. BUT!!! pls take a closer look at the cover of the VCD, it write: 一部美力，童话般的爱情故事。they already stated there le... it's a fairy tale.. so ppl who dun like can jolly welll dun watch.. dun go watch liao.. then keep condemning it... say it's so not realistic, blah, blah, blah... FAIRY TALES R NOT REALISTIC!!!
ok.. finished on my wang zi bian qing wa le.. hehe...

Now... today is the day on huixian's 21st bdae celebration... we planned for a mth.. to give her a surprise party... her mom got the place.. my job is to drag her time till the real party started!! so i met her in the morning, we went bugis... telling her lotsa lotsa lies.. making her worry n sad.. then make her try clothes.. till she tired.. then bought her a dress... hee.. actually we planned to give her a make over de.. hehee... the yx very naughty.. 1st tell xian she got bf le.. n was quarrelling with him... then tell her tt we helped her make over was coz tt at night we going for a match making session... to think tt TYX can coem out with this kind of idea!! so stupid lor.. but my dear ah xian really believe it lor.. thru'out the shopping trip, she was so worried... n so stressed.. so scared tt her legs turned jelly n need the support of pillar.. wahahahaa.... ( i not kua zhang!! she reallly damn scared... )

then we actually booked an appointment with estee lauder.. for a make up.. for xian de.. who noes... tt make up lady went for dinner... when we reached!!! n WE WERE RIGHT ON TIME... we booked 4pm.. then they told us tt the make up lady's dinner time is 4pm.. if this is the case.. y didnt they inform us earlier when we making the appointment!? haiz... n the person there dun evenbother to help us think of a solution!! OMG!! end up... we do it on our own.. ok lah.. not we.. is xian herself n cheryl.. hehee... TYL of coz cant help ppl make up de lah.. sure cmi de.. hehee

today can say not very smooth lor... coz 1st the make up thing.. then yx called n say the place cant play the movie we made for xian!! i almost fainted... yx spent so much time on it,... n we cant play!!! end up.. thanx to cheryl's laptop n projector.. then we can watch... really muz thanx cheryl.. she did lotsa things today sia.. CHERYL THANX THANX.. MUACKZ.... hehee u saved the say.. haha...

anyway, when xian reached Yishun Safra... we met her mom!! suay!!! they not suppose to meet de lor.. haiz.. tot our surprise failed le.. but.. hee... she never tot tt so many ppl were there.. when we went in.. she was shocked!!! she bursted into tears!! coz she didnt expect so many ppl were there.. tt was the 1st shock.. 2nd shock was tt her two best frens frm taka (Brian n Kaiting) came... she was so surprise... coz she didnt noe how on earth i can contact them.. heee (this call, tyl is resourceful, hahaa) then the finally shock... which made her cry till dunno wat.. is the video, the video we made.. made her laugh.. made every1 laugh.... it was YT's LOOONNNNNGGGG NAAAAGGGGGGGGYYYYY video tt made her cry till dunno like wat... cheryl n i was so worried abt he make-up getting smudge.. haha..
Yt.. we didnt finished the whole video lah... half way thru, my aunt ask.. how come yt so naggy de.. hahahaa... :p wahahahaa... but i think will finish watching it once she reach home...

can say was a success... with little hiccups... then she got her surprise.. i think quite unforgettable ba.. hee...

hmmm today the party was held in a ktv room.. n i realised tt xian's cousin can sing well.. very nice... n for the 1st time in my life.. i didnt get the hold of the mic... haiz...一山还有一山高。。 his stamina better than mine sia.. whole night he singing.. hahaha.. n i no chance get... hahaa.. ermmm... no no.. is coz i shy.. dun dare to sing in front of so many pple.. haha....

tml sch start le.. so fast.. haiz... think i'm falling sick.. tml get MC.... wahahaha

I'm back.. frm Genting... well, Cheryl 4gotten tt i went off... to think tt she was trying to contact me for the past few days... haha... anyway, it's a long time since i went to genting... changed quite abit...

this time round.. i can openly go into Casino... n of coz.. the security wanna check my IC (as usual).. n i proudly showed him... whahahaa.. coz tyl is 22 le.. juz tt ppl dun c it only... hee.. actually dun quite like casino... coz very smoky there.. yucks... played jackpot.. lose all the way!!! sian... guess i juz dun have the luck...
didnt go to the outdoor theme park.. as it's only me n my sis wanna play, will play n dare to play...n we felt it's like not fun lor... scream oso we 2 scream.. not high... so might as well dun go... end up we went to wacth movie... it's sooooo cheap.... RM8.. which is less than S$4... watched Andy Lau's latest movie, Wait till U Grow Up (童梦奇缘).. A NICE MOVIE!!! really very nice.. muz go watch... very touching... a movie tt really have depth... one phrase 人生可悲的是不能重来，可喜的是它不用再重来。JM used it as his nick.. i tot he suddenly become so 有墨水... chey.. copy de... hahaha...

anyway, i stopped over at Malacca (b4 going Genting, n b4 coming back to SG)... i today i kept emphazing on the fact tt i was in Malacca... i think LY almost went crazy.. hahaha... i purposely kept tellng her i at Melacca mah.. whahahaa...

At Genting.. saw this huge Doraemon outside a shop... i went crazy... n wanna take photo with it.. then tyx say very xia suay... coz we in shopping centre... then we bet to c if Ben will wanna come xia suay with us mah... who noes.. he agreed... to help us take photo... hahah.. then me n tyx really go posed in front of tt doreamon lor.. hahahaa


saw lotsa stuff.. but didnt buy.. coz thailand cheaper.. I MISS THAILAND!! so i muz really save for my thailand trip! hmmm.. no more KTV.. n ex ex meals... so dun jio me go to those ex ex places... unless necessary.. hahahaa...

dunno wat happen to lcm... heard frm cheryl he was depress... then go ask him.. he dun wanna tell.. then since he bad mood.. i acc him play game... then oso dunnno wat happen.. suddenly, he say i fan!!! kaoz.. i'm juz tooo stupid to show concern over someone who thinks i'm fan lor... haiz... sometime i was thinking y i like to torture myself.. caring for this kind of ppl.. haiz... sian sian sian... then now he gimme attitude.. wao lao... haiz.. suan liao.. next time i juz heck care every1... no need to show concern to any1... coz end up ppl will juz say U FAN!

Finally, i'm back online.. idiotic internet connection.. dunno wat happen.... juz cannot contact for the past 2 days.. n i cant come online... then was so sian lor.. now then i realised how addicted to comp.. to internet.. once i dun have internet.. i bored to death sia...

sat.. after tuition.. realised nobody at home.. so means no dinner... haiz.. call tons of ppl.. all cant make it.. everytime like tt de.. anyway, I FAILED!!! haiz.. i smsed him.. though no reply frm him ( as usual, dunno wat excuse he giving again), i still fail.. coz i contact him 1st.. haiz.. suan liao..

anyway, coz nothing to do.. alone at home.. no internet.. so started playing warcraft again lor.. haha.. actually finished the whole campagin liao.. but too bored mah.. so start the whole thing again.. well, i'm addicted to it again.. oh no... sch reopen soon.. now addicted means jia lat le.. ahahaa....

tyx n tyw came home.. so we called pizza home delievery.. too lazy to go out le lah.. somemore sat night.. sure lotsa ppl de.. i hate places packed with lotsa ppl.. so... asked them come back.. we call home delievery... mommy came back.. she faint lor.. coz she say we eating junk food again.. hahaa...

Today results are out... i did.. ermm.. average lor.. though of coz... still lower than my expectation... so abit disappointed... n hence, whole day not in a very gd mood lor... abit sian.... coz have not been doing well since yr 2.. going to be last sem liao... already got no strength to carry on... coz input never = to output.... ppl only c results.. only see grades.. not gd, they will start asking, 'how come so lousy?'.. 'u didnt study ar?'.. 'u slack izzit?' cant they see the process? how much time n effort ppl put into? grades... do they really indicate ur cabilities?? but wat to do.. we r in SG.. n SG require to look at GRADES!! wat they want is the outcome not the process.... i'm really really very tired le.. guess will not cont'd to further study liao...

then during lunch.. my mom n bro nagged me the whole day... i was so fed up... haiz... nv have peace sia... then my mom tell me sth... i was stunned... now i'm scare... really scare... dunno wat to do... i feel so lost... my mom said... daddy had been complaining tt his arms r numb. then tt day went c doc.. doc say mayb symptoms of stroke... so wanna him go for a brain scan... i noe nuts abt this.. wat i noe is tt my dad is not as energertic as b4.. but this is normal.. since age is catching up.. now i get to noe this.. i'm totally stunned!! wat m i doing?! i was always the most sensitive de... can noe wat's happening ard me.. but how come now like tt?? have i been not caring for my family for a long time? i dunno.. ah ting got ask me if i ok today mah.. i told her i'm fine.. coz i really dunnno how to explain to her abt my fear... my fear of losing my dad.. the one who will laugh, will bully me, will fight with me de... the one who will bring me ard.. telling me where got nice thing to eat.. the one who will bargain for me..

i feel so lonely suddenly... i dun wanna tell mommy.. coz she herself facing lotsa problems... n i dun wanna burden her with somemore.. n oso dun wanna scare her.. coz she is oso really afraid tt it's really stroke... it's juz tt she dun wanna say it out.. she told me... 'it's time u really have to grow up le'...

i'm so idiotic.. 当我家可能面对极大的考验时，我还只为了一个不懂得珍惜友谊的人而伤心。comparing them.. i'm stupid for being sad for such a small matter... haiz... no way i'm thinking abt any relationship.. no way thinking abt how come he become like tt or watsoever... now wat i'm going to do is to find ways to help my dad to prevent or delay the onset of stroke!

Haiz... really very sian... everyday go sch.. juz hope to finish the experimental part of our FYP earlier... then today... tt Fibretec spoil... then cant do... haiz... our progress is delayed now lor... the at 1st dun wanna follow mommy they all go genting.. coz scare cannot finish.. but after we plan our time properly... our last week is free... HOWEVER, now tt machine break down... our last week of sch have to go back sch...

then last week.. mon, tues, wed... lab close.. coz renovation.. so cant do oso.. juz nice.. the dates they going genting.. so end up i still follow them lor... hmmm... go up there relax, n have peace ba.. n do some thinking... n clear everything out frm my mind ba.. mayb.. juz mayb.. hahaa

anyway, on the way back.. saw a familar face.. but cant remember who.. so i juz heck care lor.. who noes, he come n call me... n i looked at him.. n realised it was my pri sch classmate, joker.. aliman.. last time, i was in very gd terms with him.. he everytime sure do things to make me laugh or amaze de.. hahaa.. he remembered me.. n still call tell his gf my name.. hahaha... amazing.. hahaa..

then met mr peng, cheryl at cwp at night, mr peng... juz come back frm thailand.. hahaha.. of coz got buy things back for us lah.. so nice of him.. hahaa.. thanx, ah hui.. haha... actually was quite surprise tt mr peng yong hui, darren remembers i like doraemon... hhahaha... so touch.. so happy.. hehe... he bought me a doraemon mat... n bought cheryl eeyore.. haha...

after tt we go meet LCM.. then was chitchtting.. n we plan n hope to go thailand in dec.. jio them go in march after my exam, they dun want... they say go dec.. hmmm.. hopefully i wun be too bz to go.. hahahaa... then we'll shop for our new yr clothes!! hehee...

went thru a lot of photos... saw photos tt r 20 yrs ago.. 10 yrs ago.. or a few yrs back.. n guessed wat.. saw LCM's 19th bdae cake.. n realised it was so cute... we so gd to him ar.. made such a cute cake for him.. hahaa... then saw my 21st bdae photos.. though it's juz last yr.. but seems like long time ago le.. coz tt one yr.. lotsa things happen.. n when looking at the photo, a lot of memories came into my mind.. n i still can feel the pain in my heart.. haiz... if i can stop the time.. i really wish time will stop at one yr ago... b4 i went thai.... but i cant... n i have to move fwd.. so... cannot think so much le....

well... time to go n sleep le... if think so much.. cant sleep.. then jia lat.. hhahaa

Morning went to Riverside.. to talk to the graduating classes abt the alumni mentoring... 1st time tok in front of so many ppl lor.. me legs were so wobby.. lucky thing... nt to the extend of making me fall down sia.. hahaha.. me n cheryl went.. after the talk.. cheryl then tell me she oso scare.. oso got jelly legs.. hahahaa....

i dunno if the tok is a success mah.. coz didnt stay till the end.. n oso... jason wee keong they all come sign up mah.. they say they joining us le.. but apart frm them.. really dunno still got who joining lor..

went sch do fyp.. today xh leg cramp.. cant go sch.. so ly whole morning 1 man show.. really li hai sia... hahaha... n oso muz thank yp... she came down n help ly out.. think can liao.. i can leave the stuff with them n go holiday liao.. hehehe.... since ly can 1 man show all the way.. n finished so many stuff.. hee..
however, the dietary fibre machine... feel like strangling it lor... TMD.. so slow.. was filtering for 3 hrs.. still cannot!!! do till 1830 today lor...!!! kaoz... idiot de leh... so fed up...then end up i no time go home have dinner... muz go tuition le...

today class.. as usual... NOISY! was very tired liao lor.. rushing here n there the whole day... then they make so much noise!!! kaoz... haiz...

a few days ago.. saw this cute little tortoise hp accessory at More Than Words.. so cute!! so nice.. fall in love sia.. but it's $5.90.. ex lor.. then oso come across the same tortoise pencilcase... so cute n nice oso, however cost $9.90... haiz... really wanna buy... but like abit ex hor... dunno lah... LY fall in love with tt tortoise hp accessory oso.. she say c who 1st to buy.. hahaa.. i say wanna c who wanna buy for me... but she say if like tt.. sure she 1st to buy de.. coz nobody will buy for me.. haiz... nvm... i'll consider if can buy mah.. i go buy for myself.. heehe

I got the worst news of the century today!! My mom told me she wanna my sis to come back to my room to sleep with me!!! Oh No!!!! For those who noe my hse pattern.. u all shld noe tt my sis had left my room to slp with her bro (my bro oso lah) more than a yr ago.. since then i've been sleeping alone in MY OWN ROOM!

i put up my 5566 posters, filled the whole room with stars, doraemon n pigs.. now... today... my mom come n say.. she wanna change my bed frm horizontal to vertical.. so me n my sis can sleep side by side!!! OMG! this is still ok.. then my mom say room is divided into half.. so the wall oso.. which means i have to take down my 5566!!! NO WAY! haiz

tt sis of mine.. tot she can conqure her bro's room... so moved over.. but my bro's empire too powerful... she cant conqure.. so now.. she using my mom's power.. together.. they wanna conqure my room!! so sad... i think i'll end up chase to go sleep balcony le.. sob sob... poor me!
then my mom now shifting it.. n guess wat.. half of my bed in underneath the platform... n where i put my doraemon n stuff?! the acc me everynight de lor!!! kaoz... haiz.. sad sad...

think cant sleep tonight liao... with extra member in my room... sianz...

everday go sch.. really very sian liao.. tml start, have to go sch 0830.. more sian..wat to do.. tt machine testing for dietary fibre de... need 8 hrs... so have to be early lor.. or else dunno muz work till wat time.. haiz...

today yp broke down again.. haiz.. this girl.. dunno muz tell her how many times.. dun think too much.. dun give herself unnecessay stress.. but then again.. aiyo... i think a lot of them kana scared by her lor.. KL for sure.. kana scared... the WJ n kg oso i think.. they tot they were the ones who made her angry n cry.. hahaa.. n of coz.. other ppl looking at them.. oso will think it's them de... hee...

hmmm.. we muz try nt to let yp think too much... she got too much on her mind le.. 忘不了的往日情，太多自己给于自己的压力... haiz... poor thing... but ly say she improved alot le.. at least tt tear glands nt as loose as b4 le.. mayb a few yrs down the road.. she can ren... hahaha...:P

Wao.. finally my story blog is up le... i create a blog.. specially for the story i writing.. so ppl can juz go the website to read n leave comments.. n i no need spend time sending email to every1.. hehee...

this is the blogsite: dreamystory.blogspot.com.... u can oso get the link frm this blog.. juz search it ba.. wahahaa..
muz go sleep le.. or else tml cannot wake up in time.. liyun gonna kill me liao...

Sat morning.. no need wake up early to go to mentoring... so slept till quite late. my mom called back frm mkt in the morning, asking my dad n my bro who at home. both of them told my mom only they 2 at home!!! n i was still in my room sleeping!!! n my room door was not close! haiz

end up.. my mom didnt buy my bfast... n of coz.. she cursed me all the way frm mkt back to hse.. cursing me y i go out didnt inform her... but the truth was : I STILL AT HOME!! juz tt the 2 dun bother to check if any1 else at home mah.. haiz.. poor me.. kana cursed for nth...

my mom asked if i wanna her to acc me go eat b4 my tuition.. i say no need.. lazy le.. so c home got wat things to eat lor...
it was raining heavily.. my dad went out to work... n he asked me to fetch him an umbrella... i cant find those big big de.. so i gave him de foldable de... n he looked at tt umbrella... then like tt turned away.. n walked away.. heck care me even i shouted ask him come back!!! TMD gimme wat attitude la!! Kaoz.. i didnt offend him leh... kaoz... then like tt gimme attitude... foldable umbrella cannot be used de meh?! kaoz!!!! as i say.. i really hate guys n their attitude!

went tuition... my K2... dunno wat happen... they so nosiy... n so naughty.. mayb i treat them too well le.. sian....

after tuition, i realised tt hse no ppl.. means i no dinner.. n no 1 acc me!!!! YT, WHERE R U?!... haiz.. called JM.. he at NTU mountain xiu lian, LCM coz of fish dun want me.. cheryl bz with her stuff... then i call ivan.. with my fingers crossed... he was sleeping... n he said he can meet me... love him so... 旧爱还是最美... hahaaa... ivan is the best!! hee... hahaa...

we met n go eat sushi... then gossip.. tok cock.. n of coz.. listen to his latest story.. he always got interesting story.. hahaha... after rotting in cwp... we went over to PS.. it's a gd thing tt he has a car.. hahaa.. go anywhere oso can.. after tt he send me home le.. he went watch movie with lyn... well.. as he say.. he is pei ke... hahaa... pei me till i wanna go back le.. then go pei the other... hee... then come back typed my story... feel like starting another story.. hehe...

Fall in love with this song.. by Rainie Yang 杨丞琳. Title: 暧昧 (ai mei).
for ppl who dun understand wat is the meaning of 暧昧 (ai mei) .. it is actually saying tt a relationship between two ppl is very unclear... for eg, u n the other party.. r very very close... till ppl really misunderstand both of u as a couple.. but the 2 of u never admit.. or 证实你们在一起 or say is impossible to be together.. yet r behaving like a couple...

dunno y.. the moment i heard this song.. i really like it lor.. mayb coz of the lyrics.. to some ppl out there, mayb u will feel tt the lyrics r telling ur story too.. i've changed my blog song to this song le...

暧昧
词∶姜忆萱/颜玺轩 曲∶小冷

暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃 连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里 毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情 还不到爱情 远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣 想太多是我还是你
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人 是不是同一个 真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃 连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心 直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你 写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽 停在这里

Back frm chalet le... mon, met kl, yy, marcus to go to buy stuff.. then go chalet... well... had fun.. hope all others oso enjoy.. whahaha...

YP.. became our maid sia... mopped floor... clean kitchen.. really like auntie leh.. hahaha... can fight with wy le.. wahahaa... then ly, tt sleeping beauty sia... hahaa... keep sleeping... then hor... yy n xh go drag her out of the bed... then drag her out of the room.. then make her lie outside the toilet... hahaa.. ly said she was shouting 'help' all the way... but no one save her.. only TH ran up.. n stand there look wat's happening.. whahahaa.... but hor.. i muz say.. we really didnt hear her shout.. ahahhaaa

then in chalet rot, sing ktv, watch movie, play mahjong.. hahaha... then they go play bowling.. got bet.. those who lost... muz wear socks.. pull to the highest... then wear slippers walk back to chalet, n BBQ for the winning grp.. wahahaa.. n it's so funny... hahaa...

muz thank every1 who made this possible.. hehee... actually, during the stay.. esp 2nd night.. was quite disappointed. but still ok lah.. coz 希望不高， 失望也不大 lor... so didnt affect me much.. juz a moment of disappointment...

didnt come home for 1-2 days only.. so many things happen.. the moment i reached home... i recieved a shocking news.. then mommy tell me another thing.. haiz.. life ... u never noe wat happen next.... juz hope everything, every1 will be fine...

Children's day over.. so is Yx bdae...haha... we so gd lor... buy so many things for her.. n even let her go ktv.. treat her leh... one most impt thing is that yonghui took photo with her lor.. tt's her best gift ba i guess... hahaa..

tyx n the guy WS (she liked de) got the same bdae lor... n noe wat... she wanna baked cookies for ppl's bdae gift... SHE NEVER SUCCED in baking edible cookies!!! n she wanna bake for him.. coz he like cars.. so she made the cookies into car shapes... n then say wanna to give him 18.. coz he 18 yr old.. so sweet rite?? her kor (my bro) jealous wo.. coz she never put in so much effort for any1 of us lor..... haiz... nw can c clearly... 有异性没人性

she ar.. begged me teach her baked cookies.. n the cookies she baked is at the expense of MY LIFE! Y? coz on sat... i was too bz to eat... morning meeting, then str go tuition... after tuition, i went to meet her to buy the ingridents.... n she wanna find POWERPUFF lunchbox for him.. so i gotta acc her walked round central... with my empty stomach.. it's amazing i didnt faint.. so i can say the cookies r atthe expense of my life.. whahahaa... then of coz.. i baked extras... n got car shaped cookies for lcm de... but he didnt wanna come meet us today.. so no chance let him eat the ccokies.. well if it's eaten away by others... then next time then bake again lor...

still got bball shape for ...... n golf ball shape for yihang... but then coz we liked the cookies so much.. end up ate all le.. so no more golf ball shaped n bball shapes de liao... haha.. sorry yihang.. hahaa.. but got lotsa no shape de cookies left.. sure will let u try de... hahaha

sat is children's day.. n i realised y i like to teach despite of having headaches n prob with kids nowadays... they are so cute.. n funny... n when u gave them their children's day gifts.. looking at their smiles... suddenly feels tt everything is worth it de... n they oso brought me back to the times when i was still recieving children's day gifts.. hee.. sweet memory.. hee...

later we'll have my chalet.. so excited.. yet abit disappointed.. but then.. nvm... i'm sure we'll have fun de...

Actually, i realised tt i'm as stupid as xian... wat right do I have to lecture her?! wat makes me feel this way.. well.. of coz sth happened... as for wat.. i really dun wish to say... actually i already told myself lotsa times ever since dec 2004... i muz give up n get on with my life... i muz not hold on to it... n i muz be 狠心。

actually, i noe very well of how xian felt.. abt difficult to let go... coz one moment.. u decided to let go n 4get abt everything.. the next moment, he did sth.. u 心软 again... n u dun bear to let go... haiz... i cried the whole night again... i promised i wun shed a tear for him anymore... ever since dunno when.. but then... i failed once again... so i thinking wat right i have to say xian!?

i guessed he knew wat he said hurt me.. he smsed me.. but i off hp.. it's only this morning then i get to c the msg... this is oso the reason y it's so hard to let go.. i rather he hurt me.. deeply once n for all.. n dun ever turn back.. let me hate him.. then it's easier ba...

I'm losing confidence in relationship, in guys.. my failed realtionship.. with THAT 2... n xian's example... i'm wondering.. wat nice thing can happen in a realtionship.. i was juz telling my mom.. i'm starting to hate guys.. so dun expect me to be attached not to say marriage... guys nowadays... (or shld i say guys ard me) 不是普通的难搞.... dun even noe wat we muz do then they satisfy.... i'm very sian... sian in everything... disappointed in a lot of things...