Dreamystace's Life

Dreamystace's Life
The ppl who make my life complete!

Friday, November 26, 2010

I started to wonder again... shld i cont'd studying? yes, studying has been always my dream. nw i'm in it, and is enjoying every moment (of coz i still complain on the amt of report and work done).
my super seniors have graduated, n currently are looking for jobs.. either they cant find or the pay is as low as my last drawn pay.

Reality strikes me.. y did i put myself into this 'meeting datelines' misery for 2 yrs when ended up i cant have a big jump in my salary?
my frens told me i shld juz cont'd, at least i got exp... but still... TYX says we r constantly in quarter life crisis... i guess so.. wahahhaaa...

btw, i'm still having class nw.... :p

Sunday, November 14, 2010

After watching the repeat telecast of Singapore Hits Award 2010, made me wonder, did I follow closely on SHA for all 16 years? hahahaha... i dun remember, but i'm sure for the past 16 yrs, i NEVER once without an idol. Looking back, i didnt noe y i even labelled some as idols... juz pure 'kiddish'? I shall list out my past idols....
From the day i noe that there is M-Pop, which i think 10 yrs old? YEP, TYL started looking at shuai ges THAT young.

I dun remember when, but 小虎队 and LA boyz songs were always in my THEN ULTIMATE LUXURY walkman. At that time CD was a damn high class stuff, so i only got cassette tape. The walkman was a gift i got passed down to me from my dad. If i still have it nw, it is ANTIQUE!

At 11-12 yr old, due to the influenced of my classmates, i started collecting stuff of my THEN idol - Leon Lai. Dun ask me y i liked him tt time. till nw i still wondered Y. mayb it was coz i felt tt he looked like my THEN fave cousin, and my classmates were wooing and ahhhing over some idol, i cannot lose out, so i mentioned Leon, and well, juz like tt he became my 1st idol. (年少无知) I even asked my dad to get his CD for me. I still remember, i had that 今夜你会不会来album.

That was the period of time when the 四大天王(Jacky Cheung, Aaron Kwok, Andy Lau and Leon Lai) and 四小天王 (Jimmy Lin, Nicky Wu, Takeshi Kaneshiro, Alec Su) were so popular. everyone juz go crazy with wither on of them or all of them.
Actually, i liked Andy Lau, but coz at that pt of time, leon, being my so-called idol, was always being compared with andy, and plus my bro like andy lau, i always 'reject' any news and pics of andy lau, to show my 'loyalty' to my 'idol'. (that was juz plain toopid)

During my Sec sch to JC days, I could remember who was i crazy with. But one for sure is Jeff Chang. His songs touched me even up till now. He is one of the talented singers i idolised, (TYL dun juz look at pretty faces guys nia, i appreciate talent too.) I got most of the albums he cut at that period of time: 宽容(1995)、梦想(1996)、挚爱(1997)、选哲精选辑(1997)、直觉(1997)、信仰(2000)、从开始到现在(2002)。Yes, this was how i love Jeff. i think he is the only idol i have so many albums de. wahahahaa

2002 - 2003, idol drama was a great hit and slowly all the boy bands were all coming out. 1st, F4 due to Meteor Garden series. They were the start of pretty face boybands in M-pop, and yes, TYL was once crazy over them, to the extend of queuing up for half a day (i got my resources nt to Q for days) for Vanness Wu autograph for his 1st album.

2003 - 2005 yr old, Jay Chou became VERY popular, and i got his VERY 1st album (a gift frm my cousin) and the talented grp, Tension (it's a pity this grp didnt last long). Then comes 5566, Energy! I was crazy over 5566, i would save up and buy the albums and merchandise. I got their 一光年, Boyfriend 挚爱 (2 editions), C'est Si Bon, Mr Fighting OST, 好久不见 and 喝彩。At the same time, TYX was crazy with Energy (with Toro and 牛奶), so u can imagine, how well we noe their songs at THAT time. but coz after Toro then subsequently 牛奶 left, we grew out of them le. As for 5566, the last 2 albums were not as nice as the 1st few, and slowly they spent their time on other areas other than singing, we also stop following.

2005-2009, Fahrenheit (飞轮海) came into the M-pop pic and sad to say, yes this is another pretty face boyband TYL was crazy with. I got pics of them everywhere, even on my office desktop. I was especially in love with Jiro Wang. Coz he reminded me of someone. Once i told that someone i was different frm her (who happen to like Fahrenheit too), as i noe him 1st, and coz of him i liked Fahrenheit - Jiro, but she likes Jiro 1st b4 she met him. Well, that was the past... so nw, the craze died down le.

Proud to say that, apart from the boys, TYL oso spend time looking at girls. SHE when they 1st appear in 2001, TYL oso follow all their news and albums. :)

As for now, i wun be as crazy, but still there are a bunch of ppl i adore, admire, idolised! wahhaa.. i will never say NO to Mayday (dunno when did i start liking them, but once start u cant stop), Show Luo, Rainie Yang, Jeff Chang, SHE, Zhang Yun Jing (She is damn shuai and cute!!!!!), Liang Wen Ying (Coz she is oso LWY? wahaha). and i wld not say no to handsome guys or nice music!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

不知道从几时开始,我已经不再追看偶像剧;浪漫爱情小说也不再吸引我。是怎么了?我长大了?! 哈哈。。。 可能吧。到了这把年纪还有少女浪漫幻想或许太可悲了吧。很多身边的朋友都会很开心,我终于长大了! 哈哈。。。曾经就有朋友阻止我看偶像剧和爱情小说,她说就是因为受到影响,所以渴望梦幻般的爱情,对于爱情的要求特别高,结果怎样都找不到男朋友。几年前的我,也许就是这样吧。现在的我,选择性的远离爱情。

看见周围的朋友都在爱情里受尽了折磨,我为何还自讨苦吃?最近又好多朋友,不管是很亲近的,还是比较不熟的; 不管是男的、还是女的都在爱里受伤。分手的分手、悔婚的悔婚、后悔结婚的后悔结婚、说不爱了就不爱了。。。 不管是爱情长跑5年以上还是在一起一年以上。。。都敌不过变心。说什么天长地久、说什么海枯石烂、说什么永远、说什么一辈子的承诺、说什么至死不渝的爱。。。到头来,说变心就变心、说不爱就不爱、说分手就分手。有没有想过另一方的感受?请到深处时,对方伤风,你就会觉得呼吸困难;要分手时,对方在你面前的伤痛,你们却感受不到。爱情就那么脆弱吗?

我不知道自己有没有曾经深爱过;不过我很肯定我有很受伤过。。这种痛真的笔墨难形容。那种心就好像被揪在一起的痛、坐着都好像会窒息而死、走路像行尸走肉般、整个世界好像都塌了下来。我想这种痛,谁都不愿受到第二次。偏偏我让我自己第二次受到伤害。。。 真是可悲。。好累。。 看到周围的人,加上自己所受的伤。。。我真的不想再接近这所谓甜蜜、让人便美的爱情。如果变美丽的代价就是要面对着种种伤害,我宁可丑一辈子。至少我会很开心自在。不会为了另一个人有没有想你、是不是也一样爱着你、有没有背叛你、有没有照顾自己而烦恼!

有一本小说里,男主角说道∶“男人说爱你,当下真的是爱你的。” 就是这一秒说爱你,真的是爱你的。只不过,下一秒也许就变心了。人生还真的变化无常啊!

人最厉害的就是帮自己找借口。再牵强的理由都能说出了来。只要感情淡了、不爱了、想分手了。。。什么理由都有。

看了这么多,那些梦幻似的爱情、那些浪漫、感人的爱情对我来说就是戏剧。再也不是现实、我更不可能渴望的到。我不相信爱、更不对爱没信心。。男人,我照看;我照玩;但我绝对不可能再爱、更不可能放下心防再去爱。也许某天,有人能让我对爱情的看法改变,或是能让我有信心。但绝对不是现在!近期内,不可能会有我的喜讯吧。:)

Monday, November 08, 2010

Results for my 1st paper is out. It is a B+! haha.. i'm satisfied with this result. Coz i didnt aim high. Juz a middle range pass would be enough...

2nd paper juz finished, and now i'm preparing for a test on tues. But it seems sooo unproductive. i juz cant get the facts into my head... haiz.. no matter wat, i muz force myself to do it.

Last thurs, went KTV with my classmates after exam. I knew some of the guys can sing... but i didnt noe most of them CAN REALLY SING! OMG! i enjoyed every moment even when i'm not singing. jus sitting down and listen to them sing is a pleasure.

normally, most guys i noe, either dunno hw to sing or dun dare to sing. simon and darren aside... they are my ktv kakis... hehee but they are juz sooooooo superb.... haha i told eric i gonna bring him to ktv pub to show off le... wahahaha...

well, though i didnt get to be the same class as wy... i'm still happy! coz i LOVE my class! they are constantly amazing my with new things... wahahaha...

ok back to notes.. SIANESS!