00:00 31st Aug 2009, Msia National day..
at this pt of time, there were fireworks opp my blk.. yes... a whole stretch of fire works... but either due to the economic downturn or due to the fasting mth for Muslims... it wasnt as 'crowded' as past years... 'crowded' means the a lot of fireworks...

anyway, life have been quite bz with my daily routine... Work, then tuition then sleep then work again, then tuition then sleep then work again.... goes on and on and on till fri... the only difference is tt i have taking cabs home after tuition... hahaa.. sianz.. my $$ have gone to cabby's rental fees... anyway, y did i take cabs nw?

1. I'm damn tired... lazy a) to walk to interchange and b) to take bus to interchange then change to my bus again

2. last time, on my way back... i can chat on phone or gossip/bitch till i reached home... but nw... my phone kakis either sleep early, or too bz with sch work or out for fun... so dun wanna disturb them... the only phone kaki tt can chat with me till wee hrs, had disappear completely frm my life...

3. shorten the time of being alone, can shorten the time for my mind to run wild.. then i can throw myself at my lappy then play till i dozed off... meaning i can spare my mind frm thinking of those 有的没的...

on thurs and fri, i went to attend a ISO 22000 internal auditor course... n got noe to a few different ppl... i was being arranged to be sitted in between 2 BIG guys... i mean big hor.. like lcm like tt (minus tt big round tummy.. oops... sorry... i mean.. aiyah.. u all imagine lah... ) they are chefs.. but nw come out n open a factory on their own.. supplying fresh veges/salad to food chains like subway.. n when they told me tt.. i stared.. they dun look like vege guys.. they looked like buchter.. ahaha.. ok.. cannot be so bad.. they are nice friendly giants... hehe.. to my surprise.. they were actually looking at buying our this sold factory.. but they told me the price was too high.. so end up didnt buy... then their consultant is same as mine.. small world rite? hahahaa

then noe another guy, a young boy frm msia (i only noe tt he is younger than me after 2nd day), he is a manger in subway chain... he is someone full of ideas and ambition... guess wat.. he paid for himself to go for this course (his coy nt sponsoring him... the course fees cost over $700 even after rebate frm govt for coy who send employees for courses)... he told me.. he shld upgrade himself... learn more things... so even gotta pay for himself.. he oso dun mind... he oso cant find job after grad (yep, he juz grad frm local uni), then working temp as manager in one of the subway chain.. aiming to go into his field of study, or HQ of subway to become auditior... amazing sia.... he is 3 yrs younger than me lor..

then a girl frm Mymmar who is comfortable speaking in Mandarin and her own language.. but understands english... she studied law in Mymmar but work as admin and qc in SG SME... yet she dun mind.. she say lawyer is a very stressful job...

then an uncle, who is expert in almost all the certifications... he is my idol sia... he like soooo familiar with audits... can tackle auditors easliy and noe a lot of procedures at the back of his hand... (we have role play and workshops)..

Now i slowly like to go for courses alone le... coz i get to know sooo many different kinds of ppl... and different ways of thinking... interesting lor...

ok... upcoming week will be a SUPER DUPER BZ week for me.. coz y? XIN JIE's wedding and my coy 7th mth praying session is on the same day.. FRI!!! so need to help in preparations at office (for 7th mth) and at home (for xin jie wedding)... *excited* hehheheee oh ya.. n oso need to pack my stuff liao.. gonna shift!!!!

刚看完一本小说，小说的某一篇就这么说道：

"如果能说忘就能忘；能放就放，那么，你其实还没真正爱过。真爱过一个人，不是说放就放得了、说忘就忘得掉。
记忆只能逐渐淡忘，不能完全抹灭"

我在想我一直叫我周围的朋友不能 ‘刻意忘记’，因为这样会更难忘记。真的是，说得容易、做得难。我发现，我自己其实也陷入了那 ‘刻意忘记’ 的阶段。

因为当你经过你们曾走过的路、做着你们曾做过的事、听着你们曾拥有过的歌；都会让你不经意的回想起当时快乐的时光、 曾说过的话。然后眼泪就会不知觉的填满眼眶。纵使你身边有很多很多的人在帮你制造很多很多别的记忆，都无法替代那一段回忆。
就是因为如此，不想再让自己那么狼狈、不想再让自己看起来那么窝囊、更不想让自己这么痛苦，所以选择 ‘刻意忘记’。

三、四年前，曾经有过这段痛苦阶段； 如今又回到这里。可笑的是，竟然是为了同个人！明知道会有这样的结果，还是放纵自己。能怪谁？怪只能怪自己不够意志力。他变得更温柔、更体贴、更细心，那又怎样？！只要意志力强，这些都不会让我动摇的。不过，我没有，所以动摇了，然后再次掉入深渊，结果又到了现在这里。

我很想、很想只当他一辈子的好朋友。在他需要人的时候陪伴他、在他无助的时候支持他、听他诉苦、陪他笑、看他认真做着一件事还是听他说着那些无厘头的歪道理。不过我做不到；我根本就没有自己想象中的那么伟大。我们之间已没有‘纯友谊’了。

"所谓‘纯友谊’，是当男女双方都没有人在潜意识之下跃过名为‘友谊’的界线；若有人不小心越界，那‘纯友谊’ 就不可能存在了。"（这也是从我刚读的小说里的一句话）

上一次，是他选择逃避，所以消失。这一次，是我选择放弃还是他选择离开？我也不知道，但也是不重要了。因为事实就是：他再也不会回来了。我们再也回不到过去了。

也许，这一次我需要一段很长很长的时间。不过，不管是一个月、一年、十年还是一辈子，我相信这段记忆会慢慢被我淡忘掉的。我只想请周围的朋友不要一直逼我一定要马上忘记、也不要一直说他到底值不值得。因为这样不帮会帮我淡忘他，反而会让我更想他。

可能，我会突然间静静的望着前方，不发一声；这是因为我在哀悼我一段栽下种子却发不了芽的爱情和一段我亲手杀死的友情。。。。。。。。

Random stuff of my life....

Was too sianz to work... so took a photo of my desk....

My tortoise family, an elephant with shoes frm Holland, and a kangaroo frm DPex... of coz... nt to 4get my doraemon pencil holder and my new addition, doraemon's correction tape... with my comp desktop wallpaper - Saiyuki (anime)... hahahaha


Above the desk, where my deskjet is... stood a Dpex bear and a little bear in cage (Courtsey frm Kelvis, he say tt bear 浸猪笼

Went to see Cheryl @ TTSH, then had dinner @ Curry Flavor in Novena Sq. It was abt 2045, and the last order for the ala carte buffet was 2130.. guess wat, Yan Ting, Yan Ling and Shwu Yann actually ordered the ala carte buffet.. and we ordered like we 10days never eat... SY was soooo shocked tt we can eat so much.. she say she will have nightmare lor... Her shi liang is damn small lor.. hahaa.. so end up is me n yt.. hahhahaa...

A table full of food!!


A happy YT with all the food... in the end we didnt finish.. NOT tt we cant finish wo.. is tt they wanna close liao.. so we have to go..hahahahaa

As our yt is on her new proj.. she got a new pattern on her hand....

Can notice the different color tones?? this is the result of her new proj.. hahahaha

Then today, Ivan had craving for Mac, we meet up with Xinjie then go King Albert Park for Mac.. dun ask y we go so far.. CWP oso got... this is us lor... ahahhaa.. Upon hearing the gd news frm lyn.. we went down to her hse after dinner.... and of coz.. did not miss the chance of playing with little sherlina....

Upon seeing this, it just make ur day! hahahaa...


Personally, i like this... soooo like Baby of the Month, tt type of pic...


The star... hehe

Lyn, mommy say since this time round is so different frm your 1st(as in the vomitting part)... this might be a boy wo... hahahhaa... :p let us noe when the time come... see we guess correctly mah... :p